Friday, June 02, 2006

Stupid life...

Today is another boring day for me. Don't know what the $%^ am I living for?! Finish my workload le. Actually there's a new case notes just came in. But very funny! Cannot be all the same type of stupid case mah!? WHOLE LIST OF UNNUMBERED CASE?! Must be error! Cos I have never do such cases before! WHOLE LIST unnumbered?! If a few items unnumbered I can understand but WHOLE LIST?! Siao bo?! Somemore I have never done that case before! WTH?!

Finally today is Friday! Yeh! Can dress down again! Yesterday went shopping with Jia Xin and Esther and they help me to choose clothes. But it's casual clothing. I have tried on some office clothing but it doesn't fit me. Bought over $50!? Wah! First time spending $50 plus on T-shirts!? But luckily it's not my own money. I use the voucher that is given to me from my friends. Thanks Guyz! Even though it's not my own money, but still I feel $50 plus for a few T-shirts is quite expensive. Or maybe it's because of the brand?

Yesterday Esther was very scared that I am so angry. I told her that if one day I were to murder someone(my friends should know who), don't be surprise. I want to see him DEAD!!! Or at least jail for life sentence!!!! Don't ever let me see you on the streets!!!! I'll definitely kill you if I had the chance!!! Mark my words!!!! My friends told me to ignore him. How could I?! When I told them the reason, Jia Xin then agreed with him on his words!!!!!!! Okay lor! Since you all see me as that way, then what for talking to me!? What for being my friends?! I don't need your Pity!!!!!!! Or empathy or whatsoever!!!! If it is really that way, then I rather be alone like I used to many years ago! I don't like and I don't want people to pity me!!!!!!!

Yesterday was the very first time Alphonsus Korkor don't have anything to say to me after so many years that we didn't met? Or was it something that I've said? Forget it Kor..just forget it. The Juliet meimei that you used to know is "dead". I can garentee you that the "me" that you are seeing now is not the same as before. I'm sorry for the changes Kor. But still I am sorry that I cannot and will not see you face-to-face anymore, even though that we haven't met for all these years. I don't want you to see the state I am in now and I really do not want to see your reaction. I am really very surprise that you've finally said what you have been hiding from me for so many years Kor. I am very disappointed. But it's all too late. Sorry...it's my fault. I have been too stupid to notice Kor. I should have known...Remember to invite me if you ever held your wedding with Da Sao okay? Even though I am like this, still I wanted to give the both of you my blessings personally. All the best in your future with Da Sao. Remember what you've promise me Kor. Sorry about the way I address you. It's been a habit and sorry that it's very hard for me to change the way I address you. Very difficult. Maybe...someday, I'll be able to change the way I address you, but not now.

Guess I have to end here now. Sorry for the BL blogging again. Bye Folks!

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