I don't feel so well these days. I mean emotionally unwell. A few days ago, when my supervisor come into my cubicle to talk to me about work, when she saw that I have a lot of medicines on my table scattering around, she was very surprise and worried at the same time. She was concern and ask how is my health going on? I told her I am fine and even joke with her that my desk is a mini-pamancy so if anyone is sick and needs medication can take from my desk. She then look very serious at me and didn't seem to find my joke funny at all.
As I also have diet pills and diet tea on my desk, she ask how long I have taken them and whether they are effective? She's very worried as she said I have too many kinds of medications on my desk. Erm? Many? Only medicines for sore throat, flu, fever and my diet teas. Together I have six different medicines on my desk and each of them have indiviual purposes. I seriously don't understand how come she gets overly-worried about it? She then shared with me some true story experiences that she saw from her close friends who are currently and used to be on these kinda sliming pills. A few of them even took sleeping pills.
She said that mostly, these kind of medications do not work and one has to take it for long term just to get it's "effectiveness". Some times, for life. She has witness how a few of her friends who took these kind of medicine, slim down only for a period of time but once they stop taking it, their weight bounce back and it was much worst than before. As they gain back double of what their previous weight. She said,"No wonder your concentration is so low and your mind can't function normally". She said usually people who are under this kinda pills, she has seen the same side effects. E.g, Forgetfulness(Told me one thing and I do the other or Told me something 5 minutes ago and after a while, I forgot about it completely. Low memory capacity), Low-concentration(Can't seems to concentrate on the things I do or things that she said). Food disorder(Some people will tend to over-eat while some, their body reject food completely till the stage where they become skin and bones but still could not eat a single food) etc etc.
I told her,"Mdm, don't scare me like that can or not?" She said she is not scaring me but it is what she really witness it from the friends around her, herself and how they become after taking all these pills. She ask if any of my friends complain about my health after I started taking diet pills? I then recall Esther(Ho LP), Jia Xin, Wendy, Ya Cin and Peter complain about how my health deteriote after I started taking those pills. Wendy notice after I took those pills, I started to fall sick easily and scared of cold. Ya Cin said I would some times take MC a little too often. Peter then said I look more paler than before(Ms.W also said this recently) and almost all of my close friends complain about my health too. But then, it didn't stop me from taking it cos I was thinking,"Ai ya! Can slim down can already lah." I once shocked one of my God-brother when he ask me how much weight I wanna slim down to? I remembered I replied him,"30Kg"and he stare at me with big eyes and said a loud,"Huh?!" I know it is really mission impossible lah but during that time I keep taking different kinds of diet products just to reach that target. Of course in the end I slimed down 5kg but the weight bounce back to me again. Didn't achieve my goal after all.(Don't know whether to Thank God for that?)He then complain that 30kg is way too thin for me then I said to him,"Okay okay 40kg"He said,"No! 50kg is enough!"(You should know which Kor you are) Cos I was thinking, the thinner the better mah. Easier to buy clothing leh.
Today, she came to my desk and look at my work. There is one assignment that I almost wanted to delete off and she said,"No! Not this one! You delete the other case yesterday remember? See lah! I don't care! You better stop taking all these diet pills! I want you to stop now! Your memory is getting very poor!"I then ask her,"Huh? Is it? But I haven't delete yet right?" She insist on saying,"You did! Just yesterday! Infront of me remember? I was sitting with you and you deleted that case infront of me! So fast you've forgotten?"She was getting very fustruated and I didn't say another word. I really cannot remember I delete any cases yesterday? Or..did I?
She then ask if I had taken the Slim10 pills? Luckily I didn't. Cos I didn't have any money to buy pills then. She said that Andrea De Cruz had liver damage(or something like that?)after taking those pills and luckily her boyfriend saved her by donating one of his liver to her. She said,"She can't be getting liver damage so fast. There must be certain side effects or symtoms before the real damage causes onto her but she didn't share that's all" I then wondered is that the real reason why one of my friend who introduce one of the slimming products that I used to take that costs me $300+ per month for the whole set, gain weight at a rapid speed? She used to look okay when we were in ITE but after we graduate and work in KFC together, she started to gain much more weight after taking some slimming pills. Her initial stages of weight-gaining was not so serious and I thought maybe it's all those fried food we have taken that causes her to gain weight.
But even after we have resign, and live different lives, we meet each other up once every year and surprisingly to me, she is getting more and more "plump"every year. This year when she ask to meet-up with me to pass me my birthday gift, I was very surprise that she said she don't want to go out and ask me to go to her place to collect my gift. I thought of nothing at first and went to her place but when I saw her I really got the shock of my life! She is no longer the small size Aidah that I used to know. She has gained so much weight that I really cannot recongise it's the same Aidah that I had known in my ITE daze. I had a mix feeling of surprise, sad and heartache when I saw her like this. The slimming tea I am taking now is actually recommend by her as she claims it help her to lose 3kg per month. I then told her I'll give it a try till the packet finishes. If it doesn't work then I move on to other products. If other products also didn't work, then I'll give up totally on those dieting teas/pills.
We then chat for awhile and we promise to meet each other next year and I really pray that hopefully when I saw her next year, she will at least slim down a little and not the other way round! Although we are friends for 5 years but still I dare not comment about her and ask her to stop cos I am afraid that it will bruise her ego and I am very scared that she'll become depress like me. No no..I don't want anyone to walk to path I am walking now. I just see how things goes and if she gain much more weight next year, I will really talk her out of it cos I can't bear to see her going on like this.(I know..some stupid friend I am right?)
I think I have to stop here for now. Really sorry for the very very long-winded blog these days. Sorry to have stain your eyes and tire you out(For those who find it tiring reading my long blogs).
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