Sunday, April 15, 2007

Burden lifted from my heart....

On Friday night, I didn't really sleep well cos something happened. Called HuiYi in the middle of the night and cried to her. She thought that I cried because I miss BaoBei but then I told her something else. She wanted to tell Lorraine but I do not want anyone else to know about it. So I plead to her not to tell. She "accompanied" me through phone until 2am at night before she finally hang up. I was quite disturbed until 3am in the morning.

Went to meet BaoBei and he sensed something was wrong. He keep probing me but I didn't tell him. BaoBei was very unhappy that I kept things from him. We then went to Expo hall but I forgotten completely that the church is going to Indoor Stadium. Lorraine then sort-of "Lecture" me for being forgetful and said a lot of things to me. Saw my childhood friend at Expo and he said he do not know how to go to the Indoor Stadium. We then lead him there. Went to eat cup noodles at 7-11 and later I bought some sandwiches to eat cos I was not feeling full enough. Saw Mike at the queue and I pass the sandwiches for him and $10 for him to pay.

Later we were caught in the rain while queuing up to go into the Stadium. Saw HuiYi and the rest in the Stadium and we went to greet them. I then pass my hand phone to her to let her see my messages. After she read it, she was very angry with the person. BaoBei then bite his finger hard(Whenever he do this, I know what he means). I was very angry with BaoBei and ask what's wrong? He said,"Everything you also don't wanna tell me! What exactly happened?!" I said,"Nothing!" He then replied,"Then why HuiYi can see your handphone and I cannot see?! You have another boyfriend behind my back?!" I don't know how to explain to him and I really don't want him to know certain things so I just keep quiet. He then bite his finger again and this time I took my keys and pick the "sharpest" key and point it down to my thigh(I learnt this from TV) He then snatch my keys and do the same thing to himself. I then search my bag and found a pen. I use it against my neck. BaoBei then ask HuiYi to stop me. HuiYi then said,"Wei! What are you both trying to do?!" I said,"You see! He take my keys wanting to poke himself!" HuiYi then get my keys back from BaoBei and hand it to me I then put the pen down. At this point of time, Lorraine then come and speak to us. She encourage me to go to the police to make a report against that person. She said BaoBei don't want me to know things and I don't want BaoBei to know things. She said both of us are the same. She also said that I am a child of God and should not be afraid of such threats. She also speak something out that I was thinking to myself and that made me cry. After that she left and I ask HuiYi,"You tell Lorraine?" She said,"No! I don't know how she know!"

BaoBei then look at me and said,"Can you tell me what is going on?! What police report? What guy?" He then check on my handphone and manage to find a file that HuiYi keep it separate for me as an evidence that the guy is harassing me. When BaoBei gets to see the messages, he ask,"Who is Alan?!" I was thinking,"Oh no!" HuiYi then encourage me to tell BaoBei everything. I then told BaoBei what exactly happened and how long this incident has been torment me. I then said to him,"If you think that this guy is my boyfriend or that I had another boyfriend behind your back, let me tell you, he is not! That is all I can say" HuiYi then share with BaoBei a similar incident that happened to her and Samuel also share what is his feelings at that point of time when he learnt about it from HuiYi. BaoBei then took off his spects and he stared at the air angrily. After that he said to me,"Next time, if anything happens, can you please let me know? At least I don't have to be so worried" I then said,"I am afraid that if I told you the truth and what happened, you would leave me. Anyway, after the guy threaten me something, I was more afraid to let you know. I don't know what will your reaction be".

We then watch the service together and it was not bad. We couldn't stay until the end cos BaoBei's phone keep on vibrating non-stop. We then SMS Lorraine to inform her we are leaving early and left. On the way back, he ask a friend(JJ) to help him something. The guy(Alan), then SMS me and JJ was very angry on the phone when I told him about it. I ask Alan to call JJ as he had something to tell him. But he did not reply my SMS nor did he call JJ in the end.

Everything seems peaceful until now. But since this incident happens once every few months, I don't think he will SMS me until maybe a few months later. HuiYi and BaoBei then suggest me to change my hand phone number but I told them I had to pay the penalty fee as my line and contract is not even one year yet. I see how things goes from now on. Don't worry for me. I think everything will be alright in the end.

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