Ever since changed new supervisor, things has been quite okay. Less stress and lesser burdens. My tolerance has finally paid off! Hopefully things can continue to go smoothly.
I don't know what is wrong with my legs recently. It seems that they no longer can support me anymore. There was once I fell from my workplace staircase because my left leg suddenly went weak. All the customers there look at me stunned. I cannot sit for too long cos one thing will happen, when I stand up(esp after sitting down for a long time), my feet will hurt a lot. Every step I take are very painful to me. The kinda pain I don't know how to describe. I am afraid one day I might have to sit on wheel chair permanently. Cos my legs are really very weak to the point that I cannot sit down for too long. If not when I try to walk, I will feel a kinda pain rush through the legs. I don't know is it the bones problem or the veins problem. It has been like this for a month now.
I am very happy for Esther that she has finally found her love of her life. But I am still worried as the guy used to be my ex-bf's friend. I do not really trust him. I guess I have difficulty trusting anyone at all, ever since some unpleasant things happened.
Ransack through my cupboard and again I saw some things that brings back old memories. Saw "His" mobile no. on one of my old phone book. I suddenly remembered something: He only gave me one of the no. and strangely that particular no. he gave me, his hp is mostly not switch on. The other no. was given to me by Jacelyn. But...it has all become memories now. He has now married to a Cheena girl and live very happy with his own family. While I seems to have only memories of him when he was 15 yrs old. I don't like the "him" when he grew up. Probably one of the reason is because we have been apart for like...3 yrs? Before he came back to look for me. I feel that he has changed. To another person whom I do not know and could no longer catch up with him. *Sigh* He belongs to the upper-class. I am the lower-class. So by right, we don't even match. Much less to be together. But I treasured the memories he left for me. At least he did show me how is true love like. Which I couldn't find the same pure love later on in life.
Delivery for these two days are very "siong". Candy asked me about my boyfriend during lunch. I told her how we met, to how we manage to get together in the first place. She said BaoBei was very romantic!(Ya, at first very romantic. Now old husband old wife so no longer romantic!) I told Ping this and she was surprise,"Eh?! Never hear you mention how you met your boyfriend before leh!" -.-" HELLO?! I have told you before lor! Long time ago...er...2 years ago I told you before???
Feeling very down these days. Went drinking yesterday cos of my work. But I didn't drink much. NB! Only 7% and I am tipsy..oh! Ate a Brandy chocolate before that. Almost cannot walk back home -.-" 7% only + Brandy nia!!!
BaoBei changed these few days. He use his nails to poke my arm WHEN HE HEARD THE PAST OF ME AND VINCENT. I don't even know that he dislike Vincent so much, HELLO, we are only GOD SISTER and GOD BROTHER RELATIONSHIP!! BaoBei:" He's not so innocent as you know ok!!" But thinking back, I sometime really did something to hurt him. Not sometimes, is all the times. I'll put all my anger on him, I slap him infront of his relatives when I fell down and I even scream at him when I'm not happy. But all of this, he still love me as usual. ^.^
