Until now, I do not know how many people has read my blog. Since everything happen because of what I blog, I decide to change my link. BaoBei was scaring me the whole day yesterday. Before we went out, he was sharpening(is that what you call?) the knives. I ask him,"What was that for? Why are you sharpening the knives for?!". He look at me and replied,"Humph!" and continue doing that. Okay, I know maybe the way I ask was wrong, but he is really scaring me!
We took a cab to church cos I was very late for my BS with Lorraine. Was suppose to meet her at 1pm but I woke up late and SMS her. She push it to 3pm instead. I reach there at 3+pm and she was not there. I know I was late. Sorry. When BaoBei reach there, he storm toward foyer 3 angrily as if to look for someone. His look was murderous! The kind of look as if you want to beat up someone. I touch his arm to ask him,"BaoBei, what happen?" He push off my hand and continue searching for I-don't-know-what-and-who? I saw Chee Yuan pass by and shout for him. He was shock and said,"Yes?" I ask his help to take care of BaoBei. He look confused. I called HuiYi to ask where was she and she said she was in bus with YuZhi. After I told her what happened, she ask a few of the Brothers in our CG for help. Most of them do not know what's going on?
Went to meet Lorraine and she talk to me about some things. I cried when she told me about HuiYi. I do not know that HuiYi has done so much things for me. The part that I cry, because Lorraine said that every time when she's angry, HuiYi will try her best to side me and help me whenever she can. She ask HuiYi and Jacqueline to come to talk too. Seriously, half the time, I do not know what is Jacqueline talking about? When I ask her a question, she replied me about BaoBei's tag instead. I do not know if ANYONE has notice, throughout the time, she was looking at Lorraine's face when she talk. I know I am in the wrong. If I am really in the wrong and you think that you are right, why then you do not look at me when you talk? Lorraine is not the one who do you wrong. I am the one. When I ask her a quote in her blog, she replied about BaoBei's tag. I was like,"Hello? I am asking you a question?" That is why when Lorraine said,"Juliet, now do you understand?" I shook my head. Because I am asking you a question and you are not answering me! Lorraine help her to say out what she meant. But still, I feel that the matter did not solve at all. But since she blog in her blog that it's over, I'll treat it as it's over.
We left after Pastor finish preaching. Cos initially he have to meet JJ. But they never get to meet in the end. He was scaring me the whole time! Where is the innocent and gentle BaoBei I have known?! His attitude was back to before and that scares me. He behave totally like a different man that I couldn't recognise! My BaoBei is calmer than me!!! When I was walking with him, I feel like crying. This is NOT the BaoBei that I've known! My BaoBei don't use violence!
I felt lost, is it my fault again? I do not know who to turn to. Okay, or maybe I am exaggerating. I don't know what to do? Where's my BaoBei? The Gentle, loving and kind BaoBei? Why has things become this way?
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