Saturday, January 12, 2008

Friendship broken???

Went to church to queue for service. The message for the day was great! It talks about forgiveness. But seriously, I really find it hard to forgive, needless to say - forget. Right after the service, Lorraine look for HuiYi, Steph, Jayne, BaoBei and me for talk. On the way there, I heard people keep on accusing BaoBei of reporting to Lorraine about us clubbing. I was very mad at them but I tried very hard to keep my cool. Don't accuse people if you don't have the proof that they did so!!!! After that when Lorraine talk to us together, she ask us certain questions and I realize that I drink the least glass of alcohol! But still she was very unhappy about it. I was waiting for Lorraine to ask,"Any thing you guys wanna say?" for a long time cos I wish to raise my frustrations directly at all of them!(excluding Lorraine of course). I then tell Lorraine that some people accuse BaoBei of telling her! When I said that, Steph and HuiYi stared hard at me. After Lorraine address the matter, I was being ignored for a period of time while they are discussing the photographs. Anyway, I started to bear this grudge against certain people in the group. Your worst enemy is really indeed your best friend! If they wanna fell out with me because they falsely accuse of BaoBei or because of this matter, I don't mind. I keep getting misunderstandings and losing friends anyway, to an extend that I am numb about it. If you think that putting the blame on someone else and falsely accusing someone would make your life feel better, so be it.

Went over to Lorraine after she has spoken with BaoBei. She talk about the relationship between us when she reads my blog. She said my words are very harsh(I am always harsh in words) and that I shouldn't be thinking about changing bf! She talks to us a lot of things that make me think.

Went home with BaoBei but I think from now onwards, certain part of my thinking changes(hopefully). I am really extremely disappointed that people like to accuse others even without solid proof that the person has done it. What are friends for? Can someone answer me this?

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