Mess-up life

Things has somehow gone in a mess. In a way that I didn't expect it to - sort of. I finally get to talk to the guy whom I have been thinking about. At first, it was just encouragement words, talk about work and nothing else. I didn't know how, but we somehow get much more closer than I have thought. Or maybe it's because we have similar activities? Though I don't know whether is it him being an Aries has anything to do with it?

Bought a book about "His needs, her needs" it talks about different needs in women and men in marriages. After reading about half the chapters, I realize that guy and I have been doing what is exactly in the book that lacks in my own relationship - communicating. It can start as a simple encouragement, later on progress to friendship and then before you know it, you start to share your problems with that other person other than your own spouse! Which according to the book, it can be fatal to a relationship.

After reading that book and spending time with that other guy, I come to realized that my own relationship lacks affection - from BaoBei! Which unfortunately, I get it from other source - that guy. That is when things start to mess-up! I think Aries in general are romantic sort of personality. At least base on experience, I can proved that! They may not be the most good-looking guy, they may not be attractive as they would like to be, but something deep inside themselves, makes the opposite gender falls for them.

But then again, on the other hand, I know for sure at the back of my mind, that we don't suit each other and it won't work out. Though somehow he would like his dream girl to be like me of some sort? BaoBei thinks that he did a lot in our relationship. Maybe he did. But just not the kinda expectation I wanted from him. What I wanted is more communication, affection(which he rarely gives) and more recreational activities. Recently he did find an activity that both of us could do together - Prawning. But then in the long run, this activity is very $$ consuming. Not to mention you have to patiently wait for the prawns to bait. It does train up one's patience level somehow.

I will end here for now. Will blog again some other time.