Messy

Yesterday morning was my first day in my new workplace. I came quite early as the Doctor told me to be there 15 minutes before 10am. When I reach there, no one was there to open the door. A girl then came at 10.05am to open to front and back door. After that she made me stood for about 10 minutes before Dr.W gave me a big stack of files for me to read through. Wah! So many things to memorize! Can die man! I think my brain function is dead le. Haiz...must remind Dr.C about things somemore! No different from a secretary -_-"

The girl then showed me where the patient's appointment cards are kept and I must locate it by number and she showed me how to register and search for the patient's Data and where to put the card after the patient has left. She also show me how to key in the documents that the doctor state. Strangely enough, she never showed me where the medicines are kept -_-". Dr.W then ask her to let me sit by the computer and let me explore the computer?! Wah! I dare not really explore it as I scared that I might press anything that accidently delete the patient's data. No no no..I wait for them to teach me how to use.

My first day end with a breeze. But at the end of the day, I realize that I forgot to take the small piece of paper that Dr.C has wrote for me about the procedures for NETS and Credit Card transections(Cos there is different procedures for different cards). Oh no! Haiz..I just hope that when I go back in the morning, the small piece of paper is still there *pray hard*

I then knock off at 12pm and went to work at Harbour front. Wah! Time really flies fast for today. On the way, I keep worrying on alot of things. Mostly money problems and I miss someone really badly. Don't know when can I get to see her again?(Those who know who she is, keep it to yourself). Around the afternoon when I went to check my handphone, I got alot of miss calls from alot of Agencies. KNS! When I waited for an answer from you all(I waited for close to a month!), I didn't get a single reply from any of the Angencies! Now that I finally so-called "got" a "job", all of you gave me replies all at the same time! What is this man?! Really KNS!

Ya Cin then ask where I am working and when I told her, she said,"Huh?! You sure you can do it or not? Here you already blur like sotong! How can you handle there?" I didn't answer her but in my mind, I answered her,"By God's Grace and by the strength and wisdom that God gave me and hopefully He could guide me through it all". Cos I know in my heart that any job that I have got, it is not by myself and not by my own source. They are all sent by Him. Of course, I must really thank all the people who help me to look for jobs. Especially YueMing and Brother Tony. Thank you! and Thanks a trillion for all the troubles that you've made to help me. I really appreciate it :)

Ya Cin then ask me to reason why am I leaving? After I told her what I have kept in my heart for so long, she still side that *****! I know lah, you all are friends mah! Friends will definitely help each other de! I find it very difficult to forgive her for that! Maybe someday I will forgive her but not now. I also find it extreamely difficult to forgive somebody for hurting me..sorry Father, sorry Holy Spirit, sorry YueMing, but for now, I couldn't find the strength to forgive. Maybe someday, I will forgive them but sad to say, I will never forget! Especially if the incident has cause so much hurt in my heart!

The day before, YueMing called me to pray with me and she mention that she learnt alot of things though people and she said that she has also learnt to be more tactful with me and she have to pick her words and think through before saying anything to me as she is afraid that I might be unhappy(or whatever she mention that i forgot). When I heard that, somehow I felt quite unhappy cos I prefer people to be straight-forward to me. Like I said, I am a straight-forward person. But one thing I must agree with YueMing about what she said is that not many people could accept the way I am. Some could, some couldn't. But sad to say, I have poor judgments of people and that is why I always tend to get hurt.

I think I will end here for now. Will blog again some other time..