Thursday, July 05, 2007

Heartache(Xing Shuan)

Surfing the net as I really have nothing to do at work. I had already ask my Boss is there anything that he wants me to do? But he just told me to get out?! I didn't blame him for his attitude cos I am in the wrong on my side...long story.

I then went to read someone's blog, and her latest entry made me very upset. Although her entry is not direct at me, but somehow I feel very depress and pain for her entry. I can really understand her feelings as I had been through her stage before. I just feel very useless that I don't know what to say to encourage her.

Towards the end of her sentence in her blog, I felt a mixture of guilt and sadness. I then ask myself,"Have I been spending too much time "busy" doing things on my own that I neglect everyone around me?" Answer is YES. I missed a friend's(actually 2 friends)wedding dinner, cos of church commitment. It has also been quite a long time since I last hang out with my own friends. When one of my friend's gave birth, I was the LAST to know. I had promised her that I would accompany her for her delivery of her son, but I miss it in the end. She didn't blame me but said that she understands that I am busy. I also missed my God-sister's wedding with her boyfriend(now husband) cos her wedding crush with Emerge. Why is it that I keep missing out things?

No wonder the sick and dying quote a sentence that we should stop once in a while to look around us. I think I had missed too many things to even notice. I am afraid if I carry on this way, one of my FRIENDS will ask,"Who are you?" one fine day...

Will blog again some other time...sorry, no mood to continue blogging...Crying for her...

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