Tuesday, September 19, 2006

Finally can blog at office!

Yeh! Finally can do my blogging in the office. Cos for the previous weeks after I edit the format from my office computer, there are some icons of the blog I need, are not available in my office to help me with my blogging. Like text clour etc. But strangely it is available when I try to do blogging at home. So most of the time I could only do my blogging when I reach home. Well anyway...

Help!!!! I am going to be bored to death if it continues to go on like this! The project has actually finish le and the top managements are doing checking. Then never give me anything else to do. Sianz...Alex told me the other time that I should be feeling bliss that I could surf net in the office for the whole day. Some office working people don't get this bliss of worklife. Huh? Oei! At least they are WORKING okay? Not like me..have to fake a pretendence that I am working whenever my Manager pass by my work station. That kind of feeling sucks okay?! Imagine having nothing to do when you report to work everyday and yet have to act like you are working on something. I told Alex if I were to come to work to surf net, I might as well stay at home to surf..can play my computer games at home at the same time. He then said,"Wah! Eh! People paid to work while you are paid to surf net leh. Not good meh? How I wish I had your job!" -_-" Is that an encouragement or what?

Prayed to God yesterday and finally break my previous record of 15 minutes. Prayed for 20 minutes but never read the Bible as I was too tired and it is getting very late. Strangely, when I tried to speak in tongues, my tongues is not very normal! Meaning..I was not speaking in my "usual tongues"! My god-brother used to tell me that if the Holy Spirit really dwells in me, I will find that my tongues changes after some time. The Holy Spirit will give me a new tongues to speak every now and then. I used to get very scared and feared the Holy Spirit for this but now I guess I am used to it. He said I shouldn't be fearing Holy Spirit for this as the Holy Spirit will get very upset and grieve if He knows that I am afraid of the new tongues. But I am really not used to be scare by Him like that mah. Don't worry. Now I am used to it even if I find myself speaking in new tongues cos to me it only meant that He really listens to what I am praying and help me convey certain prayers to the Father.

Brother Khai wants us to at least make an impact on others life within this week and ask us to be very spiritual. As I am not really a spiritual person, and had neglact God for the past few weeks, I used this one week to pray and try to draw closer to him instead. I tried to use the emotional map to pray to God but still I had miss some steps of the emotional map. I felt that it is as if Holy Spirit is saying to me,"I'm giving you one last chance and giving you one week to repent all your Sins". Somehow I could feel that He is greiving when He said this to me. During last week's marriage course, I then learnt how the Devil can use evil tactics to attack on our weak points to draw us further away from God. The Devil sure know what are my weakest points! KNS!

Thinking about what my Mum had said, In the midst of my prayer, I thank God for his protection for me. I could have been drag away by a few guys in that state easily but strangely no one drag me away. Or maybe because I am too ugly and too fat to be drag away. Haha! Either way, I am still thankful that I could reach home safe and sound at 3am in the morning. My Mum was very angry at me for this part and said to me,"Next time if you really want to drink, make sure there is someone else you can trust, to control your alcohol intake and to send you home! You're lucky nothing happens to you this time!" I heard my Mum scolding me,"Yao Si! Zher yang da dan yi ge ne hai zi yi ge ren qu he jiu!"(Wanna die! So bold a girl alone went drinking!)

I think I'll end here for now. Nothing else to blog le. Maybe I will blog again some other time.

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