BaoBei, I miss you...

Each passing moment is an agony for me. Went to Pulau Tekong to see where he will be staying in and how his campsite look like. WeiDa and XiaoPang told me that he will not be staying in this kinda nice environment. It's only for the Sergent's and it's only "for show". Listen and watch my BaoBei take his Singapore Pledge to serve the country. Suddenly feel very proud of him although it will meant that I have to wait for him for 2 long agony years for him. Before he got enlist, he voice his fears to me and I can understand why. But then again, BaoBei. You should know yourself very well that I am not very pretty and with my hard-to-stand-temperamental of mine, who would want me? The Promise that I've made to you I'll never forget. I'll wait for your return. I miss my BaoBei!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *Love sick*

Went to Service quite late yesterday and manage only to catch the other half part of the sermon(I guess?). When I was seated at the very back seat, I scan around for my CGMs and I thought I saw Ah Liang? Indeed it was him! With Esther Leong etc in a row! After the service, I then make my way to the terrace and an usher block my way. He refuse to let me go through and ask me to exit by the back door. I point upwards telling him my CGMs are there. I then demand him to let me in! He give me don't know what kinda look before allow me to go in. I saw HuiYi and hug her when I saw her.

Gather with the rest of the CGM outside church. Bro was surprise to see me there. He said,"I thought you said you are not coming?" Ya, I wasn't coming cos I had to send my BaoBei off to his NS. He then spoke to us about the Holy Spirit and I listened. After that, MingZe then tease me about BaoBei. Bro still didn't announce for us. MingZe said,"Aiya! That day the both of you left together. Even the most stupidest person will know lor. No need to announce le. Both of you are quite obvious lor". Whatever..I don't care about this anymore. As long as I am happy with BaoBei and as long as he still loves me(or in his case, he only said like me), I'll be very happy.

Slacking in his home. Help him tidy his room a bit cos he told me to tidy it for him if I am free. Went to Orchard but I cannot locate the shop that I wanted to look for and thus, cannot find the necklace I wanted to buy for him. I tried to pre-order it but I know it will take some time. His pillow has the same smell as his shoulder(sometimes). A kind of smell that I don't know how to describe. It's not perfume, It's not sweat, It's not body spray. It's a smell that he has it naturally. Some people have their own kind of smell in the body. This is what I notice, that's why for some people, even without perfume or sprays, they still smell good...a little. I don't have my "own kind of smell". That's why I always spray perfumes often although I am allergic to it(I think). Listening to my BaoBei's composed song over and over again for the umpteenth time in his computer. Although it is sang by another guy and not my BaoBei himself, but the lyrics is written by my BaoBei himself. I imagined it's my BaoBei's voice that sing that song and not that guy's. I heard my BaoBei sang that song to me a number of times...his voice is stuck on my head. Somehow the smell of his on his pillow made me feel that he's still around in his room and not in NS. Okay...I know. I am going crazy soon.

I think I have to end here for now...going home soon..BaoBei, Wo zhen de hen xiang ni...xin hao tong...