Work on Friday was quite stress. I have to stay back to correct some figures for the July upcoming stock take. Haiz....Went to CGM quite late and joined my CGMs quickly. The message for the day was "Putting God first". Sister Lorraine shared that anything can be your God! Be it your career, your school even your friends can be your God! Anything that controls or dominates your life are your God! She shared that we have to be careful in WHO we are calling "God".
During the worship, I saw BaoBei coming in late, in his army uniform. I was very happy to see him. After CGM, Lorraine then talk to me about my work. I then shared with her about my fear of why I chose not to tell her. She was like,"Huh?!" she then ask the CGMs if she has ever condemn any of the members before? All of them said no. She said if I feel that my current job is really not suitable for me then there's no need to force myself to like my work. The CG even wrote a card for me. Thanks for the encouragement!
Went for service today and the Pastor preaching was very fast! We were struggling to write down what he says. Wah! Pastor! Can slow down?! Most of us cannot catch what he says. As in, we can't write down as fast as he preach. Wow! Saw the Emerge service before that, most of it which I did not attend as it was at night sessions. But night sessions are more exciting than morning ones.
Went to Jon's place to fellowship after that. Her house is big! A two storey Terrance. Her house has two dogs but one of it is her friend's. Her friend is trying to mate the male dog with her female dog but..she claims that the male dog already has a girlfriend just beside her house! Haha! So funny! No wonder when the female dog approach the male dog, the dog quickly retreat. When we pass by the next house, I saw a dog peering through Jon's house and bark fiercely. It's the male dog's girlfriend! A golden retriever(I heard?). Have pizzas at Jon's place and Katherine was practising her piano skills on Jon's piano. She only played bits by bits. Jaslyn then shared with me that a friend of hers just quit her cafe job. The boss wasn't nice at all. Her friend is more to admin so that is why cafe jobs she don't know how to do. While I am more to hands-on. So Admin job is definately a no-no for me. I then said that her friend and I should swop our jobs! Haha!
BaoBei then bring me to a place to eat Beef noodles. Not bad...NO MSG on the soup too! The meat was tender and nice. But the price is quite....erm..I don't know how to say. It's $5 for the small bowl and $5.50 for a medium bowl. Argue with BaoBei a little bit on the things he do. Did not quarrel further when we went home cos I don't wish to say anything anymore. He was upset that the people around us are trying to separate us and bring harm to our relationship than bringing happiness to our relationship. Somehow, I find myself getting irritate with the things he do, even the slightest mistake he does can set me getting annoyed. He then ask,"Do you find me irritating? Are you getting tired of me?" to which I did not reply. He said that if it is not for SOMEBODY's mouth, we would have been much happier than now. I said,"Really? I don't think so". We then gone quiet for the rest of the night. Sometimes, somethings, hurting me once and breaking my trust once is already enough for me to build walls between me and that person.
I don't know how can I trust in him anymore. I know building trust takes time. Can somebody(preferably a person who is STILL in a relationship even after the other party breaks the trust), tell me how can I learn to trust my partner all over again after the trust has been broken?
I think I will end here for now. Will blog again some other time.
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