Deliverance

This afternoon I went to church. A special Guest speaker is there to minister and to do preaching about Deliverance. I heard from Bro that those with Emotional baggage and those who need inner healing should go for this service. I was curious so I went.

Lorraine then talk to HuiYi and me for awhile. After I went in for Service. During the Service, I was amaze of how the Preacher preach his word. Although he is quite fast in his preaching, but luckily I still could catch most of what he said. I was quite surprise of his preaching about the different kinds of spirit that is in our lives and how Demons processed us. As I never went to this kind inner healing before, I missed this service when I backslided last year. I didn't know what was about to take place and little did I know that I was totally NOT prepared for what it will be like. We then help to celebrate a sister's birthday.

I went to the Ladies' during the half-an-hour break that is given to us and quickly rush back to the service. After singing praise and worship, the pastor then called those who have Idols at home, to go forward. In my house, there is this big Guan Yin statue(My friends who have been to my place on CNY should have seen it)and I went out initially to pray for my parents and because of the statue. But...I did not expect it to be more than what I wanted to pray and ask for. A sister(her voice was deep and sound like a guy's)then lay hands on my head first and began to speak in tongues and prayed for me. I did not feel anything at first but a short while later, I began to cry uncontrollably. The sister did not push me to the ground but I felt something powerful occur then. I really don't know how to explain how I was feeling. I felt a very strong presence around me when the sister shouted,"In the name of Jesus, I command you to GET OUT! NOW! OUT OF HER! NOW!"It was at this point of time something made me fell to the ground. I fell onto the ground backwards and my head fell onto the ground hard but strangely I did not feel any pain.(Note that the ground was hard and with NO ONE to catch me behind)I then cried uncontrollably and alot of negative flashes of memorises began to run though my mind. I wanted to shout,"Go away!"but I couldn't but just keep on crying and crying. I heard alot of sisters shoutings around me and I felt scared. When I had recovered a little, I sit up and cry. The sister then comforts me and ask me to share what happened. I shared about hatred, bad memories and the Idols at home. She then prayed for me and again I cried. After I went back to my seat. Jonathan then suddenly shout and cry out loud. I was scared by how he behave as I never seen him like this before. We then prayed for him..as I was far from him, I just stretch out my hand as far as I can to reach him and speak in tongues to pray for him. The 2nd Altar call was for sexual immoraties or sexual abuse. I go for it again and this time, one of my CG member accompanied me. This....sorry I can't really share what was going through in my mind. Very shameful de. It has been torment me for 14 years! Imagine 14 years of pain and guilt...

This time 2 sisters then prayed for me. I did not cry but I keep coughing out something and I felt terrible..like something keeps wanting to get out from my body. I felt very "Xing Ku" as I keep coughing non-stop while one of the sisters keep on speaking in a very strong tongues very loudly beside me. Again I heard shoutings around me and I saw one of the sisters crawling on the ground with a terrible look on her face and another one keep on hitting on the sisters who prayed for her and almost rush towards the Pastor but was held down by 5 other sisters around her. I was scared by what I have seen. How come healing service is so scary? The sisters ended with the message that made me cry,"Remember God Loves you forever and accepts you. He wants you to let go of the terrible incident and wants you to forgive that guy who hurt you".

After that I then went home with HuiYi and the rest...I wanted to talk to HuiYi but MingWei keep on "Ba Zhan" HuiYi. I then walk behind them quietly until we bid MingWei goodbye. In the MRT I finally could say my apologies to HuiYi..

I think I have to end here for now. Have to wake up early tomorrow to go for the healing service again. Heard that the Pastor only comes once a year so I am going to take the oppunitity to get him to heal everything in my heart and life :)