Yesterday I went to service with my cell group members. We then sing alot of Christmas songs and worship together. During the sermon that Pastor Kong gave, I cried. Cos there was something that he said, touch my heart and it was what I was going though in my life! I then raise my hand and a sister then came and pray for me.
After the service, we went to have our dinner. Vincent then went to the gents while I went to buy food from Burger King. I forgot to use my coupons! Argh! Then I went to the 2nd level with Jing Xian leading me cos I do not know how to go. When I reach there, I ate with the rest. After dinner, we then played games and it was quite fun. I was forfeit once but I still have to go out to dance..sian..then Vincent video captured my dance moves...so malu! After then we then left and Vincent and I went to meet our friends at Orchard.
When we meet, I then went to a sports shop to see if I could find the type of shoes that I wanted. But sadly, I couldn't find the type that I really want at the shop..or maybe there is no such type of shoe that I am looking for. It's okay. I then went to rejoin my friends and we head to Bugis street to eat desserts. After eating, we then went to Espanade and chat. We then chat about girl's talk while Vincent and Silvia's bf talk about soccer. Jia Xing then ask me is it true that when I take the slimming product, after I manage to slim down, my "assets" will become smaller too? I told her sadly, Yes. Silvia was then very shock and said,"Huh? Really? Then u still take?"I replied that I have no choice cos I wanted to slim down. We then talk craps for awhile before we board the NR home.
Initally I wanted to go back with Esther and Sheryln but Vincent ask me to stay to accompany Jia Xing. After confirming that there will be a last NR bus ride home, we then stay with Jia Xing to wait until her bus came and she board it. I then board the last NR with Vincent. Along the way, I was staring outside the window and Vincent ask me what's on my mind and I replied,"Nothing". Vincent then shared with me a bit of his problems and I listened to him. Oh! And 1 thing I must clearify, if at any moment when you all tell me your problems and I seems distracted for a few seconds, please don't think that I don't have the heart to listen or what ok? I am not like that. It is just that I am used to doing two things at a time. So..sorry about it if I upset anyone that think that I am not listening to them..I am LISTENING okay? This I can promise you.
When I reach home, I message Vincent to SMS me when he reach home. I then went to sleep for a few hours before going to work. When I was at work, my eyes keep wanting to shut and I keep getting giddy. Esther then tried to talk at work but I keep on disturbing her and stop her from talking cos she have sore throat. Ya Cin then blame me jokingly that it must be my fault again that Esther is sick. I then gave Esther the sore thoat medicine that I have bought. I then told Ya Cin that Esther knows abit of sign language when I communciate with her though sign language yesterday. She said,"You know sign language meh?" I said,"Ya but only a tinnie winnie bit" She ask how come I know sign language and I explained to her that when I was a child, I have a mute friend whom I met at a playground near my old house.
At that time, I don't know she was a mute and she keep sighing all the time. Then she found a stick on the ground and she use it to write on the sand that she can't speak but she can hear what I am saying. I then apologise to her and ask if she want to play catch with me? We then played happily and we keep in contact for 4 years before I really lost contact with her. The last time I know, her grandmother's house is at Queenstown, Blk 173, 3rd or 4th level. But I do not know has she move away since then? I miss her very much. Because of her, I tried to learn sign language from her friends when I was in Primary 5. So far, they only teach me a few basic sign language which I could remember till today like,"Hi, how are you?", "I'm fine, thank you", "Good afternooon", "Good Night", "working", "see you", "I love you", "cry" and "goodbye". I have not enrolled into a sign language class. Which I am planning to if I have the time and money. I am still trying to learn how to sign,"I miss you" but no one could teach me. If I learnt how to sign,"I miss you", maybe when I finally get to see her on the streets again, I could sign that to her and hopefully she have not forgotten me. Vincent once consoled me by saying that God will definitely let me meet her again. But I think I almost forgotten how she look like..her face is getting blurer and blurer each time I tried to remember her. I only remembered her face when she was younger. Now I think she should be 17 or 18. How time flies.
My friend, if you happened to read this and your grandmother's house used to be in Queenstown Stirling Rd Blk 173, 3rd/4th level, please give me a reply. I really miss you very mcuh. I am sorry that I have lost your number years ago. I really wish to see you again.
There are times I cried because of this. Cos I missed her too much. Maybe the people around me will never understand how come I can miss a mute friend so badly? I do not know how to explain. Maybe because I could learn new sign from her everyday and that makes me happy that I feel that I can so-called draw closer to her and understand her better. Whenever I see people signing to each other, my thoughts will immediately drift to the mute friend that I have lost contact with and it pierced my heart each time I saw those people signing. I will wonder everytime,"When can I see her again" and then sometimes tears will flow from my eyes when I think too much of it.
I guess I shall end here for now....I know today's blog is very boring..sorry cos I don't know what to write...Will blog again soon.
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