Yeh! Finally there's something for me to do at work today! Been slacking for the past few days. I was quite bothered about something at work after one of my colleague have a "talk" with me. No, this time is not about office politics. It's about religion politics. Quite sensitive issue huh? Don't know whether after I blog it here, will I get scolded or will I be "crucified"? It all starts from yesterday...
Was very bored for almost the whole day yesterday. I do blogging but after an hour or so, I deleted what I had blog. Cos I know the things that I have blog yesterday will spark quarrels here and there. Anyway I don't wish to argue with that person anymore. I just don't wish to talk! Please don't ask me to come out and talk cos I don't even wish to see you anymore! Although I said what I have said in anger, but I mean it! I don't wish to see you or talk to you ever again! And PLEASE for goodness sake! DON'T EVER USE MY FRIENDS TO GET TROUGH ME! OUR "FRIENDSHIP" IS OVER! THAT'S IT! YOU GO YOUR OWN WAY AND I GO MY OWN! GET IT?!(Although I don't know is he reading this?) YOU SHOULD KNOW WHO YOU ARE! I WON'T GIVE YOU MY BLESSINGS NO MATTER WHAT! BUT I WARN YOU THIS: IF SHE GETS HURT BY YOU OR SHE EVER CRY BECAUSE OF YOU, OR THAT YOU EVER ILL-TREAT HER, I WON'T LET YOU OFF SO EASILY!!!! MARK MY WORDS!!!!!
Sharon then approach me yesterday to ask me to help her out(Which I always do). I then went down to the basement with her. At the basement, she ask me whether I have baptise and I said,"No". She ask me for the reason. I did not directly answer her questions but I just said that I have my own reasons why I do not wish to baptise. Anyway my parents, especially my Mum, were strongly against me for baptising. Sharon said that I am not a true Christian yet unless I get baptise. NO! I don't want and I never will! Unless my future husband is a Christian or that my future husband gets baptise first! Otherwise is a NO! I think after this I will get "stoned" by the majority of the Christians. I have my own reasons why I do not wish to baptise. Sorry but no matter what you say, I will still stand firm on my decision. She then keep psycho me to get baptise. I think alot of Christians should know that the judgement day is coming soon right? She then use this to psycho me again,"Zhu Li Ye(Juliet in Chinese), you know that the judgment day is coming soon right? Baptising only symbolize that you and Christ are ONE and after baptising, you will sense the Holy Spirit more stronger and whatever sinful things you do, there's a guilt there and it will be much stronger than when you are not baptise". I was very angry when she said this and told her,"Oh really? If that's the case, why do one of my ex-God-Brother backslide? He got baptised! How do you explain? If it is what you have said, the guilt will be stronger when baptise and the Holy Spirit will dwell more strongly in that person, why is it until now he doesn't wanna come back to church?" She then keep very quiet. I think this question no one could answer me except that person himself! But then again, I don't wish to know, I don't wish to bother and I don't care his reasons anymore! It's none of my business from then on! Sharon just said,"He will be back to church one day".
Saw HuiYi online yesterday and ask how is she doing? Heard that she is rushing her art work and had to submit by tomorrow. So only left about less than 24 hours to complete the work. She told me that she has a lot of work to do and I sense that she's going to have a breakdown soon. Although I do not know much about arts, but still I offer my help to her. Four hands are better than two mah.
Read someone's blog and I had read all his latest entries. Now I understand his fears. No wonder he kinda reject me. But I can understand why. I am not like that lor! Haiz..written a poem about him but I didn't post it in my blog cos it will be very obvious who the poem is delicate to. I cannot really remember what I wrote but I only remember the middle part of the poem. Read to Esther that middle part and she said,"Eeeek! So Mushy!" Erm..is it? Okay lor..I won't rush into things but I let time tell. I will wait for him...unless...nevermind. But I didn't confess to him my feelings face-to-face lah. Fear being rejected so I didn't say it out or even express it to him. Only a few of my friends will know who this mysterious person is. So don't ever think that I am bold okay? There are just some things that I have difficulty expressing myself to. Haiz...
Don't know what else to write anymore. Will blog again some other time.
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