Wednesday, February 18, 2009

Malaysia trip

Went to Johor Bahru for holiday last week with BaoBei and his cousin and cousin's boyfriend(Double date!). Before that I went to money changer to change Singapore dollars to Malaysian Ringgit. That time was $1.39 and Ah Ping said the rate was quite high. I then use S$100 to change and paid $4.50(I wonder why must pay?) then the person gave me RM250. Went shopping at City Square(JB's most popular and well-known shopping centre) and I bought a bag, some make-ups there. BaoBei tried on a pants that I find it quite nice on him but it was RM70+ dollars! If I have more money and have the chance again, I would go Malaysia to shop again.

Went to Taman Lingie?(a shopping centre where I forgot the name) and ate a Malay restaurant there but the food was too oily! The taste also only so-so. Stayed at 小姑's place during the trip. Beat BaoBei up cos I thought he purposely made me fell plus at that time, 小姑 had just mopped the floor and I fell partly because I slipped. I hit BaoBei's chest very hard and later on he said I almost slapped him. He said if I really did, he will beat me up on the spot(or something like that?)

Before returning to Singapore, I had a very huge quarrel with BaoBei. Perhaps it's my fault that I SMS Mattrew the first thing I arrived back in Singapore. The other part is that during the trip I accidentally step on BaoBei's foot. I was wearing high heels so you can imagine the pain BaoBei felt. I delete the SMSes after sending cos I know BaoBei would be very angry. Mattrew is a guy that I had known through Alamak Chat.com. BaoBei was not happy that I got too close to that guy. Had met the guy only once and I find him not so bad in person but he can also be very cheeky in MSN. He did express interest in me initially but after I told him that I had a boyfriend whom I will be married to in a few years time, he seems to back out. But we continue to remain as pure friends. I have no interest in him at all cos I know BaoBei is all that I need(cos I believe He is what God gave me cos God did show me signs. This is for me to know) After some heart-to-heart talk with BaoBei, I realize that BaoBei loves me a lot because of one sentence he said,"When you truly love somebody, you will tolerate the person's everything" Somehow after some time, I felt that BaoBei has lost trust in me cos he ask me this question,"Can I put 100% trust in you that you won't be unfaithful to me?"(or something like that?) I do love BaoBei..but I don't understand why I find myself had roving eye for other guys(and girls too). But I realize something why I am close to Mattrew..He gave me something that BaoBei no longer gives me - Attention. It's something BaoBei no longer does for me. I think it only happens when you just got to know the person and you wanted to know the person better.

My knee cap and my wisdom tooth has been giving me problems these days. Went to see a dentist this evening and she told me that both sides of my wisdom tooth are decayed. That explains why I have sharp pain on my cheeks! She also said I have tar-tar(don't know what is that?) and cavities. She suggest to remove my wisdom tooth as soon as possible and it will be considered a surgery. It will cost me around $800 for both sides to be removed plus scaling and polishing. I do not have that kind of money. No wonder BaoBei refuse to go to the dentist. But I also understand that if I don't go now, sooner or later, I will have to wear dentures like my Dad(WHICH I DO NOT WANT!!!!). Haiz...if only I am free of money problems!

I will end here for now. Will blog again some other time. BaoBei, I love you and I still do. Just that I do not know how to express myself anymore. I am sorry.

Wednesday, February 11, 2009

Text ColorPoem for my BaoBei:

Hand in hand, down this path with you I go,
without regrets and no turning back
At times, we may fought, we may argue
but through the fights, we grow to understand
better


Your shoulders comfort me when
I am sad

Your hugs comfort me at my worst
times

You celebrate my happiness
You listen to my troubles and woes

You're my friend, my companion, my lover
I love you and no other
It's you who stood by me through good times and bad

Sorry for making you angry at times
sorry for not being understanding when I
should

sorry for I do not know how to
express myself well

sorry for hurting you
unknowingly at times

and lastly, sorry for
the tears that you've shed for me


Thank you for being there for me all these while
You could have found someone better
but yet you chose to stay
Thank you for being my friend,
for
those listening ears never fail to listen to my whines

Thank you for your comforting hugs and shoulders when I
need it most

For they comfort me without
saying a word.


May our days ahead
filled with love

May our years ahead
filled with surprises and happiness

Words
can't express how much I appreciate you

deep inside, I love you just as much
I still thank God for giving me YOU
I am still thankful for meeting you in my life.
There's no other that can give me what you could
You're my one and only
宝贝

I LOVE YOU

Tuesday, February 03, 2009

Lost my wallet

Lost my wallet 2 days ago, I didn't even know where exactly did I lost it. Haiz..inside contain important documents like my IC, $30+ worth of E-zlink card and about $100+ worth of cash. Needless to say, BaoBei's and my photots. Very sian. Was moody the whole day and quarrelled with BaoBei. Now I only can pray hard that any kind soul who found my wallet can return it to me. Though I am prepared that the money will be lost.

Gamble a lot for the past few days cos it's New Year. I never thought that 2 days ago was the last time I would ever get to hold my wallet and see it again. I don't even know where I had drop it. I shouldn't have draw out so much money in the first place if I know I might lose it anytime. Had called bank to cancel my cards and they said they will send me a replacement at $20 charge. So sad. I had since made a police report but they said they will not investigate.

Now I can do nothing but to wait and see how it goes. Cos I have no money to replace my IC plus I just renew my IC last year! Sian..I just pray and hope whoever found it can return it back to me.