Can't sleep well cos I have a cold...haiz..thanks to the air-con! Oh well...but I guess I have to get used to sleep with the air-con for 5 days instead(Guess where am I?) Went for Cell group appreciation and gathering yesterday evening. Waited for some of the cell group members before we proceed to the place together. BaoBei then held my hand daringly in front of the rest of the CGMs! I was like,"o.O!!! Bro haven't announce yet! Want to die ah!?"But I guess is okay since almost half of the CGMs already knew our relationship even before Bro announce for us.
Reach there and we ordered our food. I ordered randomly cos I don't know what to eat. But I try to choose the least expensive food as possible. Cos I am on very tight budget. While waiting for our food to be serve, we played games and I forgot to bring my house keys along with me. BaoBei then lend me his set of keys and went off. He was not feeling well even before we met up with the CGMs. Poor BaoBei. Still tell me that he is okay when the fact that he is not! Haiz..maybe he don't want to disappoint the CG by not turning up bah? Not feeling well still insist on going.
While the food was being served, I heard the waiters and waitresses complaint that they had a lot of extra chicken cutlets and they seem very unhappy about it. I only knew majority of the CGMs ordered Chicken cutlet except me and a few others who ordered Fish 'n' Chips. After that, Bro said that he has something to announce to the CG and I had a feeling that he wants to announce the relationship between BaoBei and me. Indeed I guess right! He ask the CGMs not to be surprise if they see BaoBei and me holding hands.
Actually, during the 1st few weeks of our relationship, we had quite a difficult time being together cos there are some people who disapproves of our relationship - including my Mum. So being togther is quite tough for us plus we have to keep secret from the rest of the CGMs and it's quite suffering for the both of us when in both of our hearts, we wish to be open to the CGMs. But since Bro doesn't wish to announce it too early and too soon, we had to endure but still, a few of the CGMs get to know about this matter first hand(You guys should know who you are). It has only been a month and 10 days(Total 40 days) since we are together but we had gone through tough times together, although it is quite early in our relationship. I am very glad that BaoBei stood by me throughout all these days that we are together. Although there are quite a lot of times when I feel like giving up. Luckily BaoBei is much more stronger than me emotionally and provide me with lots of love and especially comfort when I need it most. Initially he set a rule for me not to cry in front of him and I had promised him but couldn't keep the promise in the end cos I broke down in front of him once when my Mum objects strongly to our relationship. He was surprise that I suddenly cried after talking to my Mum about him(That time he was at my place). HuiYi called me and I cried while talking to her and that's when BaoBei saw me crying for the very first time. He didn't know what to do except to let me cry on his shoulders.
The second time I cried when I was at his place. Jia Xin objects to our relationship that time and said some hurtful words to me. Again, he allow me to cry on his shoulders. He said he doesn't know how to comfort me when I am sad. But allowing me to cry out on his shoulder is his greatest comfort for me. I remember Marcus ask me why do I bother what others said if I am happy with the person that I love? The reason is very simple: I want the people around me to accept my decision and my choice of my beloved. If they don't, it will hurt me alot. Cos I don't want to come to a point whereby my friends hate my beloved to the core(to the point that they blacklist him). It happened to me once before but that was only because my ex-boyfriend hit me very often after he got enlist into NS and vent his frustrations on me. It got so bad that I suffered bruises on my arms with a few scratches(that's only the minor hurt..the major ones I cannot say it here or else if my friends were to read it, they will be more upset with my ex). My friends were so upset with my ex that one of them even said she'll beat my ex-bf if she ever sees him. Esther was one of them who plead me to leave my ex. Which I am glad I had the courage to do so in the end. The latest info that I heard, is that he has feelings for his ex-gf now. I am very happy for him that way cos it will meant that he won't look for me with false hope that we would patch things back.
BaoBei, Thank you for being there for me all this while. Sorry if I ever make you so upset. I don't know how much I have hurt you but I hope that you'll forgive me(I type here cos I dare not tell him face-to-face myself).
I think I will end here for now. Blog again next time.
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