Went for Sherlyn's birthday yesterday although I was down with fever. Bathe in cold water to get rid of the "heat". Couldn't watch the service online cos the connection for the Internet was down..sian! Super sway! When I was feeling slightly better, I then went for my Da Lao Po's birthday.
Saw Ling-Zi, Angel, Lynn, Esther and Jia Xin. Pass a book to Lynn to ask her to do me a favour. Jia Xin was very mad from the point that I arrived. She said she's going to break up with her boyfriend soon. Haiz...Couples tend to take each other for granted some times. When Da Lao Po arrived, I was surprised! She had cut her hair short! She ask me am I okay as I was sick in the morning. The fever has gone down a little I guess? They then went to Swanson's for dinner but I only order a $5+ drink cos I don't have enough money to eat. Anyway, the food there is very expensive. Da Lao Po then share her food with me *So pai seh* Ate Jia Xin's food in the end cos she can't finish it and give the left-overs to me. Take photos and cut the cake to eat it. Very nice but we missed the fireworks that day.
Went over to Esplanade to meet Sylvia and I saw Nicholas there! Three times le!!! First time was when I was with HuiYi and BaoBei. I even held BaoBei's hand infront of W117 and all of them were somehow shock to see us together. They all ask the same question,"Oei YenHao, you got Juliet pregnant?" and MingYing ask,"Are your married?" and YueMing ask,"When are your going to have wedding dinner?" The first and second question makes me very embarrass. I say this once again and the final time,"NO, I AM NOT PREGNANT!" But then again, If I got pregnant now, I think Lorraine, HuiYi and Bro.Khai will definitely "kill" me. The second time was at Bugis when my friends and I are window shopping and bump into them. The third time is yesterday's night. Too much of a coincidence!
Chat with BaoBei over the MSN the other day and I suggest not to see each other for 2 weeks to a month. BaoBei ask me why and I just told him that I need some time to think through some things. He then called me on my handphone and ask me to tell him what has happened? There are some things I just don't quite like it and I feared some things of my past will repeat it again. I just told him to give me some space alone and don't SMS me or call me for this period of time. He felt very upset and ask me not to leave him. I am not leaving him! I didn't even said the two words!(BaoBei will know what is the two words). I just don't know how to communicate to him that it's not really that serious and it's not as negative as he thought. I just need some time alone to think through our relationship and certain things. I am very stress on both sides. Both my family side and his side. I am a person who can't handle stress at all. There are some times I wish that I could leave everything here(My Family, My friends and BaoBei)to go to somewhere where I can be totally alone to leave my mind blank. I am really tired of certain things that is happening. Of course my situation is not as bad as HuiYi's. There is no way to solve the problems at hand...except if I could really finally move out to live on my own. But then I don't have any financial support.
Started work on the first day as a packer and so far so good. Except that the colleagues there were not as friendly as Ghim Moh. Lunch break is only 30 minutes so I had no choice but to finish my food within 5 minutes. The rest of the 25 minutes are spend going to the washroom(10 minutes), another 10 minutes to walk around and left 5 minutes to slack at back room. The day ended early cos the company is having annual company dinner and all the permanent staff have to attend it. The company is very strict on punctuality that if a staff was late for even 1 minute, he or she will be sent back and will not work on that day..plus no pay.
Have to end it here for now. Do you think I have made a wrong choice or am I saying the wrong words to BaoBei? I love him but sometimes, some things are just too much for me to handle...
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