Surprise + expected outcome = depress

Went for CGM on Friday and accompanied HuiYi to Clarke Quay shopping centre. As I was late for meeting her, I took a cab there instead and she said that I waste money on unnecessary cab fare. We then saw a shop and she saw a ear phone necklace and recommend me to buy for BaoBei. I bought it in the end and went for CGM.

After CGM, BaoBei then SMS me while I was in the ladies' with some of my CGMs. When I came out, I was surprise to see him and gave him a hug. We then went in and wrote something on a paper while Lorraine said will be displayed at the Museum of Israel for many many years. So we must not made any mistake while writing it.

The next day, I accompanied BaoBei to Yishun Safra for his air rifle shooting game. Although he didn't qualified into the finals but I know that he has tried his best. Anita, Yue Ming and Bro Eugene was there too. Bro Eugene and Anita were both qualified into the finals. I then congratulate them.

Went to expo to have our lunch before going for service. BaoBei then ask me a very strange question and I thought about it for a while before answering him. He ask me,"If there's another girl who wants to fight with you over me, what will you do?" I just replied,"I will give you up to the girl. I won't fight with her" He ask me,"Then what if I only love you?" I just replied,"I'll confront the girl and have a talk with her". But in reality I doubt I would do that. The question that BaoBei asked, has actually happened to me before but on an ex-boyfriend of mine. In the end, I answer BaoBei,"Do you know why I would rather give you up than to fight with her over you? Cos I know myself very well, usually I will lose to the other party in terms of looks and character. Plus, guys won't ever go after a girl like me". I even ask BaoBei a question and his answer really surprise me. I ask this,"If you were to have a choice to choose between a girl who is very fierce, rough and very controlling over you, and a girl who is very sweet, feminine and gentle towards you, which one would you choose?" For majority of the guys out there, their answer is obviously number 2. BaoBei just replied me,"You should know my answer".

The service was awesome and after that we celebrated AiZhen and Jac's birthday. Saw Bro.Tony with his cute little daughter! After that we fellowship with a few of the CGMs before we rush off to help out BaoBei's Mum. The next day, we then went to have breakfast. BaoBei went out to play Basketball with his friends.

After Breakfast and when I was left alone with his eldest cousin, she then told me something which made me quite depress but I just keep quiet. She then comment that I was being too quiet throughout the day. But I do not wish to talk to anyone. I just want some time alone.

I think I will end here for now. May blog again some other time.

Broken Relationships

Quarrelled with my Mum yesterday night over the TV. She ask me how to program the TV but I admit that I was wrong that the tone of my voice wasn't very nice in replying her. Okay, it's my fault, I admit. But I really really really doesn't understand why, it just starts with the TV and my tone of voice!!! Why does she have to drag past incidents PLUS BAOBEI'S INCIDENT and quarrel with me?! Totally irrelevant to the issue at hand!!! I cannot help her because I myself don't know how to program my own new TV, which I hardly watch!!! Then?! My fault lah?! Since I hardly use the TV and Pa teach me just ONE TIME, she expects me to remember how to use the new TV remote control?! Okay, Sorry! I was really really in the wrong for using that impatient kinda tone to talk to her! But then, instead of sticking it to the topic to quarrel with me, she picks past(AND I MEAN PAST AS IN 3 - 5 YEARS AGO!!!)incidents to quarrel with me and she add BaoBei into the quarrel!!! I was like,"Wah piang eh!!! WTH is happening?!" She then threatened to have me out of the house and throw my Birth cert to me to ask me to get out. While my Bro is trying to solve the problem to help my Mum and me to have peace, I was actually thinking where to go and sleep for the night? But then, I will definitely NOT look for my friends first. I was thinking of sleeping at the stair case of my Block but then I scared that I will see...that guy! Only God knows what he will do if he sees me outside alone at 2am in the morning!

My Bro then talk to me calmly and later he ask me to go apologise to my Mum. I apologise in the end but then things will change from now. She doesn't understand why I don't ever go home on weekends and then blame it on BaoBei and said a lot of negative things which only BaoBei's Mum and Brother will know whether is it true? After everything that my Mum had said, I seriously think that I shouldn't have born into this world at all. How good would it be, if I wasn't exist at all in this world. Yes Lorraine, I know God Loves me and I am a child of God. But sometimes I feel that even though it's just a simple expectation, I couldn't even fulfil it. The marriage course proves to fail on me cos I am still an emotionally shut-down person(or maybe that's how I feel).

Went shopping alone and spend unnecessary money again on bathroom items. I had this fetish for showering Gel and items but I don't understand myself why(Those daily normal showering form). To tell you the truth, I already have 6 bottles of un-used showering Gels at home. Spend $10+ on Watson's small bottle of showering form and lotion($1.95 each...bought 5 bottles), of course plus other items like toothbrush(I need it cos my toothbrush is getting dirty at the ends) and buy a snack. Total amount is then $10+. I had told HuiYi about my fetish and when she step into Watsons to window shop, I saw some bottles of showering form and try to resist to buy it. Am I sick?(As in "Bian Tai" in Chinese or abnormal in English). On normal days or when I am in a rush, I will spend 15 minutes in the bathroom(while my Bro spends an hour..and i don't know what he is doing showering for 1 hour!) if I were to "play" inside the bathroom, it will then be either 30 minutes - 45 minutes(Play soap bubbles, Showering Gels, shampoos etc. Basically playing with Bubbles that I've "made" lah)I just find the bubbles and form interesting and fun that's all. So....BaoBei, if you feel that I spend too long in the bathroom(longer than 30 minutes), you can be sure that I am not bathing inside, but playing.

I have to end here for now. Going to SL to meet my "friends". Will blog again some other time.

Expectations

Went to meet HuiYi after my work to help her to get something. She told me that it's been a long time since she last went shopping spee. We then went to River walk and put our bags down. Met MingWei along the road and he followed HuiYi and me to Clarke Quay Shopping Centre. The last time I went there, I remember seeing a necklace that I was thinking of buying for BaoBei. This time when I went back there, the necklace was gone! The sales assistants said they sold two of the necklace that I wanted to show HuiYi about. I then enquire about a particular necklace that I was looking for a very long time. They then said they have the stock but it has not arrive yet! The price is much much cheaper than Orchard! I then leave my contact number and the sales assistant said she will contact me if the necklace arrives! Yeh!!! Finally found it!!! YES!!!

Went back to River Walk and I went to the ladies before going into the lecture room. When I went in, Lorraine was sort-of "Staring" at me and HuiYi whisper for me to go out. Oops! Sorry...I didn't know a meeting was going on. My apologies. I then went out and saw AiZhen with Mike and Shao Kun. She then pass me a card to ask me to write. When I saw the card cover, I was very surprise! It was very nicely done. I then pass to Bro to ask him to help me to write and then the card was passed around - to write encouraging words. I was the last person to write. By the time it was my turn to write, it almost didn't have anymore space left. Ai Zhen then tease me,"BaoBei!" Cos that's the way I greet YenHao. I am not a person who express myself well be it in words or actions. I just write what I was thinking at the moment with some Chinese words.

Lorraine then start CG but the atmosphere was a bit weird cos it was Chee Yuan first time playing for the CG~Wooooo!!!*Claps* Overall it was okay. Lorraine's preaching for the day somehow made me feel a little guilty. She later prayed for me. After CGM, Lorraine then made herself clear that she will no longer be booking seats from now on. Anyone who is late will have to sit by themselves. She feels that she pampered us too much. She then share the experience whereby she have to argue with the Ushers just to help the CG to get good seats and she said something like nobody seems to appreciates her effort. I was there when she did that and I witness it myself along with some CGMs. I was thinking, maybe it's not that the CG doesn't appreciates her effort but maybe it could be that they do not know how to express their appreciation. She then said if we do not have any valid reason not to turn up for Sunday PM, we better turn up. I was thinking,"I thought this was a choice whereby whether we WANT to turn up?" Cos I remember she ever said that it's useless that we were "force" to go. Or we just go because we HAVE to go. She said we need to have a mentality that says,"I go because I WANT to be there". Please...Lorraine, don't misunderstand me. What I am trying to say is...there are certain things that was said that I don't really understand. That's all. She was also not happy that when she don't take the initiative to have the CGMs meet up on weekdays, nobody meets up. For me, I always had this,"Go where? Do what?" when it comes to outings and I am not usually the person who knows how to plan things. Sometimes, due to budget problems, I don't dare to go to outings. Some more plus nowadays I am trying hard to find night shift job(please don't ask me for what).

Went for supper with the CGMs and later Ming Ze send me home to my block. Went home to play Second Life(SL) and saw my "friends" there. I then told one of them a problem and she ask me to see a doctor if I need to. Ever since my Avatar won the "Thinc Babe of the Month - April", the people in SL just treats me differently. There are many other girls there are prettier than my Avatar but surprisingly, my Avatar won the award. I am now trying to change my Avatar into a very sexy lady but I don't have the skin and body shape to do so.

I think I end here for now. Will blog again some other time.

P.S: Went to see Doctor le....Gastric Pain. Cannot skip meals and must take medicine accordingly. Sianz...Veggie fast? By the way, BaoBei, your suggestion to my supervisor Chef has been considered. He said your idea of suggestion was very good and he will talk to Boss about it.

Suggestion please???

Went to work today as usual but business was not very good at the cafe today. My supervisor has finally teach me how to do Latte and cappuccino, Oooh so that's how it was done! He also explains that all his equipment are very slow so he could only serve one customer at a time or do one thing at a time. I am very surprise that he is Lactose intolerant! At least now I can handle the drinks station now. He wants me to learn because from next week onwards, he wants me to station inside the kitchen while Wendy will station outside.

After work, he then ask me to stay back as he wants to discuss something with Wendy and me. He was asking us to give suggestion on how to improve the cafe and business. He also ask me is there anything that I do not like working here and what can it be improve on? Strangely, he never ask Wendy! I then said overall, I like the working place but I do not like the pay. Cos my Mum and I quarrelled very often nowadays over my pay wise(because I do not have any CPF contribution here). I had saw another advertisement working in somewhere as a cashier from 7pm till 1am and I wish to apply but then I know if BaoBei were to find out, we will be arguing very fiercely over it.

None of us had in mind on how to improve the business. Sending out fliers proves to fail. He said that fliers are very common and some people might not even look at the flyer and just throw it in the dustbin. He had considered of extending the opening hours but then he knew very well that his partners would not agree. He wants to open a chill bar until 12 midnight so that those customers who wanted to drink beers and wanted to catch up with friends or have a chat could come to the cafe to do so. He said not everyone likes Discos, Karaoke, Pubs etc and comment that only rowdy people goes to such places(That means he is indirectly saying I am rowdy lah!?). He said some people likes to have a place where they could drink beer and could chat/catch up with their friends without having the music blasting at the same time. He would like to make the cafe to be a place where customers could have their beer and chat with their friends happily. But then again, he has to consult his partners to discuss knowing that they would definitely disapproves. I was thinking to myself,"If he is confident that there will be business at night and customers would definitely come to eat and drink, then it's fine with me" But then again, it requires us to work way into the night. Which means I will definitely have to miss CG if his plan were to be fulfilled. I didn't really pray about my job and pray for my supervisor, but at the same time, I really wish to know what God thinks about this. He also plans to open over the weekends(And then also means I must work weekends lah?!). Seriously, I really cannot see any prospect of me staying long in this line. I like the job, I like the working hours but for pay wise, I really don't like it especially when my Mum is picking quarrels with me over my pay...and then don't know who is the one who don't allow me to work 2 jobs?!(excluding BaoBei)

I really hope people could help me...and my Boss. I would really like to hear suggestions from people how to improve the business. Maybe hopefully I could get advise or feed backs from those people who runs F&B line. Okay lah..I know I am being lame cos you will think,"It's none of my business mah!" But becuase I couldn't think of any idea of how to improve the cafe's business and how to advertise for him that is why I am seeking for public help. I'll value your comments and suggestions :)

Have to end here for now. Sorry for the lame blogging today...

Work?

Went to work as usual today and saw my supervisor cleaning the floor with a broken mop. I was thinking,"Please! -_-" don't be pathetic until like that can?" I then went to sweep the floor and arrange the Menus. From Thursday until today, a particular guy keep on disturbing me from the neighboring eatery shop! But I ignore him. Sometimes, I really wish to use something to throw at him! I didn't see who is it cos I don't bother to look at him. It's nothing, just that whenever I am at the back alley, he likes to "zoot" at me and then say,"Xiao Jie!"(Miss). Somehow the previous incident(please refer to my blog entry before this to read)has made me develop phobia for the guys. From their accent, I had a feeling that they are Malaysians. I just pray that I am able to endure enough not to throw the pail at their stall.

After setting everything up, my supervisor ask me to change money for him and then buy a new mop. I really HATE to go out of the shop nowadays cos I know I will have to listen to the guy "zooting" at me whenever I walk past. When it happens for the first few times, I was thinking that maybe he is calling some other girls but when it happens too frequently especially when I am alone, I really hate it! How I wish I had the courage to shout back at him,"Diam lah! Wah Wu Da Poh Peng You liao lah!" But no choice, since I am the only one who could work morning, I have to endure every other things that comes with it. I had been thinking of changing to another job not because of the guy but because of the pay. The pay is super low and I don't think I could survive with that kinda pay. Maybe I would look for a job after working there for 3 months and see how things goes. I had discuss with BaoBei to let me work another job. Which means I had to hold two jobs, we often end up arguing over it. He doesn't allow me to hold 2 jobs but I told him that one source of income is not enough for me. He's still firmly stick to his decision not to let me work another job. Just don't introduce me office job anymore please!

I then ask Wendy could I swap schedule with her to avoid the guy and she said no cos she had to bring her son to school everyday. Sway...why my luck is so bad nowadays? Wendy then tease me and said,"Aiyah! They zoot you cos you are pretty mah. You should be happy" As if I am!!! Work was quite okay for the rest of the day ahead.

To my friends who are worried about me on my previous entry: Don't worry. I guess everything is fine now. The guy promised that he won't ever look for me again(Thanks to JJ's help) Sorry that I cannot really say what happen. But those who know about this, you can put your mind at ease now. Everything is fine. I am finally "break loose from hell". My nightmare is considered over. It can only be really over when I can finally change my hand phone number. I am glad that I could understand BaoBei on a deeper level due to the situation. He has also given me strength emotionally to overcome the situation. Whatever fears and doubts I had for BaoBei are now gone. I have to thank God for His protection on that night too(Luckily I "lose" my keys that day and couldn't get to go out)

I will end here for now. Sorry for the boring entry. Will blog again some other time.

Burden lifted from my heart....

On Friday night, I didn't really sleep well cos something happened. Called HuiYi in the middle of the night and cried to her. She thought that I cried because I miss BaoBei but then I told her something else. She wanted to tell Lorraine but I do not want anyone else to know about it. So I plead to her not to tell. She "accompanied" me through phone until 2am at night before she finally hang up. I was quite disturbed until 3am in the morning.

Went to meet BaoBei and he sensed something was wrong. He keep probing me but I didn't tell him. BaoBei was very unhappy that I kept things from him. We then went to Expo hall but I forgotten completely that the church is going to Indoor Stadium. Lorraine then sort-of "Lecture" me for being forgetful and said a lot of things to me. Saw my childhood friend at Expo and he said he do not know how to go to the Indoor Stadium. We then lead him there. Went to eat cup noodles at 7-11 and later I bought some sandwiches to eat cos I was not feeling full enough. Saw Mike at the queue and I pass the sandwiches for him and $10 for him to pay.

Later we were caught in the rain while queuing up to go into the Stadium. Saw HuiYi and the rest in the Stadium and we went to greet them. I then pass my hand phone to her to let her see my messages. After she read it, she was very angry with the person. BaoBei then bite his finger hard(Whenever he do this, I know what he means). I was very angry with BaoBei and ask what's wrong? He said,"Everything you also don't wanna tell me! What exactly happened?!" I said,"Nothing!" He then replied,"Then why HuiYi can see your handphone and I cannot see?! You have another boyfriend behind my back?!" I don't know how to explain to him and I really don't want him to know certain things so I just keep quiet. He then bite his finger again and this time I took my keys and pick the "sharpest" key and point it down to my thigh(I learnt this from TV) He then snatch my keys and do the same thing to himself. I then search my bag and found a pen. I use it against my neck. BaoBei then ask HuiYi to stop me. HuiYi then said,"Wei! What are you both trying to do?!" I said,"You see! He take my keys wanting to poke himself!" HuiYi then get my keys back from BaoBei and hand it to me I then put the pen down. At this point of time, Lorraine then come and speak to us. She encourage me to go to the police to make a report against that person. She said BaoBei don't want me to know things and I don't want BaoBei to know things. She said both of us are the same. She also said that I am a child of God and should not be afraid of such threats. She also speak something out that I was thinking to myself and that made me cry. After that she left and I ask HuiYi,"You tell Lorraine?" She said,"No! I don't know how she know!"

BaoBei then look at me and said,"Can you tell me what is going on?! What police report? What guy?" He then check on my handphone and manage to find a file that HuiYi keep it separate for me as an evidence that the guy is harassing me. When BaoBei gets to see the messages, he ask,"Who is Alan?!" I was thinking,"Oh no!" HuiYi then encourage me to tell BaoBei everything. I then told BaoBei what exactly happened and how long this incident has been torment me. I then said to him,"If you think that this guy is my boyfriend or that I had another boyfriend behind your back, let me tell you, he is not! That is all I can say" HuiYi then share with BaoBei a similar incident that happened to her and Samuel also share what is his feelings at that point of time when he learnt about it from HuiYi. BaoBei then took off his spects and he stared at the air angrily. After that he said to me,"Next time, if anything happens, can you please let me know? At least I don't have to be so worried" I then said,"I am afraid that if I told you the truth and what happened, you would leave me. Anyway, after the guy threaten me something, I was more afraid to let you know. I don't know what will your reaction be".

We then watch the service together and it was not bad. We couldn't stay until the end cos BaoBei's phone keep on vibrating non-stop. We then SMS Lorraine to inform her we are leaving early and left. On the way back, he ask a friend(JJ) to help him something. The guy(Alan), then SMS me and JJ was very angry on the phone when I told him about it. I ask Alan to call JJ as he had something to tell him. But he did not reply my SMS nor did he call JJ in the end.

Everything seems peaceful until now. But since this incident happens once every few months, I don't think he will SMS me until maybe a few months later. HuiYi and BaoBei then suggest me to change my hand phone number but I told them I had to pay the penalty fee as my line and contract is not even one year yet. I see how things goes from now on. Don't worry for me. I think everything will be alright in the end.

Daiso + Montip

Went to work in the morning and was surprise to see my Boss and my Manager there. I do not know what they are talking about but my Manager seems to look at me sternly at times. Haiz...what did I do again? Went to do my work but this time, a lot of things crop up and I had failed terribly on my job. Sianz..customers are quite okay today and it's not as busy as I had expected. My Manager has put up a new Menu again. I think he change it every week. The store run out of menu when I was doing the setting. My Manager was very angry that I set the Menu quite late in the morning. He then teach me how to do coffee in the afternoon but I had forgotten the procedures.

After work, I then went to Vivocity initially to buy some things. I then saw QiuZhen there! Was very surprise to see her cos she never told me that she had transferred to Vivocity! She was very happy when she saw me and bring me to a Malay colleague who was also transferred there. She then pretend to serve me cos her colleagues and especially supervisors are walking around. I couldn't find the things I wanted there and I told her I am going to Dhoby Gaut to get it. She said the handsome guy is still working there(don't look at me like that lah..the handsome guy is DiDi okay? He's 2 years my junior!).

I then went to PS and manage to find the things I wanted there. When the handsome Didi saw me, he said,"Eh?! How come you are here?" and smiled at me. I love his smile. He has this very cute irresistible smile that makes him look more cuter than he actually is. It's a pity he doesn't work in the frontline. I believe that if he works in customer service, the customers would love his smile. I told him that I am buying some things and he look at my plastic bag and said,"Wah! You buy so many things!?" Actually, it is not for me but for my BaoBei's three cousins. I then look at my watch and said,"Oei! Knock off le! ByeBye!" He then smile and said that he couldn't knock off now as he has to replace back the things before he could call it a day(Luckily I am no longer working in Daiso!)

Went over to Harbourfront and went to my ex-workplace. When I entered in, I was very surprise to see Peter sitting at the counter! I then said,"Wah! Finally seen you le!" He said,"Why? Miss me huh?" I said,"Ya lor! When I come here you are always not in" He then grumbled that the shop doesn't need him so he was never around the shop. He then said,"I am also working de leh" I was thinking,"Ya right, then who is the one paying your salary huh?"(Other than the customers of course). I went to look at the new arrival bags that Esther said I might like it. The new bags are too small for me. I like the design of it though. Chat with Peter for awhile and bought a pair of earrings from Peter and then walk to the MRT to take a train.

Take the free shutter bus to Tiong Bahru and window shop at The little Match Girl before going home. Feeling very happy today!

Swaying to and fro on the swing, thinking of you
Staring at the stars that's twinkling above the skies
Thinking of the love that you gave
so lovely and true

In the darkness of the night,
I cried for you
Longing for you to be in my arms
A short period of separation
seems like eternity of agony

Baby, your warmth and your undying love
gives me the strength to wait and to carry on
I'll promise I'll wait for you,
each and every day of my life
No matter how long,
No matter how tough,
I will carry on waiting for you

Swinging to and fro as the wind breeze towards my face,
I smiled at the stars above while thinking of you
A different girl you'll see,
A girl that promised you to be strong,
only for you...

Poem created by: Juliet
Date: 5 April 2007

P.S: Sorry, create it out of the blue...some words are not very well express. Especially created for girls who has bfs who are serving the Nation(NS). Hope that the poem would bring certain comfort

Do I really need to see a doctor?

Went for Easter service yesterday and the service was great! Especially the Drama team. They use the "Tokyo Drift" concept for their play. A very funny Drama overall. Every year when they show the part where Jesus was carrying a cross and He was being whip by the soldiers, it made me cry. He could have come down from the cross when the people told him to since He is God himself. But..He didn't cos He wants to fulfil his Father's calling. I like the part most when Jesus was baptise by his cousin, John. A light from the sky shine onto Jesus and a voice said,"This is my son, whom I am well pleased"

Fellowship with BaoBei's army camp mates after that. They are very quiet throughout the time! Except that YuanHui crack some jokes here and there. At the carnival, I saw something quite surprisingly! Someone was even lower profile than BaoBei and me when we first got together! I didn't even know that they went steady! I was thinking,"Since when they are together?!" Anyway, I really don't understand why would someone so beautiful would choose a very simple and plain person for a partner! Cos I expect her future partner to be very wealthy and very manly(those kinda muscular guy) or even those very handsome looking kind of guy! But anyway, as long as she is happy. I think it's her choice of whoever she wants to be with. Went back to BaoBei's home and his cousins are very happy to see me. Took early rest for service the next day.

This morning when I woke up, BaoBei then told me that it was his father's birthday today. I had forgotten about it! Bought his cousins to the carnival and they had used up all the tickets that I have bought for them. Met Ng Jong(my Brother's childhood friend) and wanted to bring him for service but he told me he has meeting at 6pm and he has to leave by 5pm.

Didn't went for service and left with BaoBei's family instead. Throughout the whole morning until now, I felt a very sharp pain on my left womb. BaoBei suspect that I might have problems with my intestine and ask me to go for check up. I don't want to go cos I don't have money to see a doctor for check up. He said I need to go to the hospital to check is there any problem with my digestive system. Maybe I will wait until I get my salary before I go for check up. But I don't think I have problems with my health.

Went for lunch at KFC and after bidding Ng Jong goodbye, I went home with BaoBei. There's a new TV at my home! Yeh! No need to fight over channels with my Bro anymore! I will end here for now. I am still feeling very painful...don't worry. I will go for check up if I had the money...

It has been a few days since I started work at a cafe. Initially I had 2 other colleagues to help work together with me but now left only one of them cos the other only work for a day. The first and second day of work is okay and it's not so busy. But the most busiest days are yesterday and today. Wendy(my colleague) and I were practically run around the cafe here and there. I was very upset yesterday cos I keep forgetting orders and made a few of the customers angry.

This morning when I go to work, my "Boss" talk to me privately when there's no customers in the cafe. He ask me,"Are you having problems at home?" I said no. He then ask me is there anything I am unhappy about? Again I said no. He then told me that he notice I seems to be angry yesterday(Actually I was not angry but I was stress up by the customers). I told him I am not angry but maybe I was quite stress because there are a lot of customers yesterday and there are orders that I keep forgetting and one customer even wait for 20 minutes but her coffee is still not yet being serve and she was complaining. He said he will teach me how to make coffee some other time. He then comment that I get very "Kan Chiong" easily(which until now I still don't know what he means) when there are too many customers or when customers keep on pressing me for their orders to be serve quickly. He then told me to learn to relax(Like I know how?!), when there are too many customers, there is NO WAY that I can relax. He also said that if my performance is good and I can work for long term basis(he said which he hope so), he may promote me to be Assistant Chef or I may get pay increment. I like the idea of pay increment but I don't like the idea of being Assistant Chef. Cos from the way I watch how he works, he always gets very tense up or stress when the ordering form are piled up at his station. But I cannot blame him cos he is the ONLY ONE doing the cooking. When you are alone doing a particular station all by yourself and when times get busier, naturally the person's temper won't be good. That is why I will try to avoid him during lunch time or when there are too many customers around cos I know he will be shouting(not purposely) instead of speaking to us in a nicer tone.

There is one group of difficult customers today and my "Boss" mood is not very good. Wendy gets shouted at and she is quite upset but I told her not to take it to heart. I admired her that she can even still smile at other customers even she gets scolded from that group of difficult customers. I notice that she is always smiling. I told her that if it was me, I won't be still smiling. She then comment that she only smiles when I am around(Don't know is it the truth).

Recently I am addicted to a game called,"Second Life". In that game, every women is pretty. Too bad I am not rich in that game. I then accidentally disfigured my face and body by swapping into another body of a celebrity. Ahhh! So sad. A girl then kindly give me L$500+ dollars to get me a nice hairdo and she gave me an Avatar. Haiz..I still prefer my old Avatar back.

I will end here for now. Will blog again some other time.

First day of Job

Went for interview around 9+am in the morning. Initally I thought it's just an interview then I could go back home that kind. To my surprise, after the Shop Manager interviewed me, He ask me to start work immediately! I quite like the job scope but the thing is that, the pay is only $5 per hour and the bad thing is, I don't have any CPF contribution working there. I do not know whether this is a tempoary arrangment or...? But to me is okay. The customers there are very less cos it is located at a quite remote place.

When I reach home, my Mum nag at me non-stop! No matter whether I am working or not, she will forever nag at me! I said before, my education qualifications are low and I can't be picky about jobs! She then ask me to go and study and upgrade myself! Hahaha! Saying is always easier than done! If she has $5000 to give me per month then I will go and study lor! Cos I had an eye for a course but the course itself will be $3000 - $5000 per semester!!! How can I get that kinda money?! BaoBei also wanted to upgrade his skills but he told me the course fees will be 5-digit figure.

Quarrelled very violently with BaoBei yesterday. He said something that made me cry but at the same time, it's for my own good. I then took off the ring infront of him and hand it to him. When I wanted to walk out of his place, he then hug me and he almost cried. I guess he doesn't really understand what is going on. ANGEL TAN YUNXI!!!! I DON'T WISH TO SEE YOU EVER AGAIN!!!! WE ARE NO LONGER FRIENDS FROM NOW ON!!! DON'T SMS ME OR MSN ME EVER AGAIN!!! Because of her, I quarrelled with BaoBei very violently. BaoBei don't really understand me and my point of view. He then help me to SMS Angel to calm things down. At that point of time, Angel then said things that she hides from the bottom of her heart! So what if I don't want to go to your birthday?! You bloody hell!!! Ask yourself what did you do on my birthday last year!?!?!?!? OKAY YOU SAID I GO THROGH LYNN TO TELL YOU THINGS! FINE! FROM NOW ON, I DON'T GO THROUGH HER! I WILL SAY IT ON YOUR IDIOT BLOODY FACE!!!! HAPPY?! Anyway, just a note to tell you if you are seeing this, YOU DON'T HAVE TO COME FOR MY BIRTHDAY THIS YEAR IF YOU ARE NOT HAPPY WITH ME! I ALSO DON'T WISH TO SEE YOU! SINCE BOTH OF US ARE NOT HAPPY WITH EACH OTHER, THEN FORGET IT! I DON'T HAVE A IDIOT FRIEND LIKE YOU!!! IF YOU THINK I AM THE ONLY ONE WHO IS IN THE WRONG, YOU ASK YOURSELF, DIDN'T YOU DO THINGS THAT MADE ME VERY UPSET?! YOU THINK ONLY YOU HAVE FEELINGS?! I DON'T!? YOU ASK YOURSELF WHAT DID YOU DO LAST YEAR?! AND THEN WHO IS THAT COWARD WHO DON'T WANNA PICK UP MY CALLS HUH?! YOU DARE TO SCOLD ME IN MSN AND SMS, THEN WHY YOU DON'T DARE TO PICK UP MY CALL?! BLOODY COWARD!!!! IF YOU DARE, WE MEET UP FACE-TO-FACE TO SETTLE THIS!!! DON'T BE A STUPID %^$#$^% COWARD TO ONLY SMS AND MSN ME!!! WO BU XI HAN!!!! IF YOU DARE TO TELL ME IN MSN AND SMS, WHY DON'T YOU DARE TO MEET ME?! COWARD!!!

Esther, if you wanna tell Angel about me or whatever stupid things, or Lynn also! Please hor! INFORM ME CAN?! I don't want to have some mad idiot woman to MSN me to scold me without telling me the reason and then I have to find out myself!!! Tell Angel, if she thinks she is right, I have nothing to say! Ask her to go and think what she did last year!? She is not happy that I didn't come for her birthday, then I am very happy that she do things on her own on my birthday lah?! Is it?! please lah! Ask her to think through what she did before she said that she didn't do anything and keep pointing that I AM THE ONLY ONE WHO DID WRONG! KNS! THEN DON'T WISH TO MEET UP TO SETTLE THIS WITH ME?! WHAT THE HELL IS ALL THIS?! I AM JI DONG?! WHO IS THE ONE WHO MAKE ME SO JI DONG?!?! ANGEL TAN YUNXI!! YOU THINK YOU DON'T HAVE A PART TO BE IN THIS LAH?! EVERYTHING IS ME LAH?! KNS!!! %%^%^%$!!!!!!! YOU DARE THEN WE COME OUT AND TALK!!!! DON'T JUST SMS AND MSN ME LIKE A STUPID IDIOT %^#&^%$ COWARD!!!!