On Friday after work, I went for a haircut near my place. I told the person that I wanted to trim my hair and change a new hairstyle cos some people keep asking me to cut my hair. The hair dresser then ask me whether I wanted to do rebonding and to color my hair? I said no cos the haircut already cost me $16 and I know very well that rebonding and hair-coloring is quite expensive!
After the haircut, I was not very satisfied with it! Ahhhh! My hair! *cry* I don't like the way I look now. When I reach home, when my parents saw me, both of them laugh and my Mum comment that I look more younger with my new hair cut. *cry* I told her that the new haircut look very "aunti" lor! She said I am not suitable for long hair as I look older than my age with long hair, and since I do not know what to do to maintain my long hair, it is better for me to cut it short.
*Cry* Still not happy leh! Around the evening, I went to meet my insurance agent and he tell me the new policy that I plan to take it up. Hmmm..don't know if I can be able to afford? After that I went to my old workplace to visit Ya Cin and she said I look better with long hair and the hair-dresser cut too short. She also said that I become much more fairer than when I was working there. Is it? I comment that maybe it's the whitening cream that she gave it to me the other time. I am still using it now and then.
Later at night I went to Boon Lay to meet the seller for the mp3 player that I order though the internet. Yeh! Have new mp3 player le! Although the earpiece is abit faulty but I think overall it is still okay. When I reach home, my Dad snatch the mp3 away from me to listen. I was very angry that NO ONE teach me how to use and yet he just snatch away like that and to listen on his own! Hello?! Who is the one who bought the mp3 huh?! He refuse it to give me back until I throw tantrums till my brother came to break us up. I know I am being impatient and hot-tempered lah, but hey! I wanted to explore it on my own okay?! So selfish and don't wanna teach me how to use and now you snatch it away from me to listen on your own!!! KNS!!!!
My brother then patiently teach me how to use the mp3 and how to explore the whole thing. Hmm...I am very sad that in this family, only my brother cares more for me! My parents don't seems to understand me and even accuse me at times! I really hate it! Bro told me the other time that maybe there are things in the past that has happen that made me such a person. That I have difficulity expressing myself in a nice manner. He wants me to forgive me parents but how could I when I have been treated unfairly!? I guess I am emotionally shut-down too.
Cry to sleep again at night and don't understand a lot of things. Why is only my brother being understanding and not my parents!? Feel so sad! I don't really understand especially since I am not so close to my brother and used to only share things with my Mum. Yet, my Mum doesn't seems to understand me more than my brother does! By the way, my brother and I seldom communicate okay? So it should be the other way round! My brother can't be much more understanding than my Mum! So disappointed and sad!
I think I have to end here. No mood to continue anymore. So disappointed that it is often the people who are CLOSEST TO ME, HURTS ME THE MOST! So now you guys know why I do not trust and no longer can open my problems so easily anymore face-to-face?
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