SICK AND TIRED OF IT!!!! I GIVE UP!!!!!!

Went for service yesterday and most of the CGMs said that they didn't see me for a long time. I was like,"Huh? Really?" Listened to Pastor preaching about Church growth etc. After that we went to hear Lorraine's announcement and then we were dismiss. I was a bit shock when Daphne hug me! She said,"Hey! Never see you for a long time! How have you been?" and the hug me just like that! Before service, she seems to be in a very foul mood and argue with Li Hong about God-knows-what? Haha! But anyway I was feeling glad.

Talk to Bro and Lorraine. Feeling very pressure talking to them but then Bro lighten the pressure by talking to BaoBei about army stuff first and then he touch the main issue. At least now I know that how hurt Lorraine feels but some times I am really scared to tell her the reason why I am not coming. He then touch about trust issue and other things. Overall, I feel that the fellowship was good. At least, things are trash out and somehow it make me understand Lorraine a little better. She is not the person that I thought her would be(Cos she said once that she was a very "D" leader) but I do not know she also have a pastoral side of her as well. Or maybe I didn't notice.

I am very angry about prayer list!!!! I am starting to hate most of the CGMs!!!! OK FINE!!! SINCE ALL OF YOU ARE SO CO-OPERATIVE WITH YENHAO, THEN FROM NOW ONWARDS YOU ALL GIVE YOUR PRAYER REQUEST AND TIMING TO HIM!!!! DON'T NEED TO GIVE ME ANYMORE! AND I WON'T CHASE PRAYER REQUEST FROM YOU GUYS ANYMORE!!!! I feel like throwing a stack of papers at the members face!!!! I don't know is it the way we SMS? Normally I would send a SMS to members to ask them to send me their prayer request by Wednesday or Thursday 7pm BUT! Only a minority will take the initiative to send it out to me! But when YenHao send it on Thursday, ALMOST ALL the members reply to him!!! WHAT IS THIS!? SHEN MO YI SHI?! WHAT DO THEY TREAT ME AS?! FINE! SINCE YOU ALL ARE SO CO-OPERATIVE WITH YENHAO, FROM NOW ON, DON'T NEED TO GIVE ME YOUR PRAYER REQUEST!!!! GIVE IT TO YENHAO INSTEAD!!!!! I AM REALLY VERY SICK AND TIRED OF IT ANYWAY!!!!!

Didn't talk much with BaoBei on the way home. He said,"Why didn't you tell Lorraine about the prayer list just now?" I told him that Bro is there and since this is our own CG problem, I wish to talk to Lorraine only. HuiYi, if you see this blog, please help me tell the CGMs. I give up!!! I really give up!!! From now on, I won't be doing the prayer list! Anything you want your prayer list to be done, please SMS YenHao by Monday. Thanks!

I will end here for now. I am really disappointed with the CGMs. I don't know whether should I continue to stay on in the CG? Or I will just come to church on my own? No point to stay in a CG where people are NOT Co-Operating! What is a CG anyway? Sorry, I do not know ANYMORE!!!

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