OJT

Took a taxi from Bugis to New World Centre cos I don't know the way there. I was the 2nd person to reach that place. The Store Manager then showed us where to put our bags. After that we were told to stay in a room. My nose then bleed again! 2nd time le! Yesterday evening it bleed then now, just after seeing the teacher, it bleed! I just hope that the teacher don't think otherwise. I then went to the ladies to wash up. The bleeding didn't stop but got worst instead. First time have blood cot too! Don't know is it good or bad? Please don't ask me to see a doctor! No money to see doctor! When I think I am okay a little, I then went back and saw a lot more candidates there other than the girl and me.

The Manager then brief us on our attires. Luckily the Agent already told me beforehand on what to wear. She then continue to teach us on how to serve and greet the customers. She also teach us what types of food should be pack with what types. After that she then bring us to do practical hands-on cashier work. Different stores operate using different cashier. Luckily the cashier I will be using will be easy to operate.

The difficult part is the code. KNS! I hate to memorize codes! She also explains that for those short-term memory or those who have poor memory, it is best that you know how you can remember things in what kinda way. She made me key in a particular item code repeatedly and she said that usually this method works for short-term memories employees. After that she teach us the different type of cards that we will come across and how to process them. There is one particular card I am very irritate about but I just pray and wish that I won't come across that particular card! Cos the processing is very troublesome..no is EXTREMELY troublesome! Only that particular card processing system irritates me! Other than that, the rest is okay.

We were then given a 20 minutes tea-break and I went for a drink with a Philippine girl. She sticks to me all the time throughout the training course and I don't know why. The rest ignore me. Anyway, since we are posting to different outlets, I don't see the need to interact with them much. The Philippine girl is a slow learner. Same as me but her memory is also poorer than me. Maybe because of her age...She is way older than me, in case all of you are wondering. So..I really don't understand why she likes to stick to me throughout the day?

After that we then do hands-on cashiering work again and this time, I forgot all the codes! The Manager then said 2 numbers at first and I key in accordingly but again I forgot the rest. She then said another number and I manage to figure out the rest. Haiz..need to practice more. The Manager has no problem teaching the rest but when it comes to the Philippine girl, she gets fed-up and very annoyed with her cos she keep on forgetting what to key in and keep referring to the board for the codes. The Manager then told one of the girls to erase off the codes and ask the Philippine girl to key on her own. She couldn't remember any of the codes even keying the SAME code repeatedly! One of the Malay girls then told the Manager to relax. I then told the Manager that I remember only 2 of the codes(out of 4)but I always get mix-up especially if the codes are identical.

After that she continue to show us other cards and how to go on processing them. Wah! Teach so many things in a day! After that we were given an hour lunch-break and she told us if we are free after lunch and still have time, we can go and observe how the cashier pack the items. I followed the rest to MacDonald's to eat cos that's the nearest place to have lunch. Again, the Philippine girl stick to me like glue. Argh!!! Help!!! I finish the food quite fast and I told the rest that I wanted to see how the cashier go about on their work and I left. The Philippine girl seems unhappy.

I then took a packet of sweets and queue behind a customer and watch how the cashier pack the items. I was very surprise that the way she pack was wrong! But then when I saw the word "Trainee" on her name tag, I didn't say anything. Maybe she didn't know or she could have forgotten the packing procedures. The Philippine girl stood behind me and suddenly ask,"Hey! You are here! I was looking for you!" I smiled at her and said,"Ya, I am watching how she pack" but in my mind, I was screaming,"HELP!!! Why you only follow me?!" I quickly paid for the sweets and left. The girl kept following me everywhere I go..and I really mean EVERYWHERE!(Including the ladies). For the remaining 45 minutes, she kept following me and I cannot do anything on my own. KNS!!!

After we came back from lunch, we continue with the cashiering training. We were then told that the training is a day and not 2 days as stated. o.O?! But is okay cos at least I can get a day rest and also I can use the remaining 1 day as rest and I could also go down to the workplace to copy the item codes and memorize them hopefully by hard before I start work.

We were dismiss at 5pm instead of 5.30pm. After that I quickly go off after having my time-sheet signed cos I don't want that girl to follow me! She caught up with me and ask,"How do you go home? By Bus or Taxi?" Cos there was no MRT station around. I told her that I don't know and she said that she could follow me to go home if I am using the same route with her. I then smile and said I may not be going the way she goes and quickly bids her goodbye when she is using her hand phone to call her husband.

Had a tiring day and a stressful day. Partly because of the codes and the processing of the cards. I think I have to end here for now. Will blog again some other time...

Cell group outing

Went out with the CG yesterday and I was very happy! We went to Vivocity ate at Food Culture. The food there is quite expensive! Shared a Korean meal with HuiYi cos I don't feel like eating anything. I had taken my dinner before meeting them. I love their Ikan Blis and especially their spicy vegetable~yum! Samuel went to order steak with spaghetti on it. Taste good too!

After that Bro bring us to a coffee house to drink. I was like,"Huh?! Can I don't order anything please?" Cos I don't have much money with me *Pai seh look* The place is good. Ideal for relaxing and do some catching up with friends kind of place. We then celebrate Ming Ze and Joanne's birthday. When we were singing, a group of Malay from the far end then copy our action. But they came over and wish Joanne Happy Birthday too.

Peter(HuiYi's friend..To Esther Ho: Not our ex-Boss Peter), then treat all of us drinks but I didn't order anything cos I was on the phone talking to BaoBei. Haiz...too bad I don't have a job. If not I will surely bring BaoBei to this coffee house to drink. Samuel order strawberry cheese cake and I tried a bit...IT TASTE AWSOME!!! But don't have the money to eat *Pai seh*

After that we then went home. I will be starting my temp job soon. Maybe instead of 2 weeks, I cannot see BaoBei for 2-and-a-half or maybe 3 weeks. Of course he was very unhappy when I told him this.

I think I will end here for now. Will blog again some other time.

Edmund's Poem Part 2(He actually have 3 works but only 2 of his works touches me)

You make the most of my day,
You showed me a new world, a better place
You make me smile when im feeling low
Most importantly, you taught me how to Love
For without you, i'll never know.

And i feel grateful every single day
because God gave me the most beautiful woman
none could ever replace.
And thank God i found her,
Because i'll never feel the same,
if I never met her on that fateful day.

She's the only girl i'll ever love
and this is my promise that will never be broken
Its so magical its just like a beautiful dream
but its so true and thank God i found you.

Our first kiss i will never forget
it was short but hauntingly sweet.
when our hands bond, i knew it is all destined
For me to meet you, that's all i need.

POEM CREATED BY: EDMUND
EXTRACTED FROM: wholivesnearyou.com

PS: All of his works are original and HAVE NOT BEEN EDITED

EDMUND'S POEM PART 1(Read it and maybe you'll know why it took my breathe away)

A golden sun set in the horizon,
the sandy beach bask in its glorious motion
the picture tells a thousand words
yet none could tell me the story of my missing maiden
How the lonely heart ache, i wonder
Is she happy , Is she sad?
Is she content with what she gets?

Tell me ,oh whispering wind
news of my missing heart-to-be
Is she safe , is she snug?
Is she fine with that warmly hut
that i set upon with my prayers
that i hope upon with my wishes.....

Wash away her troubles, oh mighty waves
yet keep her close to the sandy bay
let her know that im not far away
just some distance from the love gateway
Show her the way my mighty waves , and make her stay
make her stay....

Cover her with your love , oh fluffy clouds
shape the wonders, shape my love
Shape the heaven that i dream on earth
tell the stories of my love , cover the blushes when i do see her....

Now oh Glorious Sun, Would you bake my love-made cookie crumbs
So its golden , crunchy just like what she wants
Sweet and honeyed , oh so nicely done
Now send it to her, wrapped in your golden beams and warmth...
Now would you do me the favour ,Oh Glorious Sun ?
Set you may but please send her what i've done...

let not my efforts gone to none.....

Poem created by: Edmund
Extract from Wholivesnearyou.com forum

P.S: If you know who you are and if this poem is yours, sorry to have copied your work to paste it here but I just want you to know that I admire your poem work very much. Once again, my apologies...

Ahhh!!!! So Stupid!!!!

Watch a drama Series just now. Was very touch on the ending part where YaoYao said,"Some people sink deep into the darkness while others came out from it. You determine yourself which path you want to take". It made me cry partly because her words are touching. At the same time, I was thinking about my past and what BaoBei said to me during our initial stage of dating(2 weeks) After what he had said, I did ask him to think through it carefully before really accepting me as his girlfriend. The things he said later on made me cry. He said that it was from the bottom of his heart.

The factory job finally replied but I guess it was too late. My Mum said I am stupid to have reject the job offer for the sake of the temporary job. BaoBei called me yesterday and I don't have hands to hold the phone so answer the phone with my head slant sideways. I was making BaoBei's Valentine's Day gift. He ask what am I doing and I just replied,"Doing your gift lor. Need to finish up in a hurry to give you before Valentine's Day"(Cos he'll be booking in JUST before Valentine's Day). He then said,"Hmm..let me guess. You are folding stars right?" I then said that I do not know how to fold stars and I said I'll give him a surprise on that day itself. He said,"If not stars then is heart lor. How many?" I was speechless for some time. I only replied I will give him before the day itself but I have to hurry cos it was too many. Okay lah..it's because I myself set the impossible target. 9999 paper hearts. It has meaning of my own. Instead of 999(which is my initial plan, I change it to 9999). Cos in Chinese, it represents 4 words: Tian Chang Ti Jiu. Read it out and you'll notice it's 4 words right? My 9999 hearts means these 4 words. So far I only reach my initial semi target of 99 hearts. The rest are still in midst of folding. Haiz...hen xing ku!

Sorry..cos initially wanted to bring him to have a nice dinner but I don't have job and no money. I also don't know how to celebrate Valentine's Day as I never give any of my ex-bfs Valentine's day gifts before. Okay lah...only gave one of my ex whom the relationship last for 2-and-a-half years, a chocolate for the first year and a ring for the second year. The rest of my relationship never last beyond a year. Okay..I know I am un-romantic or no creativity but...that's me. I mention before I had difficulty expressing myself.

Log in to WLNY.com and I post one of my poems in Tampines area. 4 people who read my poem said my poem has meaning and touching. A girl then put 4 shock faces look. While a guy said my poem was "Power". Haha! First time I get this kinda reaction from people. It was just an ordinary poem but I am ashamed that the reaction I get is bigger than the operator who set the forum topic himself. He has also been criticised for his poem work which I felt sad for him. A few of them said his poem is copied from somewhere and it does not feel original. Probably because he uses the words "Thou" "Art" "Thee" etc. I was amazed cos it look like shake spears of Literature poem to me. There is a guy called, Edmund. He post two poems of his own and both of his poems took my breathe away! I never came across a person who can write a poem so well! I was like,"Wow!!! This guy is amazing! Could describe a scenery so well and so define!" I don't know how to describe his work. It's really beyond words for me! To me, it's the best poetry I ever seen! Now I know the chinese meaning of "Yi Shan hai you yi shan gao" When I told BaoBei about it, he was jealous. He said that he fear that I have an attraction for this forum guy(cos BaoBei don't know how to write poems). I then assure him that I am just admiring Edmund's poem and not the person himself. Anyway, I have BaoBei and that is good enough for me. I am contented.

BaoBei, xiang xing wo...wo de xin zhi you ni yi ge ren. Ni you ni de te bie, Ye Jiu Shi ying wei zhe ge te bie..wo chai hui xi huan ni. Bu yao he bie de nan ren zhuo bi jiao hao ma? Wo bu hui ying wei yi shou shi er xi huan ling yi ge nan ren...

Haiz...why BaoBei is so sensitive nowadays? I am slightly regret that I reject the factory job. Don't know if I had made the right decision? I will end here for now. Will blog again some other time

永恒的记忆

曾经我们是朋友
如今却变成了敌人
我们今日的结果,
我们彼此都有错

误会太深, 也太伤人
友情断了, 朋友散了
口中吐出埋在心低的真心话

谢谢你带给我
曾经的欢乐与悲伤
也感谢你, 在我生命中
留下了一个, 完美和
永恒的记忆

Created by: Juliet
Delicate to: Vincent, Gerrayne and Ivan

Cultural Mandate 3

Been thinking about what Pastor said on Saturday sermon. Maybe there are indeed some of us are not called to do church work. Pastor then ask us to use our talents to shine for the Glory of God. I was thinking,"What's my talent?" Cos I don't think I have any. I suddenly remember a verse about talents, where God gave each man different numbers of talent. One of them buried it into the ground and God was very angry. The problem is, I did not bury it! What if I really don't know what is my talent? Or maybe...worst, I had forgotten what is my talent? Don't ask me what is my strength cos I don't have any(or at least I think so). My weakness I have a lot.

Pastor wants us to use our talents to work and excel in the marketplace. From the beginning when Pastor spoke about this, until the end of it, I still could not answer my own question. BaoBei says my talent is...I have a great listening ear. Am I? That is not a talent! Maybe I'll never know what's my talent. Or maybe I really don't have any talents at all. Just a simple plain me. I was very surprise and astonish that the JAMS ministry can spell those difficult words that I myself couldn't have spell it out! I like the guy who plays the piano!!! He plays it very well!!! Anyone know how to play that song that he played? Can anyone teach me? Haha! That piano piece is nice!

Ended friendship with Ivan. He end it first but anyway, somehow I am happy that our friendship ended. Strange right? People cry over lost friendship but yet I am happy over it. Maybe it's because I treat him like how I treat Vincent. He really sucks sometimes! Now I am worried about Esther. I really don't wish to see her getting hurt. I think she has forgotten the encouraging words she used to tell me when I am down. Now when I tell her the exact same words back, I ask her,"Do you find it familiar? Who said these to me before"? She just keep quiet.

Initially wanted to go down to meet Ivan(perhaps to beat him up). Was shouting over the phone with him. While I was on my way down, Esther called me to plead me not to go down. I feel that she is going to cry any moment that kind. I understand her difficulty. She says,"One is my friend, the other is my lover. What do you want me to do? I don't want any of you to get hurt" She then said that Ivan also agree with her for me not to go down. I then called with him to have another "shouting match". I ask him a question and AGAIN, he likes to change topic! Why huh?! Cannot answer my question is it? Must talk other topic huh?! I then ask him,"Oei!! ** ***!!! I ask you one last time!!! Do you want me to come down!? Esther called to plead me! So I want an answer from you! YES OR NO?!" After again, saying some nonsense which I don't know what the hell is he talking about, he finally said,"No! I don't wish to see you ever again!" I then said,"Okay fine!" and hang up.

BaoBei then called me and ask where am I going? I said,"Home". He then said,"Oh ya? Then why did I receive an information that you are going to Queenstown? To do what? Meet who?"(why do I have the feeling that he started to sound more and more like Bro?) I then left speechless for a while. I thought it was Esther SMSing him to inform him that I went to meet Ivan. I then ask,"Who told you huh?". He seems a bit annoyed and said,"Ivan SMS me that you are going to Queenstown to meet him. For what huh? I told you before to let them settle it themselves right? Can you please don't make me worry?" At this point of time, I cried. Then the guy beside me in bus was kinda shock. He then continue to say things to made me cry further. Not scolding, not whatever. But...just normal talking using normal tone but I don't know why, somehow BaoBei is able to make me cry like that. The only person I know that can make me cry using only normal tone and even talking about things normally, is only Bro. Then nowadays BaoBei is also began to lift his hands to worship God. Something that I had not seen him done before when he first came back to church by HuiYi. It's a good sign lah. He has also since grow much more spiritually stronger than me.

Was thinking whether to work in F&B line? Cos it will meant that I definitely won't get to go to church cos I won't be able to get off on weekends. I will see how things goes. Maybe I do not fully understand what is Pastor trying to say? I think I will end here for now. Will blog again some other time.

Drinking + Hurt = GUYS SUCKS

Was late for Bible study class so I didn't manage to go. Cos I went shopping with BaoBei's Mum and so...was late. Went for service directly. BaoBei brought a new friend along, Joseph. We then listen to Pastor's preaching. Service was okay but I was not in the mood to worship. Something keep bothering me.

After service, I told BaoBei to fellowship with the rest while I went to meet Esther. Went to have dinner at a food centre. Esther can't finish her fish soup and so I eat the remaining fishes. Okay lah...I know it sounds gross for most of you but that's what I do with my long time friends. While I was eating, something pierce into my throat. I had difficulty swallowing that thing and I keep pressing my neck. Esther got worried and ask,"Are you okay?" I signal to her that something is in my throat and she said,"Huh!? Got fish bone inside?!" I nod and quickly run to the backdoor of the food centre and force myself to vomit it out. Luckily I finally did, and....guess what I saw? A 1-and-a-half inch long and half a centimeter of fish bone!!! It hurts! No wonder I had difficulty swallowing it down. I tried to drink water to force it down but it got worst so I had no choice but to vomit it out. When I went back and told Esther about it, she was shock said,"Wah!!! So thick?! You are lucky that you can vomit it out"

Call BaoBei back as I have one miss call. He ask where am I and I told him that I won't be going home tonight and ask him to go back first. He ask,"Where are you?" when I told him I am at Bugis, he said,"I am at Bugis too! Where are you? I can't see you"He was at the Burger King side while I am at the other end of a 7-11 side. Haha! So coincidence!

After that Esther said she wanted to drink and we bring her to a Pub. BaoBei seems to know the people there very well. He told me that he used to be a regular at that Pub. I was thinking,"Wah! BaoBei de lai tou bu xiao!" He can even point out to me the people there and tell me their names. Even the Lady Boss there knows my BaoBei by name. She then touch me and Esther very affectionately and treat us as if we are her close friends. We order one jar and BaoBei paid for it. Esther drink quite alot and drink quite heavily. When I am drinking my 2nd glass, she already had her 4th or 5th glass. I was like -_-" No need to drink for suck a jerk right? I cannot drink too much or else someone will get angry. Actually I am not suppose to drink at all..but..just to accompany Esther to drink and to "entertain" her since she is down.

We then left and BaoBei told me that the two girls, JingJing and PeiPei, told my BaoBei that I am not bad looking. I was like,"*jealous* humph! Have girls talk to him!" Hmm..I feel that BaoBei can attract girl's attention quite easily. Although he doesn't have the looks that a girl wants but if they like his generosity and sincerity, they will sure find him a good catch! BaoBei said that the Pub is suitable for relaxing or to have a get-together with friends kind. Er....get-together with friends is true but for that relaxing part is all depends. Cos there's karaoke TV sets there, so...whether the atmosphere will be a relaxing one, all depends on the songs they choose and most importantly, how WELL they sing?

The drinks is quite okay. The Lady boss gave my BaoBei discount. 1 Jug for $40+++ and per bottle of Chivas Regal is $120 also discount price...I think? Haha! Now I know how to "por" customers into buying Liquor. Really must flirt with them. No wonder *Eileen ask me not to do that job. She says that job is not suitable for me and BaoBei will definitely be angry about the job scope.

After that we send Esther home. I think Ivan really forgotten what he has promise me. JERK!!! Should have listen to Marcus instead! I think I will end here for now. Will blog again some other time.

Relationship Problems + Esther's blog = Reflection

Woke up quite late in the morning. Went to retrieve the Straits Times and flip through the jobs page again as usual. An Advertisement then caught my eye and I dial the number cos it states: Various locations available. The guy on the phone ask me to go to Jurong CPF building. I was thinking,"Huh?! Again?! Sian..The other time I go and didn't get any reply!" I was surprise after he said,"Look for Kelly Services". Esther Ho warn me before something about Kelly Services but then I just give it a try to see how it goes.

Went to fill up the application form that a girl handle it to me. After I had finish, the girl then collect it from me and pass it to a guy. He then came forward to me saying,"Erm...QiuFen? You are Juliet right? The one who called me this morning?" I just smile and nod. He then ushered me to a cabin and discuss with me about my temporary job. He said I would have to commit for 2 weeks, and work on weekends. He then made me sign something and he pass me some time sheet which he explains that I had to submit in person each week after completing one week of my service to that company. He will try to look out for Data Entry jobs for me. My job only starts next month. Saw Esther Leong's blog about parents and I do feel guilty cos I had been busy with my own life to even bother about what they do or how they are going on with their lives. Especially my poor Mum. My brother hugs her whenever he comes home. I don't even remember when is the last time I ever hug my Mum. Primary one? It's been too long since I last hug her.

Went home and talk to Bro about it. Of course, he wasn't very happy to hear the news lah. Cos I definitely had to miss Service and maybe CG for 2 weeks cos of my temporary job. I also cannot see BaoBei. Ivan then called me to chat about Esther. He then said some things that made me very upset. Has he forgotten his promises to me when I bless him and Esther to be together?! Now because of what his friends said, Esther seems nothing to him in his eyes!!! I was very angry because I was thinking,"If you really love Esther, why is it that when she is being condemn by your friends, you didn't stand up for her?! She's your girlfriend for Goddess sake!!!" First, he complain that Esther don't love him enough cos she have difficulty expressing herself and she is those "Bei Dong Pai"(While I am those "Zhu Dong Pai")I then ask Esther to hold his hand whenever she can or at least try to. Esther is a very shy person by the way. Imagine asking a very shy person to be expressive. How would they feel?! Esther already giving in to Ivan on this part. Okay..I also feel there's nothing wrong although...I do find Ivan fussy. Then..now he dare to said to me,"My feelings for Esther is not as strong as before". I was like,"Hello?!?! What do you think Esther is huh?! Who is the person who said to me that he WON'T let Esther feel hurt?! Who is the person who promise me that he won't hurt Esther in any way and would let her trust love all over again?! Who?! Tell me who?! Now you said all these crap to me!!!! REGRET ENTRUSTING ESTHER ONTO YOU!!!! I RUIN MY OWN FRIEND'S FUTURE!!!! I RUIN MY OWN FRIEND'S LIFE!!!! Now Esther said to me that she won't ever trust a guy again!!!! Now how!? Ivan ah Ivan...I AM SO BLIND TO ENTRUST MY FRIEND TO YOU!!!! I SHOULD HAVE LISTEN TO MARCUS WORDS!!!! YOU %^&^%$^ IDIOT!!!!" The more I think of it, the more angry I felt. Esther felt humiliated. Ivan told me not to tell Esther but....she is my friend leh! You want me to keep a friend in darkness about what her beau said to me?! Especially something that concerns her?! Despite all these things, Esther didn't shed a tear but I can feel deep down inside her heart, she is crying. A strong girl may not seen crying on the outside but no matter how tough and how strong they are, one thing is for sure: When a girl doesn't cry on the outside, IT DOESN'T MEAN SHE DOESN'T CRY IN HER HEART! The feeling of crying inside one's heart and not be able to cry it out, is more painful then to be able to cry out easily. I know how it feels cos I am one of the girls who has difficulty crying sometimes. That pain inside my heart when I am not able to cry, is more painful than when I am able to cry it out.

Yes I am crying now as I type this entry. I feel pain for my friend!!! Sorry for ruin your future and your love life Esther. But he sounds very sincere when he wants to woo you that time. Humph! How a guy's mind and heart change fast! Although you try to sound okay on the phone but I know deep down in your heart you are hurting. You said you don't want me to worry and don't want your friends to worry about your problems but hey! I am your friend! You always read my blog and want to know more about my problems when I blog it but now you are telling me that you don't want me to worry about your problems?! You are my friend!!! Why is it that you don't want to tell me your problems?! Am I really your friend or not?

Haiz...never mind. Maybe I will never understand what you have gone through or you simply don't want me to know of some things. Maybe I couldn't help anyway. Esther, you should learnt to stand up for yourself. Speak up for yourself when you know something is not right. Keeping quiet doesn't solve things all the time.

Went for CGM and fellowship for awhile. To Meimei and to the one who bought the tuna etc: Thanks! The sandwich and Tuna taste great! Not forgetting to the person who bought the oreos too. Sorry cos I do not know who bought those things so...I can only say Thanks here.

Really feel like murdering Ivan. Is Love really base on looks alone? Is looks really SO important in a relationship than the person's personality and Character himself/herself?! I am really disappointed. Luckily BaoBei is not like that.....at least for now. Or else I will be totally heart-broken. Wei Da and Xiao Pang also accepts me for who I am and never comment about anything on me. The rest of BaoBei's friends, I do not know cos I didn't get any feedback from them or from BaoBei.

I don't wish to type further...really very upset and heartbroken now. By the way, I am typing at 5+am in the morning but because this incident happens on Friday so I just set the time accordingly.

Sianz...itchy hands

Feeling very sad. Quarrelled with BaoBei for the very first time. About job problem and also because of his low self-esteem. HuiYi warn me before that my BaoBei will be very low self-esteem sometimes and I have to encourage him. But I end up quarrelling with him instead of encouraging him. He then said,"Humph! Okay lor..go lor..go and find yourself another guy lor! Baby don't want me already! I am so sad! Humph! Baby abandon me!!!" When I tried to call him back, the operator said,"The number you have dial, could not be reach. Please try again later" Haiz..okay okay. Don't look at me like that. I know is my fault. Now he don't want to listen to me. Haiz..*heartbroken* Why is it whatever I wanted to show him that I love him, but I end up hurting him instead? BaoBei, go and listen "Wu Xing Shang Hai" and you will know what I mean in the song.

Went for interview at Redhill. Luckily I know the route very well cos it was Esther Ho's old house(Near Delta Complex). But I am not confident that I would get the job cos a lot of mistakes. It is stationery shop. Those who are good in Mathematics can try that job. My Maths is not good.

When I reach home, my Mum ask me,"So how? Can?" I replied,"No..cannot. That job needs Maths. You should know how badly I have done in my Maths". She then ask me to look for another job.

Sianz...I think the tagboard thing is down. I went to Lynn's and Nicholas blog, both also the same thing. The place where should be allowed to tag, is white in colour. I think I have to wait till it recover then I can log into my account to re-do my tag again. Or to subscribe another one.

I end here for now. Will blog again some other time.

Wu Xing Shang Hai:

Are you alright?
I miss you tonight..

Chun xin wu nai, wo xin dou wei le ai
wo zhuo zai zhe, sha sha de fa dai...
wo ran yi lai, ni chun chun de ai...
Oh~Woh~wo xin hai zai, ai ni de ren hai zai
ku ku den, xiang ku, ku bu chu lai...
wu xing shang hai..ni ying gai ming bai...

ai tai duo kong xu, shou shang rong yi
hu xing hu ai chai shi wei yi...
Oh Woh woh~dui ni de fu chu, dou fang zai xing li
wo shi dong zhe yang zhen xing, wo zhen me hui wang ji ne?

*CHORUS
Feel so sorry, Baby I so sorry...
I never meant, I never meant to hurt you...
wu xing shang hai..ni ying gai ming bai...Oh woh woh~
Feel so lonely, Baby I'm so lonely
Do you know? I need you to come back...
Are you alright? Qing Kuai Dian Hui Lai...

Zhen xing kan dai, yu ni yong bu fen kai...

Zhe yi shen, zi yuan he ni xiang ai...
Yu ni tong zai, zi wei ni deng dai...
Wooo~ai shi chun zhen, ai shi wu hen
bu zai hu zhen me hui tong ku wan fen?
Wo zhen de tai ben, bu dong xin teng~
Baby please come back~oh yeah yeah yeah yeah

Repeat *

New blogskin

Hello! Surprise to see the new skin cover? Don't worry. If you key in the password I had given you to access this blog, then you can be sure that this blog link is mine. I know maybe some of you when you first see the new blogskin you will go,"Eh? Did I enter the wrong blog of someone else or I key in the wrong password?" No. The password you entered is correct but it's just that I have change my blog skin. Cos when I surf the Internet, I went to check it out whether there are any new blog skin? I happen to see this blogskin post it from a girl. If you see the girl sitting on top, which is the Angel, you will know why I choose this blog skin. Cos I feel that it look a tinnie-winnie little brighter and it's more "spacious" than my previous blog. My previous blog you have to click here and there to see my profile but my current blog you just have to scroll through and you can see everything. Makes it easier for all of my friends to see. Hee..

If you notice, I still choose Black as my background colour. Cos after the experiment on Naruto's blogskin, some of my friends complain that they cannot see my blog entries when I use certain colour to highlight the words and it strains their eyes. I think I am more suitable for black colour as most of the colours I use for my entries are very bright colours. So for those of you, if you background is more to bright colours, maybe you can highlight your words and use darker colour for your words instead.

Lorraine call me to go for CGM and Service. BaoBei said he cannot join me for CGM but maybe could join me for service. His eyes are getting bad to worst but still his Medical Officer(MO) said it's nothing wrong! Really feel like murdering his MO! What kinda doctor are they!? I'm worried that BaoBei will go blind in one eye. He said that the redness has started to spread to the other eye and now his left eye is also starting to get a bit red. He then ask me a question,"Baby, if one day I really go blind, will you abandon me? Will you still love me? Or will you look for other guys?" Actually..seriously speaking, I never thought that there will be one day he may become blind or what. I just told him that I won't look for other guys or abandon him unless he abandon me first or being unfaithful to me. The most I will take care of his everything. I won't leave a guy whom I love or a guy who love me for no particular reason. Unless of course he cheats on me first or he ever hit me badly(or any other serious reasons). Only then I will leave. If one day if he really goes blind(touch wood!!!), the more I won't leave him cos that's the time and moment he needs me most.

I think I will end here for now. Will blog again some other time.

Production Operator Job????

Been slacking for the past one month. Money is really really running out. Dare not turn to BaoBei for help cos he himself have financial difficulties too. Partly it's also because that I am quite choosy about jobs. BaoBei ask me to work back to MOM. No!!! There is no way I am going back to that hypocrite kinda workplace!!! I have been considering to work at Pubs but HuiYi and BaoBei are unhappy about my decision.

Went for interview at Jurong East today for Production Operator Job. Suppose to go for the interview yesterday but I called up the company a little too late. No choice but to go today. I was very lucky enough(or should I say patient enough?)to wait to see the Manager. When I reach there, there was an Indian girl already waited there. She came 15 minutes earlier than me. I then fill in the application form and wait. The office guy then offer me a job at Ayer Raja but it's night shift work 11pm - 7am. I thought about it for a while before I replied to him that I'll take the job. But I also explain to him that I couldn't work at Friday night itself only cos of Cell group purpose. He ask,"Are you a Christian?" I then nod and he do a Catholic sign towards me. I was thinking," Brother..that is Catholic! Not Christian! Christian don't do that" and give him a -_-" sign.

A Malay auntie then came to apply the form. Three of us wanted the vacancy at Alexandra but we could not get it. The guy then told us that the work they do is medical work. When I heard that I immediately reject and ask if there is any other work? Although I never work medical work before but during an interview with another company a few days ago, I learnt what is the job scope about so I roughly know what is the factory doing as. It is something that I know I could not perform. I could only do simple task. Any complicated task I do I will go "haywire".

The guy then told us that he will call us if there's vacancy at Alexandra and ask us to leave if we want to or to continue to wait for his colleague to come back if we want another job. The Malay auntie and I decided to wait while the Indian girl left angrily cos she said it's a waste of time anyway. Before that I told the both of them, have any job just take..even if it means to work for short-term. Better than rotting at home right?(For my case lah)but I still prefer 5 day work. So I am still consider quite choosy on certain aspects.

A guy then came in(which I believe is the Manager of a factory). He then look through the auntie's and my profile. From his way of talking, it looks like I have the higher chances of getting the job than the that auntie cos of one thing - I am younger than her and he only hire 30 years old and below. Plus, the company the he is planning to station me to work at, is my EX-COMPANY! Cos he say that I stay quite nearby and he can either put me in Jurong or Clementi area. He then said if I am interested, there's a company near IBP that I can work. I ask is the company located opposite M1's company? He look surprise and said,"Ya..how did you know? Ya you will be working there once you are confirmed". I then told him I work in that company before and my reason for leaving is - the boss sack me. Cos I was down with high fever and could not work that time but I don't have the Manager's number. He says he will see about it but not confirm that they will have that kinda timing.

Now back at home and received a call that they have a job that work from 3pm - 11pm. I don't think I could work at that timing cos of Friday itself...I just wait and see or maybe I should look for some other jobs?

Moody

Slacking at home after watching the live service on Internet. Pastor spoke too fast yesterday and there are some points I haven't really copied it down. Can't manage to copied down anyway cos he show it too fast. Haiz...now I truly understand what is the use of short-hand writing for. It's for preachers like Pastor.

Regretted giving Pei Jia my number. For those of you(in fact most of you), who don't know who is Pei Jia, he is my new friend whom I know through WLNY.com. I used to use public phone to call him cos I am very afraid of giving out my number due to some reasons. He seems nice on the phone but right after I gave him my number, he seems to changed into a...*look left look right* pervert(If you know what I am trying to say lah). This is why I don't like to give out my number in the first place! KNS! He is a year younger than me. Haiz..looks like I have to change my hp number again. But anyway, I am constantly changing my number and I think most of my friends know it. Anyway, this time I really had to change cos I really want to avoid someone totally. Don't ask me who is this person and anyway, most of my friends don't know this person. I guess I have to wait for another year or two before I can really change my number. Been thinking of getting a new phone with a new line plan along with it. So that the phone itself will be cheaper. This time I will only give my number out to limited people. So if one day I change my number and didn't inform you, it's because of two reasons: 1) I don't trust you enough to give you my number. 2)You are one of the people whom I want to avoid.

Sorry for being so straight-forward but that is me. I was thinking of calling my operator again to have my number change but I find it too troublesome cos when I try to change my current hp number, they take more than 72 hours to change it when they said it would take immediate effect. Anyway, my current hp is also faulty so I might as well buy a new hand phone along with a new line. But I really need a job first to do that. To my friends: Sorry if you find me very troublesome that I keep constantly changing my phone number. But anyway, do bear this in mind: I bother to notify you that I have change my number means only one thing: I still consider you as my friend no matter what. If you want to give my number to any other people, please inform me who you are giving first. I don't wish to get any surprise calls or SMS.

I think that is all for now. Sorry for the previous post but I have deleted it. So don't bother to search for that entry.

A Poem for my BaoBei

Happiness in life we both share
Sorrows in life we both comfort in
Loving you wholeheartedly
Without looking back,
Without regrets

Sharing with you the rest of my life
Giving you all of my love
Till eternity,
Till the end of my very last breath

Loving you always
My one and only
I'll treasure you,
treasure your love and care

With your promises and your love,
our heart beats as one
I'll be strong for you
I'll be strong for the sake of our love
Within my heart you'll remain,
till death do us part

Poem created by: Juliet
on: 3/1/2007

Reunion Dinner

Ivan and Esther stay over at BaoBei's place until evening yesterday. They then watch VCDs in the living room. His Mum is very unhappy with me but I do not know what she is unhappy for? She don't seems to like my friends and my way of life. I don't know why we seems to have difficulty getting along? I told BaoBei that my "journey" ahead will not be smooth-sailing. Of course, in one's Journey, nothing is smooth-sailing. It is through hardships that one become stronger.

After Ivan and Esther went off, BaoBei and me went to my eldest Uncle's place. My whole family went to fetch BaoBei and me and lead us the way to my uncle's place. I hate my father! The sight of him makes my blood boil! Bro.Khai ask me to forgive my Dad but sorry! No! I will not forgive even if he is dead!!! My Mum has a bigger heart to forgive him than me. He doesn't deserve my forgiveness!!!

When I entered the house, I was very shy cos almost the whole of my relatives are there! Argh! BaoBei then held my hand as we entered the house. All my uncles were surprise to see that I hold a guy's hand and I introduce BaoBei to them. My 4 uncles, my 3 elder cousins, my 3rd cousin's girlfriend, my 3rd and 4th aunties and the rest of my eldest cousins were all very surprise to see BaoBei. My 3rd Auntie was extremely happy when she sees BaoBei. She said,"Wah! Ah Fen! Finally you bring your boyfriend to see us! I've been waiting for this day for quite a long time!" Cos when I was younger, I keep changing boyfriends and my auntie knows very well. I really hope that this is the last time and BaoBei will be my last boyfriend I ever had.

My eldest uncle keep serving us a lot of food and I can't finish it. He complaint that I ate very little. Drank a lot of different red wines. I really can't taste the difference. Except that I notice that one particular bottle is sweeter than the rest of the wines. BaoBei was very unhappy that I drank a lot. Humph! He also smokes a lot mah! They were all very concern when BaoBei cough very badly. Haiz..he doesn't listens to me(to stop smoking) and doesn't take cough syrup.

Went back home after bidding all my relatives good bye. They said they wish to see BaoBei more often and wish to see him for the coming New Year.

Happy New Year + Unhappiness = Heaviness in my heart

Yesterday I could say that the year started with a very bad beginning. I will share with you why later on. BaoBei's eldest Brother was having a BBQ yesterday and invited all his friends along. His eldest Brother then ask me to ask my friends for the BBQ. The thing is, the food that he have compared to the number of people attending the BBQ is quite limited. Luckily I had not call the rest of my friends along if not, it will not be enough. After that we then proceed to Shuang Long's place for steam boat.

Before that, I explain to Auntie(BaoBei's Mum)of why we will be back home very late at night. Her facial expression was very angry and she expect us to be back at 1.30am. I was thinking,"Okay..not bad. Quite a reasonable timing" BaoBei then add in,"We will try"and that sparks an argument from his Mum. Leaving the house quite unhappily for me.

During the journey to Shuang Long's place, I keep controlling myself not to cry. Luckily I manage to control it this time. I greet Shuang Long's family half-hearted and try to smile and act as happy as possible so that BaoBei will not worry. We then eat together and I ate my food quietly. I was a little offended by Wei Da's comment but then I know that he is joking so I didn't really show any unhappiness on my face and just smiled. I recognise one of the Ministry Of Sound(MOS) bouncer at that place! Cos whenever I go there, he is the only one who scan my IC. He don't recognise me though. His wife is very pretty and her hair is extremely long and silky!

BaoBei then went to Shuang Long's room to gather with the rest of the guys. I was still continue eating. After some time, I notice BaoBei didn't come out from the room at all and I quickly went to wash the bowl and gone out of the house quickly. I then sat at the staircase and finally be able to cry out alone and in peace. It was then I notice that I forgot to bring my handphone along with me!

BaoBei then came from behind me and he ask me what happen cos there was tears in my eyes. I tried hard not to cry in front of him. He keep pestering me to tell him what happened and he seems worried. I then told him about his Mum and what happened just now. He then shared with me his family problems and told me not to think too much. I guess my life at his place will not be as smooth-sailing for the rest of the days ahead.

On the way to esplanade to meet Esther Ho, the "traffic" was very squeezy. A lot of people were at the esplanade to count down. During the countdown, a group of people then spray snow flakes at us first and BaoBei and me spray them back. A lady then book my BaoBei for spraying. It then spoiled my mood for the rest of the day! NBCB!!!! KNN!!!! THAT BLOODY BITCH SPRAY AT US AND YOU DIDN'T BOOK HER AND YOU ONLY BOOK MY BAOBEI!!!! &*^% LAH!!! DON'T EVER LET ME SEE YOU ON THE STREETS!!! I WILL SHOW YOU HOW TO WRITE "DEATH" IN CHINESE!!! I then crunch my fist very tightly and stare at her. I argue with her that the girl spray at us first and she said,"Doesn't matter who sprays first! It's wrong to spray!" NBCB!!! This is public leh!!!! We do what we like!!! KNN your mother's business ah!? &^$%^$!!! If my BaoBei is not there, I will surely punch her face!!! But since BaoBei is there I cannot do anything! He doesn't like me to use violence. BaoBei should know very well how violent I can be. Watch the rest of the fireworks unhappily...

We then walk from esplanade all the way to Chinatown to hail a cab. There are a lot of people flagging for taxis. Ivan manage to flag a cab after some time and we quickly join him. The taxi driver explain that if passengers are more than cabs, the taxi driver will then "choose" the passengers they want to take. KNS!

Reach home at 3+am in the morning and obviously BaoBei's Mum is not very happy with it. We then share the room together to sleep.

I think I have to end here. Will blog again some other time. Sorry for the vulgarities and Happy New Year 2007!