Saturday, May 27, 2006

Unhappy 21st Birthday

This afternoon I went out with my friends to Jurong Point and we do some shopping there. Jia Xin was late! Haiz..who is the one who ask to meet at 12.30pm but late herself? I then went to window shop around with Esther and she help me to pick earrings and an anklet for me. Lynn also came and join us. We then went to Long John Silver to have our lunch. After that we then went to a shop and I showed Jia Xin a Cardiant(Is is spell like that?)that I had set my eyes on. She then help me to pick a color that she thinks it suit me most.

She ask me not to wear Cardiant to work often and ask me to dress formerly whenever possible. After that we went to Sasa shop and I finally found the make-up box I am looking for!!! Yeh!!! Haha!!!(*Siao!*) but I actually took a long time to make a decision although I finally found what I wanted cos there is this other box(smaller)which looks simple and cute. In the end, I then bought the one that I had set my eyes on and wanted it for a long time. Before we left Sasa shop, my eyes caught a small set of eye shadows and I just look at the price for awhile before I put it back while my friends are looking around at the shop. After that I bid them goodbye and rush for service.

When I reach to the hall, I couldn't spot Nicholas anywhere. I then called him and eventually he guide me to the place they are sitting. I am very surprise that Nicholas can see me from so far away!(plus the hall is quite crowded with people) Wow! Nicholas, you sure have a good eye-sight! He then wave at me from a far distance and ask me whether I can see him waving? I then quickly join them for the service. The sisters ask me,"Wow! Juliet. Went for shopping?" I replied,"Ya" and they wanted to see the make-up that I have bought. I then pass the make up to them and they took turns to take a look before returning it to me.

After service, the cell group gathered around and sing Happy Birthday songs to Peggy and me. So coincidence that our birthday falls on the same day! We live just one block away from each other too! After that when it was testimonal time, I was surprise to what Nicholas said to me. Out of so many testimonals that is given to me, his was the one that I could never forget. I do not know whether he mean it from his heart or he is just saying for the sake of saying? But his testimonal really touch me alot...although maybe he find it just a simple testimonal but Nick, hey..If you are reading this, I just wanna say, Thanks alot! I am really touch by your testimonal for me. I am also feel a little consoled from MingYing's testimonal. She said that she knows that I feel sad that most of my friends has left the cell group and that I am the only one staying on and say alot of things to console me. Thanks MingYing! :) I appreciate it. Jialing then gave Peggy and me a present and when I open it, I was very surprise to what I received! It was the eye shadow makeup that I saw at Sasa just now! Cos I was thinking of buying it some other time when I really got enough money for it next time. But...maybe it was a coincidence. Or maybe it could be that God is blessing that makeup for me. Thanks Jialing! Thanks Father..Thanks Holy Spirit :)

But when it comes to Brother Tony's testimonal, honestly speaking I don't quite like what he said. It's just that I didn't show it out to him but I gave him a fake smile(YueMing, don't tell Brother Tony!! Just read and forget it). Now then I realize that in his eyes, I am so worthless in the cell group! If you want me to come to church just for the attendence sake, honestly speaking, I can don't come if I want to! I have better things to do than to come to church on a Saturday afternooon if I want to! So disappointed that he said that kinda thing to me!(Those who were there, I think you all had heard what Brother Tony said to me?)Sorry...even though it seems positive thing of what he said, but sorry to say, I don't see it as a positive thing! I see it as NEGATIVE! My feeling at the time was like, all of the cell group members pour roses on me while Brother Tony pour rubbish onto me! If you guys know what I mean and how I felt when he said those things to me! Okay lah, put attendence aside lah, I would really like to know, as a member, do I mean anything to him and to the cell group? If yes then okay, I can continue to stay in the cell group and try to mingle with the members. If NOT, if he just wants me to come for the attendence sake, or if he wants me to come for the sake of coming, then sorry to say, I am ultra disappointed that I am being treated this way! Someone spoke on behalf of Brother Tony before that since he is a Brother, he has difficulty expressing himself and I heard that guys in general are not very good in expressing themselves unlike sisters. She claims that Brother Tony ask about me through the sisters. Whether or not this is true I do not know and I don't wish to know. Before this, someone(I cannot say who..sorry) told me before that we cannot scold cell group leaders lah...cannot backstab or whatever lah cos if the person can be a cell group leader, that is because God has given the person authority and he is God's precious leader. Sorry Father, sorry guys but THIS IS ME. If I had anything I am not happy about, I just state it here. Cos like I said, some times, I had difficulty expressing myself face-to-face. I do not know how to tell him that I am quite upset by what he has said to me..I just don't know how to say it in a very "nice" way. That's all. Can't find the right words to put across to him. So I just keep quiet.

After that we then pray for Yue Ming's Grandpa and hope that he'll get well soon. After that went to Simei to fellowship with the members. Ate Sirlin steak for dinner with the rest..Yum! After that we then catch the train with Jeffery and Dilion while the rest bid us goodbye.

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