Woke up quite late in the morning. Went to retrieve the Straits Times and flip through the jobs page again as usual. An Advertisement then caught my eye and I dial the number cos it states: Various locations available. The guy on the phone ask me to go to Jurong CPF building. I was thinking,"Huh?! Again?! Sian..The other time I go and didn't get any reply!" I was surprise after he said,"Look for Kelly Services". Esther Ho warn me before something about Kelly Services but then I just give it a try to see how it goes.
Went to fill up the application form that a girl handle it to me. After I had finish, the girl then collect it from me and pass it to a guy. He then came forward to me saying,"Erm...QiuFen? You are Juliet right? The one who called me this morning?" I just smile and nod. He then ushered me to a cabin and discuss with me about my temporary job. He said I would have to commit for 2 weeks, and work on weekends. He then made me sign something and he pass me some time sheet which he explains that I had to submit in person each week after completing one week of my service to that company. He will try to look out for Data Entry jobs for me. My job only starts next month. Saw Esther Leong's blog about parents and I do feel guilty cos I had been busy with my own life to even bother about what they do or how they are going on with their lives. Especially my poor Mum. My brother hugs her whenever he comes home. I don't even remember when is the last time I ever hug my Mum. Primary one? It's been too long since I last hug her.
Went home and talk to Bro about it. Of course, he wasn't very happy to hear the news lah. Cos I definitely had to miss Service and maybe CG for 2 weeks cos of my temporary job. I also cannot see BaoBei. Ivan then called me to chat about Esther. He then said some things that made me very upset. Has he forgotten his promises to me when I bless him and Esther to be together?! Now because of what his friends said, Esther seems nothing to him in his eyes!!! I was very angry because I was thinking,"If you really love Esther, why is it that when she is being condemn by your friends, you didn't stand up for her?! She's your girlfriend for Goddess sake!!!" First, he complain that Esther don't love him enough cos she have difficulty expressing herself and she is those "Bei Dong Pai"(While I am those "Zhu Dong Pai")I then ask Esther to hold his hand whenever she can or at least try to. Esther is a very shy person by the way. Imagine asking a very shy person to be expressive. How would they feel?! Esther already giving in to Ivan on this part. Okay..I also feel there's nothing wrong although...I do find Ivan fussy. Then..now he dare to said to me,"My feelings for Esther is not as strong as before". I was like,"Hello?!?! What do you think Esther is huh?! Who is the person who said to me that he WON'T let Esther feel hurt?! Who is the person who promise me that he won't hurt Esther in any way and would let her trust love all over again?! Who?! Tell me who?! Now you said all these crap to me!!!! REGRET ENTRUSTING ESTHER ONTO YOU!!!! I RUIN MY OWN FRIEND'S FUTURE!!!! I RUIN MY OWN FRIEND'S LIFE!!!! Now Esther said to me that she won't ever trust a guy again!!!! Now how!? Ivan ah Ivan...I AM SO BLIND TO ENTRUST MY FRIEND TO YOU!!!! I SHOULD HAVE LISTEN TO MARCUS WORDS!!!! YOU %^&^%$^ IDIOT!!!!" The more I think of it, the more angry I felt. Esther felt humiliated. Ivan told me not to tell Esther but....she is my friend leh! You want me to keep a friend in darkness about what her beau said to me?! Especially something that concerns her?! Despite all these things, Esther didn't shed a tear but I can feel deep down inside her heart, she is crying. A strong girl may not seen crying on the outside but no matter how tough and how strong they are, one thing is for sure: When a girl doesn't cry on the outside, IT DOESN'T MEAN SHE DOESN'T CRY IN HER HEART! The feeling of crying inside one's heart and not be able to cry it out, is more painful then to be able to cry out easily. I know how it feels cos I am one of the girls who has difficulty crying sometimes. That pain inside my heart when I am not able to cry, is more painful than when I am able to cry it out.
Yes I am crying now as I type this entry. I feel pain for my friend!!! Sorry for ruin your future and your love life Esther. But he sounds very sincere when he wants to woo you that time. Humph! How a guy's mind and heart change fast! Although you try to sound okay on the phone but I know deep down in your heart you are hurting. You said you don't want me to worry and don't want your friends to worry about your problems but hey! I am your friend! You always read my blog and want to know more about my problems when I blog it but now you are telling me that you don't want me to worry about your problems?! You are my friend!!! Why is it that you don't want to tell me your problems?! Am I really your friend or not?
Haiz...never mind. Maybe I will never understand what you have gone through or you simply don't want me to know of some things. Maybe I couldn't help anyway. Esther, you should learnt to stand up for yourself. Speak up for yourself when you know something is not right. Keeping quiet doesn't solve things all the time.
Went for CGM and fellowship for awhile. To Meimei and to the one who bought the tuna etc: Thanks! The sandwich and Tuna taste great! Not forgetting to the person who bought the oreos too. Sorry cos I do not know who bought those things so...I can only say Thanks here.
Really feel like murdering Ivan. Is Love really base on looks alone? Is looks really SO important in a relationship than the person's personality and Character himself/herself?! I am really disappointed. Luckily BaoBei is not like that.....at least for now. Or else I will be totally heart-broken. Wei Da and Xiao Pang also accepts me for who I am and never comment about anything on me. The rest of BaoBei's friends, I do not know cos I didn't get any feedback from them or from BaoBei.
Went to fill up the application form that a girl handle it to me. After I had finish, the girl then collect it from me and pass it to a guy. He then came forward to me saying,"Erm...QiuFen? You are Juliet right? The one who called me this morning?" I just smile and nod. He then ushered me to a cabin and discuss with me about my temporary job. He said I would have to commit for 2 weeks, and work on weekends. He then made me sign something and he pass me some time sheet which he explains that I had to submit in person each week after completing one week of my service to that company. He will try to look out for Data Entry jobs for me. My job only starts next month. Saw Esther Leong's blog about parents and I do feel guilty cos I had been busy with my own life to even bother about what they do or how they are going on with their lives. Especially my poor Mum. My brother hugs her whenever he comes home. I don't even remember when is the last time I ever hug my Mum. Primary one? It's been too long since I last hug her.
Went home and talk to Bro about it. Of course, he wasn't very happy to hear the news lah. Cos I definitely had to miss Service and maybe CG for 2 weeks cos of my temporary job. I also cannot see BaoBei. Ivan then called me to chat about Esther. He then said some things that made me very upset. Has he forgotten his promises to me when I bless him and Esther to be together?! Now because of what his friends said, Esther seems nothing to him in his eyes!!! I was very angry because I was thinking,"If you really love Esther, why is it that when she is being condemn by your friends, you didn't stand up for her?! She's your girlfriend for Goddess sake!!!" First, he complain that Esther don't love him enough cos she have difficulty expressing herself and she is those "Bei Dong Pai"(While I am those "Zhu Dong Pai")I then ask Esther to hold his hand whenever she can or at least try to. Esther is a very shy person by the way. Imagine asking a very shy person to be expressive. How would they feel?! Esther already giving in to Ivan on this part. Okay..I also feel there's nothing wrong although...I do find Ivan fussy. Then..now he dare to said to me,"My feelings for Esther is not as strong as before". I was like,"Hello?!?! What do you think Esther is huh?! Who is the person who said to me that he WON'T let Esther feel hurt?! Who is the person who promise me that he won't hurt Esther in any way and would let her trust love all over again?! Who?! Tell me who?! Now you said all these crap to me!!!! REGRET ENTRUSTING ESTHER ONTO YOU!!!! I RUIN MY OWN FRIEND'S FUTURE!!!! I RUIN MY OWN FRIEND'S LIFE!!!! Now Esther said to me that she won't ever trust a guy again!!!! Now how!? Ivan ah Ivan...I AM SO BLIND TO ENTRUST MY FRIEND TO YOU!!!! I SHOULD HAVE LISTEN TO MARCUS WORDS!!!! YOU %^&^%$^ IDIOT!!!!" The more I think of it, the more angry I felt. Esther felt humiliated. Ivan told me not to tell Esther but....she is my friend leh! You want me to keep a friend in darkness about what her beau said to me?! Especially something that concerns her?! Despite all these things, Esther didn't shed a tear but I can feel deep down inside her heart, she is crying. A strong girl may not seen crying on the outside but no matter how tough and how strong they are, one thing is for sure: When a girl doesn't cry on the outside, IT DOESN'T MEAN SHE DOESN'T CRY IN HER HEART! The feeling of crying inside one's heart and not be able to cry it out, is more painful then to be able to cry out easily. I know how it feels cos I am one of the girls who has difficulty crying sometimes. That pain inside my heart when I am not able to cry, is more painful than when I am able to cry it out.
Yes I am crying now as I type this entry. I feel pain for my friend!!! Sorry for ruin your future and your love life Esther. But he sounds very sincere when he wants to woo you that time. Humph! How a guy's mind and heart change fast! Although you try to sound okay on the phone but I know deep down in your heart you are hurting. You said you don't want me to worry and don't want your friends to worry about your problems but hey! I am your friend! You always read my blog and want to know more about my problems when I blog it but now you are telling me that you don't want me to worry about your problems?! You are my friend!!! Why is it that you don't want to tell me your problems?! Am I really your friend or not?
Haiz...never mind. Maybe I will never understand what you have gone through or you simply don't want me to know of some things. Maybe I couldn't help anyway. Esther, you should learnt to stand up for yourself. Speak up for yourself when you know something is not right. Keeping quiet doesn't solve things all the time.
Went for CGM and fellowship for awhile. To Meimei and to the one who bought the tuna etc: Thanks! The sandwich and Tuna taste great! Not forgetting to the person who bought the oreos too. Sorry cos I do not know who bought those things so...I can only say Thanks here.
Really feel like murdering Ivan. Is Love really base on looks alone? Is looks really SO important in a relationship than the person's personality and Character himself/herself?! I am really disappointed. Luckily BaoBei is not like that.....at least for now. Or else I will be totally heart-broken. Wei Da and Xiao Pang also accepts me for who I am and never comment about anything on me. The rest of BaoBei's friends, I do not know cos I didn't get any feedback from them or from BaoBei.
I don't wish to type further...really very upset and heartbroken now. By the way, I am typing at 5+am in the morning but because this incident happens on Friday so I just set the time accordingly.
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