I had finish the assignment given to me yesterday with a bit of OT. So I had nothing to do today. Some times, I really regret finishing my work too fast. Cos I will end up nothing to do for the rest of the hours. I pray that there will be a new case note for me the do later in the afternoon. If not I'll be bored for the rest of 3 hours at work! But some times, one of my supervisor will give me two stacks of paper at a time for me to do. Wah! Then I will take a very long time to finish it. Cos before typing we must write notes down on the paper before we can proceed typing.
Just got my pay today! Yeh! So happy! Cos I never expect that I can get paid so fast. I just work coming to two weeks only and my consultant told me I would only be paid after I served one full month of work. I didn't even work a month. Just a week plus! Okay lah..although the pay is not much but it can at least last me for another 3 weeks or so. Yeh! Dress-down day again today!(Friday). I love Fridays. Cos that is the only time I could wear Jeans to work. The problem is that, I have more Jeans than pants in my house so that is why I prefer Friday + weekends. But tomorrow have to work again for a few hours. I pray that I can at least do something...pray that there will be new cases coming in that can be done something about it. No back-log cases please!
Recently been feeling very down. Nowadays I am not used to not saying grace before eating. It's been a habit. Although I had left the house of God but...somehow I felt that a part of me still wants to be with Him. Just that there are some problems in my life that I cannot go back to Him. I don't for how long. I know that He doesn't like the current me but sorry Father, I won't forgive and I won't forget so easily. Let him off just like that after he done so much damage to me and my life? I must at least know and see that he gets he retributation! I hope to see him get life sentence in jail! Stupid ZBR! I'll make sure one day you'll pay for this!
Dreamt of her yesterday(my friends should know who). Don't know is it a nightmare or what? I dream that she has grown into a very pretty girl(chio bu!). I guess by then she should be 13 years old or slightly older than that. She was picking flowers in a very big garden. When I approach her, her back was facing me. She then turn around a look at me with the same eyes that she used to look at me as always. After that she walk towards me carrying a basket of flowers she has picked in her hands. She then ask me a question that made me cry. I don't know how to answer her question. After that she smiled and bid me goodbye, walking off with the basket of flowers that she carried. I wonder what that dream meant?
I think I'll end here for now. Will blog again some other time.
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