I guess from the above title you would know how I am feeling now? No no no, I don't need encouragement cards. I am just venting whatever I am feeling here. Work was quite okay yesterday. Boss is not in today!!!(An Shuang!) That explains why I can blog openly. Finish all the work he ask me to do. So now doing my own stuff. Derek has left to do his sales outside. So basically, I am left alone in this cold office.
While I was at work yesterday, BaoBei SMS me. I didn't really bother to message him back cos I was busy counting stocks. After that, I then reply him and he SMS me things that made me very angry. I then ask HuiYi to call me. While I was talking to her, I felt like crying out. But I manage to hold back my tears cos it's not nice crying on the phone. The other party will not be able to hear clearly what you have said. Cos recently there's so-called,"Third party" in the midst of our relationship. It turns out to be a misunderstanding in the end. Maybe this is a test from God but whatever it is, I had failed the test. I then told HuiYi about it and she said,"Huh?! Impossible lah! Er...er...Yen Hao is not like that de lah. He's not the kind of person lah. I believe it's a mistake. Don't cry ok?"(I think she can differentiate my "normal" voice and my almost-want-to-cry-out voice) She then ask,"How come huh? Now is break up season is it?" She said the friends around her who are in relationships, broke up one after another just recently. An infamous blogger also broke up with her boyfriend just last week(after 2 years of courtship!)
To fall in love is easy, but to SUB STAIN the love is difficult. Part of me feel like giving up. But most of the people around me, tell me to give the relationship another chance. I feel that there's a crack in the relationship and it's very difficult to mend the crack.
Went for fellowship with Lorraine, HuiYi, Chee Yuan and Anthea yesterday. When Lorraine ask,"So how's you and YenHao?" I look at HuiYi for awhile and then replied,"Erm..okay" Chee Yuan then answer for Lorraine,"What do you mean by 'Okay'?" I then keep quiet. HuiYi then slap on my hand hard and signal me to tell Lorraine about the letter that I wrote for BaoBei. I didn't. She then speak up for me and Lorraine was slightly annoyed,"Ask him, need her telephone number? Need her birth date? Need her address? Some more what he need?" HuiYi then laugh. She really sound like Bro.Khai at times, while Chee Yuan sound like Lorraine. I mean their words lah. Lorraine said when the helpers grow, they begin to be like their leaders(or something like that?) I was surprise that even Anthea sound like Lorraine in SMS!(Heard from Katherine)
Went to Food Culture to have dinner. BaoBei then call my handphone, speak to him a little while and pass the phone to Lorraine. She also speak to me in the end and said this is not the first time it happened. She then talk to me the difference between guys and girls.
Went home and log into my game. I was surprise ALL of my SL friends are there. Went to my "Mummy's" newly renovated Pub. Drink till my Avatar got drunk and puke all over the place. She's a more "powerful" drinker than me(had 4 glasses of Tequila shots, 1 big bottle of Absolute Vodka, 7-8 big cans of Tiger beer and 4 glasses of Martini)before she finally collapse onto the floor. Unlike me, I just need 15-18 glasses of Vodka before I really collapse like her(IN THE PAST! and in RL) "Mummy" was worried and she IM me and ask,"Sugar, are you okay? How come drink so much?" There's an underage new friend who join us, only 17. My Avatar puke on his shirt!(Oh no!) The rest of my SL friends then partied way into the night. It was daytime when they partied but I change the Region Default to mid-night(This is the coolest thing in SL!) so that they could continue clubbing all they want.
I think I will end here for now. Starting to lose hope on some things. Will blog again some other time.
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