Test report is out = Negative???

Merry Christmas!!! Okay..I know. Christmas season is over. Didn't really celebrate Christmas on 25th cos I don't have the mood. Suppose to send BaoBei off but didn't send in the end. When my Mum saw me, she thought that I didn't sleep at all cos I keep giving her blank stares. Actually, I do that just to avoid her questions about BaoBei. She ask me to go to sleep. After that I called BaoBei and the phone ring for a very long time before BaoBei picks up the phone. He said no need to send him there and ask me to rest at home.

Bid BaoBei goodbye and after that I lie on my bed and cry. Why? Actually very small matter. Cos..Until now I still cannot find any job and my money is really running out. Esther Ho ask me to send Jia Xing off but I don't dare to go out. Transport needs money too leh. I try to go out as less often as possible. Won't be attending service but I cannot tell Bro or else he will say that I give him lame excuses and Lorraine will also say that I "Ra-ra" again(Those who know Lorraine well will know what Ra-ra means). *Sigh*

Went to collect my results today. Some of my friends prayed for me over my results including Aidah. Thanks Aidah. The Doctor ask me to go over and she show me my results through the computer screen. Everything in the test shows negative..including something which I am worried most. The results shows,"Not Active". I was relieve when I saw these two words. Call BaoBei first when I came out from the room. He pick up the call and I ask him whether he is free? He ask me why and I think he remembered about my test. I told him the same thing and he said he is very happy for me. Received HuiYi's call and I told her about it too. She said,"See! I told you right? Nothing happen. Got thank God or not?"

Called two of my ex-boyfriends cos one of them is looking for me through friendster(I suspect he wants revenge). It's a long story. The other one, ask me to call him back through email. Cos I spoken to him something a few weeks ago and he's willing to help me(If BaoBei knows about this, I'll be in trouble!). He said he wants to ask me a few questions about BaoBei. Cos he said BaoBei looks familiar. But when he told me the name of the person he is looking for, I was thinking,"Nope! BaoBei's Christian name is not Eric. He doesn't study in Bedok!"(I think?) Only my closest friends will know BaoBei's Christian name(Shhhh!)

Don't know what to do now. I just pray and hope that I could get a 5-day work week soon! Thank you for those who have been praying for me for the past few weeks! Thank you very much and Thank God for His Miracle!