I have been reading a book - Rich Dad's guide to financial freedom. It's more of a financial book about Investment, what's a good investment and bad investment etc. I then realize after reading half of the pages of the book, that I was and still am a fool in money!!! I am forever stuck in the E column. Those who read the book will understand what I meant. The book has 4 columns, E, S, B and I. E stands for Employee - People who work for money(Before you think,"Who doesn't?" Ah huh! That is the problem of people's mindset) S is for Self-Employed which is a category I wish to venture into if I really have the capital. These two are the left side of the money "game". These people work hard for money but ultimately in the end, whether they earn or lose, they will only find out only when they are face to face with death itself. But usually, for people like me, it's a sure lose situation. It's like you know 4D and Toto..you know chances of striking is either 1/10 or 50/50 yet you still throw like what? $100 a day or $2000 a week buying 4D or Toto NOT knowing whether you will win or not? In the end, if you never ever strike, you will lose all of your money that you buy that stupid ticket. But for S itself, it's not that they'll lose out forever. If they know how to go from S to I or S to B, they will someday become really rich. Provide if they are smart enough to know how to do "I" and how to run a "B".
After meeting Li Lian, I feel very down about life. I am really tired of living(Seriously). But Li Yi's advice was...something that says if I am tired, I should take a rest and then move on or something like that in an email. But the problem is, I tend to think a lot on things and on the future. I am constantly worried and fight for money. Recently, I met an old Uncle at my workplace. I pour my problems to him. This is his advice, see if you get what he meant: 钱来不要推, 钱走不要追!
He says from the day we were born, our destiny and fate has been determined by God himself. It is impossible for us to change our destiny and fate. I don't fully agree with his sentence, because I chose to believe in one thing, YOU can shape your own destiny and fate, by the LIFE CHOICES that you made in each phases of your life. I have made many, if not, a lot of WRONG choices in my younger life, now, I have nothing but to live in regret and a lot of,"What if I had done this? What if I have not done that? Would it make a lot of difference?"
My Mum walk by and saw me alone, she ask me questions about BaoBei. I knew it that she would definitely look down on him as she did to all my other exs. Because of one factor. I used to think that it's not important. The most important is a guy's heart and faithfulness but.....now as I grow up, I have learn some lessons the hard way...by my eyes and by my ears. Some times, by knowledge of other sources. After that, I realize one thing: Love really cannot survive in this world but money can. Though money can't buy true love, but you cannot deny that love itself has a lot of heartache. This is what I experience recently.
I have been thinking, since BaoBei likes to support that woman, I might as well let them be together. Though she don't like BaoBei and BaoBei have no emotional feelings towards her, but can someone explain to me this situation:
A and B are couple for 2 years. They met C through mutual friends. A and C used to get along well with each other, only have small quarrel occasionally but everything will be fine the next day or so that kind. Until one day, C said something that hurt A very much. A went to confide in B as usual every time A and C fights. Usually C will said things that are very sarcastic. BUT here is the problem:
Instead of comforting A as a boyfriend should, B instead, turn the tables around and make it seems as if A is in the wrong. On top of that, A realize something that B and her rest of her friend NEVER EVER notice. Whenever A and C argue or quarrel, B will always side C without fail no matter what situation. This time, A see the whole picture. Though they do not like each other but....something seems to be amiss whenever A quarrelled....and B, will never ever see her point of view.
End of story, although like I said, they are not together but since B as a boyfriend, always sides that other girl instead of his own girlfriend, doesn't that make her a indirect "3rd party"? I don't know what will you think?
I am very disappointed, very sad, I don't wish to hear, don't wish to see, don't wish to think and don't wish to know. Everything I do is wrong. No matter what....
Met Esther on Friday. I met her cos I knock off very early and since I haven't seen her for a long time, I decided to meet her. She has permed her hair...I am not used to it initially but now after some time, I felt it looks okay on her. Then.......I saw SOMEONE with her whom I do not wish to see...but is okay. She is entitled to be whomever she wishes to be. She said she thought that things have past so just forget it. Hello? Okay...I am petty! Okay?! I will never ever forget what she said. Everyone says she doesn't mean it or whatever shit! Or her pattern is like that blah blah blah. I know! But at the same time, I am doing this - MY ATTITUDE PROBLEM to let her see, that NOT EVERYONE can accept for her straight-forwardness especially NOT combined with her sarcastic remarks!!! NOT EVERYONE CAN ACCEPT!!! She likes who she is, that's her problem. If she thinks that WORDS DON'T KILL, I want to proof her wrong!!! She doesn't know who HuiYi is..she doesn't know why friendships on my side break very often!!! Because of one simple reason: THE WORDS YOU USE! Okay...since she doesn't know my example, how about Ivan's example?! What did she SAY to PISS IVAN OFF?! So Esther, you still think she doesn't mean it? You still think that WORDS DON'T KILL? Go and analyze and think about it. Or you experience the HURT you feel when you are with her and the WORDS she used on you, then you come and tell me again.
I will end here for now. Will blog again some other time.
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