Dreams~

Last Saturday + Sunday night, which is around 14/3/09 and 15/3/09, I had two unusual dreams. Normally when I sleep, I hardly dream and even if I did, it is some nonsense dream which I know it won't happen in real life. Some times, I can even tell it's all a dream when I am still asleep! There are also times where I dream but the moment I woke up, I forgot all about my dream. But those two days, I felt very very strange. Yes, I know it's a dream but...one of them feels VERY REAL! These are my dreams:

On Saturday 14/3/2009:

I was walking along a tunnel which supposedly lead to a walkway towards Wisma Atria together with BaoBei. In my dreams, we are not holding hands(we normally hold hands when we are out in reality). We were chatting about something when I heard someone calling out my name,"Eh! Juliet!" I turn around to see who it was. I saw one of my ex-boyfriend, Kenneth. This ex-bf of mine, the history is quite messy. We were together after my 1st love left me. Which is in year 2000. But one month after being together, he suddenly disappeared! Only to re-appeared again after a few months and disappear again and re-appear in my life 5 or 6 yrs later, which I think is around 2004 or 5 ? I can't remember. This ex of mine is a Malay. But strangely in Real life his IC stated: Chinese??? His current look, looks like Indian cos of the dark skin he got. In my dreams he is even more darker! I replied to him,"Yes?" He said,"Can remember me or not?" In my mind I was thinking,"You this kinda bastard! Even burn you to ashes I also can still remember lah! NB!" I smile in my dreams and told him,"Ya". He then ask me how am I? What am I doing? Those kinda stuff. Then..BaoBei's face turn black. He said to me,"Baby, I go smoke first. Later you come find me" I said,"ok" But strangely, after chatting with my ex, we left TOGETHER HOLDING HANDS?! I was shock when I saw myself holding his hand in my dreams!!! I then suddenly jolt myself up from my sleep!

BaoBei ask what happen? I told him about my dream and he give me this face -_-"

On Sunday 15/3/2009:

I slept quite late on Saturday and was very tired. I fell asleep almost immediately. I remember wearing the latest ring that BaoBei gave me to sleep plus my pajamas. After some time, which I don't know how long, I saw myself in a shopping centre in the dream. Wearing a dress that looks very "Aunty" and carrying a basket with vegetables and fruits and some stuffs that mothers always go to markets to buy to cook for lunch or dinner that kind! I am wondering now,"What the hell am I doing in a shopping centre dressing like that?! Plus carrying basket of vegetable, fruits etc some more!?" But in my dream, I saw myself look much more older than my current look. About 35 or 37 years old. The hairstyle...eeek errr! short permed hair -_-"

I heard someone called out my name(why in dreams I always hear people calling out my name huh?) I turn around and saw a guy smiling at me. I couldn't recognize him at all. He said,"你不记得我了？" I shook my head. He replied,"我 是 Colin" My heart skip a beat in that dream. (<- That is why I said it felt so real!) He was wearing a Grey suite. Those office business-man look that kind. His hairstyle...very 90's! He has black almost-shoulder-length hair, centre parting, but his fringe dyed honey golden in color. I was thinking in that dream,"Haiz..chow Ah Beng as usual". He ask if I am free? Wanted to look for a place to sit down and talk? I nod my head. He said,"Wah! 你瘦很多了hor?" I -_-" at him and said,"Mr! 我肥了! Thanks leh!" He laugh. I can still remember the way he laugh until now. Nothing seems to have change except that he has gain more weight than the last time I saw him. When we sat down, I can vividly remember that place! Suntec city food court! Cos I recognize the surroundings in my dreams! He saw a ring on my right hand. He ask,"Eh? 你有男朋友了?" I said,"Ya" He ask,"多久了?" I replied,"四年了"(But then BaoBei and me, this year considered our third year) He then suan me,"Huh?! 四年了还没有结婚?! 几岁了?!" I said that I don't want to and anyway we are not financially stable plus his family doesn't seems to like me. He shook his head. He then went on chatting about other stuff. When I light up a cigarette to smoke in front of him, he seems very shock. He ask,"你几时开始抽烟的?" I told him only a few years ago. I smoke initally to spite my boyfriend but in the end got myself addicted to smoking since then. He told me,"Haiz..少抽一点！对你的身体不好!" I look at him and said,"Eh? 你也不是一样?! 讲我!?" He smiled(His usual "trade-mark" smile)

While he was chatting, I was thinking in my dreams,"Why didn't I accept him as my friend in the first place?" He told me he was living in a mansion now. I was like,"WOW! Mansion sia!" But BaoBei told me that Mansion is not so big in Singapore. I replied,"So your father's business now doing very good lah?" He said,"Huh? Ai ya..ok only lor. 生意上鬼道了。听说不久之后我爸爸要把他的公司交给我管理." I then congratulate him. He ask me what am I doing? I told him about my work and he just nod. I realize then that I no longer had feelings for him. But I do still miss him in real life. I then talk about his sisters. The last time I heard, his parents divorce and both of his sisters are now with his biological Mum. He told me that he hasn't seen them for a long time but from his expression I can tell he still do care and miss his sisters badly. I still remember his sisters name, Stephanie, his younger sister and Emily, his youngest sister. Stephanie is much more talkative and active than Emily. But Emily is more vain and "Ah lian" then Stephanie. At least that was the first and also the last impression they have left for me to remember about them. I ask him,"Then 你的女朋友leh? 还是老婆leh？" He said he doesn't have any and still single. I frown my eye browns and told him,"我听说你结婚了？有个儿子？不是meh?" He slam his drink on the table and said,"你又听谁乱讲huh?!" I said,"Kenneth 讲的嘛" He seems very angry and said,"你不要听那个王八蛋乱讲可以吗？！以前他就是乱讲话！害到我们现在变成这样！"

I know what he was referring to..the Chinese Garden Lantern festival in year 1999. During that time, he and Kenneth had a huge quarrel over something which I do not know then. After that incident, I learnt that it's because Colin claim that I used black magic on him. I cried very badly and hated him deeply since then. I remember cutting one of our photos cos of my deep hatred for him. I cried badly while cutting the photos into pieces then threw it away. Before he left me, he told me to wait for him for 2 years. I promised but never kept that promise in the end cos of what Kenneth said. From then on, I keep on cutting myself on my left hand everyday. Seeing the blood makes me feel a little better then. But I do not have to courage to cut deeper. Cos I heard from Colin one of his friend played a dare and someone dared his friend to cut DEEP into the veins. His friend lost a lot of blood and was rush to hospital. That friend never survive in the end. After that I had an accident during a chalet that I fell and knock on the back of my head very hard. I cried to sleep and lost most of my memories after that. After 2 years, Colin REALLY INDEED came back to look for me. But...during that time, I had some problems and couldn't be with him. Also during that time, was what I heard about the rumous of him. And I made him left me. I don't mind that he will hate me in real life. He doesn't understand why apart from that I have a boyfriend when he re-appeared, what was the exact reason that I couldn't be with him? Only I myself know the reason. I never forget the promises that we've made. But...the promise that I had made to him, can only be hidden in my heart. But I guess, he can get over me easily since he mirgrate to another country, Perth.

Before I woke up from my dreams, the last sentence he told me was,"有空来我家坐坐！" I only nod in my dreams but after I woke up, I realize that I forgot to ask for his number! BaoBei said that during the two nights, he saw me having jolting movements in my sleep. The jolting movement could have been the dream where he made my heart skip a beat.

I will end here for now. Consider that I have dreamless dreams or senseless dreams that I couldn't remember, this is the best dreams I ever had in my life. Even though I know it's a dream. But at least now I know how he is and glad that he's still willing to be my friend in dreams.

I will always be missing you~and that someone out there.

Slut?

Maybe I was wrong, maybe I shouldn't be too friendly towards guys. Maybe....

I didn't know I was being labelled as a "Slut" until I shared what happen at work to BaoBei recently. He just told me how the guys there think of me and treated me. Since I do not have any resistance, naturally guys will think that I am "easy target" which in short form meaning "slut". I am a person who do not know how to express myself. Maybe towards most girls, guys(whom are not their bfs or husbands) shouldn't touch girls whatever they like. But for me, all along I thought that was innocent friendly gesture. Like patting on the back(by a guy) etc. Maybe it is wrong but....I DO NOT KNOW. I thought that was just friendly gesture. After I told BaoBei..He said I gave guys a wrong impression that I am a slut. He told me that I am more to the open-minded kinda girl. But in the process, I also might give guys a wrong impression. I only cried silently to myself that silence has finally killed me...my reputation and as a whole in the process. Cos I tend to keep quiet about most things.

Went out with BaoBei yesterday but in the process, we quarrel again. I quarrel with him last week cos he did not reply my SMS and especially did not pick up my calls for FIVE WHOLE DAYS! After that Ivan called me to said to BaoBei is under a lot of stress because of the way I treat him. I was thinking then,"Since I am the cause of his stress then I might as well leave". Ivan told me to forgive and forget(The stupid Turtle incident! Refer to my last year's entry) since it's so long ago. Haha! It's not easy for me to forgive someone THAT easily. I might..but even if that's the case, it would be a very long time from now. I tend to take an extremely long time to cool myself down.

There are times I wish I could end my life once and for all...Cos I am already too tired of carrying on living without purpose. But then again, the thought of my parents and brother crying in front of my coffin...makes me don't have the courage to end my life. Maybe I will wait..until my parents goes first and I'll follow them, leaving my brother alone in this world. Anyway he can survive well without me.

I think I will end here for now. Will blog again some other time.

Malaysia trip

Went to Johor Bahru for holiday last week with BaoBei and his cousin and cousin's boyfriend(Double date!). Before that I went to money changer to change Singapore dollars to Malaysian Ringgit. That time was $1.39 and Ah Ping said the rate was quite high. I then use S$100 to change and paid $4.50(I wonder why must pay?) then the person gave me RM250. Went shopping at City Square(JB's most popular and well-known shopping centre) and I bought a bag, some make-ups there. BaoBei tried on a pants that I find it quite nice on him but it was RM70+ dollars! If I have more money and have the chance again, I would go Malaysia to shop again.

Went to Taman Lingie?(a shopping centre where I forgot the name) and ate a Malay restaurant there but the food was too oily! The taste also only so-so. Stayed at 小姑's place during the trip. Beat BaoBei up cos I thought he purposely made me fell plus at that time, 小姑 had just mopped the floor and I fell partly because I slipped. I hit BaoBei's chest very hard and later on he said I almost slapped him. He said if I really did, he will beat me up on the spot(or something like that?)

Before returning to Singapore, I had a very huge quarrel with BaoBei. Perhaps it's my fault that I SMS Mattrew the first thing I arrived back in Singapore. The other part is that during the trip I accidentally step on BaoBei's foot. I was wearing high heels so you can imagine the pain BaoBei felt. I delete the SMSes after sending cos I know BaoBei would be very angry. Mattrew is a guy that I had known through Alamak Chat.com. BaoBei was not happy that I got too close to that guy. Had met the guy only once and I find him not so bad in person but he can also be very cheeky in MSN. He did express interest in me initially but after I told him that I had a boyfriend whom I will be married to in a few years time, he seems to back out. But we continue to remain as pure friends. I have no interest in him at all cos I know BaoBei is all that I need(cos I believe He is what God gave me cos God did show me signs. This is for me to know) After some heart-to-heart talk with BaoBei, I realize that BaoBei loves me a lot because of one sentence he said,"When you truly love somebody, you will tolerate the person's everything" Somehow after some time, I felt that BaoBei has lost trust in me cos he ask me this question,"Can I put 100% trust in you that you won't be unfaithful to me?"(or something like that?) I do love BaoBei..but I don't understand why I find myself had roving eye for other guys(and girls too). But I realize something why I am close to Mattrew..He gave me something that BaoBei no longer gives me - Attention. It's something BaoBei no longer does for me. I think it only happens when you just got to know the person and you wanted to know the person better.

My knee cap and my wisdom tooth has been giving me problems these days. Went to see a dentist this evening and she told me that both sides of my wisdom tooth are decayed. That explains why I have sharp pain on my cheeks! She also said I have tar-tar(don't know what is that?) and cavities. She suggest to remove my wisdom tooth as soon as possible and it will be considered a surgery. It will cost me around $800 for both sides to be removed plus scaling and polishing. I do not have that kind of money. No wonder BaoBei refuse to go to the dentist. But I also understand that if I don't go now, sooner or later, I will have to wear dentures like my Dad(WHICH I DO NOT WANT!!!!). Haiz...if only I am free of money problems!

I will end here for now. Will blog again some other time. BaoBei, I love you and I still do. Just that I do not know how to express myself anymore. I am sorry.

Poem for my BaoBei:

Hand in hand, down this path with you I go,
without regrets and no turning back
At times, we may fought, we may argue
but through the fights, we grow to understand
better

Your shoulders comfort me when
I am sad
Your hugs comfort me at my worst
times
You celebrate my happiness
You listen to my troubles and woes

You're my friend, my companion, my lover
I love you and no other
It's you who stood by me through good times and bad

Sorry for making you angry at times
sorry for not being understanding when I
should
sorry for I do not know how to
express myself well
sorry for hurting you
unknowingly at times
and lastly, sorry for
the tears that you've shed for me

Thank you for being there for me all these while
You could have found someone better
but yet you chose to stay
Thank you for being my friend,
for
those listening ears never fail to listen to my whines
Thank you for your comforting hugs and shoulders when I
need it most
For they comfort me without
saying a word.

May our days ahead
filled with love
May our years ahead
filled with surprises and happiness
Words
can't express how much I appreciate you
deep inside, I love you just as much
I still thank God for giving me YOU
I am still thankful for meeting you in my life.
There's no other that can give me what you could
You're my one and only
宝贝

I LOVE YOU

Lost my wallet

Lost my wallet 2 days ago, I didn't even know where exactly did I lost it. Haiz..inside contain important documents like my IC, $30+ worth of E-zlink card and about $100+ worth of cash. Needless to say, BaoBei's and my photots. Very sian. Was moody the whole day and quarrelled with BaoBei. Now I only can pray hard that any kind soul who found my wallet can return it to me. Though I am prepared that the money will be lost.

Gamble a lot for the past few days cos it's New Year. I never thought that 2 days ago was the last time I would ever get to hold my wallet and see it again. I don't even know where I had drop it. I shouldn't have draw out so much money in the first place if I know I might lose it anytime. Had called bank to cancel my cards and they said they will send me a replacement at $20 charge. So sad. I had since made a police report but they said they will not investigate.

Now I can do nothing but to wait and see how it goes. Cos I have no money to replace my IC plus I just renew my IC last year! Sian..I just pray and hope whoever found it can return it back to me.

Sad...and heartbroken

My days are numbered at my workplace. All because of what I considered, my stupid fault!!! I went to this Law firm for interview. Before that I keep dragging myself to go there. After the interview when I left, the interviewer called me back almost immediately, and he gave me the position on the spot. Of course before that, he did ask me a lot of tough questions and he enquire me about my resume as I seems to have change jobs often. But I have my reasons for doing so okay? He then let me sign of what he claim that it was an appointment letter. I signed it blindly. Which a few days later on then I realize I had signed was a contract. I had no choice but to tender my resignation to my Boss. He allow me to go happily, except for Faizal, who seems to take my leave with worries and burdens. Not only for Faizal, almost the whole of my colleagues are shock and surprise that I am leaving soon. Seriously, in my heart I had a very huge struggle cos I do not wish to leave the place. But I know what I had signed cannot be undone.

Most of them are worried about these things when I leave cos for now, only I am the one who is doing all these:

1) Deliveries = I am the one who do most of it, and because of that, I know almost every street name, and where to deliver like the back of my hand. Except for those which is out of my workplace area, it had to be taken by taxi to reach there. Everyone in my workplace is very worried cos none of them do deliveries before. Jing, a new colleague, says she's very blur about such thing and will eventually get lost if she delivers alone.

2) SOP = Standard Operations Procedure. During the operations of the shop, I was trained by my stupid ex-Manager to run the whole shop. By right, this was NOT stated at my employment letter with the company! But then now thinking back, I think it was blessing in disguised as I now at least know how to do standard opening and closing of the shop, on top of that, during peak hours, I am almost be able to multi-task to do duties like stock-up items, clear the tables, serving customers behind the line and wash dishes almost all at one time.

3) Closing + taking stock from restaurant = Okay lah, I don't do closing alone. But taking stock from restauarnt, apart from Faizal, I am the 2nd person to help the shop to run errands to take stock from the main company. I think this part Faizal can take over me.

For now, I can't think of anything else. But that's my main job at my for-now-workplace. Spoke to my Mum just now and actually I was thinking of borrowing $2.2K from her to pay my new job cos I do not wish to work there. After she browse through the contract, she ask me to try it out at my new workplace to see if I liked it. Anyway, she doesn't like me to work in F&B line. Cos she feels that, that kinda job, is for those who are uneducated to work. She also feels that it's a disgrace to work in that line. Especially if your position is just a service crew. Actually, I think, anyone can replace me in my current postion cos, although I do almost everything by myself, I hardly complain. Cos I emphasize on team-work! Ever since my stupid Manager leaves, there is REAL team-work in the workplace now. Before that, it doesn't seems like a team-work to me, it's more like indiviual work! Humph! Somemore my ex-Manager used to be from MacDonald's too(for 14 years somemore!) KNS! Pui! What a disgrace! Why I say that? Because the way he operates the shop and the way he lead us to do things, immediately I could tell it's NOT a team-work! A team-work is that when your colleagues needs help, you help them, and when you need help, they in turn, will help you if they can. Plus, we can co-operate together to tackle any challenges that's ahead of us as a team! The way my ex-Manager leads, is more like indiviual. Like example, when my colleague run out of meat items/salad items. They ask me to get for them, I did tried. But when I wanted to, that stupid Manager stop me and scold my colleague for asking me to take their things!(Which is not very far from me) Stupid right?! You call that team-work?! My colleague was unable to move from her station at that point of time because she was serving customer and I am the "most free" person at that point of time. How long does it take for me to run to kitchen to take her items? Ok lah, the most slow I will take is 20-30 secs! The customer can't wait for 30 secs meh? Then he will ask my colleague to leave her station to take it herself..then the customer who she is serving have to wait..but in a sense to me that is ridiculous! Imagine yourself as customer and a crew serve you half-way and run away to get her things in the kitchen. How would you feel? It's a very good thing that he left! All of us were very happy!

I will end here for now. Very tired. I will see how things goes as time goes by. Wish me best of luck in my new job.

Fire

Went to work yesterday and this time I saw something unexpected happened. I went for delivery as usual and on my way back to work, I saw a thick smoke coming out from what I think is the 2nd or 3rd level of the building. I then Dial 995 immediately when I sense something is not right. Cos I seen a lot of blue collar workers pointing upwards and gathered at the foot of the building.

When I went back to work, Faizal said that I act smart. 3 minutes later, a civil defence engine arrived. The announcement said that it was a real emergency. Luckily earlier last year, that company had a fire practice similar to what is happening now. Except now the problem is, most of the people know exactly where to gather at, while some are seen scattered around the streets. Haiz..I thought they are prepared and trained for these kind of emergency situation? I do not know if the news has been report of the case?

I am getting very tired these days as I work from 7am in the morning to 5 - 6pm in the evening. I am still looking for a new job cos although I am happy where I am now, but the money is really not enough for me to spend anymore. Unless I am able to take a 2nd job?

Yeh!

I think most of you who read my blog have already know..why I am so happy these days. Those of you who don't know, is because of one very simple reason:

You wanna know what?

MY MANAGER FINALLY KENA TERMINATED FROM WORK!!! YEH!!!! ^O^V

To some of you, you may think I am crazy or even think that I am mean. Only those who know the exact story of what happen will also rejoice with me! Really can open champagne to celebrate! I told my colleagues, I am more happier than winning TOTO/4D with this news! Okay lah..maybe I am a little bit exaggerating but at least without that idiot Manager around, I am now much more happier! No need to be kena scolding for nothing or kena challenge for tinniewinnie bit of things, no need to see his stupid bloody face and no need to be pick upon! Some more, I think this is the shortest job position he has so far in his job changing record! LOL! Cos when I was in good terms with him in the early daze, he used to tell me that his longest work was 7 years and that he only change 4 jobs in his entire life time. Of course all of his previous 4 jobs, he stayed longer than a year lah. So this job is consider his shortest! One year! Plus..it is not him who resign from the job. It is that he KENA TERMINATED from the job! Yeh!!! ^_^V

ALL of us are HAPPY that he is not around! You reap what you sow! This phase really suitable for my smelly Manager! As in, he used to treat everyone badly at work in the past 1 year, but strangely, ever since I told BaoBei that he threaten to beat me up and treat my colleagues badly at work and MOST of us are eager to see him leave, he really leave within 1 week. I cannot help but keep thinking whether is it BaoBei's boss who's behind all these? Until he really can have the power to make my Manager lose his position! Anyway, now I find BaoBei's boss really an amazing person! Just that I don't know how to express my gratitude towards him and his help.

Went for walk around Tanjong Pagar. That place really change alot! Saw some really cheap clothes there but don't have the money to buy for now. Will go shopping once I got my pay. I will end here for now. Will blog again some other time! Yeh!!! Happy New Year!!! Xin Xiang Shi Chen!!!(Which in my case, it has already happened! LOL!)

BaoBei's cousin's wedding

Stayed at BaoBei's place to rot for almost the whole morning and afternoon. After that dress up and went for his cousin's wedding dinner. The bride and groom's story were very touching from how they met each other, to a time where they were separate for 18 months cos the girl went to US for further studies. The girl only wore two dress from the start till the end. Cos I expect her to wear three dresses.

But I was not really happy during the event. When I step in with BaoBei to the wedding Banquet, when his family saw me there, they were quite unhappy. Especially his Mum. Cos they expect him to sit together with them but at that point of time, their table has room only for one person. Which means if BaoBei go alone, he can get to sit with them. His Mum was very unhappy and said,"Aiyoh! You come alone mah! Why must you bring...?!" I was quite upset by her words but I didn't said anything. BaoBei didn't bother about her and sat with me instead. When it's time to flash the slide shows of the bride and groom, BaoBei kept asking me when it's out turn? I then replied to him that I don't wish to get married - because of his parents. Some times, I feel really tired. Since his parents don't like me, why should I continue to be with him?

I know that there's no perfection in life. Maybe I had expect too much...

KNS!!!!!! IDIOT!!!

Went to work today and the moment I step into my workplace, I saw most of my colleagues gathering around to talk. "Oei! No need to work ah?!" was what I first thought in my mind. But when I overheard what they are saying, I wanted to find out more. Cos they were discussing about the $50 that has been missing from the cash register yesterday. But then, yesterday I never touch the cash register at all so it's NONE OF MY BUSINESS! But then...I HEAR SOMETHING from one of my colleagues that I shouldn't have heard!!! CB!!! Here is what she told me:

Yesterday the cash register short $50..then don't know on which day, the cash register short $100. Then some time ago, the cash register also short $200+. You know what? MY STUPID MANAGER PUT ALL THE BLAME ONTO ME! Here's the thing: WITHOUT PROOF! Cos normally I am the one who is delivering the goods and at MOST TIMES, yes I didn't give them the money straight-away when I return from delivery. Why? Because by the time I returned, the cafe would be full of customers and no one is free to entertain me or to accept the money etc. But after the rush hour or if they are free I will either pass the money to my Manager or my colleague. I NEVER EVER TAKE ANY MONEY out of the delivery packet! Even if let's say I did take, the one who is counting will know that the delivery money is short! They will on the spot question me! Why didn't they?! STUPID!? I HATE BEING ACCUSE WITHOUT PROOF AND FOR NOTHING!!! FCB!!!!! ANYHOW SAY! WANT TO SAY ME AT LEAST PROVIDE SOME SOLID EVIDENCE AGAINST ME LAH!!! But I know I DID NOT DO IT! For what I greed for that small $50 note or $100!? Siao!? I want to greed why don't I greed the whole cash register money?! Why don't I greed $1000?! For what I greed only $50 - $100?! It's not as if the company never pay me my salary!!!

I told BaoBei about this. His colleague then call me on my phone and told me to be wary of my bag. Cos I know I never do it, ALL of my colleagues believe that I never do it and Ping believe that I am not the sort of person who would greed this small sum of money, Faizal also said he trust me. Now his colleague is afraid that since my Manager claim that I am the one who stole the money, and he doesn't have any solid proof, he will try any means and ways to sneak some dollars note into my bag or apron when I am not aware cos my locker can't be lock. So if my Manager want to plant such "proof" against me, he could. Cos I don't watch my bag very often and my manager knows I don't have a habit of zipping my bag. CB! FCB! This kind of Manager also have?! I CURSE HIM TO DIE!!! TO BE KNOCK DOWN TO DEATH BY BIG LORRY OR TRUCK!!! LIARS DON'T GO HEAVEN!!!! I know myself my conscious is clear..I did not do it! Means I did not do it! CB! Mind your fucking words!!! Try to get me into trouble when I did not do it!? Fine! I will let you suffer!!!

I will see how these few days or weeks. KNNBCCB!!!! I hate people to frame me without any solid proof!!! I DID NOT DO IT!!!! I WILL NEVER DO IT!!! CB MANAGER!!!!

Peace...?

Update after the "Chee Bye Manager" incident...

Went to work on Monday and everything seems to be fine. When I step into my workplace, I quietly ask one of my colleagues,"How is the "Whether" today"? She look behind her and see that the stupid Manager is not looking, then said to me,"Surprisingly, the "Whether" today very cloudy" meaning peaceful lah. Okay..same goes for Tuesday. On Tuesday, which is yesterday, Jean and Me were very surprise! Only both of us understand why. The other new girl doesn't understand. Cos we have learnt something about my Manager some time ago, that whenever BOTH of his full timers are absent, he will surely get angry, bang things around and his mood will be very foul on that particular day(ai yah! Anyway he is 95% of the time on foul mood). But today he surprise us..especially me. One of my chef went on MC and my other colleague is on long AL(Annual Leave). So which means only 3 part timers are working for him plus one full timer(Mind you, that full timer has only been with the Company for a month!) Jean was puzzled but I think I understand why he act this way. He have to...or else, if he dare to challenge me like again? He will be in big time trouble! This one, only I understand why and how. But I am not Hao lian. I am not Boss's daughter or whatever. Just that I can only say he has shown improvement on his attitude after BaoBei's Boss gave him a scolding plus warning. You might think,"Strange..your BaoBei's Boss is not related to your workplace. How come he has that kinda power to change a person until like that?" Don't ask me. I also don't know how. I don't know what he did to make things the way they are now. But seriously, I am quite thankful to him and appreciate that he has stand up for me even though it is not related to his workplace. Now my Manager doesn't even dare to raise his voice at me for now. BaoBei claim that his Boss has settled it for me. I don't know how. I tell you what happened on Monday:

BaoBei claim that his Boss's friend has scolded my Manager over the phone on Thurs or Sat? He gave a serious warning to him. After that he said this,"You very sak right?! Dare to challenge other people's girlfriend to fight right?! If you are a true gentlemen, don't fight with girl! You like to fight right?! Come out and fight with me lah!!!" After that, the threat came..but this, I cannot state it here. In case my blog is public. Then, BaoBei's boss went to the restaurant to look for my Boss. He briefly said what did my Manager do to me and he demand an explanation from them itself. But I don't know who is handling him at that time cos the restaurant has two bosses.

When I heard that from BaoBei, initially I dare not go to my workplace. I scared that I will be in trouble lah! Then I take my tinnie winnie bit of courage to go to work. I expected, if the incident was true, I will either get a very big scolding plus challenging again, or sack on the spot. But none of what I feared has happened? It is as if nothing has been happen before except that his attitude shown improvement. When I went to work, my Manager was quietly sitting in a corner doing things. Which he normally wouldn't. I was very surprise but didn't said a thing except to ask my colleagues how's his mood?

Things are so far so good. I can only say I like the way things are now. BaoBei says that now he dare not anyhow raise his voice at me cos he knows who I mix around with now. If he mess with me, he is messing the person who is behind me - BaoBei's Boss. Don't know how true is that?

I will end here for now. I really thank BaoBei's Boss for standing up for me and he has really been a great help to my situation.

Chee Bye Manager!!!!

To all of you workers out there(if you are reading my blog right now): Have you ever been challenged by YOUR MANAGER or SUPERIOR to a fight before in your life? If you have, count yourself SWAY! If you didn't, lucky you! At least your superior or Manager is still a HUMAN BEING. I tell you my side of the story. It happened only on Friday:

I was working as usual. But because during lunch time, the crowd was a "slow crowd" as I could describe it. So there are less trays for me to collect and even lesser plates and bowls for me to collect to wash. I walk with my USUAL PACE at work. During some time, one of my big boss came to tuck shop for a meal. I still do my work as usual until my stupid Manager said,"Walk slowly hor! You walk too fast le!" On the outside, it may seem like he was "suan-ing" me but deep inside my heart I know he is criticizing my work! Never mind.

After that, when my Boss goes off. My manager said to me,"You don't know I was suaning you meh?" I said,"I know! So?" he said,"So?! Still walk so slow!" I told him,"I WALK LIKE THAT AS USUAL EVERYDAY AND YOU DIDN'T SAID A THING! TODAY BOSS CAME THEN YOU SAY THIS KINDA THING! YOU ARE VERY BO LIAO LEH!!!" He then said,"Why?! You are not happy that I tick you off huh?! Am I wrong in saying you?!" I then said nothing and stared at him. He then said,"Not happy then call your boyfriend down to fight with me lah!!" I am still staring at him but in my mind I was thinking,"Na beh! What has it got to do with my boyfriend huh?! What I do wrong is my own business!!! WHY DRAG MY BOYFRIEND IN?!" He then said,"What?! Stare?! Stare somemore?! What?! Not happy?! Not happy go outside 1 to 1 lah?! Scared you!? Not happy then you can go home now!" I then said,"I did not say that I am not happy. Everything is YOU who said it" he said,"You didn't say it but you are thinking it!" I told him,"Anything you say lah! It's YOU who assume I am not happy!" He then said,"Argue?! Argue some more lah! You stand here for 5 minute and reflect on WHAT you did wrong!" I do as what he told. But then...apart from that I am walking slow, WHAT ELSE DID I DO WRONG? Nothing right?! I don't know what is he thinking..I ask all of you lah..CAN A MANAGER said these kinda gangsterlism words? Can a manager challenge worker to fight? By right, I can report him as threat to the police but because only I am the one who knows what is going on at that point of time and I have no solid evidence against him, he can turn tables around to say that I provoke him to say that stuff or whatever shit. Cos only the both of us know. None of my colleagues knew that my Manager DID challenge me!

When BaoBei learns about this, he was very angry and feel like going down to fight. But I told him not to. Don't need to fight with this childish person! I said childish is because, my Manager is already 30+ yr old guy. Yet he is saying the things and words that a rebellious teenger would have said. The words that he use on me, was what I would have said when I was FOURTEEN and FIFTEEN years old in Secondary School. After I grad from ITE, I no longer said these words until today. I am an adult. I knew the concequences of fighting. No matter who is right or wrong, in the eyes of the law, anyone who fights, violates a crime of rioting and can be sentence to jail. No matter who started the fight first. I am not stupid as to fight with a 30+ yr old guy with a 14-15 yr old gangster mindset! He still thinks he is in school whereby fighting only gets a public caning or see principal that kind? Siao!

BaoBei has told his Boss at his workplace. I don't know what will happen next? But seriously, I don't think it is of any use. Cos this happens only at my workplace and happens only between me and my Manager. But his Boss claim that he could make someone lose his/her position within one day at their workplace. I don't know how true is that? I could now only silently wish that my Manager could be gone from my workplace soon!!!

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I couldn't sleep well these two days. Was having a very high fever the day before but I still went for work. Imagine coughing non-stop, shivering and having fever at 5.10am in the morning. After that I take medicine and went to sleep for a few more hours before going to work. Supervisor then detained me until 5pm.

Went to buy some medicine before heading to BaoBei's home. I didn't went home because I had a triff with my Mum. While at BaoBei's place, his Mum said,"Why she don't go to her own house?! Always come to your place?!" BaoBei didn't fight for me. Some kinda guy!!! Don't know who is the one who wanted me to go over to his place ON WEEKENDS. Although this time I am the one who wanted to put up at his place, but he didn't even said a word for me! Some times I don't know whether I had pick the wrong guy to be my boyfriend! When he is sick, I took care of him. But when I am sick, he did not take care of me! I remember there was one time, I was starting to get fever and my head was getting dizzy. His place did not have any medicine. You know what? He expect me to go all the way down to get myself a medicine. I almost fainted on the way back cos I couldn't see my surroundings clearly. Did he know? He doesn't!

Actually, sometimes, I feel that I am a fool! He is not the only one who did that. Imagine this: I had an ex-boyfriend, when he was sick, he expects me to go to his house to take care of him. When I WAS SICK, he still expects me to GO TO HIS HOUSE so that he could take care of me. I don't know whether to laugh or to cry.

BaoBei's Birthday

Went for K-Box at Marina Square to celebrate BaoBei's birthday yesterday. BaoBei says it was his most happiest day in his whole 23 yrs of his life. I only ate a little of the K-Box buffet that day. Took a lot of pictures and everyone was having fun.

BaoBei's birthday at K-box

BaoBei and ALL of his Delta Secondary School mates


Peace!

4n1 friends

5n1 friends

Group picture

BaoBei's female friends

*Kisses* BaoBei so 幸福!

BaoBei's Delta Sec Sch friends

BaoBei's male friends

Candide shot!

Act cute

Had a very long and fun day that day. Went for a few drinks after K-box. I am glad that BaoBei is happy that day.

Being my own self once again~

For the first time in my life, I have lost more than 1 friend. Or should I say friends?. .Because of that woman again! Yesterday, she called BaoBei wanted to talk to him about something which I don't know what...I then SMS her,"After scolding and shouting at people, u still have the cheek to call people to talk?!" She showed BaoBei this SMS and then she herself called BaoBei TO SHOUT AT HIS EAR! Very funny right? Bo Bian, "A" level student is like that mah. What to do?

I then SMS Esther to ask her why did she lied to me? I think she is with that woman at that point of time because she SMS me this,"She not scared le" what does she mean by that? I then said since she want to be with turtle, then from now on, no need to ask me out or whatever. She said that I am being childish. I don't know in others mindset but I am thinking, since me and Turtle are now enemies, and I don't like what she have said, that she has hurt me so deeply, and our arguements and our way of seeing things are never-ending and can never be understood, Esther and BaoBei are the ones that caught in the middle, in order to let this to end, I might as well give up so many years of friendship with Esther. Since she chooses Turtle as friend and I cannot get along with her well, sorry, I have no choice but to give up the years of our friendship.

I think I would rather be alone from now on. I don't like friends. People often say,"Strangers are friends who have not met" but now, I don't think so. Turtle used to be a stranger. After knowing her NOT even for a year, she can help destroy everything I have had by assuming things, and by being smart Alec.

I think I am being wrong by listening to what my teachers used to tell me. I just be how I used to be. Maybe, by being alone, I will be much more happier.

Celebration at "Lunar" club

Went to Lunar club yesterday to celebrate YanLing's birthday. I heard that it's a new club and went in for the first time yesterday. It's a upper high class of "KBox"

Part of our KTV room. It's the 3rd biggest room in the whole KTV

Yanling's Birthday cake

Inside of our KTV room. Can't really see the big room cos of the dim lighting effects.

Upper floor of the bar...sorry for the blur image cos I was rushing to take this picture while walking off

Entrance of Lunar club. I take this shot secretly cos the Bouncers are watching...

Yanling's Sunflower. I think her husband gave this to her

Our group picture. Of course we are not the only friends around

Our costume play - Funny!

Went back home after that. Had a very fun day but also BaoBei is not happy with her friends there that day cos he finds them very sarcastic. Heard that the cost of the room is not cheap! Like $2000+ to $3000 just for the room itself! Recently I also added two new guy friends to my msn. When BaoBei saw it, he was not very happy. I don't know why. Will end here for now. Blog again some other time.

Quarrel with BaoBei + Idiot Bitch!!! = Haiz...Give up everything bah..and just be my old self once again

Went to stay at BaoBei's place as usual. But this time, something was very different. Quarrel with BaoBei all because of that stupid woman!!!(Turtle aka MeiFong!) Just because she is ONE year older than us, so what?! Very big ah?! BaoBei keep saying that she was not in the wrong. I was thinking,"Okay lor! Since you wanna side THAT WOMAN, then no choice lor! I sometimes wonder THAT WOMAN is your gf or I am your gf?!"

Met Esther on Thursday because I work half day that day. And then.....I saw THAT WOMAN with her!!! I gave -_-" expression and Esther was like,"Are you okay? U don't mind I ask her out right? I thought you guys are okay le since this was so long ago?" Hello?! I will never ever forget what she said!!! And how she TWIST my words to BaoBei...Li hai! Very li hai! This person is more "cleverer" than a "A" level student! Until now, Turtle STILL don't know what she did wrong that I am so pissed off(I guess that is the most gentleness word for "Du lan"?). She can still SHOUT AT ME on my face that day,"What?! I know you are still angry about what I said about your job right?!" You imagine this scenario: She shout at me IN FRONT OF EVERYONE AT TAKASHIMAYA SHOPPING CENTRE that day! The day that WHAT she told me on phone at my workplace, I am already very angry. Then, I am MORE ANGRY when she go twist my words to BaoBei(which until now BaoBei still sides her). The most part, I am angry about this WHOLE incident, is that, right after this incident, I think...a day after? Turtle SMS BaoBei saying that she knows why BaoBei don't pick up her calls and don't reply her SMS. Is because of me. I am already 80% HOT when she said that! WHY?! Hello?! YenHao is YOUR BOYFRIEND or MINE?! Why?! He must 24-hour standby for YOUR SMS and PHONE CALLS?! Then I SMS her back to tell her NOT TO ASSUME THINGS! Since she likes to assume things so much, then I let her be! She then SMS BaoBei the SMS that I sent her and I got scolding from BaoBei and that is when he said this,"Don't poke your nose into our business can?! This is between me and her! So you don't be a busybody and SMS her on my behalf!" READ and RE-READ this sentence that BaoBei told me on the phone when I was on the way to his place. To a couple, in between a mutual friend, you go think about it what is wrong with this sentence and try figure it out WHY I am 100% angry that time! At that point of time I was thinking this in my head,"Into OUR business??? Between YOU and HER?! So you are saying that I am the third party? Or you are saying both of you are couples and I am just an outsider? Or that SHE IS YOUR GIRLFRIEND lah?"

At this point of time, my mind is total blank. All I could think in my head was this two words,"B-R-E-A-K U-P" But then again if Esther came to know about it, she will talk me out of breaking up. Which she already did once. So what BaoBei is rare breed? So what he is gentle? So what if he is....(Fill in your own words or impression of him) If he SIDES ANOTHER woman or women instead of his own gf, something must be wrong. Okay...assume that I really did something wrong that he feels that the other party is right but....I am a person who is extremely sensitive to WORDS! That is why, English dictionary have this sentence called,"MIND YOUR WORDS".

After quarrelling with BaoBei, when I want to walk out of his room door, he suddenly hug me very tight. Part of me feel like slapping him, kicking him, punching him etc, ANYTHING but to hug him back. But it was his hug that also made me feel at least a little bit better. S.H.E's song was right,"他还不懂" it sings about a guy she met in Korea, but that guy doesn't know what a girl really wants. Somewhere in the lyrics, she sings,"他还不懂，永远不懂，一个拥抱能代替。。(shou you)

But then, somehow I know...the feeling that I used to have towards BaoBei can never be the same again. I still love him but.......the kind of love is not the same anymore. I don't know how to explain what I am feeling now. Just that everything seems to go wrong. If I have to share BaoBei with another woman, I rather leave BaoBei. Some times, single is really better than attach. At least, problems that occur might not be so much and will not have such a big impact.

I will end here for now. Just blog to vent my anger and thinking. No one knows what I am thinking now. I wonder is that good or is that bad?

Thoughts about life, money, BaoBei....

I have been reading a book - Rich Dad's guide to financial freedom. It's more of a financial book about Investment, what's a good investment and bad investment etc. I then realize after reading half of the pages of the book, that I was and still am a fool in money!!! I am forever stuck in the E column. Those who read the book will understand what I meant. The book has 4 columns, E, S, B and I. E stands for Employee - People who work for money(Before you think,"Who doesn't?" Ah huh! That is the problem of people's mindset) S is for Self-Employed which is a category I wish to venture into if I really have the capital. These two are the left side of the money "game". These people work hard for money but ultimately in the end, whether they earn or lose, they will only find out only when they are face to face with death itself. But usually, for people like me, it's a sure lose situation. It's like you know 4D and Toto..you know chances of striking is either 1/10 or 50/50 yet you still throw like what? $100 a day or $2000 a week buying 4D or Toto NOT knowing whether you will win or not? In the end, if you never ever strike, you will lose all of your money that you buy that stupid ticket. But for S itself, it's not that they'll lose out forever. If they know how to go from S to I or S to B, they will someday become really rich. Provide if they are smart enough to know how to do "I" and how to run a "B".

After meeting Li Lian, I feel very down about life. I am really tired of living(Seriously). But Li Yi's advice was...something that says if I am tired, I should take a rest and then move on or something like that in an email. But the problem is, I tend to think a lot on things and on the future. I am constantly worried and fight for money. Recently, I met an old Uncle at my workplace. I pour my problems to him. This is his advice, see if you get what he meant: 钱来不要推, 钱走不要追!

He says from the day we were born, our destiny and fate has been determined by God himself. It is impossible for us to change our destiny and fate. I don't fully agree with his sentence, because I chose to believe in one thing, YOU can shape your own destiny and fate, by the LIFE CHOICES that you made in each phases of your life. I have made many, if not, a lot of WRONG choices in my younger life, now, I have nothing but to live in regret and a lot of,"What if I had done this? What if I have not done that? Would it make a lot of difference?"

My Mum walk by and saw me alone, she ask me questions about BaoBei. I knew it that she would definitely look down on him as she did to all my other exs. Because of one factor. I used to think that it's not important. The most important is a guy's heart and faithfulness but.....now as I grow up, I have learn some lessons the hard way...by my eyes and by my ears. Some times, by knowledge of other sources. After that, I realize one thing: Love really cannot survive in this world but money can. Though money can't buy true love, but you cannot deny that love itself has a lot of heartache. This is what I experience recently.

I have been thinking, since BaoBei likes to support that woman, I might as well let them be together. Though she don't like BaoBei and BaoBei have no emotional feelings towards her, but can someone explain to me this situation:

A and B are couple for 2 years. They met C through mutual friends. A and C used to get along well with each other, only have small quarrel occasionally but everything will be fine the next day or so that kind. Until one day, C said something that hurt A very much. A went to confide in B as usual every time A and C fights. Usually C will said things that are very sarcastic. BUT here is the problem:

Instead of comforting A as a boyfriend should, B instead, turn the tables around and make it seems as if A is in the wrong. On top of that, A realize something that B and her rest of her friend NEVER EVER notice. Whenever A and C argue or quarrel, B will always side C without fail no matter what situation. This time, A see the whole picture. Though they do not like each other but....something seems to be amiss whenever A quarrelled....and B, will never ever see her point of view.

End of story, although like I said, they are not together but since B as a boyfriend, always sides that other girl instead of his own girlfriend, doesn't that make her a indirect "3rd party"? I don't know what will you think?

I am very disappointed, very sad, I don't wish to hear, don't wish to see, don't wish to think and don't wish to know. Everything I do is wrong. No matter what....

Met Esther on Friday. I met her cos I knock off very early and since I haven't seen her for a long time, I decided to meet her. She has permed her hair...I am not used to it initially but now after some time, I felt it looks okay on her. Then.......I saw SOMEONE with her whom I do not wish to see...but is okay. She is entitled to be whomever she wishes to be. She said she thought that things have past so just forget it. Hello? Okay...I am petty! Okay?! I will never ever forget what she said. Everyone says she doesn't mean it or whatever shit! Or her pattern is like that blah blah blah. I know! But at the same time, I am doing this - MY ATTITUDE PROBLEM to let her see, that NOT EVERYONE can accept for her straight-forwardness especially NOT combined with her sarcastic remarks!!! NOT EVERYONE CAN ACCEPT!!! She likes who she is, that's her problem. If she thinks that WORDS DON'T KILL, I want to proof her wrong!!! She doesn't know who HuiYi is..she doesn't know why friendships on my side break very often!!! Because of one simple reason: THE WORDS YOU USE! Okay...since she doesn't know my example, how about Ivan's example?! What did she SAY to PISS IVAN OFF?! So Esther, you still think she doesn't mean it? You still think that WORDS DON'T KILL? Go and analyze and think about it. Or you experience the HURT you feel when you are with her and the WORDS she used on you, then you come and tell me again.

I will end here for now. Will blog again some other time.

Scary + thoughts about life + Outing with Wei Da

I don't know when is it exactly, that Adi thought of me as more than a friend. He is only a colleague outside of my workplace. He works as a technician at Standard Chartered Bank. Usually when I walk by, he will just smile at me or wave at him for greeting. As the months went by, we slowly started to chat with each other. Only recently, he start behaving rather strangely. At first I thought that maybe he like to crack jokes and joking around but later on, one incident made me realize that he may not be joking after all. Maybe because I am a wordy person, so whatever that he express towards me with his words, scares me. There was one time, when I went out with him alone, he said something that really scares me,"What if one day we became more than friends"? I told him that it would not happen because I already had a boyfriend and we planned to get married. He wish me all the best but then he said again,"If choi lah! One day if you and your boyfriend break, you tell me ah?" After chit-chat for certain minutes, although on the outside, he seems to be like a gentleman and respect me, but the things he said, made me really scared of him. I don't mind being his friend but at the same time I do not wish to mislead him that I accept what he says. I don't know how to express myself in a way that tells him,"Sorry, I only treat you as a friend. I already had a boyfriend whom I love very much and it is impossible that we will be together". Ride a motorbike for the very first time. Very scary lah!!!! I don't know how the hell can HuiYi used to ride a motorbike till she told me that when she take bus, she said she is not used to it. KNS!!! REALLY SCARY LAH!!!!

On the way to meet BaoBei's friends yesterday, a lot of thoughts went through my mind. Before that, BaoBei's Mum keep on nagging at me and said to me a lot of things that made me feel very stress. I am already stress up at work, by my parents and friends plus a lot of things!!!! Why can't she just give me a break? Everything that BaoBei do or NOT do, I will always be the one who is at the receiving end of her scoldings and hurtful words! Sometimes I am very tired about life, about my family, about what BaoBei do and everything. From young until now, I have been seriously reflecting about my life and what I really want? Some times, I just want to fly out of Singapore and stay at a foreign country and maybe lived there alone. Some times, I just wanted to end my life to end everything once and for all. There was a time, MingWei's MSN extension nick type this,"Suicide is a PERMANENT solution to a TEMPORARY problem" I really wish to type this in my extension nick but I don't know if Lorraine will scold me,"Suicide is a PERMANENT and ONLY solution to a ON-GOING problem" I don't know how long I can be with BaoBei. I had told him one day,"If ever I leave you one day, either it is because you have done something wrong that hurt me deeply or it is plainly because I can't stand of your Mum anymore!" I can't see myself getting along with her even before marriage. What makes him think that I could ever get along with her after marriage. She may sound simple that she hate me becuase I didn't do housework, but I know myself too well, that there is more to it than meets the eye. I am really very tired..not only physically. If anyone knows what I meant.

Went out with Wei Da, Zhen Ni, Zhen Ni's boyfriend, Ah long and a girl whom I had never seen before but I don't bother to ask about her for intro. Her legs are slimmer than me!!! KNS! Went to esplanade to eat Xiao Peng's food. He sells western food and the price is really cheap compared to Anson's or any other western stall and it is value for money. Li Yi, next time if we had the chance, I will bring you there to try his food. If you are into pasta and meat. It is not very expensive but it is outdoor kind of enviroment. His most expensive dish is $14.90 I think?

This is the steak that Xiao Pang cook. Price is $11.90

After that they went to play pool and I sit there to play with PSP. I don't know how to play pool. We then went home after that...

Money Woes + Stupid me!!!!!

I really regret signing up for the Yoga thing. Maybe I didn't really read their contract thoroughly and now I have to face with money problems. It's my own carelessness fault. I can't terminate the contract until 2 years is up. KNS! I can only suspend my membership. But then again, if suspend, I will still have to pay $24+++ per month. BaoBei says he felt that suspend is better than I pay $100+ when I didn't attend any of the classes. The problem is, I do not know, for suspend cases, will it end as according to the date or it will extend the date for me for the termination? I have having a lot of stress. Friday I will work from 8am - 2pm. I will have to go down personally to sign some stupid paper for suspension. If let's say that for suspension, they will suspend until I am ok with it, then BaoBei ask me to suspend all the way if I wanted to, until my membership is due to expire. I felt like terminating soon but I do not know how much will I have to pay in penalty? If it is a few hundred dollars, I don't mind(Not that I am rich or whatever) but you see, my membership is $105+++ per mth. If they allow me to terminate but must pay them a few hundred, is ok cos even if I go for classes, I still must pay hundreds of dollars per mth. The problem is I am afraid that it is a few thousands! One thing is not worth of the money. Second thing is I pay for my stupidity! Haiz....stress....

The other thing is I just realize I lost Li Yi no. -_-" Cos the other day I wanted to SMS her something but end up in the end, the person on my contact list as "Li Yi" SMS me saying that she is "Li Ping"(My pri sch friend) I am very scared and at the same time feel like beating myself up. It's not very private message but still I feel very pai seh! Good lor! Sway lor! Now I lost Li Yi's no. Must wait for her to tag at my tag board again. -_-" Cos the other day BaoBei and me went to this restaurant at Vivocity. The ambiance is very good and the food was superb! Er...the price is of course..very "beautiful" lah(if you know what I mean) it's sort of like buffet style. But then again, apart from the buffet, it serves mainly meat kind of food which I don't know if Li Yi would like it? The chef put directly on your plate!!!

My plate after I ordered beef, mutton, chicken etc

"Carnivore" is the restaurant name. These are the tabs on the table. Red means you don't want anymore food and when the chef sees that, he won't put anymore food on your plate. Green means you still need food and the chef will ask if you want the food to be put on your plate?

This is the first time BaoBei bring me to a Brazilian restaurant to have dinner! Although I have to pay half of the bill, but still I feel very happy and touched that he plan something like this for me out of the blue. It's just that I don't know how to say it to him.

Li Yi, if you want to dine with us at this restaurant, you just have to save about $50 - $100 then next time we will bring you there to eat okay? Ya I know it is not cheap. If you are a meat lover, I can promise you that the food there is really worth the money. I will end here for now. Li Yi, sorry to have lost your number. Maybe you can SMS me or call me with your number again? I am sorry.