Woke up in the morning about 8am and quickly rush to get ready to go for service. I think I did not hear the phone ring while I was in the showers and have 1 missed call from HuiYi. Usually when HuiYi calls me in the morning, it is either she is at church le or she is on her way to church. Either way, it is not a good news for me cos I am always late.
Took a cab to rush to Singapore Expo again and reach there at 9.30am sharp. Saw HuiYi around the middle row of the seats and I went to greet her. Put my bag down and went to Attributes to purchase a music CD sang by various singers. I bought the CD because only that CD had one song sang by Sun inside. The money that I purchase for the CD will be going towards the cancer foundation. It's not so bad. Imagine that I could listen to Sun's song and knowing that I could help to contribute to the cancer foundation at the same time :)
The topic for the day was,"How To Affair-Proof"your marriage? But somehow I really cannot catch the concept of it. The Pastor preach mostly about Sexual Temptation(A Sin that can really Kill me!)This is also another Sin that I find it very hard to break free from other than my drinking habit. But luckily, Pastor also preach on how to overcome sexual temptation. When Pastor speaks about Platonic Relationship, I felt extremely guilty of that Sin. It means to have romantic love and affection for someone who is not your spouse, but without the sex! Pastor says that if people misunderstands your relationship with an opposite sex, you have to watch yourself. So if I had a boyfriend and I had feelings for another guy who isn't my boyfriend, it is consider a sin? Haiz...hmm..erm..sad to say then I had Sin against God on this part cos I used to have this experience before. I really do not understand the reason why we cannot eat alone with a person of the opposite sex? I mean..it's just eating with a friend mah? Never mind, maybe someday I'll truly understand what do Pastor mean by this. None of my ex-bfs are Christians but I manage to get only one of my ex-bf to accept God into his heart. Sad to say, he has since back slided..I still blamed myself for his backsliding to this day. I had a feeling that he accept God and backslide later on, all because of me.
I had also learnt how communication is very important in relationship and why do unfulfilled emotions could lead to affairs happening in marriage. Now I understand it isn't easy for two people to be joined as one flesh. A lot of understanding, trust, communication, respect etc is needed to maintain a healthy relationship with your spouse. Now then I know why some opposite sex members always misunderstand me and my intentions. This course is really very beneficial to me!
After service, I went to fellowship with Lorraine, HuiYi, Samuel and WeiJing at Bedok Long John Silver. WeiJing and Samuel don't want to dine at fast food restaurant and prefer to dine in food courts or coffee shops instead. But gave in to us and dine with us eventually. While I was queuing, there's this group of boys irritate me by talking very loudly. I quickly order my food and left hurriedly. I really hate going to Bedok cos I am scared of bumping into one of my ex-bf there. Each time when I used to called him to ask him something, he will always irritate me saying,"You're calling me because you miss me right? You are willing to give me a chance for patching up with you right?"I thought that we could still remain as friends after break-up but I really find it extremely difficult to do so when he still has feelings for me and hopes for me to go back to him. I had change my mobile number because of some people including him. I don't wish to mislead him or giving him false hopes so I had changed my number, hoping that his disturbance would stop.
Initally was thinking whether to meet a guy I had met through friendster a few days ago. HuiYi ask me not to go as AMK had nothing fun there but only coffeeshops. The place there is also quite deserted. Lorraine then comment,"You have 3 hours to make a decision not to meet him"(Or something like that?). Esther then SMS me am I outside and wish to meet me to accompany her to meet a ex-colleague at Bishan. I was very relieve by her SMS. Since that guy never replied me when I request to meet at PS, I meet Esther to go out instead. After biding goodbye to the group, I went to tampines to buy some things there before going to CityHall to meet Esther.
Shop at Toa Payoh with Esther and went to Bishan to walk around. Spend quite alot of money on something..haiz..not careful with my expenses but nevermind. Eat with Esther at Pasta Mania and she still like to order her favourite Chicken Pasta while I order a new dish that is on promotion. She ordered a soft drink that is very cooling to drink. She then met her ex-colleague and they chat for a very long while. I wanted to interrupt her to ask whether I could window shop around whlie she chat with her friend but dare not do so. So I just keep quiet.
Don SMS me around that time, still insist me to meet him at AMK. When I ask if I could bring Esther along to meet him? As I do not want to "abandon" Esther alone. He then SMS me back,"Then we meet some other day ba..." Esther said the guy is very fishy and warn me to be very careful if I wanted to meet him alone. I told her that I won't abandon my friends anymore..unlike when I was in my secondary school daze. Cos I had realize the importance of friendship and friendship often last longer than love relationships. But maybe I had realize that a little bit too late.
We then went to TBP to play games and going to KFC to chat for a long time before heading home. Had a wonderful day enjoying my time with Esther that day! :D
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