Shut up!!!!

Today at work, After Peter had analyze something to me, I apologise to Ya Cin but she doesn't seems to accept my apologies. Okay fine. I just leave things as it is.

After work, I then went to talk to my friend who works at the ice-cream shop. She pour out her problems with her boyfriend to me. She is the kinda person that can talk to you for non-stop about anything. I guess she just need a listening ear and I am there for her. After I heard the problems she has gone though with her boyfriend, she then ask me,"Eh, when are you gonna get married? At what age you think you wanna marry?"I look at her and said,"Kaka(Big sister in Malay), if you ask me this question 10 years ago, I would have replied you 24. But if you ask me now, I tell you, I am not gonna get married!"She was surprise by my answer and ask me why. I then told her marriages scares me to the core now. She then said,"Then don't tell me you are going to be single for the rest of your life?"I told her,"Ya. Cos nowadays, I don't trust guys anymore. I've been hurt too deep and too much. I've seen the best and worst marriages/relationships in my life and I had decided enough is enough. I cannot withstand anymore hurts in my life anymore". She then give me a surprise look and said,"You may think this way now. But I tell you, you'll think differently once you hit 30 years old". I then look at her and thought to myself,"What do you mean by that?!"

After that she shared with me about her life and I was totally shock about what she had gone though! I do not know that behind her happy-go-lucky face, lies something that I find it hard to believe. Now standing in front of me is a girl who faces more harshes of life than me but yet she could still be so strong! I felt very sorry of how her current boyfriend has treated her and I advise her to leave her boyfriend but she said something,"I Love him too much to let him go". I guess, when a girl really falls in love with a guy, he is everything to her and sometimes, we were so blinded by love that we lost our sense of logic. I understand her feeling. Really. I know why she doesn't wanna leave him. She then said to me,"I see 1st lah...if one day, I really can pretend that everything is okay, if I can really take nothing has ever happen and leave him, then I'll leave lah. But till then, I am still in love with him". I then sigh at her and wish her the best of luck. She told me that if one day, she really save enough money, she'll mirgrate but right now she don't know which country she wanna mirgrate to.

After that I bid her goodbye and thinking alot of things on my way home. I then remembered after reading a verse in the Bible, I have the feeling that the end of the world is very near. It's in Matt 24:7 and Matt 24:38-39. But the verse in Matt 24:38-39 reminds me of the Tsunami. Cos it said,"(V.38 NIV)For in the days before the flood, people were eating and drinking, marrying and giving in marriage, up to the day Noah entered the ark;(V.39) and they knew nothing about what happen until the flood came and took them all away. That is how it will be at the coming of the Son of Man." Read verse 39 and you will know why I said it reminds me of the Tsunami. If what happens for the Tsunami is really God's will, cos it is stated in the Bible, then I have a feeling God will be coming down to earth to judge the living and the Dead soon. But I just don't know when.

Adrian then log in online to chat with me things that really annoy me. I really don't know how to tell him off. I just treat him as a friend but I really don't know why he don't seems to get what I mean?! Father! Tell me what should I do to let him to get my message across CLEARLY?! Because of him, I've been in great stress. But too bad, I don't have a punch bag at home for me to vent my anger on. *Len jing...chai quai!*

I think I shall end here for now....will blog again next time!