Prayer To God

Yesterday night, I couldn't really sleep. I then went to my room and pray to God and pray for the Holy Spirit to guide me as I felt that my life was in a mess and everyone has been ignoring me for the past few days. There was a time when I was about to go for work, I felt a very strong presence of the Holy Spirit. I felt that He was trying to tell me something but I do not know what is His message. I then ignore it and never seek for Him for His message.

After that, my days has been going quite badly. It seems that almost everyone, is giving me the cold shoulders lately. I do not really know what is going on and I do not know what have I done wrong?

When I prayed yesterday night, it was the very first time that I cried in my mist of praying. Yeh! Finally I could cry! But still I do not know how to address my problems to God. I felt the Holy Spirit presence but somehow, He did not come near me. I felt that He kept a distance from me and I do not know why. The first time I ask him to lead me in my prayer, his presence is still far away from me. It was only the second time I tried asking Him to guide me in my prayer to God, then I felt his presence beside me but somehow I could sense that He was not happy. What exactly did I done wrong?

After the prayer, I then felt a sense of comfort over me. I then remembered my god-brother once told me,"The Holy Spirit is our comforter!"I then told the Holy Spirit to show me some obvious signs to tell me what have I done wrong that He was so upset with me and show me what have I done that everyone is giving me the cold shoulder? I felt very sad.

After work today, I went to look for Nor and pretend to be happy infront of her. But somehow she sense it and ask,"Eh why you so quiet today ah? You don't seems to be happy leh". I told told her,"No lah, nothing lah" and gave her a fake smile. She then look at me with doubt and ask,"Sure ah?"I then nod my head and she carry on doing her work.

After that I help her for awhile before I finally went home.