Anger subside

On Saturday, I went to service a little late as I am working in the clinic. The doctor then told me my schedule for the next two weeks. Wah! The first week of the schedule that she gave me, I only work for few hours! But for the second week it will be more "siong" as I have to work from morning to night.

I am still very scared of the computer system as I don't really know how to use it. Maybe I can master it as time goes by. I only have 3 months to learn everything. After work, I rush back home to change my clothes before going for service.

After service, I then went to fellowship with Nicholas, Melissa(by the way, a male singer look like Melissa!), YueMing, Jonathan and Anita. MingYing and some of them came to join us later. Wah! Anita sure knows how to eat! When we went to the food centre at Bedok to eat, we ordered our food and Anita ordered a big watermelon with alot of fruits in it. YueMing and Anita "fight" for the white color agar-agar. After that we ordered some chicken wings. I was very full by then but Anita said,"Still not enough leh..oei..go and order some more want or not?"I then stare at her with big eyes and said,"Huh?! I give up..you want to order you order yourself..count me out!" After that I went to meet HuiYi as I SMS her something that made her want to see me urgently.

I then suggest to meet at TBP as I am meeting my friends there(It is also quite near her home). She was late so I went to meet my friends at McDonald's first. After that my god-brother came and I was not very happy to see him initially. I keep staring at him while he chat with my friends as if like nothing had happened. Sometimes I really dislike him cos he likes to play pretentious(That is how I feel). Shortly after, I receive a call from my hp and I rush out quickly without informing my friends. I then meet HuiYi at the control station and we sat down somewhere to talk. She always seems to know the right words to say to me and encourage me not to backslide. I can see that she worry for me alot. She then said something about Easter service and the message I am sending to God if I ever backslide. When I heard that, I was very upset and confuse. I wanted to cry but I couldn't. I told her that I am very lost and don't know what to do after she said that. I can't backslide, neither I can stay in church. She ask me to give the cell group one more try and ask me to raise my problems to Brother Tony. Haha! If he really understands my situation, he won't say such a thing to me! Felt very stress and pressured! One more time he say that to me again, sorry HuiYi...but I can't take it! I will try and speak to him when I manage to get his attention and see what he says.

I then went back to my friends and stare at my god-brother. Esther then suggest to play "Bingo" game and I finally manage to win once! Hahaha! BINGO! But still I lost in the game as the rounds goes by. KNS! At certain rounds, I almost win! Just by one number! Haiz..but we had fun anyway. We then went to Tiong Bahru park to play for awhile. It was getting quite hot(or maybe because I was wearing white long sleeve shirt) I then took off my sleeve shirt and get some teasing whistles from my friends. Really very hot leh! Haiz...regret wearing that shirt. After that they then play their games while I sit on a swing and thinking alot of things.

After that we then went to 7-11 and buy some Volka to drink. Esther said she toast for me leaving the old job and manage to find a new job. She wish me luck for my new job. After that I went to buy another bottle and drink it half-way and I was feeling very sleepy(By the way, Alcohol drinks can make me sleepy at times). I then told them I went to the ladies and my god-brother lead the way. After that, we then sat down at BK to talk. I said to him impatiently(cos I was still angry with him),"What is it?! Say!" He then explain to me that he don't know that what he said has hurt me alot and apologise to me. He said that he don't have the heart to fulfil what he has said. I told him that I will forgive him about the matter but I will never forget what he has said that hurt me alot until now. We then talk it out on our problems but I don't know if he really understands what I have said.

After that we the rejoin our friends and chat for awhile before we went home...