Should I go? Or should I not?

Went for work today and just as I expected, PAY DEDUCTION. But then it was not too bad lah. Still within my expected range. Boss ask me whether I can handle the invoice thing and I honestly tell him that I couldn't really handle. Cos one slight mistake and that's it man! You're in for trouble big time!

The Accountant came and we chat for a while. She encourage me to switch job. She said office may not be the best for me after all and told me to go for further education if I can since I am still young. Ya..but...Money problem. I learn from Aidah that NTUC member could get subsidise but then I must pay $9 every month. Then I'll have to pay $300 - $400 for the course instead of $2000. Sounds worth it but...I don't know.

Boss left in the evening and Derek then psst at me,"Psst! Pssssst! Oei!" I then turn my head to him and then back to the computer again,"Ya?" He then came over and ask,"Oei, heard that you kena deduction ah? Deduct how much?" I then look at him and said,"You know the FnB job before I got this job? That pay lor. With no CPF" He said,"Wah liew! Then you better find a new job. It's not that I wanna pour cold water on you or what, but seriously lah. That kinda pay! You might as well stay at your previous FnB job to work right!? Please lah! If you can leave, just leave. Don't stay. For what?! At this low rate?!" I replied,"I wish so too!" But then he hasn't got any replacement to replace me. Further more, he's going overseas soon and the timing to leave is just not right. Miss too many opportunities of 5 days FnB job!(Hey I really found some FnB job that's 5 days but haven't got the chance to interview yet). HuiYi suggest that I go and study diploma in teaching since I love kids so much. I am still thinking.

I know I hesitate here and there but because I am afraid. I have burdens and only my close friends will know what are my burdens. I will see how things goes. I have speak to BaoBei and Lorraine about taking 2nd job. Lorraine said as long as it doesn't affect my spiritual life, CG and my relationship with BaoBei, she's okay with it. BaoBei said that if I feel tired when working both job, might as well give up one of the jobs. So...those friends of mine, if you ever SMS me to go out and I couldn't make it, you would know why. Either I am busy with church stuff or I am just busy working. I will see how things goes.

I will end here for now. Will blog again some other time.