Blogging + Second Life + Relationship = Why do I keep missing out things?

Katherine and WenTing called me the other day to talk about my blog. I suddenly realize more and more people are reading my blog. Including people whom I do not know, like "Angel sent by God". Katherine said that most people who blog, only blog on the surface or general information of their lives. She said I am different. I will blog about almost anything and everything(even including scolding people on blog). She said this makes my blog stood out from the rest of the blogger in the blogging world. Hmm...In natural I am a very straight-forward person. But in real life, I am struggling to share my problems face to face. I prefer writing or blogging to vent whatever problems I have, even though I do not know WHO really reads my blog?

Log into Second Life(game) recently. I then saw my "God-mother" online and IM her. She was so excited when she sees me online, that she IM back the wrong person, whose nick also starts with "J". That person thinks she's crazy. Oh no! Sorry "Mummy". I then follow her to her newly renovated club, which by the way, I heard that the club is created because of me(or my Avatar). Initially there's a dress code to enter the club and entry to the club is strictly by invitation only. But because I did not online for so long(close to a month), everyone who is close to me in SL, shows concern and my God-mother renovated her pub into a beach resort just for me. When she showed me around the ex-pub-turned-into-beach place, I cried(in Real life). Some of the things she created for me, I don't even remember telling her. Like the sea horse, the fishes, the beach and a swing to watch the stars above the skies. She said she create all these just for me cos I told her before that I like sea horses but don't have the chance to see it in RL(which I don't remember telling her!). She said she sense that I am unhappy nowadays and I am no longer as bubbly and cheerful as before. The part that really made me cry in real life, is not only the things she created, but because she is so sharp that she say out what are the problems I am dealing in my heart and my real life. By the way, she is NOT a christian(or so I guess). She said that whatever problems I face, I can share it with the people in SL. I then told her,"SL life and RL life don't mix! And I don't wish to bring my RL problems into SL" but she told me is okay and that I could share with them if I really have difficulties sharing with RL people in my life. I was very touch by that. She said that in SL, although I can be anyone I like, but somehow I sub-consciously behave in a manner which I can never behave in RL. Through these months that she knew me in SL, she can really see the real inner-side of Juliet through the game. She said somehow or another, this inner Juliet has been hidden from the light of the Real world. She then encourage me to share my problems instead of putting a brave front and handle the problem alone in despair and silence. For a while, I cried because I thought of my CGMs, HuiYi, my friends who stick with me for so long and my BaoBei. I really appreciate and Thank you for the encouragement card that you wrote(whoever you are in CG) and Thanks Lorraine..for the words that you told me.

I then discuss with BaoBei the problems that we are facing in our relationship. Whether he really wants to quit?(if you know what I mean) He was silent for awhile before replying,"No, that is not what I really want and I don't want that to happen in our relationship. I just want your forgiveness and trust". HuiYi was super worried over this, that she ask me to call her to pray over it.

Went to a place(in SL game) and in that place, there was a table with Tarot cards on it. I then went to click on the big stack of cards and then open the small ones, one by one. The result is very negative but 90% accurate. The first two cards says that I am struggling with jobs in my life and I just lose a job(100% accurate!) the third card says that I will have a downfall and struggling with finance in my life(100% accurate!). The fourth card says that I will have troubles in my relationship and I may face separation with a loved one(90% accurate!) the last and final card says that all my troubles and woes will finally come to an end eventually(depends). I was shock! "Mummy" then says that at least the last card is a good one. Mummy then also play the Tarot cards followed by dnickb. Mummy's card is all about her job, she'll get a promotion and her career advanced, plus a love life is coming towards her way(she's single). She was quite happy. Nick's card is about friendship and work. He may lose a friendship with someone in life while work, he will also get career advancement. Haiz...why only my cards are the lousiest?!

I keep on wondering why am I keep missing out things? Like friend's birthday, friend's wedding day etc. Haiz....headache. I really wish I could finally keep up with those important dates. I think I will end here for now. Will blog again some other time.