Thursday, June 15, 2006

Spiritually dried...metally unstable...emontionally unwell

Finish my work quite fast again today. Cos I didn't realize that the paper is too thin and the cases are easy to do. Only two back-logs(Thank God!) Sitting infront to the monitor and staring at the screen.

I then browse through the internet to log on to CHC website. After browsing though the event's calandar, there is a event I would like to go but I need tickets to get in there. It falls on the 6th August 2006. It's a major event to me. I would like to participate but don't know if I could by then? Still have unresolve matter in my hands. Another hint: It'll take place at Kallang indoor stadium..and like I said, it's a major event to me and I guess especially CHC members?

Not feeling well again today. I thought I had recovered from fever but another sickness came to me. Compared with fever, I would rather suffer from fever than this! My colleague who sat next to my cabin ask if I am okay? She seem quite concern about me and she said that she notice that I am quite weak in my body nowadays. She suspect that it could be the diet fomula(that to this day, I am still taking it), cause the problem. Sad to say, because I have stop taking it for a while before taking it again a few days ago, alot of health problems came to me. My Mum insist me not to take anymore diet pills, fomulas etc. She said they are unless and will only do more harm to my body than good. When I am still working in Harbour Front, I remembered Ya Cin keep on complaining that I am not scared of cold and my body system that time is strong enough to keep me from getting sick(at least most of the time) but after taking it, my body system reverse. I keep falling ill to the extend that there was once I had to leave early cos I'm running very high fever which last for 2 days I think? Actually I keep ignoring their advises cos of the result that I can see that I am losing weight..but..sad to say, I gain back the weight that I have lost again :'( This is the bad side-effects of controlling your weight using medications. So far I had not tried slimming centres. Hmm..an old schoolmate from ITE of mine, tried a particular well-known slimming centre, she paid over $1000+ for the whole slimming program, but in the end it didn't work for her and she complained to my ex-consultant(Cos I didn't contact that consultant anymore)that she only manage to lose a tinnie winnie bit of weight with that slimming centre but in the end she gain back the weight she had took great efforts to lose and she's very angry with it.

Recently there's this erm..I duno how to say this in English. It's a kind of "lingerie" that claims that could slim the body down and slowly the curves of the body will show up if wear for long-term basis. The cost? $1600+++(For the most "cheapest") and up to $1800+++ to $3K+(For the most expensive). Initally I was thinking of saving up to buy that to try. But then again, I saw it in the news recently plus my Mum told me that one of her friend had bought that "lingerie" for $1000+(close to $2000..to be exact amount)to try on, not only that it didn't work for her, but because that clothing wrap the skin too tight and for prolong periods of time, her friend's body size didn't change but her skin condition worsen. Her friend then discard that "slimming lingerie" away. How true is it I do not know. But the news surely don't lie right? The reporters claim that some women, whose body could not accept to all these kinda changes, their skin became worst than before and because of the tight clothing that is wrap around their body for long term basis, certain parts of their body became swollen. I was shock when I see those pictures from the news! I then pray to God and feeling thankful that I don't have the money to buy that kinda stuff. I told my Mum while watching the news that I was thinking of buying if I save enough money one day. She said although she keep nagging me to save but I didn't, she is also thankful that I didn't have much money with me. She said if I do, I may be con by all these slimming stuffs. I then gave her this look (-_-")

Haiz..looks like it's going to take me a extremely long time for me to slim down. Cos..I have one weakness and temptation that I could never get rid of - The Love for Food! So..please? Don't tempt me with food :(

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