Went to stay at BaoBei's place as usual. But this time, something was very different. Quarrel with BaoBei all because of that stupid woman!!!(Turtle aka MeiFong!) Just because she is ONE year older than us, so what?! Very big ah?! BaoBei keep saying that she was not in the wrong. I was thinking,"Okay lor! Since you wanna side THAT WOMAN, then no choice lor! I sometimes wonder THAT WOMAN is your gf or I am your gf?!"
Met Esther on Thursday because I work half day that day. And then.....I saw THAT WOMAN with her!!! I gave -_-" expression and Esther was like,"Are you okay? U don't mind I ask her out right? I thought you guys are okay le since this was so long ago?" Hello?! I will never ever forget what she said!!! And how she TWIST my words to BaoBei...Li hai! Very li hai! This person is more "cleverer" than a "A" level student! Until now, Turtle STILL don't know what she did wrong that I am so pissed off(I guess that is the most gentleness word for "Du lan"?). She can still SHOUT AT ME on my face that day,"What?! I know you are still angry about what I said about your job right?!" You imagine this scenario: She shout at me IN FRONT OF EVERYONE AT TAKASHIMAYA SHOPPING CENTRE that day! The day that WHAT she told me on phone at my workplace, I am already very angry. Then, I am MORE ANGRY when she go twist my words to BaoBei(which until now BaoBei still sides her). The most part, I am angry about this WHOLE incident, is that, right after this incident, I think...a day after? Turtle SMS BaoBei saying that she knows why BaoBei don't pick up her calls and don't reply her SMS. Is because of me. I am already 80% HOT when she said that! WHY?! Hello?! YenHao is YOUR BOYFRIEND or MINE?! Why?! He must 24-hour standby for YOUR SMS and PHONE CALLS?! Then I SMS her back to tell her NOT TO ASSUME THINGS! Since she likes to assume things so much, then I let her be! She then SMS BaoBei the SMS that I sent her and I got scolding from BaoBei and that is when he said this,"Don't poke your nose into our business can?! This is between me and her! So you don't be a busybody and SMS her on my behalf!" READ and RE-READ this sentence that BaoBei told me on the phone when I was on the way to his place. To a couple, in between a mutual friend, you go think about it what is wrong with this sentence and try figure it out WHY I am 100% angry that time! At that point of time I was thinking this in my head,"Into OUR business??? Between YOU and HER?! So you are saying that I am the third party? Or you are saying both of you are couples and I am just an outsider? Or that SHE IS YOUR GIRLFRIEND lah?"
At this point of time, my mind is total blank. All I could think in my head was this two words,"B-R-E-A-K U-P" But then again if Esther came to know about it, she will talk me out of breaking up. Which she already did once. So what BaoBei is rare breed? So what he is gentle? So what if he is....(Fill in your own words or impression of him) If he SIDES ANOTHER woman or women instead of his own gf, something must be wrong. Okay...assume that I really did something wrong that he feels that the other party is right but....I am a person who is extremely sensitive to WORDS! That is why, English dictionary have this sentence called,"MIND YOUR WORDS".
After quarrelling with BaoBei, when I want to walk out of his room door, he suddenly hug me very tight. Part of me feel like slapping him, kicking him, punching him etc, ANYTHING but to hug him back. But it was his hug that also made me feel at least a little bit better. S.H.E's song was right,"他还不懂" it sings about a guy she met in Korea, but that guy doesn't know what a girl really wants. Somewhere in the lyrics, she sings,"他还不懂，永远不懂，一个拥抱能代替。。(shou you)
But then, somehow I know...the feeling that I used to have towards BaoBei can never be the same again. I still love him but.......the kind of love is not the same anymore. I don't know how to explain what I am feeling now. Just that everything seems to go wrong. If I have to share BaoBei with another woman, I rather leave BaoBei. Some times, single is really better than attach. At least, problems that occur might not be so much and will not have such a big impact.
I will end here for now. Just blog to vent my anger and thinking. No one knows what I am thinking now. I wonder is that good or is that bad?
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