I don't know where to start. I realize I only blog once in a blue moon. But it's okay since no one reads my blog anyway. Work for BaoBei at expo during Last year's Christmas right until end of the year. Went to watch fireworks with WeiDa and Lily. The fireworks were very beautiful! But too bad I do not have any camera device to capture it.
Bought some clothes on my own for Chinese New Year. Manage to finally found the shoes that I have been eyeing for a long time at Expo. As for clothes, Lilian help me choose some cheap clothes but then I still think I need new clothes. Will be going to Thailand on 19 - 22 March. Leave was semi-approve but I am afraid that it will change the last minute. Recently Nazmi been quarrelling with me about my leave and my way of doing things. Seriously sometimes I don't know what he is angry about? I am marely asking something. He keep saying things like,"You think you are manager?"
It's the start of a brand New Year but strangely, I don't look forward to life like others do anymore. Cos I feel humans are just a cycle of life:
You were born into this world -> Learn to crawl -> learn to walk -> learn to run -> learn to speak -> learn things in school -> Get a job -> Find a mate/partner -> Get married(if you are lucky) -> Give birth to Children and the cycle goes on. To me, this is very boring. Nothing much to look forward in life anymore. To me, life has no purpose. I have no talents to talk about, I don't know what is my passion, unlike some people who live for the sake of passion on something. So, in short to say, I don't know what am I living for anymore. Facing never-ending same problems everyday and every year. I really wish to end it all.
You were born into this world -> Learn to crawl -> learn to walk -> learn to run -> learn to speak -> learn things in school -> Get a job -> Find a mate/partner -> Get married(if you are lucky) -> Give birth to Children and the cycle goes on. To me, this is very boring. Nothing much to look forward in life anymore. To me, life has no purpose. I have no talents to talk about, I don't know what is my passion, unlike some people who live for the sake of passion on something. So, in short to say, I don't know what am I living for anymore. Facing never-ending same problems everyday and every year. I really wish to end it all.
BaoBei doesn't seems to understand me like I thought he did. All I ask are simple caring ways. An SMS per day, a phone call every night. Is that too much? But nowadays he DID improve. At least he does FB me or MSN me when he is online and will try to call me every now and then. If not I am going crazy and will most probably end the relationship as fast as a speeding car. There are actually more things I wish I could ask from him but...the basics are just enough to content me for now.
I will end here now. Most likely from now all my entries will be very bleak. So..if you don't like it, can stop reading it from now on. Wishing you an advance Happy Chinese New Year 2010!
