HuiYi gave me a morning call at 8+am today. Cos the other day when we are talking, I suddenly told her that I would like to go to Brother Kai's cell group on Sunday. When she heard that, she was very happy. I do not know why, but I suddenly wanted to see how is Brother Kai's cell group like cos they are really very happy after transferring there.
I was late for about 10 minutes. I tried calling HuiYi but she did not pick up my call. Initally I thought that she had left without me, cos she told me not to be late. Luckily she did pick up my call in the end and meet up with me and we rush there quickly.
When I step into the house, I had no memories of Brother Kai and his cell group. But somehow I had a feeling that I have been here before. That is what happens, when you have a very bad memory. I then glance around the house and I saw alot of awards on his table. One of the awards, jolt my memory. It was then I realize that I came for make-up cell group before. I think twice? After that we then sat down and had a brief introduction of ourselves. Cos there are some other members from other cell groups that came for make-up cell group. I then try very hard and strike a conversation with a guy sitting beside me. Cos normally, if I am new in an enviornment, I won't make the first move to talk first. Normally I wait for people to come and talk to me(I guess W117 should know?)But HuiYi told me that I must try and mingle with people. So I took the first step to talk. Although I do not know what to say. Somehow, I find that it is not so difficult to talk to people after all. Maybe because the guy behaves like my style. Dare not talk much the first time seeing other people outside of your own cell group. We did not talk much but at least manage to say a few sentences.(Which I would normally get freak out talking to people whom I don't know for the first time)
The sermon for the day was very...touching and POWERFUL! Yes that is the word I am looking for! I felt that all the things he preach today, are what I am going through right now and alot of things that he said, touches my heart. The most amazing thing I find about Brother Kai is that, he seems to know that I am carrying grudges in my heart. He didn't say it to me directly, but he just speaks like that. He said that the Holy Spirit tells him that some of us are having grudges in our hearts(or something like that?)and he encourages us to let it go. Initally I was thinking,"Huh?! then what about that ^&$%^#?! I won't let him off just like that!"but I do not know why, no matter how revangful I am towards ZBR, I just leave it onto God's hands after Brother Kai's resurrance. But..Although I leave it at God's hands, when I let it go, I was thinking,"Okay! *%^& $%^ ZBR! I'll see how God deal with you!" But I know God won't let him die no matter how much I wanted him to. But I believe maybe God has other plans or ways to "punish" him. I think I just have to wait and see lor.
After the whole cell group meeting ends, HuiYi ask how I felt about the cell group and Brother Kai's peaching? I told her exactly how I felt. I now truly understands why they are so happy here. Brother Kai then came and talk to me and ask me how I feel about the cell group? I replied okay but told him that I had not been attending church and cell group for the past 3 weeks(How time flies). He then encourage me to come for another cell group meeting again next week but he said it's entirely up to me whether I wanted to come or not. Cos he don't want to sound like he's forcing me or whatever. He then chat with me for a little while to get to know about me. He then ask me have I recovered from my hurt? I replied that I had just recovered after hearing his peaching. He then sound very surprise when I told him that.
We then went for fellowship and I was very surprise how many people went for fellowship together after cell group. Sandy then try to talk to me more and keep hanging around me. A very nice and active sister in the cell group. After fellowship, we then bid the rest goodbye and I went out with HuiYi, WeiJing, Sandy and JingXian to chinatown. We went for window shopping and eat some desserts. I like the Almond dessert most! I regret not ordering that in the first place. After that one by one, they bid each other goodbye and I went to sit at a corner with HuiYi and copied one of her previous notes. After that we bid each other goodbye and I went to do some shopping before going home. Quite tired at the end of the day.
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