Been feeling very down recently. Why did all these stupid things happen? Really very tired....feel like ending my life with all these stupid s***! Don't worry about me guyz..just leave me alone.
Been crying for the past two days. Was chatting with Alphonsus Korkor for the past two days through msn. We are both shock to learnt about some things about each other. Why didn't I know earlier?! Why didn't I spot the signs earlier?! For the past two days that I've been chatting with him, I cried alot. Lucky thing that we did not chat face-to-face. I then told him that I wish him all the best with his girlfriend and drop him hints that I wish to end the friendship-cum-God-brother-sister-relationship with him. He seems hurt by what I said and do not know what is going on. Sorry Kor, I have let you down too much! Just treat it as I have never ever exist in your life before. I do not dare to chat with him face to face. I do not want to see his reaction.
Finish my work quite fast today and spend the rest of the two whole hours slacking at the office. Alot of things has been running through my mind. It seems so near but yet so far(The end times). How I wish that it would arrive sooner. Really very tired of my life and tired of everything. I had already given up on myself and my stupid life. Really regret of what I had done during my younger years. But sadly, time could not be turn back.
Receive an annoyanous chain mail in my email. It was a picture taken from a hospital with a girl lying on the hospital bed and beneathe the hospital bed, a girl dress in all white, lying on the ground, her face facing my monitor and her eyes are opening very wide. Her face is very pale. Whiter than the printing paper and her long black curly hair lying all over. Below the note, it said: Send this to ** people in ** minutes. If not, this girl will come to you tonight and take your soul away. It is not a joke! (And it lists the stories of how people mystrious died after receiving this email and did not forward it or just delete it away). I then delete the email without forwarding and in my mind, I was thinking,"If you really want to take my soul after I delete this email, come lah! I don't care anymore!" There's nothing for me to live for anyway.
After that, it was time to knock off and I just do a little shopping before I went home. Nothing interesting. Just another BL blogging again. I then called *Eileen out for a drink as I was feeling down but too bad she couldn't join me but invite me to join her on Friday night instead. Don't know whether to go or not cos on Friday, there is no ladies' nite. Unless she is going to Pubs then it's different story cos Pub is entrance free but the drinks are charged. Will see how things goes. Nite folks!
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