Agony

I think I am missing someone that I should not be missing...H.E.L.P

I don't like this feeling. I don't know what is wrong. I hope someday it will go away soon.

My brother is going to Brunei for 10 days for his Army training. I am so gonna miss him. I wonder when he will be back? New Year is around the corner and strangely for this year, I am dreading it for the very first time. I wonder why?

At least now I have learn something new:
1) Couples SHOULD NEVER work separately

2) There must be consistent communication

I am an attention seeker and I do need constant attention. I don't know what exactly is lacking but I find myself starting to have wondering eyes. I do not like this. Cos I know if one thing leads to another(WHICH I HOPE NOT!) it will cost me my relationship.

Recently there's another guy who paid slightly more attention to me than he should have. I know he treats me just a friend but...I kept on thinking negative things that I should not have. I hope it will go away soon. This is NOT good....