Nail art + Letter + JaZkY's korkor's ex-gf blog = Is LOVE really mean TORLERENCE?

I find it difficult to type with my long "finger nails". The nails are fake though. Bought it at a flee market for $1.80!!!(Most shops sells 24 nails for $3++) But I don't know how to trim the fake nails. Cos the design is really nice, so if I were to trim it, part of the designs will be trim off. Maybe it's because I am not used to having long nails, I find a lot of difficulty doing most things, like wearing Jeans, cos the nails will somehow be chip off or broken off. Press numbers or type sms on my handphone, cos the nails are too long that I find it difficult to press the mini keypad. Went for fellowship yesterday and Eric keep commenting on my nails! He said at first on the way to Changi,"Leave so long for what? It'll still be broken!" I was not angry at his words THEN. After that when we manage to find a place to sit down and eat, he comment again,"See lah, the nails still have to get dirty in the end, why decorate the nails until so pretty for what?" I feel very angry that I feel like throwing my food at his face! Stephanie then comment about the way she look at my BaoBei cos before that, she keep giving BaoBei the "flirty" looks. I then replied,"ONE MORE WORD AND VOLCANO WILL ERUPT!!!" I then heard Stephanie says,"Help!!!" and run to HuiYi. I think I heard HuiYi mumbered,"Uh-oh" Accidentally smash the potato mash onto the floor and I felt very pai seh and at the same time, angry! Stupid Eric! I saw Lorraine and she gave me the -_-"' look. Later Lorraine came to talk to me about my reaction. Spend the remaining of my money to buy another mash potato to eat.

Went to the cosmetic and perfume shop to try the perfumes while waiting for HuiYi. The perfumes that I like, BaoBei doesn't seems to like it. There's a perfume that BaoBei took a sample from, smells heavenly! He says it's from CK. The sample he took, the perfume cost $106+++!!! Nowadays BaoBei has been using my perfume!!! Argh!!! I was unhappy that he uses half of my HUGO BOSS PERFUME(Men's edition)!!! But luckily that bottle, I bought it while it was on sale. So it's not expensive. When I accidently left my Morgan perfume(white hour glass version) in his bag, he took it to camp to use and he says he like the smell very much. That perfume I bought it two or three years ago with HuiYi at Takashimaya S.C. I think at $70+++ if I am not wrong. I have no money to buy perfumes anymore. The Gucci perfume that I set my eyes on, BaoBei says the smell is too strong and he doesn't like it. That perfume is $96+++.

In church, HuiYi pass me a letter. After reading it, I went over to hug her to say I am sorry. Somehow, I cried. But I don't know why. Jing xian was shock! HuiYi was speechless. But she says that she'll talk to me after service later.

Went to view my God-brother's ex-gf's blog. She has finally updated. She feels hurt ending the relationship too but she says she had no choice. She also states that there's no denial that there's a third party in the midst of their relationship. She says she has tolerated enough! I was thinking,"Tolerated? Enough?" I know that partners have to tolerate each other differences. But at times I do wonder,"Is loving someone really mean tolerating that person? Or is it learning to accept your partner's habits and differences?" I admit that I do feel guilty too on this part, like expecting BaoBei to change something that he can't. Like his forgetfulness. One thing that we are alike, is that at home, we tend to take something on one place and put it in the other. Then when we want to search for it, we don't remember where we had put it. I pray that I won't come to a stage where loving BaoBei becomes tolerating him for whatever he does. It would be painful for both parties. Loving, does not mean tolerating! It means acceptance, loving him/her unconditionally, be by your partner's side through good and bad times. Of course I understand love doesn't last longer than friendships. But the reason for breaking up shouldn't be that "I have tolerated enough". If she says that,"we have grown apart, our expectations aren't the same anymore or that we don't walk together with the same "goals" as before etc" I can accept. But I guess different people see this differently.

I think I''ll end here for now. Will blog again some other time