Went for Service yesterday and was late. Actually I was suppose to have BS with Lorraine but I couldn't find my BS book anywhere at my house. I SMS Baobei to ask him to help me search for it to see if I have left it at his place? After search here and there, still couldn't find my BS book. Had no choice but to tell Lorraine that I won't be attending BS with her. Cos..how to attend when I don't have the book? The worst thing is that I do not know which lesson I am at now. Lesson 7? I forgot.
Went for lunch with Lorraine instead. She called me when we are on our way to Expo. I couldn't recognise her voice at all! I look at my phone before I pick up and the screen flash,"Lorraine 12345678 calling...(Lorraine's number. Sorry cannot reveal lah!)" I answered,"Hello?" But then, the person who spoke to me, doesn't sound like Lorraine at all! I stare blankly in space, then look at my hp again,"Call 1" I feel like asking the person,"Who are you?" When the fact is that it's Lorraine's number. Cos her voice sounds so sweet that I never heard such a voice before! I replied,"Er..yeah. We are on our way" she said she will be waiting for us at the food court. I then hang up. BaoBei ask me,"Who call?" I said,"Lorraine. But then, her voice doesn't sound like Lorraine. Her voice sound like half of Katherine's voice" BaoBei then give me a whierd look. If you know how does Katherine's voice sounds like, you will know why I give that look yesterday.
Went to food court to search for Lorraine. Took me quite a while to spot her. Cos I am not observant enough. She then talk to me about my work. She then introduce a cafe near Bona Vista and said that the job is not suitable for long term. It's run by our own church member so maybe I could request for 5 days work week. I wonder why.
Went for service and I was surprise that the hall was quite empty! Usually for service, the hall will be either full house or half pack by members. But yesterday when we step into the hall, I was surprise! BaoBei was surprise too and said,"How come the hall look like almost empty?" Jac brought her schoolmates to church. I did not mingle with them. Especially the "Ah lian". She has piercings everywhere and a tattoo on her back. I gave her a look as if she was an Alien. In my mind I wonder,"Jac mix with Ah lians?!" Anyway I don't wish to talk to them at all. Cos all Ah lians have an attitude problem and the way they look at you, they are actually looking down at you cos you are different from them. Been there, done that. So I know. I have piercings too but I limited to my ears only. The moment the Ah lians came, the sisters flock to them and talk as if they are long-lost friends like that. While the brothers keep to themselves one side. I stayed with the brothers cos I don't wish to talk to the %$^%$#@!
After service, Lorraine encourage us to get to know the new friends cos they are "shy". Ya right man! But BaoBei insist to go home early. As we have not much money to fellowship, we went home first. On the way home, someone called me and said we did not fellowship for a very long time. I was very angry and part of me feel like shouting at her. We did okay!? She then hang up my call just like that! KNS!!! BaoBei saw me getting angry and ask what happen? I don't wish to talk. After that I show him one particular SMS and he was very angry and said,"Oh! Just because Mum's birthday they don't go fellowship! Then that time my Dad's birthday! I also still stay with the members and didn't go celebrate!" I said,'Then why you never tell me?" He told me that he don't cos he knows that I will buy gifts for his Dad. Anyway, that was suppose to be a surprise and that is why he insist me to go home that day. But I didn't. Anyway, I had enough. When I fellowship with the members, WERE YOU THERE?! Anthea then called me last minute asking me to pass her the book. I then went to the station just to pass to her and ran off. I am very disappointed that she don't understand me! She has the same situation as me but yet she is telling me all these! Humph! After all these years, I thought that you understand me! But it seems that you don't. I thought you are the person who know me inside out and know what I am going through. But after what you SMS me yesterday, I realize that you don't. Whenever I go out on weekends, I have to pay for BOTH PARTIES(me and YenHao's) expenses! I am really sort of cash nowadays. Anyway, I have given up on the members. If they don't co-operate really because that I fellowship with them lesser, then forget it. I won't bother to chase them for prayer list if they don't give me from now on. They are tired that I keep bugging them for prayer list? I am also tired of them for not giving me their prayer request. Anyway, if you see this and know who you are, don't bother to call me to explain anything anymore. If you don't understand me, then I have nothing to say. No need to say sorry or whatever anymore. I am disappointed! Really disappointed! Because of fellowship you can don't care about my problem, then never mind. We have nothing to talk.
I think I will end here for now. Will blog again some other time.
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