I want new job and better pay!!!

I hate my current job!!! I want to change job!!! Today after work, my supervisor told Wendy and me that he will give 2 of us a trial from tomorrow onwards until next week. He says if business is still so bad after this 1 week trial, he has to let one of us go. Wendy then said,"Let me go lah, and let QiuFen stay" I then stared and shake my fist at her.(behind my supervisor's back of course!) I seriously hope that it's the other way round. Wendy stay, I go! Cos there is really no prospect in this line and the pay is the 2nd lowest pay I ever get in my whole life!(The first lowest pay is MacDonald's and KFC's!) I have told Lorraine about it and she ask me to find another job before I ever quit this job.

Met HuiYi and we went to my house together. She wants to do her resume but she has no Internet connection at home. She also help me to apply through a website that she's in and look for online jobs for me. She was surprise that I like factory job a lot! I do not know that factory job is fall under "Logistics" category. I used to work in Changi factory and the pay is $800 per two weeks. So I can easily earn $1600 per month. BUT! The problem is, it requires me to work on BOTH WEEKENDS from 7.30am - 8pm(plus overtime...sometimes up to 11pm). The off-day will only fall on weekdays ONLY. I think if I told Lorraine I want to go back to work in my ex-company factory and told her about the work timing, she's really going to scold me till Kingdom comes. HuiYi wanted to work at first because she heard about the $800 per 2 weeks offer. I then told her,"But hor, there's one condition: You have to work on BOTH WEEKENDS and the only off day is on week days. Then, you have to think, you cannot go service, maybe cannot go CG, and then ultimately, of course, cannot see your ZZ at all" When she heard that, she gave me the -_-(sian) look and said,"Don't want! Cannot! Like that Lorraine will also kill me and I will miss my ZZ"

After that I send her to the bus stop and went home to update my resume. I just pray and hope that I'll get a good paying job soon...

Work + Sermon

Work nowadays is very stressful. More and more things are required and the menu has also change. The way we were suppose to serve the customers is also changing. I don't know should I be happy with the change or not. Most of the people I know, told me that I am not suitable to work in a job that requires me to serve customers. I think I am only suitable to work with things after all. Like Production Operator, Data Entry etc.

Pastor preach about a very special sermon about our attitudes of life and he also touch about our spiritual life that amazed me! I feel that ALL Christians should listen to the word as I think it would help them very much in their spiritual life especially if they are not very regular at church. The sermon is so good, that it is already for pre-order and we are only at Lesson 4! Somehow, I have the feeling God is staring down at me from Heaven when Pastor peach certain things. It is something that so-called "test" whether or not we are a true Christian. -_-"

HuiYi called me some time ago and told me to go for the emerge event. She was very surprise that I have never even attend ANY emerge event at all. She said to me,"You must attend! It's very nice!" Maybe this year I will attend to see what is so wonderful about it, that until CLY will come so early to church to queue(after the emerge event, she's the FIRST to queue for service every time).

I do not know what to do now. I don't like my current job but I don't know how to switch jobs. Plus my qualification is low, it's very difficult to find a good paying job. HuiYi says I am more suitable for Admin jobs and I was like,"Huh?!" I don't know. I hate office enviroment because they tend to backstab you. I hate it more that you knew it but yet you couldn't do anything about it.

Haiz..I think I'll end here for now. Nothing much has been happening. Will blog again some other time.

Shopping with HuiYi

Met HuiYi after work at Orchard to go for a walk. We later then went to window shop at first. I saw a necklace that cost $15 but it was not suitable for me. She said that I rather spend money on BaoBei than on myself. I don't know? I think only BaoBei knows. Went to top shop and HuiYi help me to choose 3 tops. I try it out and let her see. Only Manage to buy 1 top and I like it very much as it can cover my fats. Went to Far East Plaza to window shop and also manage to buy a pair of slippers there. The slippers are a little bit expensive to me. Far East things are very expensive! I was a bit angry that when I wanted to look for the Microphone necklace, it is not available anywhere but now after I buy it, it seems that the necklace are selling everywhere! QI SHI REN! But the price is also more expensive than the one I afford.

Went to window shopping all over Orchard and after that head back to HuiYi's place to watch the 9pm Drama show. I like the show very much! It is a Chinese show about relationships and it talks about men and women, their thinking and their attitude towards things. Most of it are quite true. Can say that it's 99% true. The remaining 1% is depends cos it varies from couple to couple. HuiYi ask how is my relationship with BaoBei and on what level? I feel that my level of relationship with BaoBei is level 2 = Gossipping. While BaoBei's relationship level with me is level 1= Fair weather friends(or Hi-Bye friends). HuiYi was shock that BaoBei and me hardly communicate on a deeper level(heart-to-heart talk, sharing of feelings etc, which is the ultimate level of the Marriage course that I had attend). I envied her and Samuel cos on their side, they have communication, love, understanding etc. Everything that a "normal" couple have that BaoBei and me doesn't. HuiYi warns me that it's very dangerous to my relationship if BaoBei and me don't have proper communication(We are quiet most of the time on phone). The drama shows also feature that one of the Couple's Mum is staying in the household, creating a lot of unhappiness between the couple. HuiYi then mention to me about the marriage course about Leaving our Parents after marriage and cleave to our own spouse to live our own lives. She pointed at the television and said,"This is why Pastor wants us to leave our parents to cleave to our spouse. If the parents remains in the household, complicated matters and quarrelling/arguments will arise and it's not good for the couple. It will somehow strain the couple's relationship".

BaoBei then called me and we talk a bit on phone. He was very angry that I anyhow spend money again and bans me on my fetish(refer to my previous blog entries). He also ask me not to buy anything for him ever again -_-" (Mumbers: Lalalalalala...erm...That I cannot promise you, BaoBei. Still have your birthday, our monthly anniversaries, our one year anniverary etc. So.....Lalalalalala..can I say No? Please?)

Heard that HuiYi that Samuel is jealous(or envious?)that I buy things for BaoBei. Samuel then told HuiYi,"DearDear, you see..Juliet buy things for YenHao. Can you buy for me too?" HuiYi was very angry. But she have her own ways to show her love for Samuel that I couldn't do it. HuiYi is more of an expressive person. While I am not. The worst part is, HuiYi also knows I have split personality, which she says, it explains my strange behaviour and indecisive. Samuel, if one day you happen to read my blog, there is one thing I want to tell you. Not that I buy things for YenHao. Cos...that is my own way of showing him that I love him. I don't know how to express myself well, I am bad at hand-made things and I am not a romantic person. So...the only way I could "express" myself is to use practical ways like using money to buy his favourite things or the things that he like to have. While not everyone appreciates my this kinda gesture of expressing, but that is how I show love to a person. Other than that, I really don't know how to love a person. How I wish I can be like HuiYi, she knows how to take care of you. I don't know how to take care of YenHao.

I think I will end here for now. Will go for shopping spee again with HuiYi tomorrow.

SUCKER!!!

Went to Bishan Junction 8 for Sun's autograph session. I was very surprise that BaoBei and I were quite early there. There was only 1 row of queue when we get there(but very few people), about 7 people in the queue. We then proceed to the front when the Sun Fan club members ask us to move to the front. Half way through, we were stopped and told to go downstairs to Long John Silver to queue as the person claim that the queue was suppose to start there. I was like,"What the...?! We were not told about it!!!" I do not know how the sister in front argue with the person but somehow we were able to go to the front without going to Long John Silver's in the end.

When Sun finally appear, we were very excited. She then went into a glass door and never came out for a very long time. The fans keep on chanting different things saying,"We want sun! We want sun!" repeatedly for one time,"He Yao Shan! He Yao Shan!"at another time and,"Yao Shan! Yao Shan!", "Sun!" quite a lot of times. They then sing one of Sun's song loudly and I couldn't join them cos I don't know how to sing that particular song without looking at the lyrics. When Sun finally came, she apologise for taking too long inside(I wonder what is she doing so long inside since she never change her outfit or anything). She then sings "Chun tian de wei xiao" and "Ni Shi Wo de Gong Zhu"(a song that I never heard before). I know it's in her album but I didn't really go and listen to all the songs inside. She then came down and shake the fan's hands. I didn't get to shake cos I was busy filming. Delete that film in the end cos the people behind keep on pushing and knocking until I film quite angrily and anyway it was not good anymore.

I recognise some of the 2nd and 3rd row people cutting the queue and went ahead to take Sun's signature!!! I didn't say anything although I am unhappy. I ask BaoBei to help me get the signature cos he doesn't have the CD and I went to wait for him outside instead. Saw Lorraine on the way. Went to MacDonald's to buy takeaway food and went to wait for shuttle bus.

Reach church quite late and we had to sit separately. Luckily we manage to catch Pastor's sermon. After service we went to fellowship. Suppose to meet Wei Da but the timing was post phoned to 11pm. After finish eating, I then went to walk around. When I went into YELLOW shop, I was browsing at the things there. One of the sales assistant was extremely rude! As if I have no right to window shop! She complain loudly to her colleague,"Don't have money don't buy lah! Waste our time! We're going to close soon!" half of me feel like going over to punch the girl's face! I then went to the other sales assistant and asked her for the Manager's number. She gave me an office number instead which no one picks up the call. I have emailed to the address but recipient failed. I told BaoBei I will call the office on Monday instead. My lunchtime is 30 minutes..so I have tons of time to call! The outlet is at Tampines YELLOW shop. The Jurong Point YELLOW shop service is also not so good but not as bad as Tampines! I wonder how the managment there train their staffs? The customer service is extremely bad! Their customer service sucks to the core!!! Or they don't bother at all!? No wonder they have to fork out money to be advertise on TV. Their things are trendy yes. But Of all my life, I have never met any service provider that is as rude as her! And to that fat girl working in Tampines YELLOW shop, if you happen to see this by any means, Please go and learn some customer service skills! Did I offend you in the first place?! You mean that I have no right to window shop at your outlet lah?! Even if you are going to close the shop, there is no need to complain loudly. I am not deaf! You can kindly ask me if I wanted to purchase anything or explain to me that the shop is going to close! There is no need to "chase" me out using that way! I don't know what is wrong with your attitude?! But then one thing I can ensure you, by hook or by crook I will want to see your Boss or Management! Overall, YOUR SERVICE SUCKS!

Went to meet WeiDa and Elizaberth at Somerset. They then bring us to a pub where it plays live band and there are sexy dancers on the stage. There is also a time for the people to dance. It looks okay to me. Had only a few drinks as BaoBei don't let me drink too much. He suspect that I have liver problems. Went "home" at 4am and BaoBei keep disturb my sleep and I was very annoyed.

I think I will end here for now. Have to buy food for ViVi. Poor Vivi..very hungry..Will blog again some other time. Tampines YELLOW Shop SUCKS!!!

Shopping!

Very stress at work today. Finally business was good today as there are quite a lot of customers and the cafe was packed. But the problem is that because there are too many customers, we tried our very best to satisfy all of them but in the end we lose 3 tables of customers(1 table = 6 people). 1 of the table, was my primary schoolmate. I don't think she recognise me. She has become more prettier. She used to be the Primary School 2nd most prettiest girl!

After the lunch time was over, I wash the plates unhappily. Broke down and cried and Wendy was shocked! She told me not to take things too hard on myself. I was worried cos my supervisor warn me that if I don't perform well again he may find another replacement to replace me. I then apologise to my supervisor but told him that we have already tried our best. He was scolded by Boss(one of the "big shots" came down today)and the kitchen was extremely messy.

Went to meet HuiYi and went to CPF building to enquire something. The person said the scheme was for 40 years and above -_-" HuiYi then bring me to shop around at Chinatown. The things are are MUCH MORE CHEAPER!(some even cheaper than 50%! while some are only cheaper by 30 cents or so) She ask me not to shop at Watson anymore but to shop at budget shop to save money(by 50%!). HuiYi then bring me to window shop around. Finally found the necklace I have been looking for!!! When HuiYi went into a shop selling full of different types of necklaces, she shout at me excitedly,"Juliet! Juliet! Come and see!" I then followed her to see what is it and she point to me the necklace and I shout and jump in delight,"Yeh!!! Finally found it le!!!" The shop keeper gave me a strange look. I look for that necklace everywhere but to my disappointment, it was not in stock. That shop has 2 silver colour left and 3 golden colour left. After I bought one of the silver ones, the shop only left the last piece. HuiYi then hagged the price for me. The shopkeeper then gave me special discount as she thought that I was a student!

HuiYi then went to my place and saw something...she said she almost fainted. Watch the 9pm Chinese show with her and I find it interesting. Some of the character's relationship in the TV look like Samuel and HuiYi while the other's relationship act like BaoBei and me. HuiYi also said that my Mum looks very fierce. Haiz....why everyone says that?

I think I will end here for now. Will blog again some other time. Yeh!!! Very happy!!! Thank you HuiYi!!! *Hugs!! Muack*

CHC Carnival + HuiYi's words

Went for CHC Carnival yesterday. Saw a lot of things at the Carnival especially food! The games are not much. Only arcade games and a spinning game. Rush to the back door with Jacqueline in the end and we were stop by the ushers. When we could finally get in, we couldn't get any T-shirts as we were late. The T-shirts that the Sun Fan club are wearing were all very nice and in different types too. Got free tickets for the carnival!!!

"Chase" Sun below the stage with BaoBei and the rest of the fans there. Some of them manage to squeeze their way to the very front of the stage. While chasing Sun, I lost BaoBei midway when the rest of the fans keep pushing me(including the guards) to the front. I was at the very front of the stage by then and BaoBei was stuck at the very back end of the stage. When I got pushed, I fell onto one of the chairs and I happened to see a hand phone LEFT OPENLY UNATTENDED!?(Nokia N73) I then took the Hand phone and throw it in the bag that was nearest to it. A girl saw me doing that and smiled at me. I just pray that the person won't "lose" his or her hand phone because of what I did. But it still makes me wonder,"How can a person leave his/her hand phone on the chair SO OPENLY!?" especially that particular day itself is a family day(Labour Day) and not all the attendees are Church-goers/Christians in CHC!!!

After the concert, we then went back to the carnival and this time, there were too many people and too crowded! The queue was extremely and super long that Mike even queue for 3 hours to finally buy 10 burgers. I was very angry at a particular store cos when I queue up, the person said that they will serve the last 4 persons in front of us and after that they will close the shop. I then went to Hall 9 by myself to look around. It was very crowded there too. By the time I came back to Hall 7, the store had ANOTHER QUEUE, this time more than 8 people are queuing!!! I was very angry that they lied!!! I was thinking of using a chair to throw at their stall but didn't do that in the end. When I wanted to go over to confront the shopkeepers, BaoBei held me back. He took a long long time to make me calm down. It's very difficult for me to remain angry when BaoBei's face was right in front of me(less than 5 inches apart)and he keep making cute cute expressions to me and using a kinda voice that really can make me laugh, to talk to me. I think I have scare some of my CGMs and have SMS to apologise to them this morning(Guyz, if you see this message, I am sorry for my attitude that day)

Hail a cab at the last minute and head to BaoBei's place. Took the banner with me that Jac left behind(I always mix up Jac and Jas..so sorry). Finally able to ride on the cab I have always been wanting to ride in!!! The new Hydai cab was quiet, smooth and FAST! Sleep for 5-6 hours before rushing back home to change my clothes to work. Business was extremely bad today but I pray that it will get better tomorrow.

HuiYi then called me at night to chat about many things. There are times I really wish that she could learnt to treasure Samuel more. HuiYi, if you are reading this, if possible, be less D and more P can? Especially towards your ZZ(you should know what this stands for). She then told me something that I feel like crying. I then SMS BaoBei that I need to have a talk with him. He called me back but his environment is quite noisy so it's very difficult to talk over the phone that way. Anyway, I also don't know how to put my thoughts and feelings across so I get forget about the whole thing. Thanks HuiYi, I will talk to my "Ah Lao" about it.

I will end here for now. Will blog again some other time.

Surprise + expected outcome = depress

Went for CGM on Friday and accompanied HuiYi to Clarke Quay shopping centre. As I was late for meeting her, I took a cab there instead and she said that I waste money on unnecessary cab fare. We then saw a shop and she saw a ear phone necklace and recommend me to buy for BaoBei. I bought it in the end and went for CGM.

After CGM, BaoBei then SMS me while I was in the ladies' with some of my CGMs. When I came out, I was surprise to see him and gave him a hug. We then went in and wrote something on a paper while Lorraine said will be displayed at the Museum of Israel for many many years. So we must not made any mistake while writing it.

The next day, I accompanied BaoBei to Yishun Safra for his air rifle shooting game. Although he didn't qualified into the finals but I know that he has tried his best. Anita, Yue Ming and Bro Eugene was there too. Bro Eugene and Anita were both qualified into the finals. I then congratulate them.

Went to expo to have our lunch before going for service. BaoBei then ask me a very strange question and I thought about it for a while before answering him. He ask me,"If there's another girl who wants to fight with you over me, what will you do?" I just replied,"I will give you up to the girl. I won't fight with her" He ask me,"Then what if I only love you?" I just replied,"I'll confront the girl and have a talk with her". But in reality I doubt I would do that. The question that BaoBei asked, has actually happened to me before but on an ex-boyfriend of mine. In the end, I answer BaoBei,"Do you know why I would rather give you up than to fight with her over you? Cos I know myself very well, usually I will lose to the other party in terms of looks and character. Plus, guys won't ever go after a girl like me". I even ask BaoBei a question and his answer really surprise me. I ask this,"If you were to have a choice to choose between a girl who is very fierce, rough and very controlling over you, and a girl who is very sweet, feminine and gentle towards you, which one would you choose?" For majority of the guys out there, their answer is obviously number 2. BaoBei just replied me,"You should know my answer".

The service was awesome and after that we celebrated AiZhen and Jac's birthday. Saw Bro.Tony with his cute little daughter! After that we fellowship with a few of the CGMs before we rush off to help out BaoBei's Mum. The next day, we then went to have breakfast. BaoBei went out to play Basketball with his friends.

After Breakfast and when I was left alone with his eldest cousin, she then told me something which made me quite depress but I just keep quiet. She then comment that I was being too quiet throughout the day. But I do not wish to talk to anyone. I just want some time alone.

I think I will end here for now. May blog again some other time.

Broken Relationships

Quarrelled with my Mum yesterday night over the TV. She ask me how to program the TV but I admit that I was wrong that the tone of my voice wasn't very nice in replying her. Okay, it's my fault, I admit. But I really really really doesn't understand why, it just starts with the TV and my tone of voice!!! Why does she have to drag past incidents PLUS BAOBEI'S INCIDENT and quarrel with me?! Totally irrelevant to the issue at hand!!! I cannot help her because I myself don't know how to program my own new TV, which I hardly watch!!! Then?! My fault lah?! Since I hardly use the TV and Pa teach me just ONE TIME, she expects me to remember how to use the new TV remote control?! Okay, Sorry! I was really really in the wrong for using that impatient kinda tone to talk to her! But then, instead of sticking it to the topic to quarrel with me, she picks past(AND I MEAN PAST AS IN 3 - 5 YEARS AGO!!!)incidents to quarrel with me and she add BaoBei into the quarrel!!! I was like,"Wah piang eh!!! WTH is happening?!" She then threatened to have me out of the house and throw my Birth cert to me to ask me to get out. While my Bro is trying to solve the problem to help my Mum and me to have peace, I was actually thinking where to go and sleep for the night? But then, I will definitely NOT look for my friends first. I was thinking of sleeping at the stair case of my Block but then I scared that I will see...that guy! Only God knows what he will do if he sees me outside alone at 2am in the morning!

My Bro then talk to me calmly and later he ask me to go apologise to my Mum. I apologise in the end but then things will change from now. She doesn't understand why I don't ever go home on weekends and then blame it on BaoBei and said a lot of negative things which only BaoBei's Mum and Brother will know whether is it true? After everything that my Mum had said, I seriously think that I shouldn't have born into this world at all. How good would it be, if I wasn't exist at all in this world. Yes Lorraine, I know God Loves me and I am a child of God. But sometimes I feel that even though it's just a simple expectation, I couldn't even fulfil it. The marriage course proves to fail on me cos I am still an emotionally shut-down person(or maybe that's how I feel).

Went shopping alone and spend unnecessary money again on bathroom items. I had this fetish for showering Gel and items but I don't understand myself why(Those daily normal showering form). To tell you the truth, I already have 6 bottles of un-used showering Gels at home. Spend $10+ on Watson's small bottle of showering form and lotion($1.95 each...bought 5 bottles), of course plus other items like toothbrush(I need it cos my toothbrush is getting dirty at the ends) and buy a snack. Total amount is then $10+. I had told HuiYi about my fetish and when she step into Watsons to window shop, I saw some bottles of showering form and try to resist to buy it. Am I sick?(As in "Bian Tai" in Chinese or abnormal in English). On normal days or when I am in a rush, I will spend 15 minutes in the bathroom(while my Bro spends an hour..and i don't know what he is doing showering for 1 hour!) if I were to "play" inside the bathroom, it will then be either 30 minutes - 45 minutes(Play soap bubbles, Showering Gels, shampoos etc. Basically playing with Bubbles that I've "made" lah)I just find the bubbles and form interesting and fun that's all. So....BaoBei, if you feel that I spend too long in the bathroom(longer than 30 minutes), you can be sure that I am not bathing inside, but playing.

I have to end here for now. Going to SL to meet my "friends". Will blog again some other time.

Expectations

Went to meet HuiYi after my work to help her to get something. She told me that it's been a long time since she last went shopping spee. We then went to River walk and put our bags down. Met MingWei along the road and he followed HuiYi and me to Clarke Quay Shopping Centre. The last time I went there, I remember seeing a necklace that I was thinking of buying for BaoBei. This time when I went back there, the necklace was gone! The sales assistants said they sold two of the necklace that I wanted to show HuiYi about. I then enquire about a particular necklace that I was looking for a very long time. They then said they have the stock but it has not arrive yet! The price is much much cheaper than Orchard! I then leave my contact number and the sales assistant said she will contact me if the necklace arrives! Yeh!!! Finally found it!!! YES!!!

Went back to River Walk and I went to the ladies before going into the lecture room. When I went in, Lorraine was sort-of "Staring" at me and HuiYi whisper for me to go out. Oops! Sorry...I didn't know a meeting was going on. My apologies. I then went out and saw AiZhen with Mike and Shao Kun. She then pass me a card to ask me to write. When I saw the card cover, I was very surprise! It was very nicely done. I then pass to Bro to ask him to help me to write and then the card was passed around - to write encouraging words. I was the last person to write. By the time it was my turn to write, it almost didn't have anymore space left. Ai Zhen then tease me,"BaoBei!" Cos that's the way I greet YenHao. I am not a person who express myself well be it in words or actions. I just write what I was thinking at the moment with some Chinese words.

Lorraine then start CG but the atmosphere was a bit weird cos it was Chee Yuan first time playing for the CG~Wooooo!!!*Claps* Overall it was okay. Lorraine's preaching for the day somehow made me feel a little guilty. She later prayed for me. After CGM, Lorraine then made herself clear that she will no longer be booking seats from now on. Anyone who is late will have to sit by themselves. She feels that she pampered us too much. She then share the experience whereby she have to argue with the Ushers just to help the CG to get good seats and she said something like nobody seems to appreciates her effort. I was there when she did that and I witness it myself along with some CGMs. I was thinking, maybe it's not that the CG doesn't appreciates her effort but maybe it could be that they do not know how to express their appreciation. She then said if we do not have any valid reason not to turn up for Sunday PM, we better turn up. I was thinking,"I thought this was a choice whereby whether we WANT to turn up?" Cos I remember she ever said that it's useless that we were "force" to go. Or we just go because we HAVE to go. She said we need to have a mentality that says,"I go because I WANT to be there". Please...Lorraine, don't misunderstand me. What I am trying to say is...there are certain things that was said that I don't really understand. That's all. She was also not happy that when she don't take the initiative to have the CGMs meet up on weekdays, nobody meets up. For me, I always had this,"Go where? Do what?" when it comes to outings and I am not usually the person who knows how to plan things. Sometimes, due to budget problems, I don't dare to go to outings. Some more plus nowadays I am trying hard to find night shift job(please don't ask me for what).

Went for supper with the CGMs and later Ming Ze send me home to my block. Went home to play Second Life(SL) and saw my "friends" there. I then told one of them a problem and she ask me to see a doctor if I need to. Ever since my Avatar won the "Thinc Babe of the Month - April", the people in SL just treats me differently. There are many other girls there are prettier than my Avatar but surprisingly, my Avatar won the award. I am now trying to change my Avatar into a very sexy lady but I don't have the skin and body shape to do so.

I think I end here for now. Will blog again some other time.

P.S: Went to see Doctor le....Gastric Pain. Cannot skip meals and must take medicine accordingly. Sianz...Veggie fast? By the way, BaoBei, your suggestion to my supervisor Chef has been considered. He said your idea of suggestion was very good and he will talk to Boss about it.

Suggestion please???

Went to work today as usual but business was not very good at the cafe today. My supervisor has finally teach me how to do Latte and cappuccino, Oooh so that's how it was done! He also explains that all his equipment are very slow so he could only serve one customer at a time or do one thing at a time. I am very surprise that he is Lactose intolerant! At least now I can handle the drinks station now. He wants me to learn because from next week onwards, he wants me to station inside the kitchen while Wendy will station outside.

After work, he then ask me to stay back as he wants to discuss something with Wendy and me. He was asking us to give suggestion on how to improve the cafe and business. He also ask me is there anything that I do not like working here and what can it be improve on? Strangely, he never ask Wendy! I then said overall, I like the working place but I do not like the pay. Cos my Mum and I quarrelled very often nowadays over my pay wise(because I do not have any CPF contribution here). I had saw another advertisement working in somewhere as a cashier from 7pm till 1am and I wish to apply but then I know if BaoBei were to find out, we will be arguing very fiercely over it.

None of us had in mind on how to improve the business. Sending out fliers proves to fail. He said that fliers are very common and some people might not even look at the flyer and just throw it in the dustbin. He had considered of extending the opening hours but then he knew very well that his partners would not agree. He wants to open a chill bar until 12 midnight so that those customers who wanted to drink beers and wanted to catch up with friends or have a chat could come to the cafe to do so. He said not everyone likes Discos, Karaoke, Pubs etc and comment that only rowdy people goes to such places(That means he is indirectly saying I am rowdy lah!?). He said some people likes to have a place where they could drink beer and could chat/catch up with their friends without having the music blasting at the same time. He would like to make the cafe to be a place where customers could have their beer and chat with their friends happily. But then again, he has to consult his partners to discuss knowing that they would definitely disapproves. I was thinking to myself,"If he is confident that there will be business at night and customers would definitely come to eat and drink, then it's fine with me" But then again, it requires us to work way into the night. Which means I will definitely have to miss CG if his plan were to be fulfilled. I didn't really pray about my job and pray for my supervisor, but at the same time, I really wish to know what God thinks about this. He also plans to open over the weekends(And then also means I must work weekends lah?!). Seriously, I really cannot see any prospect of me staying long in this line. I like the job, I like the working hours but for pay wise, I really don't like it especially when my Mum is picking quarrels with me over my pay...and then don't know who is the one who don't allow me to work 2 jobs?!(excluding BaoBei)

I really hope people could help me...and my Boss. I would really like to hear suggestions from people how to improve the business. Maybe hopefully I could get advise or feed backs from those people who runs F&B line. Okay lah..I know I am being lame cos you will think,"It's none of my business mah!" But becuase I couldn't think of any idea of how to improve the cafe's business and how to advertise for him that is why I am seeking for public help. I'll value your comments and suggestions :)

Have to end here for now. Sorry for the lame blogging today...

Work?

Went to work as usual today and saw my supervisor cleaning the floor with a broken mop. I was thinking,"Please! -_-" don't be pathetic until like that can?" I then went to sweep the floor and arrange the Menus. From Thursday until today, a particular guy keep on disturbing me from the neighboring eatery shop! But I ignore him. Sometimes, I really wish to use something to throw at him! I didn't see who is it cos I don't bother to look at him. It's nothing, just that whenever I am at the back alley, he likes to "zoot" at me and then say,"Xiao Jie!"(Miss). Somehow the previous incident(please refer to my blog entry before this to read)has made me develop phobia for the guys. From their accent, I had a feeling that they are Malaysians. I just pray that I am able to endure enough not to throw the pail at their stall.

After setting everything up, my supervisor ask me to change money for him and then buy a new mop. I really HATE to go out of the shop nowadays cos I know I will have to listen to the guy "zooting" at me whenever I walk past. When it happens for the first few times, I was thinking that maybe he is calling some other girls but when it happens too frequently especially when I am alone, I really hate it! How I wish I had the courage to shout back at him,"Diam lah! Wah Wu Da Poh Peng You liao lah!" But no choice, since I am the only one who could work morning, I have to endure every other things that comes with it. I had been thinking of changing to another job not because of the guy but because of the pay. The pay is super low and I don't think I could survive with that kinda pay. Maybe I would look for a job after working there for 3 months and see how things goes. I had discuss with BaoBei to let me work another job. Which means I had to hold two jobs, we often end up arguing over it. He doesn't allow me to hold 2 jobs but I told him that one source of income is not enough for me. He's still firmly stick to his decision not to let me work another job. Just don't introduce me office job anymore please!

I then ask Wendy could I swap schedule with her to avoid the guy and she said no cos she had to bring her son to school everyday. Sway...why my luck is so bad nowadays? Wendy then tease me and said,"Aiyah! They zoot you cos you are pretty mah. You should be happy" As if I am!!! Work was quite okay for the rest of the day ahead.

To my friends who are worried about me on my previous entry: Don't worry. I guess everything is fine now. The guy promised that he won't ever look for me again(Thanks to JJ's help) Sorry that I cannot really say what happen. But those who know about this, you can put your mind at ease now. Everything is fine. I am finally "break loose from hell". My nightmare is considered over. It can only be really over when I can finally change my hand phone number. I am glad that I could understand BaoBei on a deeper level due to the situation. He has also given me strength emotionally to overcome the situation. Whatever fears and doubts I had for BaoBei are now gone. I have to thank God for His protection on that night too(Luckily I "lose" my keys that day and couldn't get to go out)

I will end here for now. Sorry for the boring entry. Will blog again some other time.

Burden lifted from my heart....

On Friday night, I didn't really sleep well cos something happened. Called HuiYi in the middle of the night and cried to her. She thought that I cried because I miss BaoBei but then I told her something else. She wanted to tell Lorraine but I do not want anyone else to know about it. So I plead to her not to tell. She "accompanied" me through phone until 2am at night before she finally hang up. I was quite disturbed until 3am in the morning.

Went to meet BaoBei and he sensed something was wrong. He keep probing me but I didn't tell him. BaoBei was very unhappy that I kept things from him. We then went to Expo hall but I forgotten completely that the church is going to Indoor Stadium. Lorraine then sort-of "Lecture" me for being forgetful and said a lot of things to me. Saw my childhood friend at Expo and he said he do not know how to go to the Indoor Stadium. We then lead him there. Went to eat cup noodles at 7-11 and later I bought some sandwiches to eat cos I was not feeling full enough. Saw Mike at the queue and I pass the sandwiches for him and $10 for him to pay.

Later we were caught in the rain while queuing up to go into the Stadium. Saw HuiYi and the rest in the Stadium and we went to greet them. I then pass my hand phone to her to let her see my messages. After she read it, she was very angry with the person. BaoBei then bite his finger hard(Whenever he do this, I know what he means). I was very angry with BaoBei and ask what's wrong? He said,"Everything you also don't wanna tell me! What exactly happened?!" I said,"Nothing!" He then replied,"Then why HuiYi can see your handphone and I cannot see?! You have another boyfriend behind my back?!" I don't know how to explain to him and I really don't want him to know certain things so I just keep quiet. He then bite his finger again and this time I took my keys and pick the "sharpest" key and point it down to my thigh(I learnt this from TV) He then snatch my keys and do the same thing to himself. I then search my bag and found a pen. I use it against my neck. BaoBei then ask HuiYi to stop me. HuiYi then said,"Wei! What are you both trying to do?!" I said,"You see! He take my keys wanting to poke himself!" HuiYi then get my keys back from BaoBei and hand it to me I then put the pen down. At this point of time, Lorraine then come and speak to us. She encourage me to go to the police to make a report against that person. She said BaoBei don't want me to know things and I don't want BaoBei to know things. She said both of us are the same. She also said that I am a child of God and should not be afraid of such threats. She also speak something out that I was thinking to myself and that made me cry. After that she left and I ask HuiYi,"You tell Lorraine?" She said,"No! I don't know how she know!"

BaoBei then look at me and said,"Can you tell me what is going on?! What police report? What guy?" He then check on my handphone and manage to find a file that HuiYi keep it separate for me as an evidence that the guy is harassing me. When BaoBei gets to see the messages, he ask,"Who is Alan?!" I was thinking,"Oh no!" HuiYi then encourage me to tell BaoBei everything. I then told BaoBei what exactly happened and how long this incident has been torment me. I then said to him,"If you think that this guy is my boyfriend or that I had another boyfriend behind your back, let me tell you, he is not! That is all I can say" HuiYi then share with BaoBei a similar incident that happened to her and Samuel also share what is his feelings at that point of time when he learnt about it from HuiYi. BaoBei then took off his spects and he stared at the air angrily. After that he said to me,"Next time, if anything happens, can you please let me know? At least I don't have to be so worried" I then said,"I am afraid that if I told you the truth and what happened, you would leave me. Anyway, after the guy threaten me something, I was more afraid to let you know. I don't know what will your reaction be".

We then watch the service together and it was not bad. We couldn't stay until the end cos BaoBei's phone keep on vibrating non-stop. We then SMS Lorraine to inform her we are leaving early and left. On the way back, he ask a friend(JJ) to help him something. The guy(Alan), then SMS me and JJ was very angry on the phone when I told him about it. I ask Alan to call JJ as he had something to tell him. But he did not reply my SMS nor did he call JJ in the end.

Everything seems peaceful until now. But since this incident happens once every few months, I don't think he will SMS me until maybe a few months later. HuiYi and BaoBei then suggest me to change my hand phone number but I told them I had to pay the penalty fee as my line and contract is not even one year yet. I see how things goes from now on. Don't worry for me. I think everything will be alright in the end.

Daiso + Montip

Went to work in the morning and was surprise to see my Boss and my Manager there. I do not know what they are talking about but my Manager seems to look at me sternly at times. Haiz...what did I do again? Went to do my work but this time, a lot of things crop up and I had failed terribly on my job. Sianz..customers are quite okay today and it's not as busy as I had expected. My Manager has put up a new Menu again. I think he change it every week. The store run out of menu when I was doing the setting. My Manager was very angry that I set the Menu quite late in the morning. He then teach me how to do coffee in the afternoon but I had forgotten the procedures.

After work, I then went to Vivocity initially to buy some things. I then saw QiuZhen there! Was very surprise to see her cos she never told me that she had transferred to Vivocity! She was very happy when she saw me and bring me to a Malay colleague who was also transferred there. She then pretend to serve me cos her colleagues and especially supervisors are walking around. I couldn't find the things I wanted there and I told her I am going to Dhoby Gaut to get it. She said the handsome guy is still working there(don't look at me like that lah..the handsome guy is DiDi okay? He's 2 years my junior!).

I then went to PS and manage to find the things I wanted there. When the handsome Didi saw me, he said,"Eh?! How come you are here?" and smiled at me. I love his smile. He has this very cute irresistible smile that makes him look more cuter than he actually is. It's a pity he doesn't work in the frontline. I believe that if he works in customer service, the customers would love his smile. I told him that I am buying some things and he look at my plastic bag and said,"Wah! You buy so many things!?" Actually, it is not for me but for my BaoBei's three cousins. I then look at my watch and said,"Oei! Knock off le! ByeBye!" He then smile and said that he couldn't knock off now as he has to replace back the things before he could call it a day(Luckily I am no longer working in Daiso!)

Went over to Harbourfront and went to my ex-workplace. When I entered in, I was very surprise to see Peter sitting at the counter! I then said,"Wah! Finally seen you le!" He said,"Why? Miss me huh?" I said,"Ya lor! When I come here you are always not in" He then grumbled that the shop doesn't need him so he was never around the shop. He then said,"I am also working de leh" I was thinking,"Ya right, then who is the one paying your salary huh?"(Other than the customers of course). I went to look at the new arrival bags that Esther said I might like it. The new bags are too small for me. I like the design of it though. Chat with Peter for awhile and bought a pair of earrings from Peter and then walk to the MRT to take a train.

Take the free shutter bus to Tiong Bahru and window shop at The little Match Girl before going home. Feeling very happy today!

Swaying to and fro on the swing, thinking of you
Staring at the stars that's twinkling above the skies
Thinking of the love that you gave
so lovely and true

In the darkness of the night,
I cried for you
Longing for you to be in my arms
A short period of separation
seems like eternity of agony

Baby, your warmth and your undying love
gives me the strength to wait and to carry on
I'll promise I'll wait for you,
each and every day of my life
No matter how long,
No matter how tough,
I will carry on waiting for you

Swinging to and fro as the wind breeze towards my face,
I smiled at the stars above while thinking of you
A different girl you'll see,
A girl that promised you to be strong,
only for you...

Poem created by: Juliet
Date: 5 April 2007

P.S: Sorry, create it out of the blue...some words are not very well express. Especially created for girls who has bfs who are serving the Nation(NS). Hope that the poem would bring certain comfort

Do I really need to see a doctor?

Went for Easter service yesterday and the service was great! Especially the Drama team. They use the "Tokyo Drift" concept for their play. A very funny Drama overall. Every year when they show the part where Jesus was carrying a cross and He was being whip by the soldiers, it made me cry. He could have come down from the cross when the people told him to since He is God himself. But..He didn't cos He wants to fulfil his Father's calling. I like the part most when Jesus was baptise by his cousin, John. A light from the sky shine onto Jesus and a voice said,"This is my son, whom I am well pleased"

Fellowship with BaoBei's army camp mates after that. They are very quiet throughout the time! Except that YuanHui crack some jokes here and there. At the carnival, I saw something quite surprisingly! Someone was even lower profile than BaoBei and me when we first got together! I didn't even know that they went steady! I was thinking,"Since when they are together?!" Anyway, I really don't understand why would someone so beautiful would choose a very simple and plain person for a partner! Cos I expect her future partner to be very wealthy and very manly(those kinda muscular guy) or even those very handsome looking kind of guy! But anyway, as long as she is happy. I think it's her choice of whoever she wants to be with. Went back to BaoBei's home and his cousins are very happy to see me. Took early rest for service the next day.

This morning when I woke up, BaoBei then told me that it was his father's birthday today. I had forgotten about it! Bought his cousins to the carnival and they had used up all the tickets that I have bought for them. Met Ng Jong(my Brother's childhood friend) and wanted to bring him for service but he told me he has meeting at 6pm and he has to leave by 5pm.

Didn't went for service and left with BaoBei's family instead. Throughout the whole morning until now, I felt a very sharp pain on my left womb. BaoBei suspect that I might have problems with my intestine and ask me to go for check up. I don't want to go cos I don't have money to see a doctor for check up. He said I need to go to the hospital to check is there any problem with my digestive system. Maybe I will wait until I get my salary before I go for check up. But I don't think I have problems with my health.

Went for lunch at KFC and after bidding Ng Jong goodbye, I went home with BaoBei. There's a new TV at my home! Yeh! No need to fight over channels with my Bro anymore! I will end here for now. I am still feeling very painful...don't worry. I will go for check up if I had the money...

It has been a few days since I started work at a cafe. Initially I had 2 other colleagues to help work together with me but now left only one of them cos the other only work for a day. The first and second day of work is okay and it's not so busy. But the most busiest days are yesterday and today. Wendy(my colleague) and I were practically run around the cafe here and there. I was very upset yesterday cos I keep forgetting orders and made a few of the customers angry.

This morning when I go to work, my "Boss" talk to me privately when there's no customers in the cafe. He ask me,"Are you having problems at home?" I said no. He then ask me is there anything I am unhappy about? Again I said no. He then told me that he notice I seems to be angry yesterday(Actually I was not angry but I was stress up by the customers). I told him I am not angry but maybe I was quite stress because there are a lot of customers yesterday and there are orders that I keep forgetting and one customer even wait for 20 minutes but her coffee is still not yet being serve and she was complaining. He said he will teach me how to make coffee some other time. He then comment that I get very "Kan Chiong" easily(which until now I still don't know what he means) when there are too many customers or when customers keep on pressing me for their orders to be serve quickly. He then told me to learn to relax(Like I know how?!), when there are too many customers, there is NO WAY that I can relax. He also said that if my performance is good and I can work for long term basis(he said which he hope so), he may promote me to be Assistant Chef or I may get pay increment. I like the idea of pay increment but I don't like the idea of being Assistant Chef. Cos from the way I watch how he works, he always gets very tense up or stress when the ordering form are piled up at his station. But I cannot blame him cos he is the ONLY ONE doing the cooking. When you are alone doing a particular station all by yourself and when times get busier, naturally the person's temper won't be good. That is why I will try to avoid him during lunch time or when there are too many customers around cos I know he will be shouting(not purposely) instead of speaking to us in a nicer tone.

There is one group of difficult customers today and my "Boss" mood is not very good. Wendy gets shouted at and she is quite upset but I told her not to take it to heart. I admired her that she can even still smile at other customers even she gets scolded from that group of difficult customers. I notice that she is always smiling. I told her that if it was me, I won't be still smiling. She then comment that she only smiles when I am around(Don't know is it the truth).

Recently I am addicted to a game called,"Second Life". In that game, every women is pretty. Too bad I am not rich in that game. I then accidentally disfigured my face and body by swapping into another body of a celebrity. Ahhh! So sad. A girl then kindly give me L$500+ dollars to get me a nice hairdo and she gave me an Avatar. Haiz..I still prefer my old Avatar back.

I will end here for now. Will blog again some other time.

First day of Job

Went for interview around 9+am in the morning. Initally I thought it's just an interview then I could go back home that kind. To my surprise, after the Shop Manager interviewed me, He ask me to start work immediately! I quite like the job scope but the thing is that, the pay is only $5 per hour and the bad thing is, I don't have any CPF contribution working there. I do not know whether this is a tempoary arrangment or...? But to me is okay. The customers there are very less cos it is located at a quite remote place.

When I reach home, my Mum nag at me non-stop! No matter whether I am working or not, she will forever nag at me! I said before, my education qualifications are low and I can't be picky about jobs! She then ask me to go and study and upgrade myself! Hahaha! Saying is always easier than done! If she has $5000 to give me per month then I will go and study lor! Cos I had an eye for a course but the course itself will be $3000 - $5000 per semester!!! How can I get that kinda money?! BaoBei also wanted to upgrade his skills but he told me the course fees will be 5-digit figure.

Quarrelled very violently with BaoBei yesterday. He said something that made me cry but at the same time, it's for my own good. I then took off the ring infront of him and hand it to him. When I wanted to walk out of his place, he then hug me and he almost cried. I guess he doesn't really understand what is going on. ANGEL TAN YUNXI!!!! I DON'T WISH TO SEE YOU EVER AGAIN!!!! WE ARE NO LONGER FRIENDS FROM NOW ON!!! DON'T SMS ME OR MSN ME EVER AGAIN!!! Because of her, I quarrelled with BaoBei very violently. BaoBei don't really understand me and my point of view. He then help me to SMS Angel to calm things down. At that point of time, Angel then said things that she hides from the bottom of her heart! So what if I don't want to go to your birthday?! You bloody hell!!! Ask yourself what did you do on my birthday last year!?!?!?!? OKAY YOU SAID I GO THROGH LYNN TO TELL YOU THINGS! FINE! FROM NOW ON, I DON'T GO THROUGH HER! I WILL SAY IT ON YOUR IDIOT BLOODY FACE!!!! HAPPY?! Anyway, just a note to tell you if you are seeing this, YOU DON'T HAVE TO COME FOR MY BIRTHDAY THIS YEAR IF YOU ARE NOT HAPPY WITH ME! I ALSO DON'T WISH TO SEE YOU! SINCE BOTH OF US ARE NOT HAPPY WITH EACH OTHER, THEN FORGET IT! I DON'T HAVE A IDIOT FRIEND LIKE YOU!!! IF YOU THINK I AM THE ONLY ONE WHO IS IN THE WRONG, YOU ASK YOURSELF, DIDN'T YOU DO THINGS THAT MADE ME VERY UPSET?! YOU THINK ONLY YOU HAVE FEELINGS?! I DON'T!? YOU ASK YOURSELF WHAT DID YOU DO LAST YEAR?! AND THEN WHO IS THAT COWARD WHO DON'T WANNA PICK UP MY CALLS HUH?! YOU DARE TO SCOLD ME IN MSN AND SMS, THEN WHY YOU DON'T DARE TO PICK UP MY CALL?! BLOODY COWARD!!!! IF YOU DARE, WE MEET UP FACE-TO-FACE TO SETTLE THIS!!! DON'T BE A STUPID %^$#$^% COWARD TO ONLY SMS AND MSN ME!!! WO BU XI HAN!!!! IF YOU DARE TO TELL ME IN MSN AND SMS, WHY DON'T YOU DARE TO MEET ME?! COWARD!!!

Esther, if you wanna tell Angel about me or whatever stupid things, or Lynn also! Please hor! INFORM ME CAN?! I don't want to have some mad idiot woman to MSN me to scold me without telling me the reason and then I have to find out myself!!! Tell Angel, if she thinks she is right, I have nothing to say! Ask her to go and think what she did last year!? She is not happy that I didn't come for her birthday, then I am very happy that she do things on her own on my birthday lah?! Is it?! please lah! Ask her to think through what she did before she said that she didn't do anything and keep pointing that I AM THE ONLY ONE WHO DID WRONG! KNS! THEN DON'T WISH TO MEET UP TO SETTLE THIS WITH ME?! WHAT THE HELL IS ALL THIS?! I AM JI DONG?! WHO IS THE ONE WHO MAKE ME SO JI DONG?!?! ANGEL TAN YUNXI!! YOU THINK YOU DON'T HAVE A PART TO BE IN THIS LAH?! EVERYTHING IS ME LAH?! KNS!!! %%^%^%$!!!!!!! YOU DARE THEN WE COME OUT AND TALK!!!! DON'T JUST SMS AND MSN ME LIKE A STUPID IDIOT %^#&^%$ COWARD!!!!

Last day at Daiso?(Very Long long paragraph..can don't read if you don't have time)

Went to work for the last time this morning. Work was super slack despite that a lot of stocks are coming in. After I had finish my station of work, I then went to "help" my close colleagues and hang around with them at work. When it was lunch time, we eat together with Wei Ting and her friend. While eating, her friend(whose name I cannot remember)suddenly comment,"Say me right?!" when the 3 close colleagues of mine and me were discussing about Horoscope. It happened that she was a Virgo! Cos when we talk about Virgo sign, I told my colleagues that I notice that Virgos tend to be very clean freak and they are well-known for their perfection. They are also very detail-oriented.(This is not only according by the Horoscope book itself. I have personally interacted with people by this kind of horoscope so I roughly know their characteristic). But of course horoscope alone does not accurately read a person's character, because there are cases of split/multiple personalities(I am unluckily fall under the split personality category)because of the different timing for the moon and sun thingy(which is difficult to explain here. Those who study more about horoscopes in detail will roughly know what I mean). WeiTing is a Leo(no wonder she's always so "Dao").

After Lunch, when we went back for work, we were told that we have to work one more week. I had already call a F&B outlet to arrange for interview on Monday so there is no way I am going to work on that day. To me, the extension of another week makes no difference for me as I still have to look for another job after the 1 week. While for the rest of the temp staffs who are mostly students, that one week means at least they have something to occupied for that one week before their school starts. I then told my colleagues I am definitely not going back to work on Monday as I have an interview on that day. It's a F&B line but the best part is, it's a 5-day work week. I just leave everything in God's hands. If the job is really for me, He will answer my prayers. If not, I just have to look for another job. I am trying to get into F&B line with 5 days work week as I am interested in that field. Please don't offer me anymore admin jobs cos I used to study that field but after working in real-life office environment, I find that Admin is not suitable for me after all. I have great interest in food but too bad I just don't have the chance to explore that area much. I wonder does ITE have F&B courses?(Not Hotel Management!). I am searching for job urgently is because I wish to stay at least 5 years in the job and hopefully I can work in a job that I really enjoy doing. Another reason is I feel that time is really running out for me. Although I am only 22, but in a year's time, I will be 23, after a few more years, I may be 25 or 26. I wish to stay long in a job that I enjoy doing and I am really tired of job hunting(cos of my low qualifications, companies will tend to be picky)

I had seriously consider taking up 2 jobs ever since I left MOM, Cos I know I cannot survive with one income alone. Although my family doesn't really need me to support but still, certain burdens are there and I stress myself out because of it. My Parents will only complain that I earn too little for them. With only GCE 'N' level and basic ITE cert, how far can I go? When I suggest to take up another job, which only means I had to sacrifice a lot of sleeping time. I had calculated that I only had 3 hours of free-time if I hold two jobs. But the income I earn will be $1600 per month(after deduction of CPF). Then..what happens? I get bombed with complains and scoldings that I am crazy! The most, I guess these things will happen: 1)I will definitely look 10 years older or more than my actual age 2)I will develop eye-bags plus very deep dark rings on my eyes 3)I may faint at one of my workplace cos of the lack of sleep result in extreme tiredness and exhaustion 4)I will fall sick more and more easily.

Number 1 will happen because, when a person does not have enough sleep and plus if he/she is a mid-night owl or is often stay up till very late/early hours of the morning, the facial did not have enough time to regenerate new cells and certain cells will break down. Plus the harsh environment and improper care of the skin, will result in dull skin etc. The person will then look much older than their actual age(I heard from people some years ago told me this)

Number 2 is obviously from lack of sleep. I have dark rings before but seriously I do not know how it formed? Eye bags is dull to the dryness of the eyes plus the blinking of the eyes is lessen.(I only know I get eye bags plus puffy eyes if I am crying for many nights)

Number 3 is exhaustion from the body. I had tried not sleeping for a week and the result is = The mind is half-shuts down and absorbs information two times slower. really don't know what else to do. I cannot think of any other ways to earn more money other than that.

After work, we then quickly rush to the office to take our bags and leave. When we were outside of the shop, a lot of them are exchanging hp numbers but I get their emails instead. Those who know me, including my friends and church mates, you should know that I hardly call people to talk or even SMS if I have nothing in particular or no "valid" reason to call you. I don't usually call people and I just don't used to call. I am not the type of person who mingles with people easily(sometimes in MSN I hardly chat also). I think I am worst than Bro.Khai's compared to what he used to be(he also claims that he used to be anti-social)

Then QiuZhen, MeiYun, Roslinda and me quickly went to the Arcade to take pictures. Of course, I don't look good in the pictures as usual. They then went to edit things and I guide them along but didn't contribute to the drawings and editing cos I played with Esther before. Esther also ask why I didn't take any pictures with BaoBei on our Anniversary? Haiz..maybe he feels contented with just one picture bah. Anyway, I think for pictures the lesser the better. Cos I used to cut a Card Picture of me and my ex-bf over a reason that I had forgotten but I hated him then to the extreme that I cut the picture into tiny pieces. He's considered my first love though. His other picture my Mum used to store it somewhere but now it's lost. I have his picture only in my memories(too bad human body don't have printer..ok ok I am being lame).

Meet Esther, Jia Xin, My Da LaoPo(Elder wife) at the last minute. So actually I had also join them at the last minute of their outing with Jia Xin. We went to Ceneleisure to eat the Dim Sum cos it was suggest by me(actually I also don't know what to eat). I wanted to eat Pasta Mania at first but I know it will be expensive. While choosing from the menu, Esther and Da LaoPo comment that don't eat this and that cos it's not nice. I then comment to them if they ever went to JB, don't eat the Wang Jiao restaurant there cos, the service standard there is very poor and the food is extremely lousy. Jia Xin said if I ever go to Malaysia again, I should go to Ipoh to eat as she said the food there is nicer and cheaper. They eat Pasta, Soup Noodles etc while I only eat the Dim Sum as I don't really have the appetite. When I ask about Jia Xin and her boyfriend, she sounds very harsh and angry so I didn't ask about it further. Anyway, I don't really agree on her theory and her way of seeing things. But well, different people have different views. Perhaps I am a bit more open-minded in my group of friends on certain aspects of things.

We then see Jia Xin off as she is waiting for her boyfriend to fetch her. After that Esther seems unhappy but when Jia Xin ask her, she don't wish to say it out. After Jia Xin went off, Esther explains that she find Jia Xin is very indecisive about her decision on her own relationship. I wonder, if Jia Xin minds about her boyfriend's character, why is she still with him? Is it because she relys on him for certain things? On one moment, she says that she don't like her boyfriend's character and don't like it when her boyfriend do certain things and have seriously consider breaking up, but her actions speaks otherwise of what she told us. But anyway, it's her relationship and her decision about her actions. I just hope that she won't say or do things she might regret later on in life.

Esther, Da Lao Po then decide to catch a movie at the last minute. Went to watch "Mr.Bean's Holiday" and it was very funny movie! A lot of disaster for Mr.Bean during his trip to Paris, which is a very beautiful place from the movie! He was quite unlucky. First he lost his bag because of a boy that he cause the boy to lost his father. After that he lost his passport, wallet and train ticket on a phone booth when he gets on the train in a rush. He also lost his bus ticket when the ticket was blown away by the wind. He then find ways to earn money there by dancing and acting out in a funny way. He then lost the boy while trying to get his ticket back and the police are looking for him, suspecting him for kidnapping the boy. But the ending is good. Cos he manage to met a girl he like there and manage to help the boy to locate his father. He also edited the movie director's flim to make the director popular with the crowds. At last he found his way to his intended location - The beach.

After that we then take a cab home but I am choosing cabs cos I wanted to take the new Hydai cab. I know I am being weird. Cos I want to try on the new cab to smell the air-con.(Different aircon gives me different feeling).

I will end here for now. Will blog again some other time.

Going out with HuiYi

HuiYi called me to ask me out at 12 plus in the afternoon. I then suggest to her that we met at 2pm instead but I was late. We met at Harbourfront bus stop and went to Vivocity together. Went to Daiso for shopping and the shop there was packed very neatly! Not like the one at PS. I then bought a foundation make-up base while HuiYi bought some artificial nails. She said she was influence by me as I like Nail arts very much and would do my own manicure. I then show her the manicure WeiDa's girlfriend did it for me and she comment that the pattern is nice but not the colour. I did another Pedicure at the last minute and some of the colours were smudge so that outcome was not nice. That is the only thing that I "Ai Mei" most - My nails. But not to the extend that I would cry if I were to break a nail. If I break a nail without any manicure, I would just leave it but if I were to break a nail with manicure on it, I would erase ALL the manicure paintings and patterns off because of that ONE nail. Maybe if I am really really very free one day, I can look for WeiDa's girlfriend to ask her to teach me to do REAL hands-on professional manicure. But the thing is I must have a lot of time and patience to do a perfect manicure. Girls, please don't get influence by me okay? I do not have anything to show off. I am not pretty and not slim. The best features I have are my hands and fingers(although I do not have nice finger nails like most girls do too)

Went to accompany her to make a police report - FINALLY! The police scan through his computer and he said that he couldn't find any purse that is similar to the one that she reported lost. He then issue her a kind of letter and we went off. I don't understand why she can still be so calm about it when she lose her purse with her I/C in it!? If I am the one who lose my wallet with my IC, I would have been very panic! Cos losing the I/C means big trouble for me. Anyone who picks up that IC could do anything to it from subscribing things, borrowing Library books and never return(and thus makes it that the person who loses the IC have to pay for the fine!) to extreme cases like Loaning money from Loan sharks(if the person's look is similar enough to the IC photo). So don't ever think that losing IC is not serious. At least to me, I will always think of it that it will eventually lead to serious consequences! I even heard from one of my ex-supervisor, she loses her IC FIVE YEARS AGO(Now should be consider Seven years ago), there was one time that Loan Sharks came to her place to demand money from her when she knew herself that she didn't borrow from any Loan sharks before. I heard that the Loan sharks never leave her alone even though she claim to them that she didn't make any loans from them. Her life has been in hell since. She suspect that it could be the IC that she loses it many years ago was being abused. That is why I always kept my wallet close to my side. Another reason was that I lose my own wallet more than 3 times when I was younger. The most money that I had lost was only $50 plus my Brother's Library card in school. The person who could have pick up my wallet did not return it to the Principal's office. I do not know until now what happened to the wallet and especially the constants inside. I remember the contents only 1)My Brother's Library Card 2)Star Cruise Card 3) 5 $10 notes and some amount of coins. The thing I worry most is not the money inside but my Brother's Library card! Luckily I had informed him as soon as I knew I lost my wallet and he has since got a replacement for it. I had lost my wallet last year carelessly but Ivan found it back - Luckily. It drop under the Macdonald's chair. I would have cried badly if I really lost that wallet cos it has important documents inside like my IC, $150 dollars and BaoBei's and my couple picture(hey! at least it's important to me okay!?)

Went to meet an Insurance Agent and she recommend me a savings plan of $100 per month. But the thing is that I could get interest of 5%-8% per year. I do not know whether to get it and discuss with BaoBei about it. He says the decision is up to me. Haiz...but I do not know how to make decisions when it comes to matters like this. I want BaoBei to at least guide me financially cos I am weak in that particular area.

I will end here for now. Will blog again some other time.

Mandicure

Tried very hard to wake BaoBei up for CGM. He told me that he doesn't want to go. I tried persuading him to go but at the same time I do not want to sound like ordering. I promised him that I'll go with him so that he won't feel alone.

The CGM is the same as Sister Lorraine had shared on Friday. To me, I still feels that she preach better. Okay lah, maybe I prefer her preaching than Bro's. After the CGM, we then went for fellowship with the adult CG. BaoBei says he like Bro's white PSP, plus the BEST thing was, the games that Bro wants to play, he can download it instead of buying it like BaoBei does. Wow! Bro save a lot of money this way! It was a present from E301! Celebrated Bro's Birthday yesterday and Bro received a lot of presents.

After the fellowship, we went to meet WeiDa and his girlfriend. I then comment that her pedicure is very nice. She said if I want to, she can do a exact manicure for me. Since we had some time, we then went to Wei Da's place and she help me to do it. If I were to really do a Manicure outside, it would cost me $10-15 dollars to do it. I wanted to take picture to send it to friendster but I find it difficult to do it cos each nail has different patterns. But I like to result of it on the overall.

Will be going to work on Tuesday but I have a feeling that my current job is unstable. I will see how things goes. Maybe if I had save up enough money, I can change another job soon. I end here for now. Will blog again some other time.

Linguine cooking...First attempt = FAILED!!!!

I regret buying only one packet of Linguine. Actually the other day when I was shopping with Esther, the Linguine was at a promotion of $1 per packet. But I don't know it was Linguine(BaoBei and my favourite pasta)if I know I would have bought 3 instead! My Mum thought it was for the family but I told her I bought it for BaoBei. Thinking of cooking it for him this coming Saturday when he books out. But my Mum ask me to cook it for myself and use myself as an experiment instead. She said,"If it doesn't taste good when you yourself eat it, what makes you think it will taste good when you cook it for that what Hao?"(She always mix YenHao's name with one of my ex-boyfriend's name Yi Hao)

This morning I woke up quite early. Don't know why. I then went to shower and then feeling hungry and nothing else in the house for me to eat, I take that packet out to cook. Put 1/3 of it in the water and then open the gas to boil it. I think I only cook for 5 minutes and then took it out to put the tomato sauce on top of it. As I didn't put any vegetables along with it, it looks very plain. I then ask my father to sample it for me and he said,"Wah! Cannot! The noodle is so hard!" Haiz..the outcome? First attempt of cooking. The result? = FAIL!!! I then taste it myself and I was thinking,"Okay, the noodle is quite hard. As in, difficult to chew. Biting it off is okay but the chewing part is very torturous. The look itself is not very tempting and looks extremely plain. Haiz..felt a bit discourage by my first attempt but overall I have learnt something: Boil the Linguine more than 5 minutes next time, add Olive oil and must buy some vegetables to make it look more "colorful" instead of making it so dull. Luckily I cook it first before taking it to BaoBei. If not I think he will grade me F9 for it. Cos I myself give myself 1/10 for that cooking attempt. The 1 point is that I remembered to put Olive oil just that the noodle taste hard and it is very dull.

Nothing special on Saturday. Just that I am trying to celebrate our belated anniversary by cooking something for him. But then, seriously speaking, I am not the type of person that knows how to cook very well. I have never ever cooking anything nice in my whole life and anyway, since the "fire" incident at my old house, my Mum has actually ban me from cooking in the kitchen. I remembered I have tried cooking omelette's for my little brother. I cook 3 of it and on one, he said it was too salty. On number two, he said it was tasteless on the last attempt he said it was too oily -_-" Argh!!! Haiz..luckily BaoBei is a much better cook than me.

Tried to do the song sheet but then I discover in horror that I don't have Microsoft word program in my Dad's Laptop and his computer. Anyway, when I tried doing it in another format, it just doesn't seems right and I cannot do it in the format that Lorraine ask me to do. Sianz...I suggest to her that maybe I can borrow Chee Yuan's computer and do it as his place instead but she object. Printing the song sheet is more harder than I imagine.

Will end here for now. Sorry for the lame entry.

New Skin + fellowship with Lorraine = Amazing!

Browse through the blogskin and I finally found a blogskin that I really crave for so long. HuiYi don't seem to like it and comment that the words beside are really very small. I tried very hard to change the font size but everything still remains the same. Do you know that the side introductions are actually Font=24? But I don't know why it still remain the same size. I wanted a blogskin with Stars twinkling all over, cos the blogskin itself represents my life and most of my situations. That is = Darkness. The twinkling stars represents The people around me. If you notice close enough, you would also see that there are some stars which are not twinkling. It means the people who are with me all the time but I didn't take notice. While the blue tiny dots represents either I have lost friends or friends whom I no longer contact for a very long time. Sounds very illogical and funny huh? Well, but at least that's how I see it.

It's already been 4 days and I never visit BaoBei's Mum. My Mum and BaoBei keep on asking me to go and visit her. But...what do I say to her? I really don't know what to say! I also don't know where to bring her. BaoBei ask me to bring her to Orchard Road cos she has not been there for a long time but there is something that I have to take note: BaoBei's Mum can't really walk long distance as she has problem with her feet. I then ask BaoBei,"Can I hold her hand while walking with her?" He stunned for a while before answering,"If you are not scared then you hold lor". There is one time, I forgot when, I accompany BaoBei's Mum to buy something. The shopkeeper then comment,"Wah! Your daughter so big already?" BaoBei's Mum then smiled and answer,"No, she's not my daughter. She's my son's girlfriend". I then felt my face turn red. *Pai seh* Then the shopkeeper said,"Wah so good! Your future-daughter-in-law accompany you shopping". *So pai seh!!!*

Yesterday was my Mum's birthday and it's also Esther Leong's Birthday. I didn't attend the outing that I had promised them cos my Brother told me at the last minute that we are going to have dinner. When I said,"Sorry, I have to attend my CGM's birthday". He said,"But today is Ma's birthday!" Seriously speaking, I really DON'T KNOW my Mum's birthday at all until yesterday. Cos from young, she refuse to tell me her Birthday. By the way, I have never seen my parents celebrating their anniversaries before. I am stupid enough not to see her I/C for her birthday. That explains for my last minute absence. Went to Vivocity and my Dad ask me to show them around. Like I know the place?! Went around window shopping and ate at Food Culture. Now then I understand why the music is always soooo old! Cos I forgot that the food they sell is in the 1940s - 1980s. That explains the music. I always thought how come the music there is so old!? But luckily that day, all the Chinese music that the player played, is my favourite oldies Chinese songs! Like,"Mei Gui, Wo Ai Ni"(Rose, I love you) and the other I heard is,"Ye Lai Xiang" Sorry I don't know the English term for this one. Had an enjoyable day that day.

Went to meet HuiYi. Suppose to meet her at 10am but I was late. Went to Samuel's place to check whether her wallet is there but couldn't find it. By the way, Samuel's place is really very far!!! I then suggest to her to report it to the police. She said that it's useless cos the police don't care about such things anymore. I was thinking,"Really?! If that is the case, don't blame me for blacklisting the police in my heart from then on!" Useless! The worst part is that HuiYi's IC is in the wallet! Oh no! But somehow I pray that she'll be able to get her wallet back somehow. Samuel's room was half size bigger than mine!!! His Mum's room was more bigger!(The size of my living room!!) Overall, I was very impress with his place!(Except that the walking distance is very very far! Help!)

Called BaoBei's Mum at his home and her handphone but no one seems to be picking up the phone. Haiz..Heard from BaoBei later on that she'll be going back to JB on Saturday. Lorraine then SMS me to meet me at 7.30pm I then walk around Bugis aimlessly and went to arcade to play games. There is a game I wanted to try but since so many people are looking at the game, I dare not play. After that I went to HMV. SAW SUN'S ALBUM CAME OUT!!!! The Chinese version..2 formats again! But then the price is quite expensive for me. $22+ I calculated 2 CDs is about $50+ Argh!!! Forget it! This time I tell myself to only buy 1 CD and that's it!

Meet Lorraine and Meimei still give me the "Dao" look. Haiz..but never mind. I expect Lorraine to talk to me with a stern or still-angry-expression but her reaction and expression surprise me. We then went to a cafe and she spoke to me about Friday and Saturday incident, this time, calmly and explain to me in detail what I did wrong.(Seriously, I was half-expected that she will flare at me anytime but she didn't...erm..Thank God)After talking a lot of things with her, somehow I felt loved and forgiven. She said that YenHao was very tolerant but there may comes a day where he will burst. She then explain to me using an example of a balloon. Then speak to me about ego, pride, Mission Trips and a lot of other things.

Went separate ways with Lorraine when it was time to say goodbye. She gave me a pat on the back. While I was in the bus, I look out of the window and think a lot of things. Tried calling BaoBei but I couldn't get through. On the way home, I saw a cat sitting on a window ledge on the 2nd storey and it gave me a fright! It was the cat that I used to feed it and play with it. I recognise it cos the cat have a crook tail. The way it stare at me scares me. The only time I am very afraid of cats is when 1)They hiss fiercely at me 2)They look at me with a very "murderous" eyes. I then walk inch by inch slowly cos I am afraid it will jump on me any moment and scratch my face with it's paws. I have been scratch and bitten by a fat cat at my old house when I was young on my left arm and hand. The scratch marks are gone but the bite of the cat still remains on my left hand. It is not visible enough unless you take a close look at my hand. Very memorable huh?

I think I have to end here for now. Will blog again some other time.