Cell group thingy

On Friday, I met YueMing at AMK for Bible Study and after that we went for cell group. There are alot of things that Brother Tony preach that day, most of it I felt that he is talking about me(or that I am too sensitive?). After the whole thing, the rest went for fellowship and eating at a table. While Brother Tony talk to me about what I SMSed him last week. The things that he told me left me quite confuse. I had discuss it with YueMing earlier and she gave me a brief history of W117 before I joined in. I used to be from W99 but that cell group is no longer there after I had left some years ago. I miss alot of sisters from that cell group.

After that I went to meet JiaXin and Esther. I had told them beforehand that I wanted to go back home at 3am as I have to work tomorrow morning at 9.30am. But my request has fallen to deaf ears! There are times I felt that Jia Xin is being inconsiderate for others. Last time when Esther has to work on morning shift, the same thing happens. She only let Esther go after dawn or sometimes until 4 or 5am in the morning and Esther only get a few hours of sleep(I wonder if that is enough rest for her?) But because Esther is those soft-hearted kinda person, she always said,"Ai ya, never mind lah. 1 week once only". Esther, I know that you care about us friends alot. But sometimes, you got to think for yourself especially if you are working morning shift the next day and you had to accompany us! While walking on the way, JiaXin said something that made me very angry with her! I felt like punching her face!!! But because Esther is there so I felt that it is not so nice to create a scene infront of her. So I just keep quiet but I comment something sarcastically to her.

I then reach home at 7.30am and sleep for 30 minutes before I went to work. Luckily Dr.W only give me the easy jobs to do so I don't need much concentration. I then went for service and sleep while Pastor was talking half-way. Sorry guys but I am really very tired and not enough sleep. I guess I am getting old. No more energy level. I know I am being quite rude. But I didn't mean it. After that I request YueMing to give me BS. And after that, she complaint to me that I sleep half-way through BS. I can tell that she is not very happy with it. :'( but she advise me to prioritise my time and the importance accordingly. I understand what she meant. Si Jia Xing! Next time if you wanna leave home or whatever, DON'T CALL ME! And don't drag your poor friends to suffer with you!!! I TOLD YOU THAT I HAD TO WORK AT 9.00AM IN THE MORNING AND HAD TO ATTEND SERVICE THE VERY NEXT DAY!!! WHICH PART OF THIS SENTENCE YOU DUN UNDERSTAND?! *******!!! I CANNOT GET TO STAY UP SO LATE AT NIGHT TO BE WITH YOU ALL LIKE LAST TIME!!!!!! I NO LONGER WORK IN THE AFTERNOON SHIFT!!!!! WHEN ESTHER WORK IN THE MORNING SHIFT, YOU DIE-DIE ALSO DUN WANNA LET HER GO HOME AND REST?! WHAT KINDA FRIEND ARE YOU?! ESTHER DON'T MIND BUT I MIND!!!! YOU LIKE YOUR OWN WAY OF TIMING, IT'S YOUR BUSINESS!!! MY TIMING HAS CHANGED!!!! SINCE YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND THEN YOU JOLLY WELL DON'T CALL ME OUT NEXT TIME!!!!!

After that I went to fellowship with MingYing only. As some had the attend BS and as for the rest, I don't know where they gone to. After that on the way home, MingYing told me something that surprise me. She also share with me things that made me very heart-broken. But I was thinking,"So that was it?! KNS!" Felt so stupid of being used!!! I don't wish to mention who was it but that person made me very upset. Why am I so stupid?! After that I bid MingYing goodbye and went home to catch a very long sleep.