NO!!!! I DON'T WANT!!!! DON'T FORCE ME TO!!!!!!!!!

Yeh! Finally there's something for me to do at work today! Been slacking for the past few days. I was quite bothered about something at work after one of my colleague have a "talk" with me. No, this time is not about office politics. It's about religion politics. Quite sensitive issue huh? Don't know whether after I blog it here, will I get scolded or will I be "crucified"? It all starts from yesterday...

Was very bored for almost the whole day yesterday. I do blogging but after an hour or so, I deleted what I had blog. Cos I know the things that I have blog yesterday will spark quarrels here and there. Anyway I don't wish to argue with that person anymore. I just don't wish to talk! Please don't ask me to come out and talk cos I don't even wish to see you anymore! Although I said what I have said in anger, but I mean it! I don't wish to see you or talk to you ever again! And PLEASE for goodness sake! DON'T EVER USE MY FRIENDS TO GET TROUGH ME! OUR "FRIENDSHIP" IS OVER! THAT'S IT! YOU GO YOUR OWN WAY AND I GO MY OWN! GET IT?!(Although I don't know is he reading this?) YOU SHOULD KNOW WHO YOU ARE! I WON'T GIVE YOU MY BLESSINGS NO MATTER WHAT! BUT I WARN YOU THIS: IF SHE GETS HURT BY YOU OR SHE EVER CRY BECAUSE OF YOU, OR THAT YOU EVER ILL-TREAT HER, I WON'T LET YOU OFF SO EASILY!!!! MARK MY WORDS!!!!!

Sharon then approach me yesterday to ask me to help her out(Which I always do). I then went down to the basement with her. At the basement, she ask me whether I have baptise and I said,"No". She ask me for the reason. I did not directly answer her questions but I just said that I have my own reasons why I do not wish to baptise. Anyway my parents, especially my Mum, were strongly against me for baptising. Sharon said that I am not a true Christian yet unless I get baptise. NO! I don't want and I never will! Unless my future husband is a Christian or that my future husband gets baptise first! Otherwise is a NO! I think after this I will get "stoned" by the majority of the Christians. I have my own reasons why I do not wish to baptise. Sorry but no matter what you say, I will still stand firm on my decision. She then keep psycho me to get baptise. I think alot of Christians should know that the judgement day is coming soon right? She then use this to psycho me again,"Zhu Li Ye(Juliet in Chinese), you know that the judgment day is coming soon right? Baptising only symbolize that you and Christ are ONE and after baptising, you will sense the Holy Spirit more stronger and whatever sinful things you do, there's a guilt there and it will be much stronger than when you are not baptise". I was very angry when she said this and told her,"Oh really? If that's the case, why do one of my ex-God-Brother backslide? He got baptised! How do you explain? If it is what you have said, the guilt will be stronger when baptise and the Holy Spirit will dwell more strongly in that person, why is it until now he doesn't wanna come back to church?" She then keep very quiet. I think this question no one could answer me except that person himself! But then again, I don't wish to know, I don't wish to bother and I don't care his reasons anymore! It's none of my business from then on! Sharon just said,"He will be back to church one day".

Saw HuiYi online yesterday and ask how is she doing? Heard that she is rushing her art work and had to submit by tomorrow. So only left about less than 24 hours to complete the work. She told me that she has a lot of work to do and I sense that she's going to have a breakdown soon. Although I do not know much about arts, but still I offer my help to her. Four hands are better than two mah.

Read someone's blog and I had read all his latest entries. Now I understand his fears. No wonder he kinda reject me. But I can understand why. I am not like that lor! Haiz..written a poem about him but I didn't post it in my blog cos it will be very obvious who the poem is delicate to. I cannot really remember what I wrote but I only remember the middle part of the poem. Read to Esther that middle part and she said,"Eeeek! So Mushy!" Erm..is it? Okay lor..I won't rush into things but I let time tell. I will wait for him...unless...nevermind. But I didn't confess to him my feelings face-to-face lah. Fear being rejected so I didn't say it out or even express it to him. Only a few of my friends will know who this mysterious person is. So don't ever think that I am bold okay? There are just some things that I have difficulty expressing myself to. Haiz...

Don't know what else to write anymore. Will blog again some other time.

Wheeee!!! I wanna ride again!!!!

Went to Bugis after my work yesterday. Yes I was working half-day. Didn't feel like going to work at all cos there's nothing for me to do there. Got lost at Bugis when I tried to look for Esther. Haiz..why am I always losing my way? Saw her eventually and she said,"No! Not Bugis! Haiz..I know you'll surely lost your way". I don't know the street name mah.

Met Fiona and Sheryln around the late afternoon. Haiz...Fiona has become more more prettier in person than in the photos. *Feels very jealous* Took the MRT to Pasir Ris and bid Fiona goodbye. Went to watch the Mr. and Miss.ITE. The guy and girl I vote for was in! Yeh! So happy! But the guy got first runner up while the girl was crowned Miss ITE. Saw Latin dance moves on stage. Woo! My favourite! Esther ask,"Juliet since when you like Latin dance? How come I don't know?" Erm...nope. I like to watch but I don't know how to dance. Anyway I don't have the figure to dance. Sheryln says she expect some "sexy" moves from the dancers but the way they dance was not what we imagine.

Went to escape theme park to play at night. I was very disappointed cos most of the games are closed. Heard from Yuka that the last game is at 10pm so we quickly rush there together. The game I wanted to play was open till 11pm. Woo! I wanna ride! But Esther and Sheryln don't want to accompany me and prefer to play other games instead. Haiz...in the end I played alone. The queue was very long and a few people queued half-way, give up and walk away from the queue. I was like,"Aiyo! Queued for so long might as well queued all the way lah!" I won't give up unless the person told me that they're close or it's the last game. There's a stage, where the people went in and still left 3 cars untaken. Strange? Oei! Move leh! I was in the middle of the queue. Very far away from the entrance. The girl then signal "3" with her hands but no one step up to play. She then point to the crowds one by one to ask,"How many?" Meaning how many people you wanna play together with? When she came to me asking,"Together too?" She point me with a guy but I shook my head and point "1" to her. She signal me to come out from the queue. You can imagine how the crowd faces look like when I jump out from the middle of the queue. KNS! Nobody wanna take mah!

Put on the seat belt and I waited for instructions. Luckily I had read how to step the gear before playing or I have to ask for instructions. Felt very nervous cos it's my first time driving in a "real" car. She put me in the front some more! When she release the cones, she signal me to go and I step on the Gas and brake together so the car was moving quite slow. After that when I reach the top, I step the Gas all the way and release the brake. Ride down really fast! WooHoo!!! Very exciting! But during the second round a guy knock his car onto mine and my car slide sideways and crush onto the wall. He then drive away quickly and in my mind I was scolding,"KNS! You don't let me see you later on!" The instructor then came to my aid and help me to push the car back into position. One thing bad about the car is that it has no reverse. But when I finally could drive off, two guys were stuck in the middle of the road upstairs. That guy again! They couldn't move their cars while the rest of us drive pass them. This time I never use the brake at all and step onto the Gas fully. WooHoo! Feels like Initial D! Just that on the way up, I don't know how to do drifting. Anyway I don't think the car could do drifting. Went for the final round and still see the two cars. I then stare at the guy who knock onto me as I drive by.

When the instructor signal us to return, I "park" my car behind others. She then ask me,"Anymore upstairs?" I think she could tell easily how many cars are missing. I said,"Ya..two". She and another instructor then went upstairs. After that she came back and signal us to go. The "parking" part was a little difficult cos the road is narrow. Manage to park smoothly! WooHoo! I wanna play again!!! After that she signal me to go off and I rejoin my friends.

Met Yuka at MacDonald's and she talk about her work. Bid her goodbye after that and went home together with Sheryln and Esther. We tried to look for NR but couldn't find it anywhere. In the end, we have no choice but to take a cab back home. Yeh! Very fun today! I wish that I could play again next time!

Wah!!! I don't have so much money!!! Haiz..should I give up?

Went for Aidah's Hari Raya's celebration yesterday. Not much guests at her place. Try her God-mother's cooking and the rice she cook was very nice! Superb! Yum! Her God-mother said,"Orh! Rice only? The dishes not nice lah? Hahaha" Aidah and the rest laugh. I said,"No no no Aunti. I didn't mean that..aiyah.." Don't know how to explain myself. Ivy came too! Hmm..but she's very quiet the whole time and didn't interact with me. When I tried to talk to her, she was like,"Hmm..Ya..orh" The whole time. I wonder did she listen to what I am saying? Cos she didn't even answer the questions that I asked her. Haiz..never mind. I guess maybe it's been too long since I last saw her so we have nothing in common to talk. Feel a little bit sad. Aidah's God-mother said that she cannot recognise me cos I have cut my hair short. Ahhhh! I miss my long hair! Don't like my current hairstyle!

Bid Aidah and her God-mother goodbye. Went to This Fashion and bought a T-shirt that I think it suits me. Haiz...not exactly the kind that I wanted but never mind. Went to Woodlands and saw Sok Wai there. So coincidence! Feel like pinching her cheeks when I see her. She's so cute!

Went for Brother.V's CG and his CGM are rather "cold"(If you get what I am trying to say?) The way he preach was very fast and I couldn't really get what he is preaching most of the time. I still prefer Bro's preaching cos at least I can understand what is Bro preaching about. Went home with a girl and she was very talkative the whole time. She suddenly ask,"Oh..am I too talkative? Sorry..cos I am like that". I said I don't mind but rather, I LOVE talkative people. Just that the things she said I don't know how to answer her. She's a Malaysian and looking for a place to stay. I listen to her stories about Singapore quietly. Her spoken English was very powerful! When she spoke to Brother V, I thought she's an American or Australian. Cos her English is...WOW! Better than mine *feels a little sad* Cos the way she spoke, her English has a kind of accent that I couldn't make out where did she learn it from? But she told me she's a Malaysian? Maybe the standard of English they learn over there is different from Singapore. Or is it because I am not studying in a pure English school so...Hmm..A guy at the CG knows how to B-box really well! Better than Jing Xian! :P WHen I hear the way he B-boxing, I was like,"......Wah! His B-Boxing was great!!!" Even without the microphone, he B-box quite well! As if there was a microphone in his throat!

Aidah SMS me this morning to tell me about a course I was interested in. Wah! Cost about $1K just to learn that course! I don't have so much money! Don't know whether should I give up? It's not really my interest but I just want to learn for the sake of learning. A colleague recommend me to go to Shatec to learn. Wah! The course fees is very expensive! Like I said, it's not my interest but it's just a skill that I wanted to learn. This is actually the reason why my Mum ban me from the kitchen. I don't know if you believe me if I told you that the kitchen was almost on fire when I do the cooking a very long time ago? From then on, she told me,"You don't ever touch the gas ever again! I'm very scared of you!" I cannot pick up any skills that she cook cos when I am at the kitchen watching her how to cook, she just shoo me away. So until now, other than Eggs and Meggi mee, there is actually a dish and it's the only dish I know how to cook cos my Dad taught me secretly. Although he's not a very good cook compared to my Mum, but he only knows how to cook two dishes. His fried rice is the best! But he don't want to teach me. Only teach me how to cook a vegetable, which is the only dish I know how to cook now. My brother always complain that the eggs I cook is very salty -_-" Oh ya! Talking about eggs, I know how to cook egg bread! ONLY -_-" Then my Mum always nag at me,"In future if you were to get married, I think your children will strave to death". Liew! Esther, now you know why I wanted to look for a bf who can cook? Cos I can learn cooking from him or can experiment on different dishes together with my future bf and comment to each other how is the cooking. Fun leh! But...I think in Singapore there isn't such guy. No such luck so forget it! Cos guys in general hates cooking and hates housework the most. I wonder why?

Will end here for now. Sorry for the lame blogging for the ending part. Take care!

University student?! Haha! Very funny! I wish I was too..hee

Nothing to do at work. Don't know why I come to work for? Went to check out my blog and was surprise that Marcus leave me tag messages for the very first time. Hee..thanks man!

Went to WLNY.com to check out my mails and check out what are my neighbours gossiping about? The latest incident of a guy committed suicide near my block has cause alot of commotion at my estate. Almost everyone in my area are talking about it. Bet that most of you didn't know right? Cos it wasn't reported in the news. My brother came home one day to tell us about it too. He said he saw a body covered in a white cloth and there are police around that person,"Very bloody that scene" he said. Okay lah..don't talk about this anymore. I know it's very disgusting. But still I couldn't help but feel pity that he die at such a young age. Only 22 years old but I heard that he has cancer and owe debts and all that...well..life can be cruel sometimes. I thought it was a girl at first but the residents says it's a guy.

Receive numerous of messages in my inbox. I was quite surprise that a guy message me asking,"Which University did you graduate in?" I was like,"Huh? Since when I studied until such a high level?" I then replied him that my highest qualification is only ITE. He said that my command of English is very good and well written that gives him a impression that I am a University Graduate.(I think Marcus is laughing when he read this?) I told him,"No..but I did pass my English foundation very well when I was in Secondary School". I was first in class for my English Comprehension once. Cos my form Teacher(who is also my English subject teacher)said that my command of English is very good and he was very impress that I could express myself really well for that paper. Cos alot of my classmates failed on describing how the gangsters look like on one comprehension paper but he said I describe it really well as if I have experience on gangsterism before. Haha! Erm..hee hee. In the end, I score full marks for that paper unknowingly. Bleh! But then again, it is the first time someone said my English foundation is almost the same as university? Very funny! Make me laugh!

Applied for half-day leave for tomorrow as I have to attend Aidah's Hari Raya Celebration at her place. Erm..so...if anyone wanna ask me out during the late afternoon to night time, I think I can accompany you. Cos I have nothing to do after 3pm tomorrow. Maybe go window shopping alone? I wanna look for a kind of T-shirt dress but I can't seems to find it no matter what. I saw a lot of girls wear it when I go to town area but I don't know why I can't find that shirt? I want that shirt! Cos that is the only kind of T-shirt that can make me look a little "girly". One of my friend told me the other time I should try wearing ultra high heel boots with mini skirt?! She want me to die?! There's no way I could wear that! Although I saw her wearing it before and it looks nice on her(she's more "plump" than me)but still I dare not wear that. Cos I am more to the rough side so...erm...not suitable for me lah. If my friends ever saw me wear that, I think they'll either laugh out loud or give me a blank stare and ask,"Juliet?! What happen to you?!" Some more my body figure is not as good as hers. So can forget it! I am still comfortable with my T-shirt and Jeans style(that's the only clothing style I can wear) thanks Bel!

I am getting very headache cos one of my friend's special day is around the around and another in 2 months time. On these both occasions, especially in December, I don't have anything nice to wear. I need a presentable dress as soon as possible! Esther ask me the other time,"Aiyo! What's the rush? Relax lah.." She can relax but I can't! Don't know why? Haiz..stress myself alot over this problem. Those who know what event is it, please..Keep it to yourself. Esther, now you know why I suddenly keep eyeing on dresses? It's not that I have become girly.

I think I end here for now. Will blog again next time.

Very boring...listless???

Erm..actually you can don't read this entry cos I just blog it cos I am bored. Unless you really have nothing to do too and came to check my blog entries out. Haha! Base on the time of this entry, you should know where am I blogging from? Yes, from my workplace.

Woke up at 7am this morning but I cover my head with my pillow when the alarm clock goes off. Don't wish to go to work!!! Don't know why I keep wanting to sleep a lot nowadays and don't wish to eat anything? Sleep increases, appetite decrease. Don't know is it a good sign or bad sign? Sometimes I wish that I could sleep forever and never to wake up again to face the day anymore. I know a few of my friends will mumber,"Choi!" under their breath. But I have my own reasons why I wish that to happen to me.

Force myself to get up and go to work. Get myself ready unwillingly. No, it's not Monday blues. It's Wednesday and it's the day of the week where I should be my most happiest. *Eileen will know why and she will be either happily tag me along to those places or to ask me not to drink so heavily or else she'll have quite a difficult time to send me home. But nowadays I could not even go there to drink. The other time Lorraine came and have a nice talk with me about my drinking problem. Cos HuiYi tip her off that I went drinking again at my usual haunt. I went there not totally for drinking. I went there to see the performers there okay? But just that unknowingly I had too many glasses of drinks. But luckily HuiYi called me just in time before I get really drunk. By the time I received her call, I am already very tipsy and my head was spinning. Don't worry HuiYi, I am not blaming you but I thank you for it. Sorry to make you so worried about me. I wonder is Lorraine scared of the effects on what the alcohol can do to me or is she scared that I'll get influence by the people there in those places? If it is the effects, I really have nothing to say. If it is the crowds, then, Lorraine, don't worry lah. Nobody will look at me twice de. So no one there will approach me. Don't worry okay? Alright! Alright! Don't give me that kinda look. I will know what you want to say. But really, I promise you I won't go drinking okay? You can have my word for it...but..can I use soft drinks to replace alcohol at least? Please? Then I know she will say,"I don't care! You talk to Bro!". HuiYi also said that to me the other time,"If Bro says that he allow you to go drinking then okay lor. If not, then no!" Liew! This kinda thing! Bro will surely object de lor! No need to ask! If I were to ask him, I think i'll get a very good scolding from him or at least he'll nag at me about don't-know-what?

Bro suddenly SMS me to offer me some job position. Wah! The place is very far! Haiz..but okay lah. Better than nothing lor. He ask me to send my resume to him and he will do the rest. Thanks Bro! You're great! So sorry to trouble you so much. Pai seh..Pai seh..

Pour to Ivan about my problems the other time. I guess only he understands. He tried to console me but I don't know how to tell him my exact problem. Only have myself to be blame lah. Sometimes I wonder why am I so stupid? It's just a minor setback. But I guess I'll recover soon. There are two songs that currently suitable for my current mood. One is sang by a male singer while the other is sang by female singer. Both are in Chinese. But I cannot state the songs here cos...both of the songs are what I am feeling now. It's a very old song. If the person know what are the songs, he will definitely sing one of the M2M's song back to me. Erm..please don't ask me about this okay? Just read it and forget it. Cos I am at least happy with the way things are now..I guess?

Very bored at work!!! I had finish my assignments again. Don't know what else to do. Read other people's blog? But their blog are not up-to-date. Meaning? Not updated! How to read? Or is it that I read too fast?

Will end here for now. Blog again some other time.

Moodless?

Suppose to meet Esther and Lynn at 12.30pm at TBP but I was late again. Reach there at around 1+pm and had lunch at Kopitiam. We then write some places on a piece of paper and take turns to draw where we should go. Very funny right? Cos we can't think of anywhere to go. I keep on drawing Suntec City and I frowned. I don't want to go to Suntec!!! I then suggest to Esther to pull out those places we had gone before and the remaining ones we will take a draw again. After that, I keep picking on Bishan. So we decide to go there.

Went to walk around the shopping mall and I bought a low heel shoes. Went to take a look at some dresses. Esther was surprise that I finally eyeing at dresses and she said,"Eh? Miracle leh! Someone finally look at dress le! Haha! Become more girly le!". Haiyo! Look at dress only mah. I'm still very tomboyish. After that, Ivan suddenly wanna join us. We then set a time cos he was working today. Then we went to Orchard Road. Went to Takashimaya to look for Sheryln. Da Lao Po!!! Her hairstyle was very cute! We then greet and chat for awhile before leaving her to do her work. She said she will join us later.

Went to have dinner at a food court. I have no appetite to eat so I ask Esther and Lynn to order their food. Only had a cup of bubble tea for my dinner. Don't know why I do not have appetite? JiaXin and Sheryln then came and join us. They didn't take any dinner.

Met Ivan at Plaza Singapura around night time. Went to walk around together and went to arcade. At the arcade, I do not have mood to play any games. When I tried to play, I couldn't focus on the game and almost got into quarrel with a guy there cos he "snatch" my friend's place but then I thought,"Aiya! Forget it lah! If I quarrel with him further I will sure take a stool and whack him!"(I mean it!) So you guys can see how low-spirit am I? But then again, the stool is made of plastic..so it doesn't really hurt.

My leg hurts alot. I think maybe it's due to the long distance of walking. Bid Lynn goodbye and the rest of us went home by bus. Have to go back to work again tomorrow. Wednesday blue...feel like going somewhere but I know I will sure be scolded if I go there again.

Will end here for now. Blog again some other time.

Thank you Jesus! Thank you Father! Thank God!!!!

I think this will be the longest entry I will be writing in my blog. So for those of you who do not have any patience or don't want to read this extremely long-winded blog, then just skip it and DON'T READ IT.

Woke up at 12.30pm on Sunday afternoon. Oh no! I am late in meeting Esther and Ivan! Cos I was suppose to meet Esther at 1pm at TBP but I slept till so late. Went to take a MRT to TB and broard bus 16 to East Coast. Got off at the wrong stop and board a taxi there which cost me $3.20. Sucks!

After that I apologise to Esther and Ivan for being late and we then went to rent bicycles to cycle. I regret taking the bicycle that the golden hair guy gave me. Cos that bike couldn't speed up and I could only cycle slowly. KNS! Pui! Feel like trashing the bicycle and then throw it at one side! Esther and Ivan rent those 2-seater bike and cycled away happily. I lost the sight of them as they rode very fast. I then called Esther and told her to enjoy her time with Ivan cos I hate my bike!!! Very slow!!! KNS! WTH!!!! She then said she wait for me at a shelter. I then look for that shelter and was surprise that they are just right infront of me!

I went over to them and park my bike at a side. Ivan was lying down on the stone chair facing up with his eyes open. I ask Esther,"Oh..he wanna rest?" She said no and told me Ivan suddenly fainted along the way. I was like,"What?!"His eyes are still open when I approach him and ask if he is okay. He said that he couldn't see anything and everything had become very blur. I point a "peace" sign at him and ask,"What is this?" He said,"Don't know. What did you point to me? Cannot see clearly." He ask me to check his hp for him and see if there's any SMSes? I said no. I then use Esther's hp and scroll to Esther's picture to show to Ivan. I ask,"What is this? Who is this person?" By the time I do that, he replied me something that make me very scared,"Juliet, I cannot see anything now. It's total darkness. Why is there darkness? Is it night time?" I told him,"Ivan, don't scare me please". Esther and I look at each other and don't know what to do. I wanted to call Marcus to see if he could help but Ivan told me not to disturb him. I then did something which I never did to any other person before - Pray.

When he sit up, he scan around and when there's two kids join us, he ask,"What's that noise? Who's there beside us?" I replied that it's just some kids looking for some rest. I was very scared when he ask that question cos it meant that he was not joking. He really can't see. Cos he NEVER blink his eyes even once since I reach there. I then close my eyes and lay my hand ontop of his head to pray for him. Esther lay her hands too and pray. I was a little scared to pray for him cos my spiritual level is not strong enough! But still, I pray in Faith! I spoke in tongues first and I ask God for healing for Ivan's eyes. I did not pray aloud but I pray inside my heart. When I had done, I just said a loud,"Amen!" and Esther and I let go at the same time. I ask Esther how come she end the same time as me? She said she had finish praying as she only pray a short prayer in chinese. While I pray in English. After that I ask Ivan how is he feeling and he said it's getting worst as he couldn't see anything anymore. He then wonder why must he be blind at such a young age? He then told us his medical history and I was shock! He told me that there was once he was in this condition but for 15 minutes. So he said he will wait and see if anything happens.

After about more than half an hour has pass, Ivan said that he began to see some blur images. I was relieve and touch his head and pray again. Spoke in tongues and thank God for his healing and thank God that He has heard our prayers. I continued to pray very hard for God's healing to be upon Ivan. After praying, he said he could finally see a little bit clearer but still not so clearly. He then close his eyes to rest for awhile. I then made a silent prayer to God to heal Ivan's eyes. Esther look very worried and ask Ivan if he was okay? After a while, Ivan finally said something that made me said,"Hallelujah!" in my heart,"Juliet, I can see now..I can see now." and he began to blink...FINALLY! I then use his handphone and wave at him,"What is this?" I asked. He said,"My handphone". I was really relieve this time. Thank God!

We then went to return our bicycles. On the way there, I fell off from my bike quite a lot of times and hurt my left hand. But I keep quiet from my friends. Just a minor cut. We then went to Suntec to have our dinner and played games at the arcade. Ivan thank us for our prayers. Went to Ben&Jerry to eat Ice-cream and Ivan tell us alot of jokes that made me laugh till tears!

Went home by bus with Esther and Ivan. Very happy today and I finally see God's miracle! Yeh! But I am really not used to it that Marcus is not joining us. I understand that he has to study as his major examination is coming soon. Good luck Marcus! *wink*

Outing with Sylvia + What the hell?! = Don't control my life!!!!!!!!

Wake up to went for CG today. Strange...usually HuiYi will be calling me at 8+am in the morning to shout at me,"Wake up!!! Go for CG le!!!!" But my phone has gone very quiet this morning. Hmm? When I reach to the MRT station, I called her hand phone and she answers it with a sleepish voice. My turn to shout at her,"Wake up!!!! Now what time le?! We're going to be late for CG!!!" She then said,"Oh oh...come to my house can? Bye! See you later" Reach TB and went to board a bus but miss the stop and have to take another bus back. Haiz...

Got lost on the way to CG and HuiYi keep apologising to me. I never blame her lah. Luckily I have just top up my Ezlink card cos it only remain $2+ when I alight at TB. I was lazy to top up at first but then I have a feeling that I may be travelling alot later on. I never regret topping up. Haha! Finally reach CG and greet the rest of the members. Pass Brother a letter to tell him my problems. Quite complicated so I need his advice.

MingZhe then send a few of the CG members back by his Dad's car. Wah kao! KNS! The way he drive hor...Haiz..dun want to say much. I did not pay attention cos I was looking out of the window - daydreaming about something. When he suddenly make a very sharp turn, all three of us, HuiYi, Me and another girl, "fly" to the left side hard! I then shout at MingZhe,"Oei! oei! oei! Drive carefully can or not?! I don't mind that you drive fast but please drive safely can?" He then smile and apologise. After he alight a few of the members, left only me and HuiYi. He went to deliver the guitar to it's owner before sending HuiYi home. Then hor...I really don't know how he drive, HuiYi's face got slam onto the car seat in front hard! And she show me an "ouch!" sign with her facial expression. Poor HuiYi...and did I mention that she slammed onto it not once? But twice! MingZhe ah MingZhe...I think so far I am the only one not getting slam on the face apart from the sudden sharp turn that he make that send me "flying". I tell you hor, if you really wanna experience Initial D in real life, I welcome you to sit in MingZhe's car. I like MingZhe's driving alot! Although yes he drive dangerously - like Initial D. But still deep down inside I like it alot! Cos I like fast cars! I wanna experience Tokyo Drift!! WooHoo!! Although he don't know drifting yet lah. I wanna sit in MingZhe's car more often! :D As long as he don't send me flying out of the car again can le! Last time HuiYi always tease her friends,"Later I send you flying then you know!" Now I have experience the feeling of sending me "flying" le! First time some more!

Went back to HuiYi's place and saw Li Yi there...when I saw her new haircut, I was like, "Er...that haircut is not suitable for you". Eat the food that I have brought it with me and rush to church with HuiYi. Saw YenHao at the MRT station and he pass me a Tokyo Drift techno CD!!!! WooHoo!!!!!! Thanks alot YenHao!!! :D

Pastor then share about arise and built and said it's about building lives. I saw some leaflets about how to generate more income. Seems easy but difficult for me. After Service, we then went for fellowship. No appetite to eat anything but I force myself to order something to eat cos I have not eaten anything since this morning. When I was about to leave to meet my friends, Lorraine then said something to me that I totally disagree with her but I don't want to argue with her or whatever. I mean it's like...it has been a usual routine for me to meet my friends every time after service so I don't know why must she make a fuss over it? She ask me to choose my friends wisely and something about knowing what's good and bad for me. When I heard that, I almost wanted to faint. I mean...IF...IF my friends are those Ah Lians, Ah Bengs or gangsters and that we go out just to pick fights with others or go and rob, kill or whatever sinful things, I don't mind that she stop me and I don't mind that she ask me to choose my friends wisely. But then, all my friends do is what? A routine gathering. So I don't see what is wrong with that?!

For your information, if you guys don't know what is my schedule for SATURDAY, especially those who have been reading my blog for more than a few months, this is what I USUALLY DO on a SATURDAY:

8am: Wake up in the morning to prepare myself to go to CG and Service

10.30am - 12.30pm: CG meeting

1pm - 3pm: Fellowship with members

4pm - 5pm: Queue/Service Starts

7.40pm - 9pm: Service Ends + Fellowship with members

10pm - 5.30am/8am :Meeting my friends to hang out at town area until wee hours of the morning

8am - 9am(Sunday): Reach home, do blogging and Sleep

This is what I do on a SATURDAY. If plus SUNDAY, These are the two activities I will do:

1) 12pm: Wake up

1pm: Meeting Esther to hang out + Lunch

2 - 4pm: Either hang around town area or cycling at East Coast(current activity)

5 - 6pm: Having Dinner

7 - 10pm: Hang around elsewhere

11pm: Went home

12am - 2am: Do blogging and Sleep OR

2)12pm: Wake up

1pm - 3pm: Lunch with Parents + Brother

4pm - 5pm: Shopping for groceries together as a family

6pm: Home sweet home

7pm: Playing computer games

8pm: Dinner with family

9pm - 12am: MSN with friends or do blogging

1am/2am: Sleep and get ready for work the next day

That is my routine lifestyle okay?! Sounds very boring right? In my mind, these activities are permanent in my life. If there are any changes, I will need quite some time to adjust or to get used to it. I deliberately do this to show SOMEONE what I usually do on a SATURDAY after Cell group meeting and Service and who I am with! It is usually the same group of people.

That is all for now. Sorry for the lame blogging for today. That's all for now. Will blog again some other time.

Very happy today!

Went to work this morning. Almost couldn't wake up in time for work. But still manage to get to work just in time. When I reach work, I quickly disappear to the mail room with Joleen. Like being with her most! Went to do the things at mail room today. Haiz..the mail opener machine had broken down and someone was repairing it. Wah! Must open by hand! Haiz..lazy but never mind. Manage to collect some very nice stamps from it! :P actually was not allow to do so but the staff there like..closes one eye to what they see.

A girl then came in to work with me. She then told me something which shock me alot but somehow I expected it to happen. KNS! Being back stab by Mdm C! Then that's not all...that girl was always been scolded by Mdm C just because I didn't turn up to work at the mail room the other day. I said this and I said it again: NOBODY TELL ME TO GO TO THE MAIL ROOM! I WAS HELPING WATI THAT DAY!!! That girl said she's not blaming me or what but she just tell me to let me know. She broke down in front of me and said that she couldn't stand Mdm.C's treatment anymore. She warn me to be careful and to observe my "surroundings" clearly. She knows how Mdm.C is like and says that in her eyes and in her heart, she has no respect for Mdm.C and said that Mdm.C don't deserve respect from ANY of her employees! The more she talk about Mdm.C, the more my dislike for Mdm.C grew.

Receive Marcus's SMS and Ms.W's SMS. Wah! Work in mail room for the whole morning and busy till I have no time to look at the SMSes. Forgot to charge my hand phone as I was in a rush. Haiz..left 4 bar of battery life.

Went back to the mail room again to help out after lunch. Finally the machine can work le! Cos I am lazy to open the mails one by one. Using the machine would be a lot more easier. When I finish sorting, I chat with the rest of them and the strange guy, I finally got his name - Joe, then tease me with Bran. I was like,"Duh..." Haven't seen Joleen for the whole day today. Don't know is she going up and down on other departments again?

Went back to the department to put the papers in the office and stare at Mdm.C. In my mind, I feel like murdering her! I then went off quickly to meet Esther. Saw her at the MacDonald's and I was late. Went for dinner at Kopitiam and went to Burger King to have Bible study. Jia Xin Finally came to join us le! So happy to see her! Her hair has grew much more longer and she has become more prettier. Went to Kopitiam again cos Jia Xin had not taken her dinner. Ivan then came and join us too..quite surprise! Cos Esther never told me anything about Ivan joining us? Liew! My hand phone suddenly went from 4 bars to 2 bars! Then when Jia Xin keep playing with my hand phone, it becomes ONE BAR! Ahhhh! There are no switches around so I can't charge my hand phone. I had no choice but to switch it off to save the last battery life of my hand phone.

Went to the arcade to play games and I played Para Para 2nd Mix. Yeh!!! Finally master the stage that I always failed!!! Yeh!!! *Peace* Which is "Ultra high heels". After playing, I then went to change some tokens to play House of the dead...haiz..Game over at the first stage. Next time then I try other songs at Para Para(Practice only). I then switch my phone back on and HuiYi bomb my hand phone with a few SMSes. She's worried about me. Oops! Sorry sorry...My hand phone low batt le. When I manage to call her back(with the remaining 1 bar), she sound very worried about me and ask whether I am coming for CG tomorrow? Ya Ya I will be there okay? I promise you. She then told me that Lorraine and Yen Hao are looking for me too. Wah! Why suddenly have people looking for me? When my hand phone is switch on 24/7, I don't receive a single call. Now my hand phone went flat, three people are looking for me? Haiz..haha

Introduce Sheryln to Ivan and we keep quiet through out. Play SMS at Macdonald's. Haha! Very funny! Bid the rest of them goodbye while I take the train with Ivan. Didn't really talk much. Very unlike him but I dare not probe much. Chat with Lorraine over the phone and I told her that my handphone only last one bar to chat with her. Had a fun day with them today! Haiz...too bad my handphone battery is flat.

Yeh! Work at Mailroom today!

This morning when I went to work, I was feeling very blue as I felt that this week passes rather slow. At around 10am, Mdm C then came to my desk and peek at what I was doing. She then said,"Eh? I thought you are suppose to help out at the mail room? Stephanie didn't brief you?" As far as I know, there is NO Stephanie in my department and I never heard of such person before! I told her that No one tell me what to do or to do anything. She then walk away and I followed her. I then told her,"I was at the BASEMENT the WHOLE DAY yesterday. How could ANYONE reach me? I was helping Wati yesterday!" KNS!!!!!! You bloody hell!!!!! Liar!!!! Great liar!!!!!!! Why don't you go take part in Channel 5 or whatever as actress huh?! NB!!! Since I was at the basement, how could anyone have contacted me and look for me?! And even if she really look for me, why did I only receive Wati's Memo yesterday and not that "Stephanie"?! Bloody hell!!!!! You better watch your words!!!!! Go lah! Go complain to big boss lah! I scared ah?! I can declare daringly that I DID NOT RECEIVE ANY MESSAGE REGARDING ABOUT ASKING ME TO GO TO HELP OUT IN THE MAIL ROOM!!!!! I DID NOT RECEIVE ANY MEMO EXCEPT WATI'S MEMO!!!!!! STUPID $%^#$!!!!!!

Joleen then gesture me to follow her. She then sign to me to ignore Mdm C. In the whole office other than my supervisor and Ms.W, Joleen is the only one in the office that is the closest to me. I then use my hp to SMS her,"I hate her!" She look at me and nod and pat my back. She then use my hp and SMS back,"Nobody in this office likes her". She then sign to me,"Why did you talk to her like you are angry with her?" I SMS to her,"She likes to bully me!" Joleen smiled and SMS me back,"She also like to bully me. She bully almost everyone"

Went to the mail room office to help to open the letters with the letter-opener. Haiz...Joleen does it like it's very easy but when I am the one who do it, it is quite difficult for me. After that I then open all the letters and place them at the side. A guy then watch my every move. Strange. Went back to the office again and Joleen ask me to type out all the address. Haiz..don't really know how to type a few of the letters cos the companies address is not there.

After lunch break, I ask Joleen for help and she help me patiently. Not like SOMEBODY! She then write on a piece of paper,"Later after this we will be going to mail room again. You come with me okay? You finish this thing quickly then we can go together quickly". She then sign to me,"You want to sit here and see her face?" I shake my head and type on the screen,"No! Don't want! I wanna follow you! I don't wanna see that woman!"She sign back to me to continue typing.

After I finish the work, we then rush to the mail room together. Run up and down to other departments to help out. Very fun! Now I know why I always didn't see Joleen around every time. Joleen sign to me that she feel very tiring. But I sign back to her that I feel that her job is fun! She laugh at me. We then went back to the mail room and sit down to do things. The guy then peek at me again. He ask Bran,"She's also a mute? or deaf?" Bran look at me and said to the guy,"No ah..she's a normal person. She's not like Joleen" The guy replied,"Is it? But since this morning until now I never hear her voice. She didn't even said a word but I think I saw her using sign language to Joleen". I then sign to Bran,"He's talking about me?" Bran look at me and said,"Er..ya. And why are you behaving like Joleen?" When I finally open my mouth to talk to that strange guy, I said,"Yes Sir? You calling for me?" He was shock and said,"Oh! Finally I hear your voice! You're SO quiet! Cos I didn't hear you talking even once since this morning!" I laugh and replied to him,"Er...cos nobody is talking to me? That's why I am quiet" Bran then laugh at my comment. That guy said,"I thought I saw you using sign language to talk to Joleen so that's why I thought you are also a mute". I told him I know a tinnie winnie bit of sign language and since there's no paper and pen for me to communicate to Joleen, I try my best to sign to her to see if she get what I am trying to say?

Have a lot of fun at the mail room and that guy talk to me alot of things. The people in the mail room are much more nicer than most of my colleagues at my department. If possible I would like to transfer there. But then again, I will be under that stupid woman's supervision! I don't want!!! Don't feel like working....I don't know what else I want to work?

Very happy at the end of the day. Joleen bid my goodbye and she said she'll chat with me in msn later at night. Hee...very happy to work with her. I hope that someday I could be her friend and not colleague.

NB!!! I Hate flirts!!!! STAY AWAY FROM MY FRIEND!!!!!!

I think from the above title of my blog you guys should know how am I feeling right now when I blogging this entry? Yes I am very moody! You will understand why later.

A few weeks ago, someone confess to me that he like one of my friend. I was very surprise and angry at the same time actually but I did not tell him. Mind you, he only know my friend for like what? A year? They seldom talk, seldom share things together and only go out when any of us organise any outing to ask him along. During a period when I know him not for long, I introduce him to my group of friends(as I usually do when I made new friends..I will introduce him or her to my friends first). He told me this and I remember it till today,"Please lah, I will never go stead with any of your friends". Then..a year and a half later what did he tell me now? I believe some of you will roughly know who is this person? I don't wish to say it out too obvious. Although we used to be very close but somehow or another, there's will bond to be misunderstandings here and there and that cause our friendship to drift apart. Although we seldom contact, I notice that he do have girlfriend once in don't know how many weeks? As far as I know, his relationship never last beyond a month or two and that cause a biggest concern for me. If you wanna say he's a flirt, then seriously I lose to him alot. Cos I admit that I used to be a flirt too alot but my shortest relationship, is 5 and a half months. Can you guys tell me lah, how can I entrust my friend to this person, whose relationship is not more than 2 months?

There are a lot of doubts in my mind when he told me that he like my friend. I told him I wish him all the best but behind him, I do a "check" on his relationship background cos I really don't think I can entrust my friend to him that he won't break my friend's heart or worst, toy with her feelings! Sorry I couldn't afford that to happen to any of my friends! But, to my surprise and anger, one of his ex-girlfriends claim that he almost hit her before! I was shock and my immediate response was,"Okay! That's it! This guy is NOT WORTH for me to entrust my friend to!!!" Sorry that if I seem to be over-protective of my female friends. I had seen alot! I have been through the toughest times of my youth that no one else(except those who were in the same boat as me)have been through!!! I dare to say that I am a live example for all my friends to see that if they made one mistake in their youth, they might regret it for the rest of their lives! I really regret not telling this to one of my friend. I really regret now cos she is going though the same path that I used to walk through now. The rest of my friends have warn her but she just don't listen. I used to hate her to the core but now I cannot abandon her when she need someone to be at her side most no matter how much I hate her in the past.

I regret...I really regret. I am very frustrated and upset. Feel like slashing my wrist but I couldn't cos I promise HuiYi that I won't slash my wrist. When I saw the worried look on HuiYi's face when she look at me at CG and tell me the other time,"Juliet, can you promise me not to slash your wrist in future? Please? I am worried for you" my heart hurts alot! I seriously don't know how much hurt I have cause her and how much worry I had given her. Sorry HuiYi...I always seems to make you so upset..I am not a good friend to you.

A lot of things has been happening for the past two days that made me very angry and upset. Why am I always the last to know whenever something happens to any of my friends? WHY?! Sometimes I had a feeling that I am not really close to Esther. If I am her close friend or forever friend as she like to say it, why am I always the LAST one who receive the information?! Esther, tell me the truth, have you ever treat me as your friend or not?! Or am I just your friend that you can only ask me out when times are good and when bad time comes, you hide things from me or only tell me when something serious happens(you should know what incident lah since you tell me not to blog it!!)If you only call me out when there's joy and leave me out when there's crisis or sadness hor, then sorry! I am not your forever friend! I am what people called it,"Fair weather friends!!!" I don't wanna be your fair weather friend!!! I know what you wanna say,"Sorry ne..I don't know it is so serious". It's okay...since everything is fine now I am relieve. I know that because I am not feeling well and you don't want me to worry too much so you keep quiet. But sometimes, keeping quiet will only makes things worst like yesterday what you experience. Especially since there are tell-tale signs of DANGER! I am very angry and worried so much because I don't want any history to repeat itself especially it is the pattern I have been through before. I hope you can understand, Esther. Let me tell you something in case you don't know: Do you know I attempt suicide in Sec.1 to Sec.3? I've tried many times but failed. Until one of the teacher spot some tell-tale signs of minor depression from me and keep bugging me for the reason! He found out about it and this matter was very serious that from then on the teachers who taught the class I am in, shown special "concern" for me which I tell you I hate it the most! Of course I got what I wanted in the end but I was still not very happy cos that kinda feeling is not exactly what I want. Luckily I manage to get over it in the end, or else seriously I think even if I am dead you won't know cos I didn't contact you and Shuling then! I don't know if you notice during sec.1, whenever I go out with you and Shuling, do you notice I always seems to carry a pen knife along? Maybe you didn't know cos I didn't tell you.

Next time please don't ever make me be the last one to know when something serious happens. Especially it concern about LIFE AND DEATH! Please don't hide things from me! Tell me immediately!!! I will try to help de okay? Don't worry, I really have forgiven you le cos I think maybe you really don't know and can't see how serious something is until it gets worst. I am just venting my anger here and trying to get my message across to you. Although I don't know if you get what I am trying to say to you at the end of this blog or not?

That's all for now...sorry for the erm..emotions. But I really can't help it. Sorry...

Happy Advance Birthday Marcus!

Went to Sunday service alone yesterday. Bro actually ask Roseline to accompany me but she could not make it in the end. I guess she find it difficult to wake up in the morning. Didn't sleep at all on Saturday night + Sunday morning cos I keep coughing non stop and it affects my sleep. Actually I don't wish to go to church cos I am not feelings well in my body but Bro insist me to go. No choice...

After service, I walk around and bump into YueMing. She said she had called me alot of times but I didn't seems to hear(Oops! Sorry YueMing. I guess I didn't hear it clearly). We then chat for awhile and I quickly rush to Vivocity after bidding her goodbye. Got a call from Lorraine but never met her in the end. Didn't know that she came for service? Check out the show timing but Marcus insist that he wanna watch shows before 9pm. Sianz...he then said he will come with me to buy the tickets later. Esther and Lynn joined me at a later time and we went to window shop around together. Initially wanted to eat the the food court at Vivocity but the directory map was very complicated and many shoppers got lost at Basement 1 where the food court should be at. We then see the map and was shock that we were quite far away from the food court. Haiz...I hope that vivocity could provide more friendly user guide to at least guide the shoppers more clearly and user-friendly. There were no level indicator at all the shops so we had to go to the map to see which level we were at every time. So frustrating! Why didn't they indicate the shop unit number at every shop?

Went across the road to the hawker centre to eat and Marcus told me that he is on the way there. Haiz...When he finally arrive, I was quite surprise at his dressing! Wah! Dress so stylish that day! Esther then tease me and Marcus,"Wah! One wear so pretty today and the other wear so handsome today? Eh? What's wrong with the both of you huh?" I was like,"......". Give Marcus the gifts that we bought for him. We then bought the tickets and a short while after we had bought it, Ivan SMS Marcus to ask him to get one for him. The problem is, he is at Bishan and by the time he got here, the movie will be starting. When Marcus SMS Ivan back to say that we had bought the tickets and would get a separate one for him, Ivan was furious. Haiz....Don't know who is the one who said he won't be joining us in the first place and now wanna join us at the last minute!

Saw my favourite ParaPara game and went to play. Marcus walk around the arcade so I thought that he went to look for games to play. After I had finish playing, Marcus then show me that he capture a video of me playing that game. Piangz!!! KNS!!!! Si Marcus!!! I then watch the movements that I play and said to Marcus,"Eh? I dance so pro meh? Cannot be mah! I thought I dance like Siao Zha bo like that" Now I know why some people will be standing around me when I played.(Ehhh! BHB!)

We then walk around and went to sit at a high platform(I think?) and watch the crowds. The view is very beautiful from up there! The land looks like a beach to us from afar and could see people walking. Just like walking on the beach. Then there's these group of youngsters ask a friend to capture a video of them while they make fun of themselves. I was like,"Duh..please!" We then went for the movie when it was about to start.

I regret choosing that movie cos it speaks a lot of erm..."body" languages which I find it very embarrassing. Marcus watch the movie with a "stone" look and laughs only occasionally. Esther and Lynn discussing the movie show here and there. As for me, I feel like getting out of my seat and walk out of the threater. Haiz..not a very good show. Waste my $9.50! The way they say grace, it takes a very long time and the lead actor keep saying a lot of rubbish while saying the grace. I told Esther, I think it will take at least 10 minutes for him to finish the grace alone. She agree with me. I then impatiently keep saying,"Ah ah Amen Amen...finish the grace already! Amen!" Marcus laugh when he heard that. He ask me,"How long does a Christian take to say Grace? How come he said the Grace so long?" I replied,"Usually less than 1 minute but I don't know the exact average Grace takes how long..but really, I never heard of any Grace that takes more than 5 minutes!" He said,"Orh" and went back watching the movie. Okay lah..maybe I am not as Holy as the actor so that is why I said my Grace within 5 seconds.

After the movie we went to walk around and I told Marcus that next time he can bring his future girlfriend here to date. He look at me and smile. He said that I am actually quite a romantic person. Can think of such an romantic idea to bring boyfriend for a date. I told him,"Ya right. If I am really romantic, I won't be single until now". Then don't know who is the one who said that I am very picky that is why I don't have any boyfriend?

Went home by train. I was thinking of taking the bus but Marcus wanted us to take the train together with Lynn and him. Chat for awhile in the train. Esther and Lynn then got off at Redhill station while I board the train with Marcus. He keep on asking me the price of the wallet and I said,"Cannot tell you lah. Secret. As long as you like it is okay le" He then keep on guessing the price until I give up and said,"Okay lah okay lah..you win. I tell you lah". When he heard the price he look at me with big eyes and said,"Wah! Eh! Thanks leh! Liew! Buy so expensive gift for me..Haiz..Paiseh." Those friends of mine who know that exact price of the wallet, went,"Wah!" He said that one look of that wallet's brand, he knew in his heart that it is not cheap(Pierre Cardin Genuine Leather)Haiz..the most expensive gift I ever gave to a guy other than my God-brother's cross necklace(which is the 2nd most expensive gift I ever bought for guys)

I think I'll end here for now. Not feeling well in my body these days and getting weaker and weaker. No appetite to eat anything and can only eat those liquid food. Will blog again some other time. Oh! Please do check out my new tagboard. Cos the previous tagboard has gave me problems and I change it to a new one so you guys can tag your messages there. Thanks!

Shopping for gift...heartache!!!

Slacking at work again. I was actually post to another department to help out temporary. My supervisor then private message me that there's things to do. After lunch I then went with Ms.W to work and had complete the paper work more faster than I have thought. Haiz...if I had known, I don't do it so fast!

Went back to my department and my supervisor came and talk to me. She heard that I am a christian from Sharon and I was thinking,"Why tell her?!" My supervisor then talk to me alot of things about the bible. Oops! I rarely read the bible so I don't quite understand the story she talk about. She say that she will try her very best to keep me and better yet, let me transfer to another department as soon as possible cos she can't bear to let me suffer here. She said she'll pray for me that hopefully I will get transferred or at least get a better job than here. She said that I am still young and have quite a lot of opportunity to grow and learn things. She encourage me alot with her words and I am quite touched.

I then wait for the time to pass cos I have nothing to do anymore!!! Surf ITE website to look up for course but it's too late cos the registration is on early October. I saw some courses that I am interested in but I do not know how long can I work? I wanted to look for a government job but not sure how to look for and where to start? After that I left the office on the dot and quickly rush to Bugis to meet Esther and Ivan. We then went to The Wallet Shop to choose a gift for someone. Wah! First time buying such a expensive gift for a guy! Esther then said,"Wah! More expensive than your Kor's necklace lor!" I then show her a heartache action.

After that we went to the arcade and play puzzle fighter. Esther won me twice and I give up playing le. First time lose to her! We then went to look for Ivan and he was playing House of the Dead 4. The funny thing is that he always seems to complete ALL the stages of the games with just 1 dollar! By the time we get there, a big group of guys are surrounding him and watching him playing the game. He can play half an hour of that machine game with just one dollar coin! Amazing! Expert player!

We went for MacDonald's for dinner and Ivan is treating us. Haiz...so pai seh! When I pass him the money, he insist me to keep it and said that take it as he treat us cos we are waiting for him to complete the game just now. Chat for awhile before leaving and Ivan shared some of his funny work experience in his line. Laugh till tears! Went home together after that. Had a really wonderful day today! Hope that someone will like the gift..

Outing with Ivan

Slept at 5am on Sunday morning cos I couldn't get myself to sleep. Woke up around 10am in the morning and SMS Khong. Wanted to meet him initially but then he says he will be working overtime and after much discussion with Esther, we then decide not to meet him. I then meet Esther at TBP. So coincidence to see her at the platform! Cos we were suppose to meet outside the MacDonald's.

After that we then went to window shop around as Esther wanted to buy a Birthday gift for her younger brother. We couldn't find any suitable gift at TBP so we went to Bugis to look for it. Esther found a very nice T-shirt for her brother and ask me whether it look nice? Not bad actually but I saw another shirt that is it purple in colour. I like that shirt but then again I don't think the colour is suitable for her brother after she chose the black T-shirt. Ivan then SMS Esther angrily cos he was actually waiting for her call since morning. Esther apologise but he was still very angry. Luckily he did join us in the end late afternoon.

We then went to play arcade games and saw him there. Wah! He look very fierce! Very black face! I was thinking,"Uh-oh!" we then approach him and he smiled. Marcus then suddenly gave me a call saying that he will be joining us too. When I told Ivan and Esther about it, Esther said,"Wah ah! Somebody is very happy le ne! Marcus is coming down finally!" Cos in the morning when I invite Marcus to join us, he said he will not be coming as he have to study for his coming examinations. But I was surprise that he could join us in the end. Ivan then got very jealous and said,"Wah! KNS! When I SMS him to ask him to come out, he NEVER reply my SMS even once and never bother to pick up my call! Now you just SMS him and he called you! Oh...never mind!"

Went for Breakfast-cum-lunch at the food court. Marcus then said he is at Bugis and ask where are we? I then told Esther and Ivan that I will be fetching Marcus as he don't know the way to the food court. Esther then said,"Ooooh! Go lah go lah." Ivan then tease me too and said,"Ya ya..go fetch your Marcus" My face was burning red! Not with anger but I was very pai seh when they said that. Saw Marcus at the control station and I walk him to the food court. Went to order food but I couldn't finish mine. Ivan then said to Marcus,"Oei! Le ho hor? I SMS you and you didn't bother to reply and now a zha bo SMS you, you replied immediately! Liew! You good!" Marcus smiled but said nothing.

We then walk to a bus stop and took a bus to East Coast. Rent the individual bicycle to cycle around. Marcus keep on over-taking me when I over-take the rest. Took some pictures too. Fell down once when I knock my bicycle onto Marcus's. He still said that the way I fell was very cute and he regret not taking a picture of it!(Siao!) When we return the bikes and reach MacDonald's, Marcus still ask me,"Are you alright? Got bleed?" Nope. There are no scratches or any blood but I got bruises though. Marcus was worried and said,"Wah! That kinda impact you fell and you didn't get cut? Amazing man!" He treat all of us the drinks.(Thanks Marcus!) We continue to chat for a very long time at MacDonald's and I was very amaze that Ivan could talk from one topic to another topic easily. It's like no matter what kind topic you chat with him, Politics, soccer, medical(his favourite), army daze etc. He could talk to you non-stop about it. When Marcus put his hand down, I comment that his hand is very beautiful! I seldom see guy's hand as beautiful as his. His fingers are very long too.

On the way home, I saw his hand lines are very refined. I then took a look at his pump and his life-line is very long! Usually it means that he could live up to 90+ years of age.(The longer your life-line, the longer you will live)that's the saying from the olden days. But how true is it I do not know.

Took a bus home and I slept on the bus. Funny thing is that we all sit separately. Marcus one seat, Ivan one seat. I think they deliberately sit separately so that Esther and I could sit beside them. But I then sit at a seat and Esther look at me with a whierd look and she herself sit at one seat. So the 4 of us sit separately. I couldn't really sleep well cos Ivan was making a lot of noise! I then open my eyes and stare at their reflection. I saw Esther going to Ivan and went back to her seat again. Ivan then call me out twice but I ignore him and pretend to sleep(still looking at the reflection).

Walk home with Ivan after seeing Esther get off the bus and bidding Marcus goodbye. He walk me all the way to my block before saying goodbye to me. Talk a lot of crap on the way. I was very tired when I reach home and just SMS Esther and Ivan somethings before I went to bed.

Had a really enjoyable day yesterday. That's all for now. Will blog again some other time.

Yeh! Outing with my friends

Yesterday night, HuiYi called me and ask am I home yet? I then realize I got miss calls from Lorraine and she ask me to call her back as soon as possible. I wonder what happened? Made new "friends" with two girls at my usual hunt. They are a group of band. One of the girls said,"Hey! You looked familiar. You have been here before am I right?" I said ya and she said she saw me before once. I am a "regular" customer actually. They are quite friendly and had the figure that I really wish to have. Slim and sexy. Wow! They are quite observant! Could still recognise me out of the crowds. They then introduce themselves and ask me for my name. I smiled and introduce myself to them. I then gave them words of affirmation that they perform quite well(Actually it's their singing). They were overjoyed by my comment and said a loud,"Thank you" with a big smile. I never regret praising them cos later on one of the girls can finally dance a little besides singing.

When I order a random drink and sat at the usual place, a group of guys then sat on my left. Quite irritating! Maybe it's because that I don't quite like guys for now. The two girls then gave me a surprise by saying out my name aloud. They said,"Hi! Thank you for watching our performance. We would like to thank our friends, who came to suppose us over there!"(Pointing to my right hand side of the other end) and then they continued,"and we have made a new friend over here! Her name is Juliet!"(Shout my name very loudly! KNS!) Their male performers then ask,"Oh! You've made a new friend? Juliet? Where's Juliet? Can I see your hand please?" Some of the audience then cheer for me and I raise my hand to the guy and smile at the two girls shyly. He said,"Oh! There she is! Nice meeting you Juliet! Woo!"

After that I continue to watch the show for awhile and my phone ring. Only take a few last sip of my drink and quickly dash off. HuiYi called me to ask about my whereabouts. Wah! So late le she's not sleeping yet? She says she's worry about me. I then notice I had miss call from Lorraine and she ask me to call her back ASAP. I returned the call.

Lorraine said a lot of things about me. Lorraine, Please...I DO listen to each and every word of yours but just that I don't know how to reply you that's all. Actually I went drinking cos I am stress from my workload. Really don't wish to work anymore! She said,"Even if you drink, the problem is still there right? Can you please call me, or HuiYi or Bro? No matter how busy we are, if any of our members have problem, we will put aside everything and listen to them!" I don't wanna tell them my problems especially if it is work related..cos I feel that it's my own problem. There was once a guy told me before when I was very young(I only met him once and that's it!), He said,"Don't always pour your problems out to others. Cos it will only burden them more. Yes you will feel better after talking to them but some times, because of YOUR problems, they will feel more burden! They themselves already had problems and if you tell them your own problem too, it won't help them but will only burden them even more!" I remembered his words to this day even though I just met him once. That is also the main reason why I do not like to share about my problems if really brings burden to the friends around me. That is why I don't like to share about my problems face-to-face most of the time. I prefer to blog it here or keep it inside my heart.

Lorraine then told me not to take HuiYi's friendship for granted. I was thinking,"I never!" then she said that HuiYi is constantly worrying about me because of the way I see and do things. After that when I thought for awhile, I then realize that maybe I did hurt HuiYi in such a way that I myself do not even realize. It was then I know how much I have hurt HuiYi deeply and do not even realize it myself. Lorraine said,"Do you know how much HuiYi cares about you? You see lah! She's sick already and who is in her mind? JULIET" I then felt quite guilty...Sorry HuiYi.

She then want me to tell Bro and be accountable in everything that I do from now on to Bro. I said to her,"Huh...can I don't tell Bro..I'm scared to talk to him". He's not fierce but just that I have difficulty talking to Bro about things(Emotionally shut-down). She then ask me to write to him first..take step by step to talk to him. Oh..I was thinking whether to use the emotional map to communicate with Bro? Then Bro will be like,".....what the...."? She then made me promise her not to go drinking again. She says that there are more ways that I can release stress..Ya like what? By the way, some times I do release stress by punching things. Ya..that's how violent I am. Unless you guys have better ways to tell me for de-stressing. Please don't tell me to do Yoga okay? I don't have that kind of patience. I wonder if Aerobatics can help me to de-stress? But I really forgot how to do it.

Went for CG today and Bro seems to preach about something regarding yesterday night. I then look at Lorraine for awhile before turning back to Bro. Bro can be quite observant at times too! Now then I realize! I am really amaze by him of how he could "see" his members pray with his eyes close? Some times I really admire Bro...spiritually okay?!(Not that kind of admiration that you guys imagine!) Don't misunderstand me.(or my words..or whatever)

After the Church service ends, I told Lorraine I had to rush off to meet my friends at Banquet Harbour front. When I reach there, only Esther and I went to order food to eat. Haven't eaten anything since morning till night. Cos when my CGM went to KFC, I don't dare to eat the things there as it is too oily. I wanted to try to Brandito but dare not try for now. Chat alot during dinner and Esther keep on teasing me about Marcus. They tease me till I was lost for words and quickly eat my food. Sheryln and Esther then ask,"Why is your face so red?"I then smile to myself and said,"Erm...eat lah eat lah".

We then went to Vivocity to walk around. Wow! The shopping centre is quite big! Bigger than I have imagined! Although most of the shops are still not in operation, but overall, it is still okay. My God-brother and me then wonder will it have any arcades in the shopping mall? Hopefully could see some new games too. There's also some spots at the rooftop I think it's designed especially for couples cos the atmosphere is quite romantic at night. One of my friend then tease me,"Next time you and Marcus can come here to pat tor" I was like,"......! No! Please! Not Marcus!" The Bible says,"Don't yoke with the unyoke!" Marcus is a free thinker and anyway I never think too far about it. His expectations of a girlfriend is quite high too.

Esther then told Sheryln that recently I seems to have a lot of university guys flocking towards me.(The most recent one is a Bachelor Degree holder) I happened to read my horoscope and it says that this month I will have a lot of 桃花运 around me. Meaning that I will be meeting quite a lot of the opposite sex for this month. I didn't really bother it much. I used to believe in such things until the Healing service, the Pastor said that this is actually spirits of Idolatry! From then on, I had stop myself from reading it. But occasionally I will still happen to read my horoscope but didn't really believe totally in it anymore like I used to. I then told my friends that they think too much. They said,"Is it? But he seems to be interested in you these days? Don't tell me you didn't notice?" Seriously I really didn't notice. Maybe it's because he never shows obviously signs that he likes me or whatever. I still think that he is just being friendly that's all.

I think I end my long-winded blog for now. Sorry if I bore you to death with my nonsense entries..but..that's me! That's my life! (*Singing* It's my life...!) Will blog again next time! Ciao!