I am not feeling well these days. As in, mentally not well. The other time I tried to talk to BaoBei, but at that point of time, I forgot what I want to tell him. Even if I did, chances of him NOT listening to what I have to say, will be very high. So...what's the point of talking then? Now, my dictionary does not have this word,"Communication" anymore.
During one time, BaoBei suddenly blurted out,"Haiz..no money"(or something like that) That word angered me a lot!!! Part of it is because he is willing to continue working in his father's business, earning $300 a month(in the beginning) I feel that Xiao Pang pay more better than his Dad lor! Some more, BaoBei has not get his release letter from his previous employment so by right he is not suppose to work. But since his Boss verbally tell him that he is offically being release, then I hope that he could look for a better job. But then again, in BaoBei's previous contract, it is stated that it must be a written release letter. I think BaoBei doesn't know the law well. He could be charge! He doesn't even bother to argue for the release letter back!!! He just sit around and wait and wait...!!! Although I may seem like I am earning more than BaoBei, but I have my own debts to pay off and could hardly survive. I am seriously thinking of taking another job to supplement my current income but that would mean I get lesser sleep and lesser time.
During one time, BaoBei suddenly blurted out,"Haiz..no money"(or something like that) That word angered me a lot!!! Part of it is because he is willing to continue working in his father's business, earning $300 a month(in the beginning) I feel that Xiao Pang pay more better than his Dad lor! Some more, BaoBei has not get his release letter from his previous employment so by right he is not suppose to work. But since his Boss verbally tell him that he is offically being release, then I hope that he could look for a better job. But then again, in BaoBei's previous contract, it is stated that it must be a written release letter. I think BaoBei doesn't know the law well. He could be charge! He doesn't even bother to argue for the release letter back!!! He just sit around and wait and wait...!!! Although I may seem like I am earning more than BaoBei, but I have my own debts to pay off and could hardly survive. I am seriously thinking of taking another job to supplement my current income but that would mean I get lesser sleep and lesser time.
Although I know I could never find another guy like BaoBei. But seriously, I think being single is still the best after all. Less headaches! BaoBei now no longer listens to anything I want to say or have to say. There are many many times I feel like giving up totally. Giving up my life. Nowadays I keep thinking of suicidal thoughts. Money is always the main reason of why we keep arguing. I no longer know what am I doing, I no longer know who am I and what am I living for anymore. There are times I feel like going back to my own self once again. Being alone and in my own world. At least it'll be better than the things I am facing now.
Recently I keep dreaming of my ex-boyfriend and some other strange dreams that I couldn't explain. I also heard some of my friends that the end of the world is coming very soon! In 21st December 2012. Jesus has already recarrianted into this world as human but we don't know who is He. BaoBei said if this was to be real, I just have to bear 3 more years.
Recently I keep dreaming of my ex-boyfriend and some other strange dreams that I couldn't explain. I also heard some of my friends that the end of the world is coming very soon! In 21st December 2012. Jesus has already recarrianted into this world as human but we don't know who is He. BaoBei said if this was to be real, I just have to bear 3 more years.
Wouldn't it be better if I am dead??? Nothing to stress about. Nothing to argue about, don't need to care about anything and everything...
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