Went to church on Sunday morning. Service was good but then the air-con was too cold! HuiYi's hand felt very cold throughout the time and she keep grabbing my left hand to keep herself warm. Towards to the end of the service, BaoBei told me that WenTing's hand felt very cold(When Pastor ask us to hold our neighbour's hand to pray). I then exchange place with him and tried to hold WenTing's hand but she was praying that time so I don't wish to disturb her. Later when she puts down her hand, I then grab her left hand. WAH! SO COLD!(But not as cold as HuiYi's hand). Tried to rub against her hand to give her warmth. Although I do not know whether that helps.
Went to BaoBei's place to have BBQ with HuiYi and Samuel. We were disappointed that most of the members could not turn up as it was too last minute thing. Quarrel with BaoBei about something which he promised me but didn't keep his word for it! Chee Yuan, Angie(and her bf), Anthea, Katherine and Stephanie came around the evening to join us. Didn't really fellowship with them much. HuiYi and Samuel went swimming but I couldn't join them cos I don't have proper swim wear. Later, HuiYi's hamstring got crump and she had to stop swimming for awhile.
Ate some food that's cook by Katherine and Anthea. Their new idea to use honey to BBQ instead of butter, taste better! Next time if any of you wants to organise BBQ, try using honey instead of butter and see how it taste. Especially on the chickens! Yum! But sadly, quite a lot of left overs. Especially my favourite sting-ray! I only ate two of it. The chickens only left half packet(initially was 2 big packets). BaoBei said that from now on he won't organise anymore BBQ. I guess he was disappointed with the attendance.
Went to my new workplace yesterday morning. My Boss and the rest of the colleagues had to go for the exhibition and I was left alone in the office. I really hate office job. But no choice, maybe I will search for another job at the same time. BaoBei was upset that I am a job-hopper. Maybe to majority, I am. But I can't work in a place where I know I cannot handle the task well. I am expected to do accounts too! Which is my weakest subject in ITE. BaoBei ask me not to give up and learn the things there. I feel that it's complicated. I can only do simple task, without using the mind power. Yes, I am a simpleton but that is the way I am.
My attitude towards BaoBei really changed. Or at least I know myself. I find myself pushing him away whenever he wants to hug me. I don't know is it the lack of trust in BaoBei made me this way? Showed BaoBei a(teared) application form from immigration and he says it's not really important. Cos my Dad ask my Mum to tear away that piece of application form WITHOUT showing it to me first! This made me hate my Mum more. I had lost count of how many days had pass since we have spoken to each other. No, don't pray for my relationship with my Mum. It's over! If I can survive all these stupid years in school without socializing much with my schoolmates, I can do it at home too! Anyway my Mum and me quarrelled more than we could talk. So I find it pointless to even communicate. Either something I said will spark a scolding and being put down at, or it's something she said that will angered me. If there's something called "Dao" in the younger generation now, and if there's a "Daoest" competition, I think I might have won the award.
Oh ya, for those who are still studying now, especially in Primary and Secondary School(although I don't know whether primary school students came across my blog), if you get bullied in school, and you have tell your teacher and they do nothing about it except to tell you,"ignore them and they will stop", Let me tell you, this method DOESN'T WORK! It's even more pointless to complain to the principal cos if your school bully finds out, you're going to get deeper trouble and get more bullies than you can imagine. The BEST way, to deal with them, is to bully them back. PLEASE don't seek "revenge" by bullying kids who are younger than you. Ask yourself, who is the one who provoke you to be like that in the 1st place? If that big bully you met in school, is tough than you, taller than you or whatever the crap, don't be afraid to stand up for yourself. It will be easier if the bully is in THE SAME CLASS as you. If you prove yourself to be tougher than them, more fiercer than the tiger and dare to strike back at them when they bully you, ONLY then they will stop picking on you! But you MUST stand up for yourself especially if you had told your teacher and they do nothing about it. The result may vary depending HOW you do it. For me I get the BEST result, the bully has stop, but the whole school are afraid of me. I get different nicknames in school(mostly which I am proud of). If you want to know how to completely stop that bully who taunt you in school, you can tag me and I'll teach you the ways. But then the concequences may be fatal. I am saying this cos this thing only surface in the news ONLY NOW?! Where it has happened even during my school years and NO BODY cares?!
I think I will end here for now. Will blog again some other time.
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