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Anyway I just blog to vent anger..can don't read if you don't like it.

Nowadays I hate my handphone a lot!!!! Cos it's china-made hp, worst of all, NO DICTIONARY!!! Never mind..it's just a temporary phone. I am aiming my next target anyway - Nokia 6600 Slide phone..yeh! But then must save along the way. BaoBei says wait till my contract ends, which is around late November. So..no choice but to wait lor.

I am seriously feeling easily irritated these 3 days cos my phone keep ringing non-stop!!!! As in, SMSes and CALLS keep coming in. Making me feel very busy. I used to love this kinda "busyness" during my secondary school daze but not now! Or maybe is my PMS problem that I feel irritated?

Tell you a secret, I have not been going to church for the past 6 mths(according to Lorraine). Somehow, I feel a lot more happier and "lighter" on the inside. Cos whenever I was in church, Lorraine always emphasis on "Friends, friends, friends, attendance, members' thingy etc" all the stuffs that makes you almost out of breathe. There's one time, I got really angry about this,

I was suppose to be in charger TOGETHER WITH JASLYN about the prayer timing and prayer list. At first, Jaslyn collect the timing and I collect the prayers. Then in the end I don't know what happened, she made me do it ALTOGETHER! Nevermind....after that I chased members for their prayer list on every Monday and ask them to submit to me by Thurs night. U know who reply then? I can count and even give u the names:!

1) BaoBei
2)Huiyi
3)Samuel
4)Ai Zhen
5)WenTing(only give me when I chase her the last minute)

that is all. During that time, member are SIXTEEN no.! And u see who are the ones who only gave me? I have been doing that for don't know how long and when I got fed up, I pass my assignments to BaoBei and he did it ON MY BEHALF...but you know what is the result? ALL of the member NB reply him TOGETHER!!!! I told Lorraine since that's the case I give up and hand all my work to YH, who is at that point of time serving NS! CB! Everyone reply him when he only sent ONE time! Me leh!?

Never mind. That's the past. After staying in church and CG for some time, I found myself can't adapt to the CG. Probably because I have difficulty inviting friends and saving souls. Li Yi wanted to come back to church at one point of time but I discourage her. You guys might feel strange why I discourage her? I ask u, if you stay in a place for a period of time, and you feel nothing but stress, would you invite your friend to join you? Worst of all, Lorraine always strongly wants us to invite friends. I get stress by that everytime. It's not that I am black hearted not wanting her to get saved. But......I have my own reasons why I don't want to bring her to church. But I told her if she really want to go, I will accompany her all the way. Though my heart is not there. I love God...it's just that I couldn't do the things everyone can. I am different in expressing myself. That's all.

Okay, enough of my renting. The last time I remember my phone was that busy was when I was in church and secondary school. Now I am no longer there but my phone is making me crazy!!! There are times when I wish I could throw my phone into a water! Spoil, spoil lor..$158 only mah! Some more it's not BaoBei's phone or the phone he gave me. You might think,"wah lau! $158 hp also phone mah!" ya lah..but then my hp that I bought is super lousy lor!

SMS no dictionary, calling, the tone also have problem, then camera is not very clear(though it's 5 megapixal) then have a lot more problems then I had imagine. No matter how poor you are, no matter how much you need a hand phone badly, one advice I can give you all:

DON'T BUY CHINA HAND PHONE!!! SI BEH LOUSY!!!!!!

Anyway I just blog to vent anger..can don't read if you don't like it.