Job + Let it go = I want to forget....I wish to forget him....forgetting all the things that we've been through...forget everything once and for all..

The stupid Formula One(Known as short form F1) cause me to lose a lot of sleep and having backache these days. Luckily I stay over at BaoBei's place and he gave me back massage whenever I came home from work. So sweet of him~ ^_^

If there is really a thing that could made me forget certain memories, I am willing to try. Now I realize, it is really not a very good thing when you finally or suddenly recall certain memories. No matter how sweet it is. But....memories will always remain as memories. Unless one day, I really met him along the streets again(which I don't think I will). In case you all wondering why these days I keep typing the memories kind of thing, I tell you now. There was a time, I had sudden loss of memory due to impact trigger on my head. The last time I really remembered before I totally lost my memories of things was my father hit me on my back of my head very hard using a hard object. After that I cried to sleep. When I woke up the next day, I TOTALLY forgotten who am I, what am I doing here, what was I? Anything about me, I had forgotten cleanly! Strangely, I still remember my family members. After that I went out alone to wander around the streets to see if I can recall things? The first day, I walk aimlessly at certain place and my head would feel extremely painful when I try to recall things or I remembered that I had been to a place somewhere but forgotten with whom? The second day I try again, this time, a rush of pictures flashing though my head really fast! If you ever watch on TV, those people who lost their memories and when they try to remember, they will feel extreme pain on their head, it's true! It's not an act. I felt that way too when I try to recall things or when my brain trigger some memories or flashes through my head.

I had been like that for two weeks plus. Then slowly, I really began to remember things like who I am, how old am I, and then slowly recall back who are my friends etc. Only half of the memories I do remember. Most of it, I had totally forgotten. That is why I had since became very blur and cannot remember things well from then on. My memory has deteriorate quite badly. Through the years, I finally gain certain memories back by sight-seeing, asking around "his" friends about him...etc etc. Until this year recently, I finally do recall the rest of the memories and realize that I am the one who is at fault after all. But...he, being the usual gentlemen self, puts all the blame onto himself and says that he is not suitable for me etc. In the end, he disappear from my life like before. My heart was scattered into pieces the day he left. No one has ever be able to make it whole again.

I wanted to forget him totally. Since he is no longer in my life, there is no use for me to keep the memories of him in my head. I wanted to be fair to BaoBei - the guy who loves me for who I am and shower me with affection and love. But then again, BaoBei won't be able to provide me with the love that I really curve for anymore. He has his own method of loving me which I struggle to accept it -_-"

Why is it so hard to forget you? Why is it so hard to forget the memories that you had left for me?

JB holiday

Went to JB for shopping spree yesterday. Didn't buy much actually, cos I don't have any money with me. Baobei bought a 3-quarter pants for himself and I bought a slipper that doesn't have my size in Singapore. I might have buy more things if I had the money though. I wanted to go back next week but BaoBei says we can only go back around December with Esther etc, provide if they can go with us.

There's also a new brand of Marlboro cigarette selling in Malaysia that is not selling in Singapore. Marlboro Fresh Mint. I was attracted by the cover of the cigarette. The cigarette also taste quite nice compared to any other cigarettes. That is the reason why I wanted to go back to Malaysia. Cos only there, I can get my brand of cigarette.

I only visit City Square. The people dress there are the same as what you see youngster dress in Orchard Road. There are many shops there too. Although Singapore is well-known for food paradise, but there are also nice food in Malaysia too! So far I only visited JB and Seremban. I have not have the chance to visit other parts of Malaysia. By the way, the crime rate in Malaysia is really very high so I am often advise not to bring valuable things with me and the lesser items I bring, the better as I will not be targeted.

Recently keep quarrelling with BaoBei over trivial things. I am also quite stress that I hardly have anymore money with me and yet I still have to pay for some stupid things! I shouldn't have sign up for the yoga thing but it's already too late. I do not know what to do.

I will end here for now. Some times, I am really tired of everything.

Why why why why why why why why why????

I didn't sleep at all yesterday. From the time I start work(actually is after lunch time to be exact), I keep thinking about "Him" for the whole day yesterday. His face keeps on appearing on my mind. What is going on??? I tried very hard to ignore and keep myself busy but....my mind still flash his face and his eyes. I don't know why and I don't know what is going on?

During the night, I keep tossing and turning in my bed and I couldn't get to sleep. My mind keeps playing back some memories of him. Surprisingly, I am able to recall some of the events which I thought that I had forgotten. I cried.......in my mind, I keep thinking,"If only I had....if only I really really could turn back time". After a long time, and some memories suddenly jolt back to me, I finally realize something I had not realize then. He had told me the TRUTH all along but I had missed it. WHY?! Why didn't I believe him at that time.....? But it's all way too late now. Nothing can be done or undone, nothing can be change. Now, the only remaining wish I had, is for him to find his true and real happiness. A girl who can make him happy. A girl who can take over my place in his heart.

Throughout the years, I hear a lot of different version of stories about him and his life. Some times, I don't know who to believe and which of these version is true? Some said he went to jail(if it is true, he would be release by year 2011). Some said he had left the country. A few said he went to Thailand, some said he went back to Australia. His cousin told me that he attempted suicide - again because of me. My Mum told me that he was in a bar surrounded by a lot of girls(cos she hear girls giggling in the background of a noisy disco place). After hearing so many versions and I don't know which is true, I just cover my ears and let my tears flow.

There was a time, a group of Ah lians came to my ex-workplace. They were photo-taking and when I shout for them not to take photos, two of them glared at me and one of them whispered at the other's ear. Later, I hear one of them shout over her handphone,"Oei! Siao Eh! I think I have found Juliet" I do not know who is at the other line. Wendy and Ya Cin both stared at me but I deliberately ignored the Ah lians. But I suspected the person at the other line is..HIM. That was AFTER I had met him through Jacelyn. If only.........

If you happen to read this,(which I know he won't) and you know who you are, I just want to say,"I am sorry" I am sorry for not believing you then, I am sorry that I have let you down. I am sorry that I did not keep my promises to you, and lastly, I am sorry for making you what you are now. If there is something that I did owe you, please tell me. Lastly, I just want to say, remember the very FIRST poem that I have created for you and you said it was very mushy? I also wanted to tell you, somewhere between the lines, what I wrote there, it was from the bottom of my heart. Believe it or not, if one day I met you along the streets or anywhere, and you happen to be in trouble, the things I wrote in the poem, will come true. I know you will find me very ultra stupid for doing what I do but....I simply just owe you too much. Because of what I did, and because of what I said.

Of all the things you had ask me to promised you, I am sorry that I had failed. There is one and only promise which I had fulfilled. I had indeed found another guy...A guy who is really better than you(in person), a guy who truly loves me from the bottom of his heart, a guy who really takes care of me. If this is what you really want to see, I had fulfilled it. He has also met one of your most important principal in your life - He has never ever hit me, unlike my other Exs. I remembered your hokkien words until now,"Da Bo Pak Zha Bo Mm si Da Bo" That is what angered you the most and what you hated that most. He has never done that to me. But if one day...he did, don't blame me for being stupid again. This time, you can only find me above the stars or maybe in the sea(where I would like my ashes in future to be scattered at)

I am really going crazy soon...

Phone enquiry about job + Getting a little vain??? = Have I finally discard the old "me"?

Went for work today and I heard something that I think I should not have heard - about my Manager. Since Khair ask me not to spread this out, only BaoBei knows what happen in my work place. My manager is on leave until Wednesday and I accidentally overheard my colleagues gossip about where is he really going and what was the leave exactly for? Haiz...I really pity somebody.

My money is running really very low. I haven't got any chance to find another job yet. I manage to called up one job enquiry for the position of receptionist. The person told me that I am only required to work 5 days BUT my off-days will only be on WEEKDAYS. I am expected to work on weekends and PH. I don't need weekdays off cos I do not know what to do with it? Most of my activities tend to fall on weekends. That is why I tend to ask for weekends off.

I don't know is it that I am getting a little bit vain than my old self? The other day when Esther and Turtle saw me, both of them drop their jaws(if you get what I mean). Cos I was wearing something different than my usual dressing. I only wore a slight make-up for the night. Went to Ajisan to have dinner and I felt very painful when paying for the bill cos I have not get my pay yet and money was running out. But it's okay, we did enjoy ourselves at Ajisan. Turtle ask me to take a picture with BaoBei, when the pictures were develop(Cos hers is the digital camera that can see the picture within 2 minutes after taking), I was surprise to see myself!!! My first reaction was,"Is that me?! That's not me right?!" Cos I am surprise how different I look with my make-up on. I tend to wear a heavier make-up during the night but I didn't know it turn out well in pictures. But the picture is with Turtle -_-" Have to throw away all my old make-ups. I also want to re-dye my hair again as the colour is fading very badly.

Went to look for Da Lao Po and walk around Orchard with her. Went to Burger King to order drinks and we played our PSP there. After that we took our buses home. On the way to BaoBei's place, he ask what am I thinking? A lot of things run through my mind. Li Yi, my work, money, our future, his parents, our wedding and that bitch!!! I don't know how to tell BaoBei so I just said,"Nothing". Later we get off at our stop and we walk over to a bar to sat down to drink. I was surprise how cheap the beer there was!!! I said cheap because if you went to any other places, they will charge you at least $12.00 per bottle or maybe more. There, we manage to get it at only $10! Except for the very big TV screen and the noisy soccer match, the place would otherwise make a very good relaxation place for me. A place for me to drink and cry on my own problems.

Went back to sleep almost the whole day. BaoBei woke me up by using the food that he bought for us. I appreciate him to went down to buy food for me. But I still miss his own cooking most. But he doesn't cook for me anymore *cry*

I will end here now. Will blog again some other time.

1st Yoga lesson + Outing with Esther and Turtle = Pain!!! :'-O and fun

Went for Yoga lesson today and I was almost late for my first lesson. Luckily I made it in time! I learnt a new thing called "Ujayee"(Pronounce as "Wu Jar Yee" breathing. Until now I don't know how to master this kind of breathing. It is not normal breathing like what most of us always do. This kind of breathing, you DON'T breathe through your nose. You breathe through your lungs(with your mouth close). Not everyone can do it but if you are smart enough to master this kind of breathing, it will be good for you in the long run especially if you are a swimmer/diver or anything that requires you to hold your breathe more than 5 minutes(I can't even hold my own breathe for a minute lor!) now I need to hold my breathe for like...5 minutes?! Mad?! A few of my yoga-mates can even hold their breath using Ujayee for 10 minutes!!!

Later on, we do some yoga exercise that requires us to paired up. There is ONE particular yoga exercise that I will never ever forget cos the teacher mention this,"This particular yoga exercise is extremely dangerous if you don't practise it well or if your position is wrong. Your neck or head MUST NOT move at all in any circumstances when you are in THIS position because you will break the tiny vain in your neck area and once this happens, YOU WILL GET PARALYZE PERMANENTLY and I am NOT kidding!!!" I was paired up with a China girl and a few of our Yoga mates came to help us. I manage to get my WHOLE body weight up in the end. When the instructor ask,"Is this your first time? I heard that there is one new girl who is doing yoga for her very first time" I nod(I forgot I was in that position!!!) and my yoga-mates shout,"DON'T MOVE YOUR HEAD!!!!" The instructor raise his eye browns and said,"Wow! Serious? That's very good for a first-timer yoga!" When we tried to teach the China girl the same thing, her neck felt very stiff and so we advise her to stop the exercise. She ask how come she can't and I can? She ask what is it like for me doing that? I said,"There will be a lot of pressure on your shoulders and your neck area should feel very "empty" like as if your neck doesn't exist there at all. That will be the correct way. If you still feel stiffness around your neck area, either you are in a wrong position or that your body can't do this exercise at all" I later found out from one of my yoga-mates that not everyone can do this exercise. The instructor said that he heard someone from community centre, who did this exercise, a 26-yr-old girl, somewhere along the session, either her yoga-mate didn't support her enough or that she did it wrongly, her whole body weight came crushing down on her and she got paralyze in her WHOLE BODY in the end. I was shock!

I went for the 2nd session later in the afternoon, but it doesn't feel as good as the first lesson. It was suppose to be a combat yoga lesson but somehow, the instructor(supposely to be a female) didn't turn up and a guy taught us instead. I almost "died" there! Or maybe most of my positions are wrong. Now I got a muscle pain on my right ankle and my whole back is also aching!

Went out with Esther and Turtle. I was suppose to attend CG but they keep asking me not to go. Plus, the location was at Tampines and they inform at the LAST MINUTE!!! Haiz...I think some people didn't read my very previous post on what I said about last minute things?! Went shopping with them and I bought some accessories to match the clothes that I buy. I finally found a pair of shoes and bag that I like but I don't have the money to buy. Can you believe it if I told you that I found a very nice handbag selling at only $13?! But it is only big enough for me to contain my wallet, hand phone, my PSP and my organiser. I am very tempted to buy but I don't have the money. Can't wait for my pay day to come! Esther ask if I need a hand bag urgently? If not I can save up to wait. I do not know whether to put that bag at BaoBei's place or mine? Cos BaoBei is not at home most of the time but then when Saturdays came, I have no small bag to use! *fan nao!* Went for a drink with Da Lao Po and them. Taking a lot of funny pictures.

Went back home after that. Had a tired but fun day today.

Explanation + Memories of the past = Fear

Went back to True Yoga when my consultant finally called my mobile to ask me to collect my VIP card. I heard it wrongly that he said,"Black card" maybe he said too fast. Black card is a card that members pay in order to use the massage facilities. Not cheap ok? In order to get that bloody card you need to pay $3500 - $4000 +++. But since I didn't pay that sum of money, I thought they made a mistake. I heard it wrongly lah. Heez..I ask my consultant why I can't contact him? He said his hp drop into the toilet bowl the day when I left the club -_-" so sway! Now his phone is at hp shop for repair. But then, I understand that, for water-damage hps, ANY hp shop will NOT repair for you. Even if they did, they won't guarantee that the phone will work back in original condition. Mine is also water-damaged once and I really cried lor! Cos that is BaoBei's 2nd time in buying a hp for me. He was super angry of course. But somehow he manage to got it repair to original condition. o.O??! But with a price to pay of course. The person who manage to repaired for me, told BaoBei to inform me that I must prepared that the phone won't live beyond 6 months after damaged. So far, it's been two and a half months. I will see how as time goes by. My No.1 key spoilt. Cannot type full stop, comma etc. My No.4 key cannot type G, H and I. I had great difficult sending SMSes cos almost every SMS that I used to send, will contain these three letters! Sian lor! That time Lorraine ask me either to get a temporary phone or new phone. But I don't have temporary phone and have no money to buy a new phone. Luckily it can be repaired. I am now aiming for N95. Now praying for the price to drop. BaoBei says that actually for N95, the price is already very cheap but still, I don't have that kind of money to buy. Some shops are willing to let go for $800+ first hand with FULL accessories! Like I said, I don't have the kind of money to buy. If sign up with plan, will cost around $400 - $500 plus. BaoBei says once his plan expires he will get the phone!(To suan me! -_-") But for now, I am very contented with my N73 ME. Cos I only use it to listen to music, SMS and call. Actually, apart from the Mp3 function and camera function and WAP + 3G function, I realize that I don't need anymore other than that. Of course it will be good if someday, Nokia can finally launch a phone that I can watch live TV programs WITHOUT having to use WAP or 3G functions(cos if I switch on that function, my phone bill will be sky-rocket!!!) Now, I heard that Sony Ericssion has done way better than Nokia and it's popularity has shot up. Good lah! My father will be happy lor! Since that is his all-timed favourite mobile brand! Now my friends around me always comment Sony Ericssion phone is really better than Nokia. -_-". You know something? My VERY FIRST mobile phone, is SONY ERICSSION. Those from my secondary school time(1998 - 2001) will know how the Sony Ericssion phone look like during those days. It's a small phone with bulky battery, whenever you need to SMS or answer call, you will need to flip the stupid cover down to use it. Then after you are done, you need to flip back up to close. I flip it until my Sony Ericssion phone flip spoilt! LOL! Don't ask me how I did it. I just did! I can still remember ALL my used SIM card numbers(I mean from the very FIRST SIM card until my current SIM card numbers). But !Hi card numbers I cannot remember.

Yesterday when I board my usual bus home, while the bus stops at one of my ex-company, 4 Malaysian guys board the bus and sat beside the seat I am sitting. I recognise their accent to be Malaysians. Somehow, their accent brought back memories of me and one of my ex-suitor, who is a Malaysian. That guy, he tried very hard to woo me and even to the extreme of communicating with my Mum in order to get her to like him! My Mum was like,"What is this guy thinking?! Hello?! You only know my daughter for how long?!" That was when I was in my secondary school. I met that guy through my childhood friend. I would have fallen for him then...if not for....haiz...anyway, he really make me very disappointed. One thing that many many of my friends DO NOT KNOW, I really LOVE Malaysian guys. Pure Malaysians. Cos of one thing: Their accents. There is this accent when they speak in Chinese that I just simply love about them. For those who have watched,"Lao Shi Jia Lao Da", if you listen to Mark Lee's accent in the movie, you will know why I love Malaysians. Of course I understand some people will hate that kind of accents. BaoBei himself is a Malaysian but because he studied in Singapore, so when he speaks, he doesn't have the kind of Malaysian accent that you expect ANY normal Malaysians to have. His cousins still do have the accent(Lucky!) especially his youngest cousin. But she's very dis-respectful to elders -_-"

Ya Cin used to feel very irritated about my comments on Malaysians:

Me: Malaysian food very nice leh!:

Me: Malaysian guys VERY HANDSOME leh!

Me: Malaysian girls very pretty leh!

so on and so forth until one day she got very irritated and said this to me,"THEN GO MARRY A MALAYSIAN LAH! Or you want me to introduce you a Malaysian guy to you?" I said,"Okay lor! Good!" She almost faint on the spot! One thing I also notice this on the guys there is, they are usually VERY PERSISTENT when they want to woo a girl that they like. That means, when they like you or fall for you, they will try every means and ways to chase you. From giving you flowers everyday, to sending you to school and even some times fetching you from school!(That is what my ex-Malaysian suitor did!) So if you only purely like Asians that kind of person and wanted a passionate, affection-filled boyfriend who would love you with all his heart, trust me. Go for a Malaysian boyfriend. But bear in mind one more thing before you hop on my words: Malaysian guys are also extra-possessive and over-protective of their girlfriends! That means, IF you get yourself a boyfriend like my ex-suitor, don't ask in the end,"Why my (Malaysian)boyfriend so jealous of me talking to other guys?!" "Why he always sticks to me like glue!? Doesn't he have a life?" etc etc. If you are a person who need a lot of personal space in relationship then erm....DON'T go for them. Cos for me, I love my boyfriend to stick to me like glue so I don't mind.

On the day when I finally bring BaoBei to the store to let her see, she ask me,"Your boyfriend is really a Malaysian? Which part in Malaysia he stay? Good lor! Since you told me that you always wanted a Malaysian boyfriend, then now your wishes come true. Then I don't need to introduce you a boyfriend already! Wish you happiness with your boyfriend! Married already remember to invite me leh!"

I heard from KY that Eric(my ex-Malaysian suitor) has moved back to Queenstown. She suspects that he moved back because of me. But I think he doesn't know or forgot that I no longer staying there. Anyway, I don't trust her words because it has been too many years since I last stay that area and I don't think he still remembers me.

I think I will end here for now. Will blog again some other time.

Just venting out my anger...can don't read it..just ignore

Went to work as usual. Manager is on leave until Thursday. Things are fine until almost after work...

Everyday, that stupid idiot would always ask me stupid question!!!!:

On Monday:

Mei Xin: Oei...you sweep the floor already or not?

Me: Ummmm(Tired tone)

Mei Xin: Oei..sweep already or not?

Me: Yessss...(Tired tone)

Mei Xin: Why I never see?!

Me: Cos you are doing something else!!!(Thinking to myself: You never see means I never do meh?! ^%^%#$^^!!!!)

Mei Xin: Table wipe already?

Me: Uh.....(slightly irritated)

Mei Xin: Window leh?

Me: Tsk!!!(Thinking to myself: Nah Beh!!!) Wipe already lah!!! (Thinking to myself: CB!!!)

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TODAY:

Mei Xin: Your floor sweep already?

Me: (Stare plus glaring at her!!!)

Mei Xin: What?! I just ask you a question only?

Me: Are you blind or you really blind or you act blind?!

Mei Xin: What?! Ask you question only why you so angry?

Me:(Thinking to myself: Cos you ask stupid question!!!) I sweep already! Plus mop already!!! Table, window and chair also wipe already!!!!

Mei Xin:(Mumbers to herself) Is it? How come I never see?!

Me:(Shouting) You always say you never see one lah!!! I must DO IT IN FRONT OF YOU then is consider WORKING is it?! If I don't let you SEE me doing that means I am NOT working lah?!(Me thinking: CB!!! You think you are what?! Boss?! Manager!!!??? CB!!! Always say NEVER SEE NEVER SEE!!!)

Mei Xin: I....I...don't mean that...

Me: *Slams knife on the table*

K: What happen? Why so angry?

Me: You ask your GOOD friend lah!!!

After that I went to keep the tables and chairs plus the board. All of them can clearly see that I am angry. Later, Khair ask me what happen? I explain to him and he said that she is just concern about my work. Ya right! I told him,"Ok lah, assumed that she is really "concern" lah. Why when I replied her,"I do already" she still say,"Why I never see?!" What does she mean by that? So does it mean that ANY work that I didn't do infront of her, meaning I didn't do lah? Or...rather, Must I do my work within her EYES then is consider working?!"

Khair went quiet for a while and he said,"I don't think she meant that. Never mind, ask her to come. I need to talk to her regarding this too" I do not know what exactly did they exchange about. After that Khair went to tell Manager about this problem and the Manager put it as if I AM THE ONE WHO STARTED IT FIRST. Who is the bloody hell who provoke me?! ANYTHING I did is WRONG! Just because they are the MANAGER's FRIENDS!! Of course he will side them!

Never mind. I see what will Manager say when he gets back. But, believe it or not? He will surely say until machiam it was MY fault?! Cos the two kuas is he HIRE mah! Plus they are HIS FRIENDS!!! Will he find fault in them?! NO! He will side them and push all the blame to me! His friends mah!!! I am just a NOBODY!!!! MY WORKPLACE IS REALLY UNFAIR!!!!

Later on, I SMS Mei Xin,"Sorry for banging the things just now or if I had scare you. Next time, i will inform you of EVERYTHING I do. If that is the way you prefer. I dun like people to make assumptions abt me not doing my work! If u never see me doing, it doesn't mean that i did not do my work. It's just that u never notice me doing"

She replied this,"No matter u do or don do next time..I won't care and I will not ask u anymore from today onwards.. U don need to tell me ANYTHING u do.. I noe I hav norights.. I will wait for the person who has right to say"

From the SMS, I feel that she's being very hao lian! That means she won't care but she will ask SOMEONE else to ask me the same thing! Anyway, her SMS really make me very angry!!! Na beh!!! Same position as me act as if you are elder or more senior position than me?! Wait long long lah!!! YOU ARE IN NO POSITION TO CONTROL ME THAT WAY OR TO SAY ALL THOSE SHIT!!! YOU NEVER SEE ME DO, THAT MEANS I NEVER DO LAH?! WHAT RUBBISH IS THAT?! I MUST DO IT IN FRONT OF YOUR EYES THEN CONSIDER DOING LAH?! CHEE BYE!!! FUCKING HELL!!! EVEN MANAGER ALSO DON'T DO THAT LOR!! The most he will ask what I have done or not done and I will tell him. That's all. He has NEVER EVER say,"Why I never see you doing that?" Na beh!!! Even MANAGER himself never do that!!! What makes you in the position as CASHIER to interfer what I do?! Even if I told you I had already done this and that, you would always say,"Is it? You do already meh? WHY I NEVER SEE?!" CHEE BYE!! Next time everything I do I will make sure you bloody hell SAW ME DOING!!! YOU HAPPY?!

Feel like changing workplace again cos I really cannot stand working with these kinda zhong-you-qing-se people!!! NO OTHER WORKPLACE I have gone to in my past, have these kinda people!!! Maybe because the place is small...bo bian..small place but politics are not lesser than office politics lor!

Will end here now. Actually, no use reading it. I am just blogging her to vent my anger..

Regretted joining TRUE YOGA + Prawning again?! = I must be more careful with my money next time -_-"

Sorry for the prolonged absence of blogging. I have been really busy with my life lately that I hardly have time to blog. Just last week, I was alone at Clevon(I don't know how to spell the name) and a guy approach me with a TRUE YOGA leaflet. I took the leaflet and he ask me whether I would like him to show me around?(for free) I decline at first but then he assured me that's it's free. So I followed him in the end(stupid me!). He gave me a brief tour on the facilities and later sat down to talk me into joining the club. He access my daily routine of my life and that he understands how stressful I am with my work. He said TRUE YOGA will help me de-stress, relax and at the same time, losing weight. The original membership total fees is about $3000 dollars but since I do not have money, I decline joining. He ask is it $$ problem? After negotiating for about a while and his Operation Manager have a talk with me, I blindly paid a sum of money(sorry I cannot state how much due to confidentially). I remembered before I left the club, the instructor gave me his name card and number to said that I could call him ANYTIME if I need help. This is what I am unhappy about:

Since Thursday until now, I have been trying IN VAIN to get through him. He doesn't reply my SMS and when I called the moblie number that he gave me, the operator reply,"The Singtel mobile customer is not available. Please, try again later" Imagine this, You paid for a sum of money in order to enter the club. This TRUE YOGA personnel, assured you that you can call him anytime if you have any regarding. BUT, just a day or two later when you tried to call, you can't get through and you keep hearing the phase that I have stated above, when you tried SMSing him, you didn't get ANY reply! How would you have felt?! I don't know what duties is my Consultant is for?! Since he is not available for me 24/7 or whenever I need help, or doesn't wish to have any contact with me at all, I don't know why in the first place he wants to be my consultant!? I have not lodge any complain against him yet cos by Friday(the day I book myself for Yoga session), I want to know what is his reason for doing this?! His mobile phone lost? He left it somewhere?! I don't know. The sad thing is, my membership is for 24 months! What an agony!!!! I am seriously thinking of either 1) Changing my consultant - Sorry man! I don't want to have a consultant who is NOT available for my needs! 2) Wait in agony for the 24 months to pass me by to terminate my contract!

Failed my sign language test and I didn't attend module 2 because it was raining very heavily that day and I didn't have any umbrella with me. Yesterday, BaoBei went shopping with me for the very first time(He doesn't like shopping malls), just because I wanted to buy a sports bra and shirt for myself. After that we went to his friend's place to see his 1 month old baby boy! So cute!!! But he's also very naughty. It's very difficult to get him to sleep. Later when they fed him, he went to sleep but during the baby's sleep, he vomited milk from his mouth!!! He was lying flat in his baby chair and I quickly carry his son to force his baby to sit up so that I can pat his back. He vomited more milk out! Haiyo!!! Didn't they pat him after he finish drinking his milk?! Some babies died from this because after drinking the milk, the parents or care-taker didn't pat the baby's back. I tell you an interesting fact: Babies don't have a natural digestive system like adults do. Whenever they finish the milk, a part of it actually stays in the baby's THOAT! That's why if you don't make the baby sit up and pat the baby's back, the baby will die! The sit up is the let the milk to flow into the stomach and the patting is to make the baby burp. If the baby vomit out milk, that means the milk is too much for the baby to take. If it is normal, you should be able to hear a small "burp" sound from the baby.

Went to AMK hub to shop around before resting at KFC. L and JZY came with JZ in a van to fetch us to prawning. We caught 29 prawns in total! This time is mostly BIG prawns! I realize that BBQ prawns taste much more nicer than streamed or boiled ones. BaoBei is really addicted to prawning. But I don't like the fact that I have to fork out $50 just for prawning?! There's a group of people, they have caught the BIGGEST PRAWN I have seen in my entire life!!! The person in charge later said that is the GRANDFATHER of the prawns!!! It is as big as a 2 year old toddler!!! So you can imagine how big is the prawn!? I wonder what did the group use a bait?

Went to JZY's house for majong session again. I accidently fell asleep in JZY's bed! Later I SMS her to apologise. Reach home around 4 plus in the morning and fell asleep.